It has been Difficult-A Very Hard Week-Stage IV Cancer-NSCLC
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Jenny Appleford
7211 Haven Ave, Unit E-407
Rancho Cucamonga, CA 91701
Kyle’s Channel:
/ @kyleapple9702
INSTAGRAM: jenny_appleford
FACEBOOK: Our Brave Jenny
For business inquiries: veganapplefords@gmail.com
DIAGNOSIS:
March 19th, 2021 Stage IIIA Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (Non-Smoking)
February 2022 Stage IV Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (spreading to Brain, and other parts of lung and lymph nodes)
Gene Mutation EGFR with Exon 20 Insertion
TREATMENTS: Received or currently Receiving
2021: 8 Rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin and Paclitaxel) with 30 concurrent radiation treatments to chest and lung
Failed Immunotherapy directly after Chemo and Radiation (Durvalumab, 1 round)
2022: Chemotherapy
10 rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin, Alimta, and Avastin)
6 with Carboplatin, 4 without
Targeted Brain Radiation (Completed)
CURRENT TREATMENT:
I am on a clinical trial for my specific gene mutation
The purpose of my channel is to document my cancer journey to look back on, and/or help anyone else going through anything similar. It is also to potentially help loved ones supporting those who are in this fight as well. This is also an easy way to update a lot of people at once. My main goal is to have footage of this journey for my husband and children to look back on. I originally created this channel as a sort of video diary for my
family.
Thank you so much for following along on this journey. Your love and support help me so much.
Former oncologist here. I really recommend taking Jenny home and no further tests, no doctor’s appointments but hospice care, which will create the peaceful surroundings that Jenny, you and the kids need at this stage. And take some time off to be with your family. No filming. No editing. Just being. All my love. ❤
Amen!
Amen
RN here. I think Jenny is the one in charge. If she wants to continue seeking treatment, it's her choice and her life. I happen to agree with you but my heart needs to try and accommodate Jenny's wishes
Peace and mercy. Amen.
Let it be Jenny's choice
You promised Jenny to keep filming, but you know you don't have to publish everything to public viewing. If you feel that you need to keep some of her journey private going forward, we understand. Hang in there.
Very true
Even if you give quick updates publicly not everything has to be public if you don’t feel comfortable sharing everything
The important part is giving your children something to look back on as they get older
Agree
Totalmente de acuerdo 💕🙏
I think Jenny has said that these videos are important for her children first, and that she always wanted to share the journey for anyone who is going through this, so publishing I believe is her wish.
Kyle isn't going to do anything that Jenny hasn't asked him to do.
Well said
Kyle, If my son grows up to be half as decent and loving as you are, I will consider myself incredibly blessed. Please allow yourself the right to feel whatever you feel, whenever you feel it"
Well not always 😂😂😂
Sometimes life is not fair my partner has lung cancer and I have cervical cancer all we all have is hope and never give up my prayers are with you all 😢
@@ElaineRyan-jh5id ❤❤
Anyone else just devestated? We love you Jenny!♥️
I just found them a couple weeks ago and my heart hurts like they are my close friends. They have a special love, special bond. ❤ They are both amazing humans!
I’m not devastated, just sad. Such a tough situation for all concerned.
I'm devastate stated
Heartbroken 🙏🏻💕✌🏻🎚️🌈🧚♀️🦋🐞🌠🕯️😔
I'm a 40 year old man crying like a baby! I feel like I've know the Applefords for years, although only weeks.
What you are facing now is probably going to be the roughest patch in your life. The fact that you are still managing and keeping things as ' normal' as possible for the kids while also supporting Jenny, says a lot about the man you are.
God bless you all.
Well said 😢
Yes, I agree well said
Sending love and praying for you all. Praying you all will feel the Lords loving arms around you❤️🙏🏻❤️
I prayer for your family every night. Kyle I pray for you to have strength. It is so hard to even imagine what each of you are going through. Prayers and love to each of you.
Amen! ✌🏻💕🙏🏻
Imagine being terrified, in pain, and confused and STILL being kind and sweet and considerate to everyone around you. We all need to take a page out of Jenny’s book and spread extra kindness today. ❤️
It's hard to see Jenny like this. I want you to know that I'm thinking about all of you. I love you all so much. ❤❤❤❤❤
This is so painful... you are amazing husband... may God strengthen you 😭😭
Well said.❤
You just said it best. Thank you for putting what I feel into words. Let us all keep praying. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
I can’t help but 😢😢😢 I felt the pain. Just hold on God is always with your family especially Jenny.
Wanted to give a shout out to Jenny’s sister Ashley - how wonderful she was through all of this. Also her lovely friend Mel, and other family members who were there until the end. So beautiful to see.
Yes, they are wonderful and very loyal. Personally, I think they are saints.
I’m a hospice aide, since 2012. Most of the time, increased confusion, pain and loss of appetite is a sign that the end is near. Please consider getting hospice on board. It’s such a blessing to patient and family.
I don't know if anyone will see this, a month later, but thank you for sharing these typical "transitional signs." I was my mother's caregiver during her short fight with the aggressive SCLC from her diagnosis on May 11, 2023 through treatments and until her last day on July 23, 2023. When she started showing the signs of confusion, I was so alarmed. It was a drastic change and I didn't understand what was happening. My first thought was a UTI (if not that, maybe the meds - even though they hadn't really changed). I called her Oncologist with my concerns but they didn't explain that my mom was likely entering the dying phase. NOBODY had explained this to us. NOBODY told me to expect this. After taking her to the local hospital ER, we learned there was no UTI... actually, there was nothing "new" going on. IT WAS NOT UNTIL A SOCIAL WORKWR SUGGESTED A HOSPICE CONSULT THAT I BEGAN TO UNDERSTAND... THE HOSPICE NURSE WAS SO INCREDIBLY COMPASSIONATE & CARING, AND WAS ALSO THE VERY 1ST PERSON TO BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH ME ABOUT WHAT WAS HAPPENING, AND THAT THESE SYPTOMS MY MOM WAS EXPERIENCING WERE VERY TYPICAL/NORMAL FOR PEOPLE AS THEY ENTERED THE DYING PHASE THAT COULD LAST A FEW DAYS TO A FEW WEEKS BEFORE "ACTIVE DYING" SIGNS BEGIN. Of course it is heartbreaking and beyond difficult to hear this kind of news, but I was so grateful for her honesty. It allowed me to begin processing what was happening, and allowed me to make better (more informed) decisions about what would be best for my mom at this stage.
What you said is important. My mom passed from dementia in October, but her decline was slow. I tried to read up on end of life signs and what to expect for years so that I could be the best for her at that stage (just like you said). I was lucky in that the hospice nurses told us what to watch for and we didn't have the sudden, drastic situation that you went through. I'm sorry you had to panic over the end of life signs for a while instead of being able to stay calm and present with your mom.
KYLE you are a wonderfull young man.God Bless you. Xx
Hi I'm a hospice nurse, hope you find the strength to continue to push through. You are this family's pillar and I can see it in your face, that you're holding it together constantly. Please find support for yourself as well. Love you guys.
Yes kyle you need support.
Kyle is an amazing man. They both are such kind beautiful people. We all support and pray for you Kyle during the most difficult time in your life. I just can’t imagine. Beautiful family 🙏❤️🙏
I hope he has family close by.
Such great advice ❤
I would personally like to thank yourself @janunarybaby for yourself / peers for the love & support you give so selflessly not only to our loved ones, but for their families....True Angels.
Kyle, I have been a silent viewer for a LONG time but wanted to finally hop in here and say how in awe I am of your love for her. This is what in “sickness and in health looks like.” You are a great example of what being a husband looks like. Your gentleness towards her shows so much unconditional love.
There are no words I can express to show how sorry I am your family is going through this. But know you all are in so many prayers.
Beautifully said. 🩷
I love this comment so much
@olivyascailise9474 No one could have said it better and more gentle!
Thank you Olivia. You said everything I feel in my heart❤
Well said!
We need more Jenny's in this world.
Yes ❤❤❤
I’m watching again for probably the 10th time. I miss seeing her beautiful face. Her positivity and kindness. Jenny truly was one of a kind. Thinking of Kyle , Ellis , Winnie , Ashley and Mel and the rest of the family. 💔😢
me too
I think of her often.❤❤❤😢
I think about Jenny a lot! I never knew her, except through following her on CZcams and Instagram, but I miss her so much!
Same here. It's interesting that we could love and support another person like family through their struggles even if we don't know them personally
We are all throwing our collective arms around you, Jenny, and those little ones. We hope you can feel the love.
Yes. The whole world is embracing you. ❤.
Beautifully said!
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This is the perfect words I couldn’t find my god how my heart hurts.
This. I'm not good with words myself.. I hope you know we are all thinking about you and your beautiful family, stay strong!
I know I speak for everyone when I say that our hearts are heavy for what you guys are going through.... Just know that a lot of people are praying for ya'll.
Amen. ❤
Amen
I agree!! Just share what you feel comfortable. I lost my husband 6 weeks ago. He was confused too. Hang in there. We are here if you need an ear.
@@debrasnyder9112 My deepest condolences. I'm so sorry for your loss! I pray for peace and strength for you as you grieve the loss of your husband and I hope you find peace! ❤️ God bless.
@@debrasnyder9112 So very sorry for your loss too.
Still can’t believe she’s gone. Been thinking heavily about this family and Jenny will FOREVER be with us 🥹❤️ she put up a good fight and beat cancer. Much love from Oklahoma❤️
And from Colorado😢
For sure Jenny was so brave and fought so hard for her family she was so kind and loved by all of us like we know her as we keep watching her videos ❤😢 and I don’t live very far away from where they stay. I always wanted to meet her rest easy Jenny we all miss you 😢😢
This whole story hits like a train. the world is an unfair place. the only thing I feel like expressing is a big, strong hug to the whole family 🙏
I've never seen a family handle a terrible situation with such grace.
@@1958slp You are a horrible person. Shame on you.
@@1958slpThey are more classy than you. What are you doing here if all you are going to do is complain? This family is going through hell and all you can do is complain on their channel for them to see. How is that being classy?
There has been so much love and support and comfort shown, radiating to and from this family and their family friends supporting them here 😢on social media. I know everyone has their own way of dealing with pain and grief, but something tells me that's nothing to do with what your feeling.Do not judge this family thank you your God it's not you going through this and if it was then you handle it the way YOU want to. In the mean time SHUT THE HECK UP. No one wants to hear your cruel negative crap.
@@1958slp GTFO THEN, YOU WON'T BE MISSED.
@@sugarpuff2978 Amen! What a terrible thing to post! She could and should have quietly left the channel.
Kyle I’ve been through this journey with my late husband who lost his battle with cancer at the age of 39 , with 4 kids ages 4 to 11.
I’m completely overwhelmed with the amount of love and peace , strength and support, patience and perseverance that surrounds every single day of Jenny’s journey.
What a wonderful husband and father you have been throughout this journey…. Your love for Jenny and your children has been so amazing and you exude such raw emotion along with the despair of the reality that Jenny’s illness unlike any I have ever witnessed before in my entire life.
God is there with you all and I truly believe that Jenny’s soul and spirit will always be there with you too.
What a beautiful woman , what an amazing display of the immense love she has for her beautiful babies and for you❤
A love story for the ages- She will shine on in of you for the rest of your lives.
Simply astounding ❤
You brought me to tears. Beautiful post. God bless you.💕🙏
This is well said and such a beautiful message. Thank you!
The part where Jenny exits her wheelchair and sits on the ground, and Kyle and Ashley joins her, is so special. I had a similar situation with my beloved dog months before he passed, where he just sat still in a patch of sunlight and closed his eyes for a long time. He also had his time cut short by cancer. I think the dying have those key moments where they subconsciously know the time is near, and they gently try to communicate it to us without breaking our hearts. RIP Jenny and my beautiful pup.
AMEN ❤❤❤❤
Kyle, a promise is a promise; it's apparent you are grieving and in intense pain. Filming doesn't necessarily mean sharing asap; wished I could give you a grandma hug. You are stronger than you think you are. I just don't have words to express how I feel right now.
As a father of 2 and a husband..... I know that you, my man, are carrying all of this on your shoulders. It sucks, but you're all here today, which is great and you're doing such a great job.
You don't have to be sorry for crying . You let it out you can't hold it in so that said you are a strong man .
As a father myself, you are truly a hero! Hold your head up. Life threw you the biggest curveball anyone could fathom. But it won't keep you down. Hold your head up high, and know God is in control he has a perfect plan for your life.
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
As an oncologist nurse, I applaud you Kyle! Unfortunately it appears LMD is raging. Please listen to your Oncologists and get Hospice onboard. Jenny will need specialized care, medications and care protocols. Jenny will need you to be her voice and reason as she will not be capable of any decisions. Lean on family and hug your children. Unfortunately her time on earth is short and this time of transition will be difficult. Thoughts and prayers for you all and may god hold you in his hands.
how do we know you are a nurse
@@caribcarib4337 we don’t know and if they are a nurse, they are a nurse void of any tact and have rotten bed side manner . How do they know it’s the LMD?? And to patronize Kyle with telling him to please listen to the doctors?? and then proceeds to tell him what Jenny and his own needs are from watching a video knowing he already has an incredible medical team along with family support
@@alys4570 It is LMD ....my mum died from that 2 month ago and we didn't even know she got it, her first symptom was confusion and after that she declined very quickly and died within 2 weeks from diagnosis
@@alys4570 Jenny has already lived 3 months with LMD. This is exactly what brain cancers look like at end stage.
You people are something else. Is she a nurse? How do we know she's a nurse? Get an effing life. You people are a miserable bunch.
My husband left me in my time of need battling breast cancer. He broke my ♥. I feel broken after 30 yrs of marriage. Kyle is a mature man. So sorry Jenny passed. I understand the panic. Love to this family and all handling cancer.
I hope you're okay with me saying this, but I literally hate your husband. What a POS. You deserve so much better. I hope you're doing okay ❤.
I'm sooo sorry! Greetings from germany!
He left you after 30 years? That’s horrible! How far into the marriage were you diagnosed?
My sister's husband just did the same thing to her 😢
@@dianadicarlo1672 I don't mean to sound insensitive to your sisters horrible situation, but were their problems in the marriage before and this was the final excuse for him to bail?
I just keep coming back. I just can't believe she is gone. Rip jen❤
I agree. She was a beautiful woman ❤😢
@@susanh3342. . . Me too 🥀
I feel the same
The sadness in Kyle's eyes when the three of them were sitting on the ground, literally made me cry. We always talk about how strong the person fighting is, because God knows they are but we often forget the strength the family has too. 💕 Absolutely beautiful family! Always in my thoughts!
Yes I saw that too also there was fear in his eyes too. I’ve never seen a stronger man in such a supportive man and loving man. My prayers are with all of them.
Yes his heart was broken, he might not have made it if it wasnt for the kids 😢❤ he had a reason to fight through it xx
A broken crayon still colors. Jenny is still coloring our world with love and kindness.
Beautiful !
I didn't cry till your comment.
Seems like I needed to!
Beautifully said.
Beautiful ❤
Such beautiful heartfelt words❤Im sure Kyle appreciated them🙏
Anything and everything Jenny does at this point is a positive. She knows what path she is on and also that her journey is a positive, right to the very end! These steps, born out of love, may very well become among her finest! Kyle, Ashley, Mel, Ellis, Winnie and others, you are doing great for Jenny! Be patient all around, wait for truth in all things, let her continue to color for as long as she wants, and then walk with her, holding hands, to that precious place where there will be no regrets, only peace!!🌈
I could not be more sorry for the turn your wife’s cancer has taken. You are such a phenomenal husband. Your support is everything! You MUST take care of yourself while this goes on. You need support and love too. I wanted to wrap my arms around you and just let you cry for what you are losing. Much love to your family. I will smile in her honor every day. ❤️☺️
We will always love you, sweet Jenny & Kyle.
To Jenny’s viewers, there’s another young mother that needs our love and support. I know that Jenny would have wanted us to support her as we have supported her. Her name is Melanie Foster Snavely. She found out she had cancer while she was pregnant and they had to induce labor very early for her to start treatment. Look her up and send her some love! She needs us! ❤😢
Been following Melanie from the start ❤
Will do❤
omg so sad
I will thank you ❤
Kyle, this is probably harder for you than Jenny at this stage. We are all with you both.
I agree, I’m balling my self and Kyle is such a amazing husband to a amazing wife ❤🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
You are not giving up, you are letting go and letting God take over. I hope your faith can give support. Please use your time with Jenny, not us. Your kids deserve this sacred time as their own treasure . Jenny and you have given so much- this time is theirs, when they are older and ready. Right now, they have seen in person her bravery, kindness and gentleness.
My wife was diagnosed with stage IV stomach cancer Oct 26 2021. She passed away Jan 8 2022 at or around 5:30am. I constantly am watching your video journals. I am with you I am so with you. Cs.
Im so sorry for your loss💔 cancer sucks, fuck cancer. Sending Prayers and best wishes❤ may She Rest in Peace, God be with her, you and all of your families, friends and loved ones✝️🙏🤍
I’m so sorry for your loss 🙏🏽
Sending hugs & Prayers🙏🏽
I'm so very sorry for your loss
I'm sorry for your loss . Look after yourself
And how do you feel now ? June 2024
Jenny is so kind - you are correct! I still cry when I watch this one. Her heart both of you sharing a love that can only described by the tears falling and are an uncontrollable expression of what I am watching. Thank you for loving your children and teaching them what real love means.
Hang in there, Kyle. I truly can't imagine what you're going through. You're one unbelievably strong dude.
Take it day by day. Enjoy each and every moment together. Continued prayers for you and your beautiful family
Kyle you are really so strong and you are an Angel!! Just remember it is also 100% OK to be weak! Don't hold your feelings back! It is healthy to let them out!! I am sending love to all of you! 💜🩵💙🥰
Very very sad to watch this Video!😥
Hi Kyle, I wish I could just give you all a warm hug. Sending love n prayers to you and your beautiful family ❤❤❤
Being honest I only ever came here to make the point about the cancer/ clot shot - but really you can't help being impressed and moved by what an amazingly strong couple they are. Jenny deserved the best life with her kids and she has fought like no other I've ever seen to remain there for them and Kyle.
@@Kikifriedmann
I can only underline this with a thick line. You're amazing, both of you. God is just in this with you. You're not alone.
I have never seen you breakdown like this. As a palliative care NP I want you to know that's it's ok. I work at MD Anderson Cancer Center and I see so much. Gods got you and your family covered under his wings. It's ok to just feel. You are human. You are all such wonderful and amazing people and you are helping so many others who don't have the same courage you guys have. Gods got you Kyle. You Jenny, the kids, you're entire family! Lots of 💕
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Beautifully said.❤
Perfectly said. Kyle, you too are a beautiful human. ❤ You and Jenny and your family are in my prayers.
❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤for you - for continued strength for your entire family.
This is the hardest part of being a caregiver let alone a husband and father. Prayers to you all.
Kyle your heartbreak at the start🥺we jus want to reach through the screen & hug you. The way you loved Jenny is such an example for husband's everywhere.🐞🦋🕊
🙏🏻There's thousands praying for you Kyle hang in there buddy we love you.🐞🦋
🦋Missing Jenny so much...🐞
🐞Just watched the evening at Disneyland & Jenny was there in every sparkling twinkle Kyle.🦋
In sickness and in health. You sir are Gods model of a loving supporting spouse. Prayers up, keep Jesus close.
Wise words even for now: Keep Jesus close. Bless you, dear friend!
Kyle if all you can do is get on here and take deep breaths and cry your eyes out... that is all you can do sir ❤ We will breath with you and cry with you. Please know this, and comforted by your YT family who is here for YOU, as much as we here for our sweet Jenny. At this point, it's only about doing what you can and helping keep Jenny comfy ♡
I've honestly never in my life seen such a loving, caring and more devoted husband and father than Kyle. He sacrifices so much for his wife. This is true unconditional love.
I agree. Such a sweet loving man.
Agreed. I know from my own experience that this will comfort and sustain him onwards, towards the future. Prayers for them both and their beautiful children 🙏🏻 thank you, thank you for sharing your journey.
Kyle is one amazing, loving husband!
Amen to that
INDEED
thank you kyle for being so vulnerable. i am so sorry for your pain and for jennys pain. we are all out here for you both
Jenny’s service was yesterday, the most beautiful tribute I have ever seen. I literally came to my garage away from everyone to watch and fully devote my time for her. Boy o boy I have never cried so hard. It’s unreal how I feel I lost a family members, that’s something special when you can touch lives such as Jenny did and make others feel like family. I battled a whole different cancer super rare type stage 3 and found out at 38 weeks pregnant. The fear I had was astronomical and I look at Jenny and see how courageous and strong she is. She is literally my hero and my inspiration. Kyle we love you! We love the kids and Ashley and Brad, of course the whole family. I will follow you through this journey one bc we love you and secondly bc you just never know which one of us will be living the life of cancer or grief. I watched my grandmother pass from glioblastoma brain cancer and that was so hard. She lived with us and her and I shared a room. She was what I consider a mom kind of like you do your grandfather as dad. I love you all I pray to meet you one day and give my personal thank you to you for sharing Jenny with us.
I'm a retired palliative care nurse. I wish I was there to give you both hugs. Not to tell you what to do, but there is no weakness in knowing when to call it a day. Stay home, no more tests, or unnecessary medications, use the good ones hospice gives you, the morphine alone will help with breathing, making that alone comfortable. Get help, keep her neat, cleaned lotioned up, and medicate before visitors. You have been so blessed to have lived and known that wonderful woman ,and had children with her. You have earned many stars for your crown, and your angels are watching over you both. I wish you were nearby so I could spell you for a bit. Ask for help, call in every favor, you will need it the weeks ahead. You could still film this now, but review at a future date when you are up to it, and put out only what you feel is appropriate. I am so sorry, I will light candles for you both, and pray for the repose of your souls.
What a beautiful, helpful reply.
Love this so much.
Morphine helps with breathing?
Is that while it depresses it? Or maybe after.
What the what
Strangely yes, although it does repress the respiratory system, you don't notice that. In end stage illness, between the pain ,fear,and anxiety breathing can be fast, labored, noisy, which is stressful, for patient and family. Morphine, relieves pain, relaxes body, and in turn improves the situation by making them more comfortable, to help with fear, ativan is a tried and true reliever of fear. Hospice does not have any issue with prescribing these and other helpful drugs. If any nurse or doctor spews nonsense about addiction, they request new ones.
Lifting you and your family up in prayer. 🙏🏽🙌🏾🙏🏽
This was an extremely hard video to watch, so I’m sure making was unbearable for you. Seeing her go downhill so quickly, it’s like we lost a part of her. She is so loved by us and her family. I know she feels that love and I hope it gives her comfort in knowing that she’s going to be getting the best care possible, the best decisions made for her. Jenny has touched so many people’s lives, including mine. I wish her all the best in these upcoming days, weeks and months. I wish you and your children the best as well.
Its so hard to be here. The human desire is to reach out and put armes around you both.
we all know that in life some day it will end. You and Jenny could not have faced this with more courage . We / I have taken so much from watching/ joining/ listening to your deep feeling and the walk you have taken facing this with hope and acceptance in the end result. This family is a treat to have known and greatful to have been a part of this fight. God is / and will bless you all. He promises us that. She is laying in the arms of Jesus, the one who died for us and promised he would be there for all who believe, HE's there through it all and in the end. RIP , knowing you Jenny , will be together again in your new home. Praise God!
I really love how Ashley, Mel, and Kyle love, support, and cared for Jenny through her cancer journey. They should have NO regrets ❤p
Kyle our heart breaks with you. But we know it’s not the same. The love you have shown Jenny is beyond words. We are sending so much love and prayers the only way we can support you is through love and prayers. 💔
Kyle you cry as much as you want and scream too. That is partly why we are here. To listen and comfort you in any way we can. Praying for extra strength and support for you.
You have said it best Ms. Downs.❤
So difficult and those that be through understand … remember you command this ship, take your time
My prayer to you and your family Kyle.. Stay strong for your kids for that's what she wish for you to do.
Prayers ❤🙏
Kyle, I’ve been a hospice nurse for many years. I want you to know that you ARE absolutely doing the VERY BEST for Jenny!! It’s a blessing for all that you and her loved ones are making the decision as to the course of her care together.. Everything you have expressed is exactly what I hear from loved ones every single day.. There are such mixed emotions and lack of firm answers.. You will all make the best decision for Jenny based on medical guidance and your love for what is truly best for Jenny. My heart breaks for what you are all going through and it’s SO darn difficult. But you WILL get through it. Many prayers are being said.. You are all amazing…. Please remember to take care of you. You need a lot of support….
We love you and pray for you all. God bless ❤
@@Sundaylamb3 you watched and made a comment, explain
@Sundaylamb3 what is wrong with you? She's clinging on to her life and her children will sadly at some point go the entire rest of their lives missing their mom. Have some compassion. Money is nothing compared to health and time and any blessings they have been provided along the way are a Godsend to give them opportunities and time together especially her husband being able to be a caregiver provider and parent. I pray you have a change of heart, develop a more loving soul, and that this fate doesn't become yours in addition to receiving the judgement and hate you are spreading! I feel worse for you then I do her family and that says alot!!
Bless you Sue, for your beautiful service. I love my oncology nurses, every one of them. I tried to say this but you have done a better job of it. THIS is what life is about, our loved ones and how we live out until the end, whenever that is. What would we do without you?! 💗
@@Sundaylamb3 respectfully (because Jenny and Kyle would want us to be respectful of each other), you really shouldn't be here. You don't even seem to understand CZcams well enough to understand you DON'T HAVE TO WATCH. Jenny has been very clear about why she is sharing everything. If they make a little money, I'm glad for them (not sure why you'd begrudge them that), but they're doing it to have a record of her struggle so her kids know she fought hard (I've heard little ones ask "why didn't Mommy/Daddy fight to stay with me?") Another reason you shouldn't be here is that most folks are here because they've grown to care for these two souls. If you see drama, its because that's what's been going on in their lives!!! And if that's ALL you can see, your time here is a waste for you. Others see a ton more - others see a dear dear couple, loving each other as best they can in an awful situation, and sharing their journey in the hopes others going through something similar might feel less alone. I feel bad for you that all you see is people making dramatic videos for the money and algorithms. I hope you actually never see this because you stayed away. It brings nothing to you, and you bring nothing to this channel's comments sections.
It’s time to discuss hospice, sweetheart.
I am so sorry to see Jenny suffering so. ❤
My heart just smashed into a million peices watching this.
Kyle you are incredible ❤
Your beautiful wife will rest easy knowing she spent this life with her soulmate.
huge respect for you both your courage and Jennys bravery is astounding.
Before my dad died of cancer he despite the horrific pain toture and fear the one thing cancer did was show him how much he was loved.
Your love has outshined this cruel disease, please take some privacy for yourself through this time also.
Love and strength to you and your beautiful family.
As an RN of 30 years.
Comfort is so important at this point.
Her kind soul deserves comfort
She has fought so hard anyone can see that. Her kids when older will be amazed at her courage and strength
Comfort measures ❤🙏
She fought that hard to have more time with her kids and Kyle.
Choosing to stop treatment is not giving up--it is lovingly giving in to this stage of Jenny's illness. Now may be the time to stop living the treatment, saving her from her fear and side effects and just live the life, in comfort and peace, surrounded in the love of home, family and friends. Thank you all for sharing your courage and true devoted love.
Love you Jenny, Miss you so much. Kyle is doing a great job with the kids, you will always be remembered, because your memory is kept alive every day.
I lost my beautiful aunt January 31, 2023 from end stage colon cancer. I cannot express how painful it is to watch the decline. I have videos that only a few family members have of her battle. Once it spread to her brain she tried so hard to eat and control her movements but she couldn’t. The spoon shaking in her hand cause she was still trying to feed herself by indulging in a small cup of yogurt. She couldn’t feed herself to save her life with the constant dipping into what she thought was the yogurt cup but missing it every single time because she couldn’t hold the spoon long enough to even make contact. She only ate to make us feel better cause she didn’t want to. To see such a healthy beautiful woman deteriorate so fast tore me up on the inside 😢 We miss you auntie, please continue to rest in peace 💜 Thank you for sharing the experience especially for something that’s so private and vulnerable, that’s BRAVERY on another level. God Bless ❤
There comes a time when chasing life-prolonging medical solutions is too much for any patient. If you choose to go the route of hospice and palliative care, please realize that it's not giving up on Jenny, it's a loving decision to keep her at peace and pain free with this horrible and relentless disease. Hospice will be there to support Jenny and the entire family. Watching Jenny's decline has been heartbreaking for us all. I pray for you all as you make tough decisions in the days & weeks ahead...❤
I as Prof Nurse,agree
RN here too , I honestly hope she gets palliative /hospice care soon, the treatment and doc appts are too much at this point
And that's the kind of nurse's we all deserve. Caring and Honest !
Praying for you all! Quality of life over quantity is certainly what most people desire and I'm guessing that seeing their mom peaceful as opposed to confused and struggling would be the best for the kids as well. You have shown that you always have her best interests at heart and you have a great support team. Hospice is certainly a tremendous blessing!
100% agree
These videos were meant to be for you and your children. Those of us on the “outside” do not deserve all the love you shared with us - but we are blessed and thankful to be allowed in.
At any time that you begin to feel overwhelmed about publishing these tough videos - YOU HAVE THE RIGHT to keep them private. Do not feel obligated to share such vulnerable days with us.
We will love you all NO MATTER WHAT!!! ❤❤❤❤
You are correct and wise.
@@bluekatgal7300Your right @KarenGarcia-he8nf
We are with you Kyle.. praying for Jenny and you and your children as you journey with your beloved wife. Thank you for your transparency. You are an amazing husband! ❤
Very well said ❤
Amen
Hang in there, man. I wish I could help you. You are brave.
God bless all of you Kyle. Jenny will be your guardian angel as you walk through life.
When you posted this video we knew she couldn’t last very much longer.She was definitely one strong Lady and has left memories for her children and Kyle!!🙏🩷🙏🩷🙏
“She’s one amazing human.” Truer words were never spoken. As are you, Kyle. Sending smiles, prayers and love to your wonderful family. ❤️
Im glad that you're letting your pain out. Never hold in your emotions as men arent supposed to be "weak" This isnt weakness, its human. Praying for you sweet people 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
I think you are right, being open and vulnerable really shows just how strong he is.
@@Sundaylamb3 You are a miserable, heartless & lonely person. 🤦♀️
@@Sundaylamb3And? If you don't like it, don't watch.
@@Sundaylamb3Ahhh, there you are. The little peon who likes to pop up on people's channel, spouting juvenile sentences. God stands beside us as we show our love and support. He also protects us from evil, so move on. He knows you.
You’re such a good husband. ❤ Praying for your family as you go through this.
I can relate to much of what you're saying. I watched my father die as he suffered immensely from Lung Cancer. He was my hero and as I carried him into the hospital for the last time, it was very difficult. They put him on experimental drugs, I felt it was totally too late and while they claimed it worked well, I think it just prolonged his suffering. I went into a rage at one point when the nurses refused to give him any more morphine because they claimed he might get addicted to it (we were in the end stage part of the cancer ward) Our doctor jumped all over them and got that straightened out. It's been almost to the day of 39 years since he passed now an I still have flashbacks of that time.
I did a ‘Terms of Endearment’ screaming at the front desk to get my dad more morphine when he was in hospice. It was horrible - they were ‘waiting for the doctor (who had put my dad there) to order the meds’. If I had known, I would have gotten them on my own
Having been an RN for 24 years, as well as losing several family members to cancer, my heart goes out to you. You are wonderful people, full of love and compassion. The family you’ve created is amazing. Thank you for sharing and educating us on how beautiful Gods grace is. Continued prayers.
❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏
To say that you are a strong man is an understatement. The love and support you have for Jenny brings tears to my eyes. She knows she has so many people there fighting for her and I pray that brings her some peace every day.
my hubby passed away of lung cancer ,but for some reason he had no pain,,he was a bad man but still cared for him.
I hate that I immediately felt that feeling in my my chest and gut when he first started the video and was trying to pull himself together. If you’ve ever lost someone very close to you like this you know that feeling too well. I haven’t made it to two minutes of the video yet but I already know what he’s going to say. I hate cancer so much.
You don’t ever need to apologize, Kyle. Sending you & Jenny many prayers... 🙏🏻✝️🙏🏻
Keeping her dignity while still honoring her wishes is lovely💕
I just stumbled across Jenny's videos and immediately I was hooked, I came in at the end of her beautiful life so I watched the last few months real time and I went back to see what I missed. She's truly an inspiration. When Im feeling just broken I put on an episode because she was so positive through all of this mess she was dealt. My children are your babies ages and I can't imagine going through this, she makes me see things through different eyes and like today when I'm sick, the kids are sick, my hormones are going bananas, holidays etc it's a recipe for my mental health but she reminds me to be grateful for every single thing because she wanted nothing more then to live...it puts life into perspective for me..I don't know if I'm even making sense. I'm praying for your family because this was a monumental loss for you all. RIP Jenny
Dang. You guys are... so strong. I would have fallen apart ages ago. Y'all are brave and determined AF.
Hi Kyle, my dad died from cancer four years ago. And one Thing I really took away from his last weeks and months is that we should have taken the palliative / hospice path much much earlier than in his last week of life. The kindness and the care for patients was clearly a very big improvement in his comfort and also for us. These people are highly competent in making the situation as bearable as possible. ❤
I have to agree, the same happened with us, we didn't have them until the last week also and could have provided so much comfort and care for my dad and the family.
Same. My dad suffered with stage IV pancreatic cancer. We pursued chemo when we all knew in our gut it was a very bad idea. After one very difficult last treatment we stopped and allowed hospice in. The folks who do this work have answered their calling in life. The compassion and kindness that was shown to dad and all of us was absolutely beautiful. Without directly saying the words they prepared us well for the end. Praying for you ❤
I agree. It’s terribly sad but that’s the reality of this horrible situation.
Agreed! Naturally you want to fight until the very end, but there comes a time where you just want your loved one to be cared for and comfortable in the end. Kyle also needs help and support right now.
I agree
I, too, am a hospice nurse. You have done all for your Angel wife Kyle and your health and strength is a prime focus for you all now. Your kids will always know how much love they came from. Please care for yourself during this next phase which will be a strange time and it may indeed have its funny highlights which sounds weird I know. Thanks for your bright and frank attitude Jenny. You are much loved. ❤
I love the bracelets. Bestest friends (you and Jenny) forever. This kind of stuff means the world to me.
My friend started getting confused n the same thing. He didn't want cancer to take away his mental faculties. He took extra meds n didn't wake up. It was his choice.
Jenny is an amazing person. You can keep your promise to her by filming privately for your children to view in the future. The public does NOT need to see these films of her. Remember that social media never dies. As someone who has lost both my parents, I would NOT want to constantly see my parents suffering for the rest of my life. The ongoing pain of that memory needs to lessen so we can go forward without reliving it forever. Please do not do that to your children. I say this with the utmost respect. God bless you, Jenny and your family. God be with you.
He filmed lots of videos for the kids, for the family only.
Please dont argue on this video comment section. Please. That helps no one and the kids, Jenny and Kyle dont want that. They have said they want smiles and good thoughts. Praying for Jenny
Please, please, please don’t ever apologise. No one should have to go through with everything you are going through. You are in our hearts and prayers.
Clinical social worker here ! All people who work in hospital care can see that Jenny is sadly going downhill. At this stage, she need confort and love, that’s all. Take time with her, with the kids and the family. Of course it’s her choice to continue treatment or not. But stopping treatment is not giving up, it’s choosing confort over suffering. Your kids will understand. Jenny already fight so hard ! Watch Disney Movies, cuddle, paint with the kids. We love you Jenny and Kyle ♥️
Yes agree 🙏🏼
Hopefully its soon because im tired of the constant MILKING of her cancer for GoFundMe donations & views.
Sadly going down hill. I mean and you are clinical social worker? Damn. Why did you write something like that? Have you maybe think Jenny is reading all this? Social worker without compassion is the worst thing on earth.
@@WeRemainFacelessplease we don’t need that kind of comment here.
@@WeRemainFaceless it’s not about you or me. It’s about Jenny for God sake. Shame on you all.
Yes, Kyle, Jenny is an amazing human, & so are you.❤️ I worked for Hospice for 9 years & although I don’t begin to think I know what’s going on exactly w/ your beautiful wife, the confusion & the reduced intake of fluids & food is usually a sign that things are turning to where hospice & comfort care may be the best thing for Jenny & your family. I’m so glad that you have such a wonderful team of doctors & care staff who are so caring, but honest, & I’m sure you all will work together to evaluate next steps, always w/ Jenny’s needs & wishes at the forefront.
It breaks my heart to see you in so much pain Kyle, but I’m so glad you’re sharing that pain & talking about it. We all love, Jenny, you, your kids, and your whole family so much, & I’m sending light, peace, love, & strength.❤️
Praying God's comfort strength and peace. God holds your family all...of you in his hands of LOVE.
I am so sorry you lost your beautiful wife. You’re doing a great job taking care of you children in the wake of your grief. I hope the Gods free you from your grief and help you soar above all this. God bless you.
I’m very alone, and I have a lot of health conditions. I know I’m lucky not to have cancer, but god I wish I had someone that loved me the way Kyle loves Jenny.. just to get through the dark times. Kyle is an example of a true and genuine person
I am praying for you, and I love you. Know that Jesus Christ is with you, he’s the best support u can have. Please trust him, even in your pain and loneliness. He will comfort and guide you. You will see.
I care & send virtual hugs & love ❤🤗🙏🌅 you’re not alone… you touched me!
Sending you love and prayers ❤🙏🏻 🫂
if you would like to chat with somebody, I'm the one who would listen to you with pleasure. Take care yuourself.
Prayers for you @spottedpardalote. I agree that Kyle is the type of person to have by your side during difficult times.
I don’t think there are any words that can express how deeply so many people care for you, Jenny and your children. We hurt with you. ❤❤
Jenny was already looking into Heaven❤️
22 days ago I said goodbye (in this life) to one of my best friends and hours later she beat adenocarcinoma, lung primary, just like Jenny did. I miss her every second. Her husband's name is also Kyle and they have two young kids. Today, watching your videos helped me remember some minutes I got to spend with her while she was still awake in those last few weeks, things I was able to do for her, and showed me that we are all going to be ok as we keep living. I'm glad you have so many recordings of your love and her voice. Grief is love, just in a different form than before.
You did a wonderful job filming and keeping her dignity. I love how you met her where she was at. She wanted to sit on the ground so you both joined her.
There will be other people who will be diagnosed with cancer and will watch this and it will be helpful for them.
Jenny is a warrior and so brave .
I agree. Kyle you are doing a great job navigating this journey with Jenny and honoring her wishes. Trust your instincts. She is so beautiful and sweet.
What would be helpful is for people to understand that cancer cures have been suppressed by government and big pharma for generations. The cures are still out there but it takes a little digging. Big Pharma, vaccines, treatments, and exposure will eventually come out. Giving people drugs that don’t work is not the answer infact it’s Murder. There is answers and treatments that save lives you either can believe Big Pharma Doctors and Government or people and cures who mostly have been silenced just like vaccine damages are silenced.
beautifully said 🙏🏻
May all the loving arms of the Creator's angels be wrapped around you all and give you peace and strength
Kyle,you don't have to be here,you owe us nothing,spend every second with Jenny and your children ❤
I highly agree
Put the cam down
Go hold ur beloved
The rest of ur life w/o her is a long time
I totally agree 👍
While I agree, I think he’s doing this for Jenny as she requested it of him.
@@er-ha I know it gives her hope. Just days before my daughter passed from ovarian cancer she was me order her things online she wanted and I did it knowing she'd never see them but she held on to hope till her lat breath.
It probably helps him too as he has to deal with this.
You are doing such a great job as not only a caregiver but now as a parent forced to be a parent alone and grieving. Jenny is so proud of you Kyle. Hugs from North Florida.
Kyle, you did all you could to love,care, and be by Jenny's side until the end😢You have some beautiful memories you all made together ❤️ Happy Holidays
Kyle don’t take time from your wife to update us, it is not necessary, nor is it expected. What time y’all have left is precious and should be kept for you, the kids, and the family. Film if you must to keep your promise, but don’t publish them until you can deal with it. Praying for peace for y’all! ❤️❤️❤️
1000 points❤
Well said x
@@goberianchloex3646 well said on behalf of many of us! Thank you!!!❤️
Beautifully stated. Even with Jenny’s confusion her inner kindness shows through, when she did her little kisses and said she loved us I cried. I cried with Kyle. I hope they can sense the emotional support we feel for them.
Absolutely. We are here for you and thinking of you all ❤
Hang in there Kyle. ❤ When you feel frightened, we are here to help calm the fear. When you feel lost, we are here to help show you the way. Everyone is here to support you through this and to help you to carry the heaviness in your heart. You are not alone. ❤
Perfectly said.❤
Amen!
Jenny.
I have a feeling as you sat on the ground it was your way of saying let’s sit, take in the beauty of nature around us with childlike wonder.
I am a 76 y/o guy and my heart cries for you and Jen.
I'm here for you. Let it go we are here to listen. You've been so strong and it's time to release the stress you've have been carrying for so long.
I can't imagine the fear you must feel now having to watch your wife decline and struggle. My prayers and love are with you, Jenny and your precious children. You are such a loving husband, and I know you will continue to protect and love her no matter what.
Kyle when my husband was diagnosed terminal from cancer he asked me “ do you think I made a difference in other peoples lives”. He absolutely made a huge difference in so many people..people came out of the woodwork to tell him so.. it meant the world to him and our family. You and Jenny have absolutely made a huge difference in so many people, you two need to need to realize this.. the strength and courage it takes to share your journey is beyond remakable . Please know that you are all in my continued prayers…🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️
2:09 to skip the boring part of him trying to speak or putting on an act
@paulwoodford are you so unhappy in life that you need to pick on the weak. Shame on you. It’s pure ugliness.
@@paulwoodford1984....an act?? not cool man, he is grieving....
@@paulwoodford1984You know it is no act if you are a regular viewer here. You think watching your wife go through this is easy? Why are you here?
@@paulwoodford1984Obviously you have never loved anyone more than yourself and with your attitude nobody will ever love you. You have a mean spirit!!
Your sister there with you is so precious. I honestly have to say, I am so thankful you are not living in this Cancer Hell any longer. You are finally at rest ❤
Kyle it’s ok to cry and breakdown as long as you want to and need to. Sending prayers and love your way🙏🙏❤️
This makes me so incredibly sad. 😢 As a nurse, I've seen this decline happen over and over. Of course her doctors need to check every possible cause of her confusion, but deep in my heart I know what's going on. Im so sorry.
Thank you so much for being a nurse, it’s got to be so hard. Taking care of my father throughout his cancer battle 30 years ago was so hard with my two little kids watching everything happening as well. Losing mom after caring for her for several years with dementia was just as hard and traumatizing. The nurses, as well as hospice nurses were calming, understanding and so very human- bless you!
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You are not giving up on Jenny you are making her last moments here peaceful and with family by her side not doing all of these treatments that are just making her miserable. BIG BIG HUGS TO ALL OF YOU!
Is anyone else struggling to smile like Jenny asked of us???My heart is breaking for this beautiful family and yet I am amazed at their strength and courage all at once
I wish you health and peace of mind, dear husband, for your patience... and your care for your wife with all your heart, words are unable to express... I wish you abundant health and may God protect you for your children and may God reward you with all the best.
The bravery you have both displayed is beyond exemplary. NEVER hold back the tears, they are your expression of love that has nowhere else to go.
I lost my aunt to lung cancer in July. I took care of her for two weeks in June and she began to have the confusion and occasional delirium. I tried to get her husband to get her palliative care, but he felt like stopping treatment was giving up hope. He only had two weeks left with her after stopping treatment. I say this to you both because he was in denial and was completely in shock when she passed so quickly and regrets not prioritizing her comfort sooner. You and your family are amazing. Keep being a wonderful husband and father because that's all she needs from you.
It’s so hard to believe she’s ravaged with disease and remains beautiful. It’s so sad her face is so lovely . My heart breaks for you all . I lost my brother last week who refused everything. I do wish he had comfort care from the hospice team to alleviate terminal agitation and anxiety end to help him . Iv been a nurse many years . My brother suffered so much and didn’t have to 😢 you are such a strong family and accepting comfort care isn’t giving up it just makes the end of life process more manageable for both patient and family . My heart goes out to you and your family 😢❤
I can’t begin to imagine what you were going through. And you never ever have to be sorry to show your vulnerability, your emotions, or your grief.