THANK YOU! & How to Be Me (Live) by Ren X Chinchilla Reaction
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- čas přidán 20. 03. 2023
- Thank you all so much for all your love and support on my recent videos! It really does mean so much to me ❤ Here is another reaction: How to Be Me (Live) by Ren X Chinchilla. Enjoy!
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Aahh thank you so much for this reaction and all the support. Please breathe now!! 😂 Sending so much love to you. I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been through, so nice that you are still finding laughter in places ❤️
Dude u are so fucking awesome!
Thank you for taking the time to come watch and comment!! You are awesome! I can’t wait to dive into more of your amazing work. I appreciate you so much and I hope you are having an amazing day! Much love and positivity to you! 🤗❤️
@@TachyTanya pin this comment 😊
Thank you Chninchilla, for such amazing performances that go above and beyond your stellar vocal abilities, your passion and commitment to your craft is truly inspirational!!
😂😂😂girl breathing is hard through all of their songs ☠️
Ren and Chinchilla have the talent that can freeze time when you engage fully, and dont be worried how you look when you do that,. we are doing the same damned thing lol
LOL that's good to know! 😄I'm in good company ❤🤗I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!
This song is about Ren's friend Joe Hughes who sadly took his own life at the age of 19 (by jumping off the Menai bridge around 3.00 a.m. on 28/12/2010). Ren wrote the song Freckled Angels about Joe (and dedicated the album of the same name to him).
Thank you for sharing this information with me. I really appreciate it ❤It makes my heart hurt for Ren so much more and really makes me want to just give him the biggest, longest hug. I don't think I'd want to let go.
@@TachyTanya Ren's journey has been so full of pain and loss but, in a strange way, it has made him the person, and the artist, that he is now. I just hope that his treatment in Canada can give him the improved health that he deserves
@@sammyd8860 I completely get that. A lot of trauma has shaped who I am as well sadly. But it’s all lead me here to you all and to Ren ❤️ I hope the treatments are helping him as well. I was supposed to be up in Chicago today discussing a pacemaker, but that has been postponed until 4/20 😔 I am thankful that my things are mostly manageable though. And if I put on a smile, no one even knows anything is wrong (unless I pass out 🤣)
@@TachyTanya Ha ha yes, passing out is a bit of a giveaway !
This was another beautiful, genuine reaction. As for "How to Be Me," Ren's best friend, Joe Hughes, committed suicide; Ren alluded to it in one of his songs, stating that he lost his best friend before he was 25. The pain of this loss is evident in a few of his songs, "Freckled Angels" being one example. It is dedicated to Joe Hughes, who went missing on the 27th of December, 2010.
Their live performance of "Chalk Outlines" is still my favorite song, partly because I can relate to it due to my own daily struggles. Although, losing your best friend to suicide is also something I experienced when I was 19 y/o (almost 38 years ago). “How to Be Me” definitely runs a close second, though. I would also recommend their busking sessions in Brighton, performing “Sexual Healing” (Marvin Gaye cover) and “One Dance / Drunk in love” (Drake/Beyoncé cover); those performances are of a much lighter mood and very enjoyable.
In case you didn't already know, Chinchilla (Daisy Bertenshaw) is 26 years old, from London, UK, and a rising star on the British music scene. She was a supporting act on Sting's 2019 European Arena tour and the opening act for the 2021 McFly tour. Chinchilla has also played some big European music festivals. Her songs "Cold Water" and "Shadows [Tails]" are beautiful, but her entire catalog is worth listening to. Here is the link to her YT channel: czcams.com/channels/Zc7gfR6BH-mGJh0_EgHAIQ.html
I hope you will continue to dive into Ren's and Chinchilla's catalogs
Thank you again for your wealth of information and your kind words! December 27th (2006) is the day I lost my mother. I know they are likely just crazy coincidences, but it's odd just how universally drawn I feel to Ren (not in a weird stalker kinda way - I got three kids and ain't got time for that). I will definitely be diving into all of his songs. I'm excited for his new one next week and his birthday! I hope he gets to celebrate 🎂
@@TachyTanya I am sorry to hear about your loss, even though it was over 16 years ago now. I lost my dad when I was 10 y/o, and I have lost a number of my friends over the years, one to suicide, the others in the military, so I am very familiar with the feeling of loss and grief.
If you want to check out songs that are more upbeat I would suggest Ren’s Hip Hop/Rap style songs. They are all worth checking out if you enjoy this genre; they are pretty amazing. Check out “The Hunger,” “Genesis,” “What You Want,” “Losing it (FISHER rap retake),” “Right here, right now (Fatboy Slim one shot retake),” "Life is Funny," “Love Music (Parts 1, 2, and 3),” “Crucify Your Culture,” “Power,” his latest release, “Bittersweet symphony (The Verve retake),” just to name a few.
I recently discovered, Ren also recorded a cover of “Can't Help Falling In Love (Elvis Cover),” that is simply beautiful. Then there are his performances with Sam Tompkins (“Blind Eyed,” “Earned it /Mans World / Falling,” “Walking on the moon/No Diggity”).
Also, "The Big Push" (Ren Gill, Gorran Kendall, Romain Axisa, and Glen Chambers) busking sessions, concerts, and live recordings all are awesome and well worth checking out. All but the drummer sing lead vocals at times. Their covers of "I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop," "Wade in the Water/Nina Simone/Trouble so Hard," “War Pigs,” "My Generation," "An Englishman in New York," “Bongo Bong,” “These Boots Are Made For Walking,” the songs "Oh My Woman," “Swan Song,” “Sweet Little Lady," "It's Alright," "Watch Out," “Dignity,” and so many others are equally impressive.
I am looking forward to more reactions from you. Have a blessed day.
Thank you for being so brave. Ren isn’t easy to process. Give yourself a break. He is heavier and deeper than most and it isn’t easy. Give yourself time and space with Ren. Maybe reacting isnt the best way to first experience this man’s ability to turn pain into art. It’s so personal. Makes me weep.
I don't mind sharing and being open! I guess I just imagine others on the other side of the screen being impatient with me (likely my own insecurities coming out to play). I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
My wife called listening to Ren while being depressed: "Melancholic Healing"
I am doing that a lot lately and it literally helps me more than basically everything else...
@@TachyTanya I hope this sharing is helping you. I find crying from being moved beautiful, not sad. And there is a lot of sad, too. I appreciate your candor. It has a connection to humanity for me.
Wow! This is an amazing reaction... Thank you so much. Don't change being who you are and the way you're reacting. You come across 100% genuine, which is exactly how Ren appears to be.
Sorry for your personal loss ❤
Looking forward to more of your Ren reactions.
Cheers 👍🍻
Thank you so much for your kind words! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Ren and his band are a breath of fresh air , chinchilla has a beautifully voicetoo
Indeed! Chills for DAAAAAYS
Like Hi Ren, this song is so powerful that I cry every time I see it. I think it affects everyone, how could it not? It's ethereally beautiful, and utterly heart wrenching. I have suicide in my immediate family, and even though it's been decades, the grief never leaves. I love your heartfelt reactions to Ren's music.
Sending all my love to you ❤ Death/loss is always hard, but I feel like suicide leaves a deeper wound that takes much longer to heal and leaves a little bit of a different scar.
Life is short and precious. You know it - you said it, and you lived it. You know Ren puts out some beautiful music. You can’t help but feel yourself in it. That’s what makes him so great.
💯 Sending love and hugs to you! 🤗❤
You are so freaking amazing! You are doing so much better than you're giving yourself credit for, but I get it (our own worst critic).
I absolutely adore you. Music is healing/therapy for the mind, body, and soul. Much love and blessings to you, siStar ✨️
Aw thank you! I appreciate your kind words! 😊 Music totally is healing/therapy for sure! Sending love, hugs, and blessings right back at you! 🤗❤
50k views, WOW! I'm amazed at how many views my 2 videos about him got, but it's awesome that you got 50k. That's incredible. I subscribed to your channel, but now it says I'm not subscribed. No clue why, so I just subscribed again now : )
I watched this video a few days ago. I've yet to watch a video by Ren that I didn't think was great. He's such a unique and rare artist. Love the girl here too. Just a great performance by both of them. I can see this performance really got to you. Feel free to talk any time. I'm looking forward to your next Ren reaction 🙂
Thank you! I'm still in shock, honestly. I was not expecting this kind of viewership! I am truly humbled.
No worries on the subscriber thingy! I know technology can be odd and have a mind of it's own. I appreciate you being here, subbed or not ❤ Looking forward to diving into more of your content as well!
@@TachyTanya one of the good things about yt is we can meet like this and become friends. I've made a few yt friends this way, and it's very cool. Looking forward to more of your comments 🙂
Don’t worry about the audio. I’m a professional musician and I didn’t notice anything because I just wanted to hear what you had to say. ❤ welcome to the Ren club. Looking forward to more reactions.
This one is the better one. The first reaction video has the audio issues (unless that's the one you're referring to lol). And thank you for the encouragement and the welcome! It means a lot to me ❤🤗I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!
You can keep watching Ren, just do a fun one like Losing It or What You Want. He’s has all the sides the rest of us do, including silly, overconfident, crude, and funny.
Oh thank goodness! I was going to say, I don't know if I can keep tearing up my insides like this ROFL Thank you for the suggestions!!
Ren has this effect doesn't he!
I'm really not sure why his songs make me feel better but they do seem to help. I've been living with depression for what seems to be forever now. I'm from England, I left school early with nothing and walked straight into the acid house seen at 14. This turned into 8 years of doing of hard-core partying and a huge amount of drugs were taken, then at 22 my dad had a heart attack and my life was turned upside down. I also watched my mother die from cancer and have lost a brother and sister since and losing my best and oldest friend to a freak accident left me a wreck.
I'm trying to live but it's hard when heads just full of negative thoughts but I know I'm not alone and I have to fight every day just to do the things most of the world wouldn't give a second thought to.
Artists like Ren and NF seem to help, even if just for little while.
I am so sorry to hear about all the struggles and loss you've experienced. I lost my mom young (18) and my dad to cancer so we are similar on that. I know how hard that is and my heart hurts for you immensely for that, but to add all the other pain on top of that? I wish I could give you a great big hug. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤
Thank you for sharing some of your thoughts and troubles. That's something people can relate to and see that they are not alone. It's pretty much of a challenge, giving a spontaneous reaction publicly. If you feel more comfortable with that, you could give yourself some minutes to collect your thoughts after the music video and cut them out.
No shame for tears, this song gets me every time! 😭 Doesn't help to know how it ends, listening a second time.
I think the view count on your last Ren video was exceptional, because the trending of 'Hi Ren' and the somewhat 'clickbaity' title.
Music the beautiful therapy. It is shadow work and between you and the dark. The artist the facilitator, putting into song what the therapist just simply isn't capable of. Some human beings just know how to arrange the noises we make when other people are around better than others and Ren's up there with best. Much love and for the record, you do you perfectly well
Thank you so much for the kind words! And music definitely is wonderful therapy! There's a song for every mood! 🤗❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!
@@TachyTanya I'm blessed to be in Australia so how could I not 😊. Have a beautiful day too. Much love and love much
when I lost my dad in 2015,a at the ripe old age of 84, from multiple cancers, it was hard being the one that had to see to his affairs, as well as the only family in the locality to look after him and watch him fade away. BUT, he lived a full life, and lived through the loss of his wife and my mother in 1984, and before I could recall, in 1969 lost his middle son aged 6 (a brother i cannot remember), both to car wrecks. The fact he cracked on with his life, met a woman in 1988 and spent the rest of his life with her, makes me feel better equipped to accept his passing, because he made the most of the worst hand he could be dealt, I hope I can have that level of grace x
I am sorry for your loss. Our dads actually have quite a bit in common - including the loss of a young child. I don't know how people get through that - I couldn't even imagine it and it's one of my worse fears (losing one of my children period). Losing his wife on top of that... your father must have been one tough cookie. My dad lost his wife, but in a different sense - she was so hurt with grief from the loss of her son that she ended up leaving my dad. He went on to find and marry my mom and subsequently have me and my little brother.
Thank you for sharing your story and connecting us 🤗❤
The lyrics about forgetting how to be me struck me, as there are times I wonder if I even know who "me" is. When you've been dealing with mental issues so long that you don't truly know who "you" might be underneath it all. Is the you that you know actually who you are, or are you still buried inside somewhere waiting to emerge? And you wonder, or at least, I wonder, if I'll ever really know. If any of that made sense. Anyway, as with all Ren songs I've heard, it's amazing. I do l love hearing them together and appreciated your reaction. :)
Genuine emotional reaction, please keep going down the Ren rabbit hole, he does this to you, so many songs with deep meanings. There are so many facets to Ren, he will keep you wanting more even though the subject matter is hard, he has a way of expressing what you have felt inside and you can't get the words out you feel inadequate to vocalise those feelings but somehow he can, it must tear him apart making this stuff.
Thank you for your kind words! ❤ I almost feel like it must be a relief to get them out and in such a beautiful way. And one that's so impactful on so many other people. 🤗❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!!
Ren is so good at everything he does but this song is the one that gets me. When it really touches someone in the same profound way, rewatching this song with then will make me cry every time - and I’m a pretty stoic 47 year old guy. Mostly.
Thanks for sharing this and sorry for your loss.
Happy Ren: (covers w his band)
Bongo Bong
Englishman in NY
I shot the sheriff /road to Zion/ hip hop mashup
He really is. You ever find something/someone and you're like "WHER HAVE YOU BEEN MY WHOLE LIFE?!" ME to REN. ROFL. So mad he's been around for 10+ years and I'm just now discovering him!
Thank you for the happy suggestions! I'll check them out! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
What are you talking about? Your audio is almost perfect. Yeah, we all hold our breath for Ren. Guess what? Silence after a Ren video is perfectly normal. Great reaction. Thank you.
On my first reaction video of Hi Ren, the audio was a little wonky. I tried really hard to make sure this one (and subsequent videos) was better. Thank you so much for your kind words! I am trying very hard to produce good content while also being true, genuine, and honest. I'm sure all the things are fine, but that little inner voice is telling me the silence is too long (and you all hate me)😂Lol. Lovely little thing it is. I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗❤
@@TachyTanya Ah yes, I saw the Hi Ren reaction and the audio was low but I have heard a lot worse from reactors who see3m oblivious to how their videos sound to the listener. I value reactors who take care. Authentic people are quite rare. You are rare. 🐕
"It's not about me" of course it is because you were an integral part of your father's and to some part at least, your friends life. And please don't apologise for your emotions especially when you are baring them to us. It takes courage to say what you did... A great heart felt reaction. Change the mood a little and watch love music 1 2 and 3, only 3 has video or maybe what you want, a throw back to 90's rap. Enjoy 😊
Thank you for your kind words and for your suggestions! I do have a habit of apologizing too much. I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Ren is cathartic. I hope his music can help you like it has me. Ren has helped me open the emotions that I had locked away, pushed down, and ignored. I'm learning it's okay to feel. I don't have to always be strong and push on. I can take time to purge my sadness and grieve. It has been a healing experience like therapy never did for me.
Chinchilla has the most amazing voice, and it adds so much to the emotions in Ren's songs.
Listen to Ren's 'Power' and 'What You Want' for more upbeat tunes. They are awesome.
This song does take your breath away.
It sure did. It was beautiful ❤
This was a beautiful heartfelt reaction, and you have gained a subscriber here.
Ren brings out that ability to talk openly, in so many people, and it's the best thing. Please continue to delve into Rens music. Sending love from the UK xx
Thank you so much for the kind words and for the subscription! I'm looking forward to getting to know you more! Sending love and hugs! 🤗❤
You are the only person I have come across who said they did not have a reaction to "Chalk Outlines." You should watch and react to the song again. Maybe it will hit you the second time. Given Ren's medical history, I believe the song addresses mental illness diagnoses, and prescription psychotropics, which leave you emotionally dead (hence, the moving chalk outlines around your dead self). Even on a relatively good day when you might not want to take your pills, you take them "just in case, because all things change," i.e., your well-being is usually short-lived and followed by another bout with depression. In her opening line, Chinchilla even mentions the antidepressant (SSRI) "Sertraline" and references serotonin.
I think I know why it didn't hit me the same as the others. I might try to relisten to see if I can gain a different perspective on it. And give a video on the "why" it didn't hit me other than my ADHD brain kinda frolicking through the fields during it a little. LOL
@@TachyTanya I hope you did not take this as criticism. We are all created different, and those of us with mental health issues are certainly "wired" differently, not just in comparison to the mentally "healthy," but even individually among those suffering with mental health issues.
@@JensRandolff Not at all! My brain went a different direction with "Chalk Outlines" and I figured out why. Which totally explained the non-reaction. I can empathize with the song and the direction Ren was going with it. I think it will make total sense why my brain the direction it went in though when I put the video out LOL. Just gotta find some time to record it.
Do something up-beat next- Like "The Hunger". I think after this it would maybe show you how Ren copes, by being Ren. He also mentions Leonard Cohen at the end of that one. I know Rap isn't your genre but it's very easy to consume. Subbed!
LOL- I typed that before you said it
Thank you for the subscription! I appreciate you and am looking forward to getting to know you more! I like all kinds of music and will react to almost anything, so nothing is really off limits 😊 Feel free to suggest away!!
I love the honesty of your reaction, just being you. So good 💛. Maybe you should do Its Alright, one if my favourite Ren songs.
Sorry to hear about your Dad and friend. Wishing you all the best healing and hope ❤
Thank you for your kind words and for the suggestion! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
The silence of this reaction was so powerful!
Those moments of silence you had... Yup! me too. This songs represents so much for me.
Sending love and hugs to you!! 🤗❤
This song is about Ren's friend Joe Hughes, who committed suicide at age 19 by jumping off of the very same bridge that Ren and Chinchilla are singing on here.
My heart 💔
Thank you Tachy for your honest reaction, and I'm sorry for your loss. Ren is an amazing artist and all of his stuff is great but many of Rens songs are very deep or sad. If you need some happier songs I suggest you check out his band The Big Push. You maybe should start with "Bongo Bong" or any of the amazing busking they do, for example "I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop". Take care!
Thank you for your kind words and your suggestions! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
When that happens, something has taken your breath away😊
Ren and Chinchilla sitting on your heart, they are heavy
Indeed. All of the songs I've been listening to have been replaying in my head, too. They are all wonderful.
Thank you for such an honest and open reaction, I'm so sorry for what you had to go through with your dad. The rambling reflecting is what we're here for, no worries there. I noticed you minimize and put yourself down a lot (because i can be the same way), I just want to say you are lovely and have absolutely nothing to apologize for, I've really enjoyed your reactions so far and i think you're doing great. ❤
Ren has you covered in the upbeat department! Power is an uplifting one, Losing It and What You Want are him just goofing off (with serious rap skills) and are a lot of fun. You could also check out some of the busking he's done with his band The Big Push, they're guaranteed to make you smile. Their performance I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop is my ultimate turn-a-bad-day-around video.
I definitely do put myself down a lot. Old childhood traumas/habits sometimes die hard. BUT, even though I might be trash at it now, I'm still trying! And overtime, it SHOULD get better with practice, patience, and grace 😊Thank you for your kind words and suggestions ❤ I appreciate you and I hope you have an amazing day! 🤗
You seem to be a wonderful person. I like your reactions, that you just get into it and react later without stopping like most of the reactors. Wish you all the best
Don’t apologize for your feelings.Thank you for being open and honest. I went through something similar with my father and cancer so the emotions you displayed touched me deeply.
I'm sorry to hear that you went through something similar with your father. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤
the 10 year anniversary of one of my best friend's lost in this way is quickly approaching. The sadness never leaves. You just manage.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and hugs 🫂 ❤️
Hey girl!!! Look at that, you got a tip o the hat from Chinchilla herself, you're doing great!!
I know it's easy to say, trust me, I have major confidence issues, but get out of your own head. The only thing we want to see is you being you. Whether that's sobbing uncontrollably or no reaction at all, you don't have anything to prove to anybody but you. You're a beautiful girl with a beautiful soul and we just wanna see it shine. Keep up the great work!! ✌️💚
Thank you so much!! Sending much love and hugs to you!
The best reaction is speechlessness.
Just scrolling through the comments of others here shows how much Ren brings us together and enable us to share our bad times and rejoice in the good ones. A genuine reaction is what you give us. that's all we ask.
Indeed! Such a wonderful community that has been built around him! I’m glad to have found it and have been accepted into it so lovingly 🥰 I hope you have an amazing day 🤗❤️
Even his upbeat songs have amazing and deep lyrics
I'm excited to check them out! I need more time in the day!!!!
You will love his song Crutch.
Thank you for the suggestion! I have added it! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
I loved your reaction! I'm looking so forward to more dearest😅❣️🎶 THANKS FOR SHARING WITH US. ME IN PARTICULAR 🙏😀
Thank you! I appreciate you! 🤗❤
First of all, look at you. At the time of Hi Ren, you were at 38 subs. Now you are over 600.
So, sorry for both of your losses.
To see your dad loose the battle to cancer is horrible. Then having a friend choose to give up the fight. What a waste of life and potential.
Stunned silence is a totally acceptable response.
I would go with Power next .
You ARE doing a great job. Keep it up. Stay the course.
It will all be fine.
A genuine reaction, is all we want.
You DEFINITELY gave us THAT.
Take care of yourself Tanya.
I know. It’s unreal! I am so thankful for Ren and all of you lovely people. It’s been an incredible couple weeks! Thank you for your kind words and the suggestion! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗❤️
Yes my mum had bladder cancer and the night before she passed the hospital would not let me in due to corona virus rules so I missed seeing her for the last time ironically the next day it was cleared but hey as humans we mourn unlike any other animal you are so honest in your reactions great big hug for you
I'm so sorry for your loss and that you weren't able to say "goodbye." Sending you so much love and hugs. ❤
Thank you for sharing, my mum passed a while ago suddenly, and despite me and my dad efforts there was nothing we could do and since then have struggled with finding myself. Anyways came here for Ren and got a lot more!
I'm so sorry to hear that. Losing a parent is so hard. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤🤗
I know how you feel, my lady's mom lost her fight with cancer in 2011, one that we all expected she would beat (Lymphoma, but chemo resistant)... it was a full year of treatments and surgeries, not MY mom... but my "other mom" and I loved her dearly since 1996. I can say one thing, the time we got to spend with her was somehow "more" than the previous 15 years, we valued that time immensely. Only 4 years earlier (2007) my only sibling, big brother, took his life... and a few years before, a father figure that I'd known since I was a teen lost his fight with Melanoma.
Time heals, the scars will never fade away, the pain will always be there... but we learn how to live with it. You will find you, I promise... take it from a guy that couldn't think of anything to dull the loss of my brother and couldn't see anything other than his end, so I painted the whole house... anything to get lost in. It probably took a solid decade before I could hear a train whistle without my breath hitching and about the same amount of time to actually forgive him and remember his life, rather than his end, I now have a beautiful picture book in my mind of his LIFE replacing the horror story. 💖 and ☮
Sending you lots of love and a big hug. That's a lot of loss to endure in a short period of time. I'm very sorry for your losses. ❤
@@TachyTanya
🤗 Thank You there's plenty more to the story of my pain and it can feel like it will bury you... but look, here we are, able to laugh!
I'd rather tell the story of my joy, 26 years with the love of my life... mom is still around for a bit, Covid seems nearly over, we bought a house in Virginia, etc, etc.
Our state of mind, our happiness all depends on what we focus on... the pull of the all-consuming misery or "The Darkness" is stronger so we push against hurricane force winds to get to the joy and "The Light".
Instead of making you hop to my other comment, I just wanted to say that "Jack in the Box" is a perfect description... I don't think I've ever been more uncomfortable and all of a sudden too (and I framed mansions for a living in all weather, 6 days a week). I felt flushed at first, then hot, discombobulated, then intense panic... please don't take this the wrong way, but I really wish I just passed out!
There's a similarity between big time failing the TTT and a brain MRI or any "with contrast" CT... at least for me, I can't handle the rhythmic pulsing of the MRI (especially brain scan) and the super unnatural warmth from contrast agent is... troubling, but fleeting. 🥀
@@Mike_H76 Oh man, I feel the brain MRI one. I had to basically try to meditate myself into not having a panic attack. My TTT was different than most my other syncope episodes (which sound more like how you felt during your TTT). I felt mostly ok then I felt suddenly nauseous, dry heaved into a cup they gave me a couple times, and then I passed out. It actually terrified me because I've never had an episode like that and that quickly. I'm so sorry you sadly know the pains of these things as well. Sending you big love and hugs.
Framing mansions sounds like an interesting job! I don't know the first thing about building anything so I also find it fascinating! I also don't mind what you tell me! Happy, sad, angry, and everything in between ❤I'm here for it all! 26 years with the love of your life is definitely worth celebrating!! I'm glad you have them by your side. It really makes the world of a difference to have good people in your life.
I watched your 'Hi Ren' reaction without knowing your channel was new/young. While I've been enjoying my Ren Rabbit hole, I kept an eye open in the direction of the suggested videos with the hope to see more of your Ren reactions, then this pops up!
Firstly, I'll give a preemptive thank you. I paused at 5 seconds in to write this, but I know I'm going to love your reaction... watch for my edit of this comment if in fact, I didn't love it (there will be no edit 😊).
Secondly, I haven't looked at the comments so this may have already been suggested... I can only speak for myself, but 'Ren - The Tale of Jenny and Screech' is my suggestion for your next venture into the RENaissance. It's a three-part tale that leaves me speechless every time I see it and I've seen it perhaps a hundred times or more.
I appreciate that you were keeping an eye open for lil ol' me! That make my heart smile 😊I'm so glad you enjoy my reactions! I have your suggestion added. I appreciate you and I hope you have an amazing day!! ❤🤗
Tanya, Ren is so hard to react to. You're doing fine. It's been a couple years since I've lost another friend to suicide. I hear you. Upbeat song from Ren is I shot the sheriff in his band The Big Push live street performance.
I came for Ren and your reaction to Ren... Love this boy... You support Ren by doing this, so I will support you 🤘😎 new sub and greetings from Denmark 🥰
He's so incredible! I'm so glad I found him and the community he has built! Thank you for the subscription! I'm looking forward to getting to know you better! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Felt this, my parents aren't well, my dad particularly after having an aneurism, cancer in legs, stroke left him paralysed 5 years ago, now facing other stuff and I feel obsolutly useless and worthless because of my mental and physical health problems. I try not to be hard on myself but it's impossible, thank you for sharing xx
You are doing the best you can ❤ I'll be honest, I wouldn't have been able to take care of my dad if I didn't have my husband to help me. He truly made it possible. But remember, every little bit helps. Even just sitting with them and talking with them means so much.
Great reaction & your honesty is appreciated fully, you're comments are helping me deal with grief too, thanks
Thank you for your willingness to be so open and vulnerable with us, and for your wonderful reaction. Much love from the UK ❤
Thank you! Sending love and hugs back! ❤🤗
Don't worry about crying. I cry every time...
Lol thank you. ❤ We can be crying buddies
Hey, I really like your style of videos and how you adress the imperfections of your process - that is a feature not a flaw for me, builds my trust in such a genuine reaction.
If you not really appreciate it, when people in the comments reply to your openness with a personal story theirselves (because it can be a burden - i would totally understand), just do not read the rest of this comment:
I really felt / could relate to your story of the fight against cancer, the death of your father and how it leads to an uncertainty about yourself.
My dad suffered from lymph hodgkin's disease. It was a hard fight, but finally it looked like he could win it. He was in remission and gained some of the weight back that he lost, when my mother died without any warning sign (she had a embolism - perhaps caused by a tiny rupture in a vein). My siblings and I tried to show him how life can go on and that we all will be there for him. He made it through the funeral and appeared to be strong, but has given up on the inside. He collapsed in the night after the funeral of my mum. His blood showed signs of an inflammation in his body which could not be traced to its origin. He died 9 days after my mum. I totally lost myself, I was numb and something inside was kind of broken. A became a stranger to myself and to the woman at my site (she left me 3 years later). The journey back to me, was hard and I found myself in the mirror at the bottom of the darkest hours. I am not the same person, but I can deal with my new "ME".
I can understand, when you are saying: it was harder to watch your dad suffer and die than your own journey through the darkest places of your life. For me it was because the powerlessness to stand next to them and all my love couldn't turn back time or give my dad the hope he needed... In my darkest hours I still was able to do something, I even could have taken the final decision - but it was still my decision.
Something more upbeat? I would recommend Pentatonix - Daft Punk Medley or anything from Electric Callboy (very funny videos with unique mixture of music)
I am so sorry you lost both your parents 9 days apart. That's horrible. I can completely understand how that could really break someone. It's crazy how similar parts of my story are to a lot of you I am meeting on this platform. My mom also died of an embolism (hers was pulmonary) without warning. My dad wasn't diagnosed with his cancer until long after her passing, but had also gone into remission, only for the cancer to come back with vengeance and wreck havoc on him and his final months of life. I think the powerless part is truly what it comes down to. I could barely even keep him comfortable and was constantly arguing with the drs as it was a delicate balance of pain management/comfort and destroying his kidneys/killing him faster. Some days I struggle with the thought that I killed him (that inner voice is HORRIBLE, isn't it?) and I hear his final words over and over in my mind.
You are welcome to come share your personal stories here any time ❤ it's never a burden. Sending you love and hugs 🤗❤
I do love me some Pentatonix! I haven't heard of Electric Callboy though! Sounds intriguing!! Thank you for the suggestions!😊 I appreciate you!
@@TachyTanya Thank you for your kind words and yeah these thoughts of how it is all my fault or how I haven't appreciate the time with my family enough still hurts almost every day...
I’m so sorry for your loss. That’s a lot in a short amount of time. And the song is not only amazing but it makes me emotional because I can connect with the lyrics so much. I have a chronic pain condition and I haven’t felt like me in a very long time. I wish you all the best ❤
Upbeat from Ren, do some Big Push videos, War Pigs, I Shot the Sherrif, Bongo Bongo any of those three should cheer you up!
Thank you for the suggestions! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Again, I watch. Dude, you know. No words is the best way to put it.
Literally just mind blowing. Truly amazing 🤗❤ Thank you for being here with me! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!
I hope listening to these proves to be cathartic in the end. I completely agree with you about coping better when it's me suffering than my family. My wonky body has nearly killed me several times, and almost none of it is fit for purpose. But I'd rather absorb the pain than have to see it etched into the faces of the people I love. It will take time to heal the losses you've suffered. Be kind to yourself in all things while your heart rests.
I’m sure they will. Music is definitely therapy for me! And for sure - much rather try to save family and friends from hurt and pain if possible. Sending love and hugs to you ❤️🤗
I feel like if you listen again and THEN do your final reaction, it will help you process things. I know that helped me a lot.
Hey sis, first just know that 1 it is OK to cry on camera, let it out and breathe, it's cathartic. Your doing much better than you can imagine. And never worry about your "unreactions" , because we all fund differences. Sorry about your year. We had our kids real dad here until he passed on Christmas day 3yrs ago ( my wife's ex, we were close). Our hearts are with you. Stay Strong sis❤
On Christmas day? Those poor kids. I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing my mom two days after Christmas was rough, but on Christmas would have been so much worse. Sending you all so much love and hugs ❤❤❤❤ That's amazing that you were able to be close. That's not common nowadays I feel.
Awesome reaction and thank you for sharing your own personal struggles and medical issues, also condolences on the loss of your father and friend.
Thank you 😊 I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day 🤗❤️
Condolences from my family to yours. I cannot imagine trying process your grief in front of the world (There was no internet when I went through what you are experiencing now). The audience really doesn't matter anyway. What matters is feeling it move through you (please do not let it get stuck somewhere inside you). You are not alone and whether you laugh or cry all that matters is that you feel something.
My family and I spent a year providing end of life/palliative care for my dad (2nd Cancer) and that year was a blur. I was in the process of figuring out who I was in therapy for about a year prior when his diagnosis came like a thief. The next two years of my life were devoted processing my grief pre and post his passing. I got to say goodbye and I am grateful for that. I can say from experience that your grief will soften (but never quite fade away) over the years. I can also say that I still talk with the dead in remembrance because they still live within me.
I don't know if this helps, words are just words. Peace to you and yours.
Thank you. I'm so sorry you had to also go through it. I've been through some really horrible things, but watching another person suffer definitely tops for worst in my book. Your words and story are very helpful and I appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing with me. Sending you much love and hugs ❤🤗
An amazing reaction, straight from the heart, sending big hugs your way 🤗🤗 check out some of his big push stuff "I shot the sheriff / road to zion / hip hop" mash up up will blow your mind in a happy way or his song with Sam Tompkins "Blind Eyed" filmed live, whilst being chased by a parking attendant... his ability to just battle through.. no matter what is just incredible inspiring.
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Thank you so much! I'm looking forward to getting to know you better! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗❤
Please continue reacting to songs ...it's okay to process. We are here with you.
Ps I'm so sorry about your Dad. Sending hugs and prayers
Thank you for your kind words! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤️🤗
Thank you, we love you mate. I understand, my child is going through it for the last year. as a father I can protect my child from anything. But I can't meet this in a boxing match.
Thank you.
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What a beautiful and vulnerable reaction. Ren's music seems to be so provocative for so many different people. Thank you for sharing your pain, you may not realise it but your emotional honesty likely helps you as much as others. Much love from the UK ☺
Helping others helps me for sure. I want to make the world a better place. I don’t know how to do it - I guess this is a start. Thank you for your love and support ❤️ I appreciate you! I hope you have an amazing day🤗
React to Chinchilla live version of Fingers. It’s a masterpiece live. Ren has Hi Ren. Chinchilla has Fingers. It’s so unique & unreal great. Listen once you read this lol. She is so beautiful & great.
Listen to Patience, also beautiful 🙂
I have added your suggestion! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Everything's fine. And I just need to say that u are one of the most beautiful people that I know of. It's not looks (although u are very, very attractive), but u have something inside of u that just draws me in. Good on u, gurl....😊
Very authentic reaction. Semicolon (;) is a symbol for suicide. So sorry for your losses, Ren is genius.
Thank you! I have always wanted to get a tattoo with a semicolon in it. I just haven't made a decision of what yet. Sending you love and hugs! ❤🤗
Great reaction! I laugh when I'm nervous to. I cry everytime I hear this song. U seem to be a really nice person. Take care.
Thank you for the kind words! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day 🤗❤️
@@TachyTanya You too.
Lovely genuine reaction
Thank you! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
About your comments to the audio and relating to the end of "Hi Ren": Let's dance 😉
For upbeat, an older Ren song please watch "Bongo Bong" or English Man in New York or both!
Thank you for the suggestions! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗❤️
The audio was actually fantastic. Great video.
Thank you! I worked hard to make sure this one was better than the first reaction video for you all ❤️ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗
Beautiful ❤❤❤💔💔💔💔💔
Thank you ❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗
You might like Ren's song Humble.
I've added your suggestion! Thank you! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Keep laughing. U have a great smile. God bless.
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Stop putting yourself down, no need. You've been through enough to not have to do that stuff. Your channel, your style, your knowledge will grow x
Childhood trauma tends to cut deep and changing those behaviors takes years, if not decades. I do promise I will do my best to be better about it and actively work on changing it ❤️I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day 🤗❤️
@Tachy Tanya same trauma here, some days I hate myself so much I won't go near a mirror, I detest what I see. We have to keep trying, you know this well. Stay blessed ❤️
I hope doing these reactions is doing you some good, you know, as some sort of therapy. You certainly have been very open and honest and Ren's music has clearly acted as a trigger for your emotions. Wonderful though. Thanks for sharing x
I think it helps. And I think talking about my experiences with things also helps others that may be watching - which for me has a bigger impact and significance. Even if it's just a smile or a laugh. Something positive in their day. 😊
@@TachyTanya Yep, you're certainly doing that. Keep up the good work Tanya....!
Great reaction, again! Thanks for sharing your genuine experience!😊
Thank you!! 😊
Hush now. You are a joy to behold. Shine on you crazy diamond! Love from Scotland. 💙
* sings in her best Rihanna voice * SHINE BRIGHT LIKE A DIAMOND!!!! Lol. Thank you so much! I appreciate you! ❤🤗
Always appreciated your live streams just wish I could have caught more of them. Time zones can suck!!! lol keep up the great work!
Time zones do suck. I love and appreciate you Selfless! Thank you for supporting my new adventure❤🤗
Welcome to the tube and the Ren experience....thank you. ps. audio sounds great
Thank you ❤
In the pursuit of that which we do not possess we risk losing all that we do.
Im sorry, I dunno what the ADHD i did but i meant to post this comment in Money game part 3 reaction.
Another great reaction ... again. I believe that Ren's music has a way of bringing up all the good/bad/ugly from your soul all at once. At the end of a Ren song you have slowly process ... at your own speed ... all your feelings. The songs end up cathartic ... they are painful in every way emotionally ... but also hopeful, loving and tender in every way emotionally. If you want some more upbeat Ren there are plenty: "Losing It" super fun (EDM/Hip Hop/Rap) ... "Hunger" pure rap/bars/flow changes galore. "Genesis" rap/hip hop - can be deep. IF you want to see some alter ego's try The Big Push - I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop" ... it's his busking band ... lot's of incredible videos ... Stay strong young lady.
Thank you so much for the kind words and the suggestions! The songs definitely hit in the feels! But in a good way and meeting all of you has been such an amazing bonus!! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤️🤗
Ok, you seem fun, two points. Point 1 (or A or I)... you say you look constipated when trying not to cry, I look like I'm trying not to cry when I'm constipated, ba dum tiss 😆. Point 2 (or B or II)... I personally think you should just post "Chalk Outlines", I admire your diligence but posting it would most definitely "get clicks"... while that shouldn't necessarily be the MAIN goal, it is a goal still. Also, people will LOVE explaining the song to you!!! There's nothing people love more than correcting someone on the internet! Good Luck, I'll sub just because you made me laugh... haven't watched this song for the 10,000th time yet, hitting play now. Oh, it's a PHENOMENALLY awesome sonic paradise of meticulously punctuated harmonies, wrapped in a deeply sad song.
ROFL. Thank you for making me laugh!! I think I'm going to post a (non)reaction/analysis video of it rather than my reaction to it. I've sat and thought about why I didn't have a reaction and I think I've figured out the reasons why. Could be fun to let people hear that side of my brain that came out to play. I appreciate you, the subscription, and the feedback! I hope you have an awesome day and I'm looking forward to getting to know you more! ❤🤗
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Thanks for replying to my rant, Tanya. Glad I made you laugh, life's too short to not! The song is tough, especially for anyone that hasn't lived within a "chalk outline" caused by antidepressants. I don't have much experience with SSRI's, I don't tolerate them well... but I've listened intently to friends/family speak on the side effects (as Ren says in Sick Boi "derealization" being an awful one, living dead, zombie walking).
There's a ton of metaphors that one needs to experience to really feel. The line "I'm scared of being ok..." hits me hard, with severe Generalized Anxiety Disorder... the idea of getting out of it is all that I want, but there's always the nagging voice reminding me how much more painful it would be to get a piece of life back... only to risk falling back in the hole, I think it's a big reason why many don't even try to claw their way out of that hole, the fall would be too devastating compared to the "Hell they know".
Whatever format you choose, I'm here for it and I certainly appreciate your take and your own talents (including making ME laugh, which isn't easy)!
Thanks for doing the reactions.
Thank you for enjoying them! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗❤️
Great genuine reaction, I can highly recommend crutch ft bibi, it’s one of his best by far but not many people have heard it cos it’s an older song but very powerful. Much love from 🇬🇧
Thank you for your kind words and the suggestion! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗
Tanya, you capture my heart. You're so cute. I have bipolar 2 but I feel like we're all lot alike. ❤
Just wanted to wish you well.
We are here from the Land of Ren to support you! And maybe there's someone around here to help with your audio situation, if you'd like help. If you don't want help, that's fine too.
I like the Land of Ren supporters. You all are fantastic 🥲 I’m always down for help! I’m not above allowing someone who is more skilled or knowledgeable than I to assist me! I think my problem was having things turned down for for stream settings (not blowing out ear drums if I scream in a horror game for example - I tend to be jumpy 🤣) I need to take the time to make two separate profiles for both OBS and my audio program. I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day 🤗❤️
These two are great together 🔥♥️🔥
Indeed they are! Absolutely gave me chills!
Your reaction was awesome and authentic. Kudos
Thank you! ❤️
If you look online you may find a VU meter for your PC. this way you can monitor what your audio levels are - no matter what they sound like to you.
OBS and Premiere Pro have audio monitoring - and they were in the green, bordering yellow - which I though was where it's supposed to be. I'm sure it's more complicated than simply just that and I just don't know it 😂Probably why I'm so bad at it. I can definitely look into what you suggested though. I would love to take a class, but they don't really have audio for YT classes LOL.
So if I heard right you sat through the "Chalk Outlines" video as if you were surrounded by a chalk outline then?
Chalk outlines are drawn around bodies at crime scenes, and some medications leave you feeling numb and dead inside, especially ones designed to control moods, so when you hear lyrics like.....
I'm still here in this bed that I crawled in
I hope that I'm someone else in the morning
(Hoping that you get get better, that your pain and emotional stress will disappear)
Sertraline and a sip of serotonin
Don't cry 'cause there's a
Pill for everything
(Pharmaceuticals are the answer to everything but solve nothing, but always they are the first recourse of dr's)
It's such a perfect day
Take it just in case, take it just in case
(It doesn't matter how good you do feel, keep taking the pills, just in case you start to feel bad, so you know you can never look forward to tomorrow without the fear of more and constant pain)
I'm scared of being okay
'Cause all things change, all things change
(The greatest fear of all, after prolonged illness is the fear that you may one day wake up and you will be fine, your entire identity is wrapped up in your illness and has been for eternity, and one day you will not have the pain, the mental anguish, the stress, fear and self loathing, this is unimaginable and intensely scary)
Chalk Outlines is the barrier drugs put around your normal self, and allow you to function like a zombie through each and every day.
My mind more so wandered as it often tends to do with adhd. I have a hard time focusing on one thing at a time 😅 which actually might be part of the problem with relating - I’ve never had that zombie feel and it’s never quiet in my head even when I’m medicated.
I did post a re/non reaction video explaining a bit for Chalk Outlines, but I’m SUPER behind on comments - so if you’ve watched it and have commented on it already, I apologize. I try to go in order and reply to the oldest comments first ❤️ I appreciate you and the breakdown of Chalk Outlines you gave here! It helped greatly in the video I posted☺️ I hope you have an amazing day!! 🤗
@@TachyTanya I have seen your re-reaction video and also commented on it, but your comment here is much appreciated.
#youarenotalone
Sending huge hugs from over here in N.Ireland. I lost my mum 9 years ago in April, still feel the pain from time to time. Openess and honesty can never be wrong. Seeing people open up in Ren reaction videos is helping me to start to open myself up to me. This track from Ren speaks to me too - losing contact with what makes me me. I would really recommend some of Ren's lighter tracks (What you want, Power, Alight) sometimes we all need a bit of froth :)
Thank you for your lighter suggestions! I lost my mom 15 years ago this past December. I completely understand what you mean - when I’m going through rough times or even happy times, I find myself wishing she was here. She missed so much since she was so young (40). Sending you big hugs and love. ❤️🫂