well it was nice while it lasted, i guess. | a playlist (slowed + rain)
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- Äas pĆidĂĄn 13. 08. 2021
- heyy, yes im still going to try and continue to post :)
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(it wont sound the same since these ones are slowed btw)
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time stamps:
1. 0:00 - two slow dancers - mitski
2. 4:34 - she likes another boy - oscar lang
3. 8:08 - juliet - cavetown
4. 13:18 - i'm just really tired ok - FLOORCRY
5. 16:54 - first love//late spring - mitski
6. 22:00 - silver soul - beach house
7. 27:56 - exhausted - chloe moriondo
8. 30:54 - class of 2013 - mitski
9. 32:57 - screams and dreams - faye
10. 37:45 - why can't I have you - gloria Lang
dude i had major anxiety when i was abt the press the button to post this đ
anyways ily and i hope you guys have a good day
i love you too đ
I love your playlists so much đ© ty for this
Thank you I really need this now âșïž
ilysm for making these playlist :))
thankssss
i miss being a stupid kid who didnt have to care abt reputation and didnt have to be exhausted
This made me cry
reputation is a lie to sell more gucci
same.
@@yourslavicfriendsmiles9379 lmao
i got a rock thrown at my head by my father when i was 4 and when i was about 5 my uncle threatened me with an axe
oof-
Pov: You're sitting in your room wishing they never left you
I wish it was a pov, why does it have to be my reality
@@randomhumanbeing1712 it's my reality toođ„ i'm sorry luv
hits hard man
@@joshawosh It really is
im still waiting for them to unblock me....
I just want a genuine âIâm sorryâ I just want closure and peace
Same here bestie
Iâm the only one apologizing no one else does it in a fight so I get it
Same
just one sorry from my father would help me forgive him
i just want things to get better but she wonât apologize
I miss being a child who didnât understand what was going on at that time.
pov: you just came out to your parents right after having a really fun day with them and realizing they didnât take it as well as youâd thought
@@mid-madness8095 hey i get youre upset, and what happened to you absolutely sucks a$$ but lets not say "at least you had ____" it feels super invalidating to people /nm
@@cece9781 god damn I love you
@@mid-madness8095 oh.. iâm sorry about all that. all my parents told me was going by they/them is stupid and that they would never refer to me as ash because itâs ânot my nameâ but iâm really sorry about everything youâre going through?
Btw iâve never really been on good terms with them but they took me to the movies and i considered that fun
I asked my mom for a binder and yeah, it didnât turn out good
@@Danielle38433No!! Iâm so sorry⊠Things get better eventually! And make sure to always stand up for yourself, donât be afraid to ask for the respect you give them.
Pov: you're me, eating shredded cheese as you think through everything that went wrong, completely numb.
shredded Italian mix slaps, I feel ya
Same but with mozzarella sticks or garlic bread, which u think is better
@@grey2753 I think it depends on my mindset. Sometimes garlic bread makes me feel worse bc I consider it actual food
atleast we got shredded cheese đȘ
all of that except iâm not eating
I miss being that person who didn't care about looks, who didn't care what people think, who never wanted to stay in my room, who had so many friends, who never went on to social media, who had a good relationship with my parents. It all goes down hill when u turn in to a teen.
yeah but you can still be that person if you truly want it.
I miss going out of my room, going to the kitchen or wherever, finding my mom and laughing with her. I miss being the innocent naive child I was. I miss my parents loving me. I miss being in a loving home. I miss being loved. I miss being my parents child. I wish to go back :(
be glad that it happened to you, be glad that u once look at your mom as a nice person with a good image. atleast once u have something to called Home because not everyone felt that feeling :) and that includes me. I've never know how good that feeling was because i didn't got a chance to experience it. so cherished it đ
ouch that one deff hit different
@@crixtiewolfz1565 Keyword be happened. It isn't the same now for them. Don't tell someone to be grateful for something that is gone. Don't compare your story to their's. This isn't a contest.
@@r.e.c.8100 i think u missed Understood first of all what i was saying good things happened in the past so cherishing the happy past than being upset about it sometimes u need to change your mindset to something beautiful rather than making happy memories into sad once cuz looking at the past can ruined your present and when the present was ruined u will depend on the future, My point is be happy that it happened ya sometimes u missed those memories but don't stuck on it or think about to much ya know, u gonna focus to the present because present was a future, turning into past.
@@r.e.c.8100 and ya your right but it wasn't intentional to compare myself and I'm sorry, at the time a wrote that i wasn't in myself so I'm sorry
Imma need a playlist for "sitting up at 4am watching the thunder and rain"
yes yes yes
I might do that one next then :)
@@boke8679 thank you so much, your playlist really do help calm me down so I appreciate all you do đ
lol not it being 4:40AM rn
I would give anything to be able to think that my father is my hero again.
yea, same
oh god that hurt
@Fxck ig that is my step-dad
Yeah same but with my mum đ
This makes me so sad. Iâm so sorry
I miss being a stupid innocent kid who doesn't have to worry about reputation and fame and doesn't have to be smart to make family proud
It hurts that you put it into words mate.
I missed my old self too...I just want to go somewhere nobody knows me so that I can restart my new life and hoping it end well.
I feel like I destroy everything in my range. Every friendship, every relationship, even the bonds that I thought would last forever. The guilt is just eating me up and I don't know what to do. Now I'm just sitting here, wishing I could go back in time.
I feel you bro... all i ever thibk about is how everyones life would be better if they didnt knew me how much they would i.prove without my existence
The laughter, the wide smiles, and just calm happiness. It was nice while it lasted, right?
this is like childhood promising people you wont turn into "that teen" pretending that the world was a safe place where everything is so happy but it was all just fake a lie, now you are "that teen".. well it was nice while it lasted, i guess. right?
We were basically the iconic trio.
We talked every single day.
We fixed our fights.
Gave each other happiness, support, memories.
We did everything together.
You two were dating so I was the third wheel a lot but you still managed to include me.
But.. I fell for her.
I was secretly hurting.
I'd never tell you, you were happy with her.
I wanted you both to be happy.
Everything came to an end.
Around February.
You decided to end things with her.
She was broken.
And me, as her best friend, I immediately dropped our friendship for her.
I miss you.
I miss our group.
I'm dating your ex now.
I don't think I bring her the same happiness that you gave her.
I'm sorry.
But she's okay.
She's a great girlfriend.
Sometimes I still see you, people bring up your name.
It hurts.
All of the memories.
I'm not okay anymore.
I was a lot better than now.
But,
I'm glad I met you.
Just wish it lasted.
bitch it was a trio, no shit one of yall was finna be out
@@ew5113PLSS I WAS CRYING AND THEN I READ YOUR COMMENT AND I BURSTED OUT LAUGHING
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@@ew5113 HBDFUIHUUIWEUEF true though đ§ââïž
@@sofi1871 ŃĐłŃ
POV: Youâre listening to this while you scroll through the comments, reading everyoneâs story, as your good friend is spamming you with messages about their day, as you just keep crying and ignoring the messages, crying until you canât anymore and just stop. It hurts to feel numb after being so happy for a while..
It was nice while it lasted, right?
this hurts even more than it usually does, cause I understand that I don't have that friend anymore, literally the only person who genuinely was there for me... or at least I thought so. I just wish I didn't say what I did... "You're my best friend, I'll love you forever"
Why is the feeling of being sad so comforting ?
Well, I'll share my reason:
Often depressed people either feel emotionally numb (nothing,) or sorrow. I guess it feels good to feel something?
i hate the universe and the creatures who live and ruin it
edit two months later: i still do. but the world can't always be filled with good. because the bad balances out with the good, and we just gotta deal with the bad for that reason. i'll get through it, so will you. take care, you beautiful creature.
Me to bub not everything I hate just dislike, itâs sad what has come across this Earth but I am happy for the end so creatures donât have to suffer anymore
awful, amazing creatures
The problem is that there's no balance, bad stuff gets an 80%, and im just saying that because im a bit positive
that moment at 2am texting you're online friends and it suddenly just all hits you, and you have to rethink everything and by this time you can't even think because everything is now numb and you suddenly have a breakdown because people and parents will never understand the feeling of their kids thoughts and what goes through their mind every second of there lives.
why is this so relatable :(
This is happening to me right now, I feel as though I did everything right that I was told to do but it looks like I did everything wrong, In the eyes of my parentâs to them Iâm not the âperfect childâ they expected me to be, I couldnât handle the stress of trying my absolute best but to them it wasnât good enough, at one point I broke down and they told me that âyouâre fakingâ âstop it your depression isnât realâ or âyou think youâre sick? Iâll take you to the hospital to see real people being sick and then weâll see whoâs really sickâ I donât know anymoreâŠI honestly donât know anymore maybe their right that Iâm probably am faking or maybe my depression isnât even real, maybe Iâm doing it for attention because I honestly couldnât open up to anyone I met in my life and now I just couldnât handle this depressed feeling anymore.
gojos left thigh is back and he's crying
let us cry together
where's gojo's right thigh? D:
@@sw00ferz maybe thats the problem
@@humanbakedbeans4159 it is :(
@@gojosleftthigh306 :((((
Can I go back to the good ol' days , please?
I saw that Omori was in the thumbnail and saw the title then I clicked faster than I ever have before.
Same
I love Omori so much, the storyline and everything đ©
CLOSE YOUR EYES
@@aliienbun5044 same đ«
@Nagi-wagi OYSUMI OYASUMI CLOSE YOUR EYES AND YOUâLL LEAVE THIS DREAM
Samee
I have a boyfriend, he's lovely really. But I'm afraid to get attached, I'm afraid to hurt him. I'm afraid to be hurt. I have trust issues, and so does he. I find myself longing to go on coffee dates with him and wanting just his company, but then backing away from the thought. It goes from bliss to painful in seconds, because what if, what if this lovely feeling, turns into something harsh that I have to accept. That I have to end up saying, "it was nice while it lasted."
Mh, I donât really understand what people think whatâs so great in a relationship, but as long as they are happy I donât mind so shoot your shot with stuff. It may not be the best but life is so short (in my honest opinion) But it can be uncomfey for that, wishing you the best even though words donât always have a meaning I do mean it :)
I get what you feel. That's how I felt after my first break up. That relationship was toxic and it left emotional scars. I questioned everything I did around my next crush, like "what would this action lead to?" "will it hurt me?" After time and talking about my feelings, those scars were able to heal and I don't second guess all of my actions and I am able to sink into his arms when we hug. Time really heals everything. Hope this helps
yeah i just went through another break up with a boy i just realized i never really liked men we broke up the day i came out as lesbian my parents wont accept me oh welp.
lmao me until we actually broke up
don't get too attached babe
I miss him, a lot, i hope he's ok, i want to say sorry to him, i want to tell him that i still love him with all my heart:( please, come back to my arms.
This right here is what's happening to me :/
but he treated me like shit.. why do i still want to say sorry?
I relate to this so much :/ i wish you the best stranger, it'll be okay
he's such a toxic person to me recently..but i still want to say sorry to him:/ hope things get better for you though
I love him but he doesnât even care.
Have you ever felt that one feeling of when youâre angry at someone, and when theyâve calmed down, and talk to you with a soft tone, you begin to feel like shit? Like itâs youâre fault?
I get it a lot.
My entire elementary experience was shit.
I had toxic friends.
I was always left out
I talked to this girl
Thought we were close friends
She tricked me into going to the bathroom
Molested me in there for almost a month
Made me cry once I got home everyday
I feel like shit at home and at school
I donât want to stay here
I get that feeling a lot, Iâm sorry. I donât like it, knowing who my family is
I don't know what to say other that I am... incredibly sorry. For you to have gone through all this. In the name of everyone who hasn't been at that time in your life or is right now, I hope that you're well and fighting through it and have at least someone or something to help you in hard times. I wish you all the strength, man. Love you.
my brother touched me...
i had a fucked up past moving from family to family..
i hope you get better and i dont have to see you vent -not in a rude way baka-
my best friend talked behind my back and suddenly made it about herself. i dont want her back. sometimes, though, i think i do.
I AM CRYING AND IT HASNT EVEN BEEN 20 SECONDS
SAME ITS OKAY
"Even though we will never meet again at that moment again, I will still remember our dance, the only moment where I was alive."
Lol
@@LOLLYPOPPE đ
dude damn my heart just sank when i read that- ouch
@@sevilnovruzova5364 thats the emotion i was going for!
is that Kayden in ur pfp
Everything is so overwhelming. Itâs too much. I just want peace.
I lost my online friend.. we argued about a personal thing. He eventually got tired and started ignoring me.. we had good memories.. very good one's :').. I eventually unfriended him because I always remember him.. I'm sorry Ken.. I'm sorry I'm so dumb :'l, I miss you. Hope you have a good life with your female friends and male friends.. stay safe...
Edit: thanks for 109 likes!! I'm very happy
Thank you!
Im sorry about that, but i can relate i had a friend since Pre-K almost 10 years but we recently stopped talking. Ig we got bored of each other, Iâm so so sorry about your situation i hope you feel better soon :)
this happened with me too, wish i could tell groovy i'm sorry :((
POV: The days were getting better with school. It kept you on track. One little thing fell on that track and made you crash. You want to feel something. Not the overwhelmed numbness of the emotions that you were feeling most of the time. The only things that are now keeping you alive is the thought of the new updates to your favorite games and TV shows. Your dehydrated and you want to sleep. You sleep because the good thoughts are better then eating. You feel alone. Everything is fine the next day. But the cycle won't stop repeating. And every time it does you get even more tired and closer to the edge. You've even thought of ways that you could die. You just want to leave the earth. But you have to many friends to leave behind.
Sorry. This isn't much of an POV anymore is it?
I just wished I wasn't feeling like this.
hey hun, i wanted to say that there is hope for you, even if it seems impossible right now. You mentioned how there was a small improvement with school? Despite how small , thats proof that things can get better, and they will I promise you they will ,but you need to hold on for us to see it okay? I know I'm a complete stranger to you but I'm proud of you for trying and fighting, so please continue to do so :( If you haven't already I urge you to talk to your friends ( or anyone for that matter although it seems like you and your friends care for each other bc you don't want to leave them behind ) Please reach out to people, especially the adults bc whilst I and your friends can do our best to support you , there are people professionally trained to help you. In order turn your life around because (I'm going to be a little blunt here so I say this with love but) the way you feel can be changed by making changes in your life. It doesn't have to be anything drastic but it seems logical right? You want to break your cycle, so it would make sense to change something in the cycle.
If getting adults involved seems too daunting , then it's perfectly okay to take things slow or baby steps to improvement. See if there's anything you can do that can make your life better by as little as 1% . It can be any task such as drinking a glass of water , anything that makes you feel a little bit better or goes towards your overall health. I know I can't flip a switch that will turn things around for you but I believe in you. I believe you can get out of this okay? You don't have to do it alone either , reach out to anyone you trust and want to help you ( you're welcome to vent to me however for the time being CZcams is my only form of contact but if you would like w can arrange something) but please keep fighting and going
@@howisgamora_ i was gunna say tldr but i saw all the hearts
Absolutely Me
I wanna hug you... i feel that way too and i would love a hug so, i think it would make u feel better, even if its online jsjs
I hope you find a reason to live and i hope you to give and receive love, take care
@@marukosubs9393 Ty. I hope your days are the best.
POV: it's 10:05 p.m. you have to go to school tomorrow, that place that you... don't really hate, but you don't really like at the same time. You lay down in your bed, turn your laptop on, and while seeing things in CZcams, you see a playlist... you click it, to read the POVs while hearing to the music, and you think... about things... a lot of things, the homework you have to do for tomorrow, but you're too lazy to do it, and you say:
"I'll say I forgot my notebook at home or something".
You think about your friends, your classmates, those people you see every day in school, you think about things they told you that hurt you, but you know they didn't mean to, but it still hurts, you think about the happy moments with them, you thing about the embarrassing moments, the sad, the angry and all those moments that you had with them... you think about that guy, that is very important to you, but you don't want to date him, but you're jealous when he wants to be with other girls, but you don't like him that way, and think;
"why do I feel this way...? if I don't like him like that, why do I feel jealous when he wants to be with her instead of me?"
suddenly, your mom comes into your room;
-"why are you still awake?" she says standing in your door "go to sleep, now. And take this money, for tomorrow, I can't make u breakfast tomorrow, and tell the teacher that your brother is sick, that's why he wont be able to go. Now go to sleep, you have class tomorrow."
"But mom, I'm sick too"
"You are fine, now go to sleep, your dad is coming tomorrow to get you to school."
...Dad...
-written by _______________________
have a good night, hope you're doing good, and if not, I promise it will be fine, stay safe, go drink some water ;) remember, there is someone that loves you, maybe you don't know, but there are people who care about you, have a good sleep. bye
I felt like a child for the six months I was able to be in foster care, I lived in a nice foster family until I was 17, then been in and out of hospital to orphanage before I turned 18. Before that I have been neglected, physically abused all my childhood, but that isn't really as traumatizing as the following thing. I got so deeply attached to my foster parents I called them my dad and mom, they gave me silly nicknames, took me to family trips and we were a family. I felt safe, loved and I felt like I had finally found my place but then my socialworkers moved me out when I turned 17. My heart broke, I was with them only for a year. It felt unreal and I relapsed to selfharming after I heard I can't live there anymore because I am so old and it was supposed to be a short term. There were several other kids waiting to get to my place, which I understood but I couldn't mentally handle it at all. I had to be hospitalised for months because the abandonment was too hard to handle. They visited me at the hospital and I cried like a child "mom don't leave me please, I'll behave I promise I won't cry ever again" I remember how I sobbed while she stroked my hair and told me I'll be okay and how it broke their hearts too.
I miss them, I miss their advice and their warm homecooked meals.
My heart and the leftover pieces of my childhood were ripped out of me when I had to leave that place. I am still struggling to stay clean but I am currently alright, I have a snake, two cats and I have found a person who is patient, loving and loyal and beyond supportive of le to find myself.
I haven't been in contact with my fosterparents for 3 years soon and it's still pretty bad wound to me.
Everyone here, I love you and I believe you can build yourself together! Never give up â€ïž
i miss coming home from school and seeing my mum smile at me and asking how my day was. i remember her giving me a note and i still kept it to this day i miss her so much
entering senior year, HS. realizing how much time I've wasted and how little I and my family allowed me to be a kid. now I feel like a 14 year old being thrown into life when I'm not ready. its not fair. i never got to be a kid, and never got to grow up. help.
Yes, just yes
Take my soul
You know the sentence that made me realise I wasn't a child anymore?
"How could I help you when I can't even help myself."
I miss the time when that wasn't constantly playing on a loop in my head
it's like they all left me.
Yep it was nice while it lasted :/
Damn..I feel too young to feel like this...feels so unfair.
Yeah, it was nice to think I was really there for someone.
They died because of one little god damn mistake I made.
Yeah, it was nice when school was fun with fun kids.
School ended.
Yeah, it was nice when everyone was kind and just got along.
We all grew up.
Yeah, it was nice when people actually seemed to notice you.
They didnât.
Yeah, it was nice when you had nothing to worry about.
Never mind.
Yeah, itâs nice to daydream.
None of that is real and will never happen.
Yeah, itâs nice not to care.
It always comes back to you.
Yeah, itâs really nice.
Nice to know youâre wasting the best years of your life.
*âEverything good must come to an end eventuallyâ*
i hope youâre doing okay
true.
i'm sorry i was fucking gettin sad and shit but is that a fucking c!tubbo quote at the end??
@@sammiesyhsfixation :] maybe
Go insane girls, youâre valid đ€žđ»ââïž
LMFAOOAOAOAOA THNX GIRLIE đ
if i could pin this i promise i would've
Since we are sharing vents, I'm sorry I couldn't make any of you happy. I just wanted to see you guys smile. I'm fine your moving on. I'm happy for you. I'll carry the weight of the world if it'll leave no weight on your shoulders. I know I can be boring. If meeting me made it easier to talk to people, then talk as much as you want. I deserve it all. As long as you guys are happy, and you don't notice me, my job is done. I won't let anyone see anything. I'm the one person you shouldn't worry about. Just be happy, that's all I wish.
I was so annoying that they left me.
It's sad but the truth
I was so clingy and they were in a bad place and i couldn't leave them alone because know one had shown me true interest in me.
I'm sorry for what I did
Well... It was nice while it lasted :(
its normal to be annoyed when someone leaves you.
Sorry lol i said it wrong I meant that I was annoying and that's why they left me
â@@bunniesgone7941 I am clingy too, and I feel like they will eventually leave me
are you ok?
Man- what i would do for someone as clingy as me
Sitting here in another city, and just looking back at all the times I ignored my family and was distant from them, u know depressed teenager and all, but missing them with every cell in my body.
When you just would rather spend time with strangers then your friends because at least strangers donât know anything about who you used to be, they also canât judge you and youâre never going to talk to them again so you can say anything you want, no problems. And strangers are less likely to misgender you because itâs not like they knew you when you were younger and had long hair. They no nothing of who You are. Yet, you can explain to them that yes, You are a boy. And they wouldnât have any reason to question it. Though your friends have seen you with long hair. And you think theyâll always see you that way, thereâs nothing You can do to change it. To change them. So all You can do is move far far away and meet a bunch of strangers, befriend all of them, then dump them and restart. No strings, no long hair, no being call a girl, and no being looked at as one. In 4 years youâll be free, to befriend all those strangers.
4 years.. Iâm waiting for you. Come soon dear.
Quis dormit? Not me
I wish I wasnât so alone all the timeâŠI wish I had people too talk too about random things and they not leave within a day. I may have a hard time keeping friends but Iâm a good friend :(
I wish people didnât see me as the lonely kid, it hurts too know that no matter how hard you tried your still alone. I just want a friend I can laugh with :(
Hey bud
I want you to try a different perspective, if youâre willing.
I donât think you have a hard time keeping friends. I think youâre inexperienced in finding friends worth fighting for. Finding friends worth keeping. Finding friends that want to be kept.
Regardless, everyone comes and goes.
Think of⊠every relation you have in your life- your parents, your siblings, your friends.
They are all⊠momentsâŠ
And moments.
They all have different time spans.
Some moments last a long time.
Some moments donât last long at all.
Some moments will last until or even after you die, and some moments end within 2 weeks.
But moments, if you hold onto them like a rope thatâs running away, youâll eventually get rope burn. You have to let the rope go when the rope is ready to end, or else youâre drawing out a moment thatâs already dead, and nobodyâs happy. The spark is gone on both ends, and youâre only holding onto the moment because youâre addicted to the feeling it gave you when the moment was existing
But while you were chasing that dead moment, the other moments you couldâve come across in your life were missed. You couldâve had 3 more moments, some lasting a short time and others a lifetime.
And as an 18 year old right now. Someone who has lost both parents, lost all of their culture, lost everyone genetically related to her. Traumatized with abandonment issues. Dealt with suicidal depression from age 13-17.
I will tell you that when you mature, when you start being independent, have an environment outside of a classroom, life will get better. If not, it will give you the opportunity to get better.
Your moment will come. Your moment that will last a long timeâŠ. Theyâll come into your life. Theyâll be worth it. Maybe that moment is you, maybe itâs someone else. Maybe itâs an animal. Maybe itâs a hobby. That moment will come and it will be worth all of the struggle you had right now.
Make your future and past self proud, and keep fighting bud.
Iâm proud of myself for being able to get this far in life, and for improving my mental health and healing myself from pain others have inflicted on me. All of the emotional scars that created more gashes, Iâve gotten to the point where I can safely say that 16 year old me would be proud of present me.
Be patient :)
Hey, it takes time to find that friend :) they will come to you or you will bump into them eventually and feel the spark ya know?
when you like them. But there just your best friend.
hello , everyone here. I was just wanted to say, if you feel sad right now and feel like itâs never gonna end, donât worry. I understand what yall going through. yall very strong, and dark times are going to end. soon or later, they will. youâre strong, cool, beautiful and kind person. never forget it.
love yall, have a great day!!
I hope I can sleep well with this masterpiece and give my best on my exams
Thankyou
good luck on your exams
@@BlessedSatann Thankyou
I hope you have a great day ahead
@@themostancientdream4951 you too ^^
@Aeva Shady it's very great ik đ©
things I learnt today:
mitski slowed hits HARD.
I would do anything to remember my childhood, because maybe there was happier memories with my dad then
POV: laying on a hardwood floor staring at the ceiling barely blinking almost zoned out but you can still hear the yelling from the other room
the power you hold over my emotions is krazy
This playlist is helpful, i have some weekly sessions where i have to force myself to cry because i tend to bottle up my feelings. This helps bring back memories i should just forget :)
imagine:
You were going to marry them. They were the reason for your happiness, until they weren't. Even though they made you cry every night, you still couldn't live without them. You were together for so long that you were dependent on each other in every way. But you knew it had to end and it did.
Few days after the breakup you walk into them.
them: H-hi, how have you been?
you: Oh it's been good.
them: Yeah same.
You look up and meet their eyes. Memories of you flash through your mind. You feel your chest tighten.
them: (wipes tear off you cheek) Are you sure you're okay ?
you: No (cries) I haven't been able to do anything, because you're never there anymore. I can't even fall asleep anymore, because the bed feels empty. I miss you.
them: (tear rolls down their cheek) I miss you too. I know this won't do any of us good, but I'll stay with you tonight. Maybe it will help us both.
You stay there for a while in their arms. Later that night they come "home". You feel a sudden happiness, because it feels like the old times. You and them. You climb into bed together. Just like the old times. Lying in each others arms. They run their fingers through your hair until both of you fall asleep.
You wake up feeling a sudden emptiness. You slowly open your eyes, still being half asleep. They are sitting at the end of the bed about to get up and leave. You can hear silent sobbing. You are reminded of the sad truth. It is over. Forever.
you: (half asleep) Please don't leave me, again. I need you. Please. (stretching out your hand to them)
Before you could say anything else you fall asleep. The last thing you see is their face. Wet with tears.
You wake up with a sudden jerk. Like you just realized you lost something. You look around. Empty. It's just you. Their gone. But there's a note.
note: You will forever have my heart. Love you.
You break out in tears and scrunch up your shirt by your heart. It hurts. It hurts so much. How can they just leave me ? How can they expect me to live without them ? How. You are my person. You are my everything. Please come back.
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you resume your daily schedule, holding in tears the whole day. On the edge of losing it. You can't help but remember the sorrow.
It should've lasted longer. I should've stayed perfect. I could've lived that way. Who was in the wrong..? Did I do it right? Was I just not good enough? The thoughts that linger around your mind. You were gonna have the perfect life with them. It felt amazing. Even if it was just for a bit longer it would have been great. But it wasn't. They were your everything. You head home in an emotional wreck, quietly doubting your life. They were what you lived for. What you'd die for. What you'd even kill for. But would they do the same?
"Come back. Please. I'd do anything..!" But you were returned with silence. The painful truth stabs deeper into your heart. It really is over. There is no happy ending. It was left to burn, covered in gas from the start. It took a single match to take it to ashes. You cry into the darkness. Once again. But only silence greets you in response.
Time may heal wounds. But if only my sorrow would go too.
shit man that hit a little too close, ig if u were to finish the story you would possibly add them being with someone else?
Why imagining when it happened to you...that shit fucking hurt...
Well thanks for stalking me and reel my past two months it hits so hard and I canât let him go but I need to..
oh god thats was not the song i expected to play first đ°đ it may be 5 pm but its time to sob guys
just came by again to say iâm not feeling the best rn , itâs whatever tho . i just wish i was good enough ⊠ya know ?
A wise soul once told me this âIf nobody cares to accept you in this world, accept yourself and you will see and come to realize that you donât need them and their selfish ideasâ, I took those words of advice and it doesnât mean your not good enough just means your human with what you do your bound to do possible things , whoever has ever made you feel like that or said things like that to you, shame on them and their cruddy ideas of you
i would literally do anything right know to be the kid i was back then...
Me: literally having a mental breakdown
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This is too accurate. In my first relationship, I was with a person who I'll call D for privacy here. I really trusted him, and I thought that he was one of the only people who truly understood me. We called almost every day and we'd laugh, share music, ect.. I started to lose romantic feelings for him as the months passed. It was so hard for me to break up with him because I didnt want to hurt him. I stayed for two weeks in the relationship feeling awkward whenever he flirted with me, but I didnt say anything. After I finally had the courage to break up with him and did it, he ghosted me. I then found out he had been texting 4+ other girls from across the world telling them the same things he did to me at the same time of our relationship. He'djust copy and paste stuff. I was hurting and still am. I have a lot of rage for him, but it was fun while it lasted I guess.
This is heartbreaking :( I'm so, so sorry that happened to you. If you want to talk to anyone, I'm here - and I really hope you'll find someone better one day. Someone who treats you with the respect and kindness that you deserve.
@@crabbss1762 Thank you so much. And it's alright, You couldnt have done anything to stop it!!
@@slushie9727 oki, no problem and have a nice day!
If only i could tell him "GOOD MORNING", and be the first person to text him every morning again...
When you realize that theyÂŽre just like the others, it hurts so bad...
I remember the times when I was the only love in your life. I remember the times when I was the one to make you smile. I remember the times when I was the one you would be affectionate towards. I remember the times when you would compliment me and make me melt. I remember the times when you would hug me and tell me it was alright. I remember the times when you cared about me, even if it gradually faded sometimes. I remember being there for you. I remember the time when you loved me. And I'm still in the time where you're loving someone else and leaving me to figure it out on my own.
I guess it was nice while it lasted.
I was dumb for entering a group of three with childhood friends... itâll always be them, always together they are the childhood best friends, the partners in crime. And then, thereâs me the antagonist, the comic relief, in their own words. I shouldâve known I canât keep one relationship alive for than 3 years. Welp, it was fun while it lasted...
This is way too relatable :/
u bullied me, u made me feel worthless, u kept me from meeting new people, and trying new things. u were bad to me, yet i still miss u more than anyone else.
The omori picture just makes the playlist hit me more than it already does
yeah :'(
"MARI really loved you, SUNNY. You know that, right?"
Only if we could go back in time..when we were young and had so much fun..we were all so happy, we didnât have to think about what other people said about us we had no worries we were just kids being kids..âčïžđ„Č
you pushed me away, my bestfriend since grade school. no matter how hard i try to mend us back together, u unravel it. u say it's the best for me, for my other friends, but it cant be. im nothing without u. we've drifted apart before, but never like this.
my brother called me a hero once. i think thatâs the only time i experienced something like sibling affection. i treasure that memory. it didnât hurt having a brother, it hurt being told he always wanted a sibling and him being basically the only reason as to why you were born and him just barely acknowledging your existence. i mean, what was the reason? i looked up to him. my parents were never home so i only had him, and he was always out with friends anyway. i just wanted someone, thatâs all.
dude i really thought we had something. last night she texted me that she lost feelings for me, i still like her so much. i have no idea what i did wrong.
same man, same. sending all my love to you
@@tepih2141 you too
Having a specific playlist on while ur crying is great bc you can time how long ur mental breakdown is
At this rate, my youtube recommended knows me more than my friends or family dođ.
I really fucked up last year. I went through one of the hardest times in my life and my family made me feel like they didn't even care. So I stopped listening to them. I started to rebel. I didn't care anymore. My motto for life was, well, I'll live. I lost all motivation. Slowly I got worse. More arguments, I didn't shower or leave the bed. I refused to do my school work. I was online. That's the only reason I passed. 2021 started and I left home, went to my grandparents for a few months. I was better there. But I still wasn't okay. I started self-harming. Since I'm insanely pale I scar very easy. Somehow my family never noticed though. I had to come back for freshman year though. I was so afraid it would go bad. I thought home-life would be miserable. But I went back and it wasn't bad at all. I had my ups and downs. Then I went back to school and things got really good. But then bad again, I've always struggled with anxiety and I learned to just deal. But depression was a whole new thing. I honestly still can't figure out what I'm so depressed about. I don't have many insecurities and I don't let people's words bother me. If I have an opinion I'll share it. Most people describe me as bold. So I don't get why sometimes I don't want to leave the bed. My life is fine. It's not like anything crazy happened to me. What's wrong with me?
nothing is wrong with you
i love you
@@chloelovesmoms đ„ș
@@iseeall7295 hey, you been ok?
the wey u described your last year is whats happenig in my life naw lol , and some times u simply dont have reson to get up in the morning , its ok if you dont know whats with your life
ps : i big good luck
I'd give up my memories to go back to kindergarten
I was able to sleep however long i wanted and i didn't have to worry about grades
oh yeah, i miss her
the bright happy little girl
i wish i could see her again
god, now i'm a sad suicidal teenager now
its a good playlist when mitski is the first song đâ just a straight fact
It's really gonna hurt when they leave :)
It always does, well if they leave that is
What about a playlist for "I'm lonely but vibing"
Thank you for uploading I kind of need a distraction from the roadtrip my family is taking is for my dad's funeral :)
awe iâm so sorry bby , keep your head up , youâre doing great ! ily
youre welcome, I hope you're doing okay now. if you need someone to talk to im here :)
Thank y'all, it happened so quickly I never thought he would pass at 45 and me being 18 but honestly though fuck covid
i was so excited to grow up and now i'd give anything to be a kid again
I know nothing lasts forever. Itâs been on my mind for years⊠but
Is that why Iâm too scared to let go?
A playlist tĂŽ listen to while shopping in the mall
yeeaah
I really like this playlist, i would listen to this every day at 3am and cry myself to sleep, cuddled up in my blanket..itâs such an amazing feeling
the titles are so complicated and yet we all find this
Exactly
everyone I love always breaks up with me. ive never been good enough for anyone lol
to anyone reading this , youâre worth it ! youâre amazing ! keep going , love ! you deserve happiness and an endless amount of love and care
okay i usually don't get too emotional from these kinds of comments, but goddamn you made me tear up. thank you :)
@@cherrybomb1095 ahh i hope it wasnât bad kind of tears ! i hope youâre doing well and iâm glad if i helped in any way !
@@tyleehenry5626 it was the good kind, don't worry !! thank you so much, i hope you're doing well too
@@cherrybomb1095 oh good ! i was worried for a sec ! iâm doing pretty well and iâm glad you are too
@@tyleehenry5626 that's really good to hear !!
Pov: you wake up for school and feel more energized then usual and it's almost time to leave, you try to have a simple conversation with your sibling or someone else, and that only shoot you down in more ways then one. As they just got back to doing what ever you just sigh as you lost all of the energy to even talk to anyone, you just look at them with a simmering anger "sorry..." is all you could muster out, that is what you've kept saying to anyone even if it was their fault after all, since your wrong right?...right...
i remember when you loved me, i remember those good morning and night texts, i remember the voice messages you'd send when i missed you, i remember your touch, i remember your smile, i remember your laugh, your british accent.. lord it was perfect.
9 months we knew each other and were in love, but only 3 months out of that we were together.
you gave me hope, you gave me peace, you gave me sadness, you gave me scars, but you gave me toxic comfort.
it was nice while it lasted ig
smae
To ceasar:
I lost you Im so sorry. I will never forget you. When I first met you⊠you made my life so much better you might have been an online friend. But you were like a brother to me you donât understand i loved you so much but I was to scared to say anything Bc I didnât wanna hurt you I didnât wanna watch you get hurt by me. I will always remember the times we spent together. I was the problem I caused all of our fights. And Iâm so so so fucking sorry. I canât apologize enough. I will never forget you I promise⊠I had to let you go I didnât wanna hurt you and I did anyways Iâm glad our friendship lasted as long as it did. I will never forget it. Im sorry⊠I hope we meet agin in the next life. Ilysm ceasarâŠ.
I miss him alot. i wish i could see him again.
be friends with him again.
slowly tell him I still love him after all this time.
I wish I could have him in my arms for once...but he will always look in another direction only causing me to try and look forward and try to not look back, but I cant forget him.
I want him to come back to me.
We were such good friends.
Almost lovers.
I can't help but think of him all the time. I wonder if he thinks of me too.
I can't help but love him...
I just want him back into my life.
even if I can only say goodmorning to him.
Even if I can only see him for atleast 5 minutes.
I just want him.
I want him to try and look into my direction.
Give me a chance.
please, all I want is a chance to be in your arms even if it's just once....
By everyday with him, I feel him getting distant by second. When I hug him, it feels as if Iâm hugging a ghost. When I talk to him, itâs as if Iâm talking to a wall , a mirror, almost as if nothing. When he says I love you.. itâs as if itâs forced or only to keep me in place. He knows my weakness, he know Iâm afraid.. why does he hurt me like this.. I wish we could go back to the beginning where he was actually interested.. where heâll stay up with me and listen to songs, where heâll talk about the things he loves.. when Weâll sleep in call and wake up to my phone overheated and the soft sounds of him sleeping⊠I feel as if I fell in love with a complete different person..
Relatable person #4 in this comment section, I felt the same way until she broke up just recently and I just want us to go back to normal bruh
i just want the nice times back more than anything right now
I wish my mom stayed and watched me grow up, she gave me up just to look after my older siblings. I was 4. I live with my auntie and my uncle because if it.
im on my second turn listening to this. its so good, and its oddly comforting to me. thank you for making it
I listen to this at night in my bed while I stare out the window and feel sorry for myself
Lately ive been feeling like the third wheel of my trio. The 2 of them talk so much more with each other than they do me.
I was the one who put the group together, the one who suggested we hang out for the first time.
I used to be so excited to hang out with them, but now? I just feel so left out.
It hurts.
imma love this i already know
about a week ago i moved in with my dad and my stepmom and st first, my dad was actually being nice but now he's back to his usual self and everything i do annoys him/ makes him mad