grouper - poison tree (slowed)

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  • @antrikter
    @antrikter  Před 7 měsíci +25

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  • @Bappobaptist123
    @Bappobaptist123 Před 10 měsíci +272

    It’s crazy how winter of 2021 was the best and worst time of my life I was so suicidal but at the same time now that I look back I miss it so much, not being suicidal but life was just so much easier and calmer than it is now

  • @cinnamongirl999
    @cinnamongirl999 Před 10 měsíci +136

    life is starting to feel like this again

  • @barbecueman
    @barbecueman Před 4 měsíci +16

    i hate how i look when i cry. i hate how my lips pout, how my face scrunches, how my eyes squint. yet, i can't stop. i cant help but let the tears fall down to my chin and stain my cheeks. i cannot help desperately clutching to every good memory i have and replaying it repeatedly bittersweetly. i have to embrace the ugliness of each cry and sob until they fade.

  • @soupe17
    @soupe17 Před 8 měsíci +78

    This version comforts me in the moments where I feel the worst. The guitar gives the song an under tone of sorrow and misery but, the sort of piano like melody tells me how everything will be better one day

  • @tonyasa4658
    @tonyasa4658 Před 7 měsíci +257

    I saw her in winter of 2021, lost her exactly one year later. She still haunts my mind.

    • @espresso5990
      @espresso5990 Před 7 měsíci +7

      Yah please bless her soul and please heal the family, friends, and others. Toda Yah… I’m so sorry

    • @tonyasa4658
      @tonyasa4658 Před 7 měsíci +14

      @@espresso5990
      She didn't pass away, she's just someone else's. It hurts to see, but life goes on

    • @armansinghbhati8446
      @armansinghbhati8446 Před 7 měsíci +13

      ​@@tonyasa4658mine passed away in the winter of 2022. It'll forever haunt me

    • @RTSclips
      @RTSclips Před 7 měsíci +2

      keep it pushing

    • @im.redflag
      @im.redflag Před 6 měsíci +2

      dont worry abt ppl like her, ik its hard to forget her but she doesnt deserve to be in your head:(

  • @Hadryn
    @Hadryn Před 11 měsíci +112

    This music. Has everyone feeling different emotions. But my own is constant repitition. The same thing over and over again.
    it brings me. a strange feeling of calmness of knowing nothing will change

    • @nup5
      @nup5 Před 10 měsíci +7

      I agree with this. looping the video put me in a trance, I almost fell asleep. great repetitive rhythms...!

  • @jjaredrdrigzz
    @jjaredrdrigzz Před 9 měsíci +103

    I cannot wait to listen to this all autumn-winter 2023

    • @Solid_Snak3
      @Solid_Snak3 Před 9 měsíci +5

      same, it will be the best feeling of our lives.

    • @zitzonrblx442
      @zitzonrblx442 Před 8 měsíci +6

      @@nightf879 nostalgia will go crazy

    • @ssophh222
      @ssophh222 Před 8 měsíci +1

      doing that rn

    • @Dready141
      @Dready141 Před 7 měsíci +2

      ong ( it doesnt snow where i live)

    • @Breezepm
      @Breezepm Před měsícem

      @@Dready141real…

  • @keyomerd5204
    @keyomerd5204 Před 9 měsíci +35

    the thumbnail got me to click it, the rest of it literally stunned me, such a powerful winter restlessness...

  • @Ami-gb8uc
    @Ami-gb8uc Před 10 měsíci +26

    2020, many cries, many cuts.

  • @FiveNightsAtFreddys_1
    @FiveNightsAtFreddys_1 Před 5 měsíci +107

    I feel like I’m experiencing my last moments in life and taking my last breaths

  • @Derfaelschaer
    @Derfaelschaer Před 7 měsíci +66

    I just want to be loved

    • @rapmusic3930
      @rapmusic3930 Před 29 dny +2

      I love you bro

    • @Theodore355
      @Theodore355 Před 27 dny +3

      I love you too, and Jesus can love you like no man nor woman

    • @Theodore355
      @Theodore355 Před 27 dny +2

      And He does love you like no other, remembering His sacrifice on the cross, for our sins

    • @Julial-tc
      @Julial-tc Před 14 dny

      I love you and am ready to give you my soul

    • @MHB_07
      @MHB_07 Před 11 dny

      @@rapmusic3930u don’t love him, stop lying

  • @ABD-jx3ki
    @ABD-jx3ki Před 3 měsíci +13

    It brings me pain in my chest as if it was my last day

  • @user-yo1nv8oi6r
    @user-yo1nv8oi6r Před 9 měsíci +509

    i feel nothing at all

  • @twilightskyyyy.01
    @twilightskyyyy.01 Před 8 měsíci +30

    Each time I revisit this version of the song, it's like revisiting a piece of my past, especially when life feels like a weight on my shoulders. It evokes those moments of pure happiness, back when everything seemed perfect, even though I didn't realize it then. I look forward to returning to this song not when I'm feeling down, but when I'm in a better place, so I can reflect on how far I've come. 🤎

  • @FiveNightsAtFreddys_1
    @FiveNightsAtFreddys_1 Před 5 měsíci +12

    I feel calm yet sad. I feel like I can’t breathe

  • @Helluvaheaven
    @Helluvaheaven Před 4 měsíci +23

    I just want to be myself.
    Guys, we don't know each other, but I wish you all were happy and loved, good luck in life, your dreams and plans will definitely come true, just believe in it.

    • @Menevolence
      @Menevolence Před 4 měsíci +2

      I feel you man. Everyone says "be yourself" then you realize no one likes you for who you are but rather what can you provide them. Good luck to you too brother. May we all find peace.

    • @Helluvaheaven
      @Helluvaheaven Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@Menevolence Yes, I understand, it just happens that for each person you have your own personality, and when you realize that you can't find yourself, you start to wonder if I really make sense? But when you realize that life is life, and it is not clear what can be expected from it, then you begin to understand that this is not the end, even if the situation is so bad that it seems to you that there is no way out, then it is not so.There is always a way out, it's just that not everyone can handle it.

    • @Albert_Jaeger
      @Albert_Jaeger Před 3 měsíci

      I just want to be better than what i am, i just want to wake up and not hate myself, i just don’t want to make the people i love angry and nervous becouse of the problems i cause, i just want to be happy and make the people around me, even stranger, happy too. I hate myself.

    • @Helluvaheaven
      @Helluvaheaven Před 3 měsíci +1

      ​@@Albert_Jaeger It’s a familiar feeling, two months ago I had a deep depression, but I did it, I’m sure that you will succeed too, don’t give up while you have time, there is a way out, even if you don’t see it yet.”

    • @Albert_Jaeger
      @Albert_Jaeger Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@HelluvaheavenToday i turned 17, it’s been ten years now that i feel and am like that, i don’t think it will get better, but thanks for the kind words.

  • @rafidnabil9154
    @rafidnabil9154 Před 4 měsíci +7

    I wish I could stand under this lamp post in the middle of the night and listen to this music. It would be an amazing experience.

  • @Mangonade69420
    @Mangonade69420 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Therapy is expensive but turning to christ is free

  • @nup5
    @nup5 Před 10 měsíci +19

    me when 2020-2022. those combined years were defined by a deep funk, that I couldn't shake. almost dropped out of college due to my brain utterly crapping itself.
    I have since recovered. but that was not a good 3-year window. reality sure does hit hard... and it holds no punches! doesn't matter if you're knocked down, or even knocked out. if life's got more punches to throw, it *WILL* throw them at you.
    you'd be wise to prepare yourself for anything. and I mean anything, all at once. kinda what happened to me, and I couldn't handle it for a few years

    • @lxcy0190
      @lxcy0190 Před 10 měsíci +2

      spectrum wording

    • @nup5
      @nup5 Před 10 měsíci +1

      @@lxcy0190 it is what it is.

  • @blackdahliafn
    @blackdahliafn Před rokem +132

    this song makes me feel like im in the waiting area between two realities, idkkk

    • @lovzerr
      @lovzerr Před rokem +4

      fr

    • @ssophh222
      @ssophh222 Před 11 měsíci

      yess

    • @noog6756
      @noog6756 Před 10 měsíci +1

      A liminal space. The transitional space between whatever you imagine, could be a hallway, or an empty school were students used to roam. Some may find it eerie, calm, or both.

    • @MdabdunnurKhan
      @MdabdunnurKhan Před 9 měsíci

      This is the song i listened to while waiting for my plane to arrive before starting college in a different country. It did indeed feel like two realities.

    • @nikaantia8022
      @nikaantia8022 Před 7 měsíci +1

      id what? that's a lovely organisation you got there, where can join

  • @Reelprankstergangster
    @Reelprankstergangster Před 10 měsíci +25

    This hit hard in winter 2022 but it wasn’t till February 2023 is when the mystery illness we’ve all been experiencing for the last couple of months began haven’t felt myself all year numb

    • @vortexink883
      @vortexink883 Před 6 měsíci +1

      Your scaring me at how relatable this comment is can you elaborate more.

  • @antweboo
    @antweboo Před 9 měsíci +14

    I think of the cold nights I got through the past 5 years, I am only just now truly reaching happiness and acceptance. The cold nights aren't cold anymore, and I don't feel the loneliness or burn of nicotine anymore.
    I don't wanna jinx it, but I truly feel free. Free of the grasp of the ghosts and demons of my past, and free of the chains that held me down for so long.
    It's, surreal.

    • @nup5
      @nup5 Před 9 měsíci +2

      I know that feeling. I've only ever felt it once, and even then... I'm not certain it's completely over.
      Surreal realities are often the least understood; we're talking about a level of emotion that can't be easily put as words.
      My comment may not mean much, then. But I hope this finds you well.

    • @antweboo
      @antweboo Před 9 měsíci +1

      @@nup5 stay safe brother

  • @ethanhananel569
    @ethanhananel569 Před 8 měsíci +11

    I feel like im losing sleep
    Waking up before the crack of dawn
    Go to the gym to earn my keep
    Feelings wash over as i slowly mourn
    As the sweat drips down my face
    Stinging my eyes as i am reborn
    Like a pheonix from the ash
    Maybe this time it will warm my core

  • @laylakindafruity
    @laylakindafruity Před 3 měsíci +3

    When life feels like this song:

  • @alnajjar1068
    @alnajjar1068 Před 4 měsíci +5

    After my father died. I started listening to this song. I feel his loss so much I just want to be by his side. I want to hug him. I feel like I want to give up....

  • @che_marley
    @che_marley Před 5 měsíci +8

    Heavenly Father, giver of life and health: Comfort and relieve those challenged by serious and chronic mental and emotional illnesses. Give your power of healing to those who minister to their needs, that they may be strengthened in their weakness and have confidence in your loving care; through Jesus Christ our Lord.Amen

  • @g_k6s
    @g_k6s Před 9 měsíci +6

    got me overthinking💯💯🔥🔥🗣🗣

  • @user-yf2cn5pm2r
    @user-yf2cn5pm2r Před 24 dny +4

    I made a very serious mistake, I can't reverse it and I feel very guilty, I just want to be loved again :(

  • @Tep9000
    @Tep9000 Před 2 dny +2

    This song feels like a dark Strom awaits you in your journey as to see if your able to reach your goal

  • @bakhmannn
    @bakhmannn Před 2 měsíci +2

    In my restless dreams, I see that town

  • @Am.1888
    @Am.1888 Před měsícem +5

    It's quiet, but it's not quiet

  • @bbyd0lly
    @bbyd0lly Před 9 měsíci +29

    no matter how many times I play this song, it never fails to make me cry. I’m crying rn don’t know what I’m doing with life I been like this since he left it’s sad he moved on so quickly like I meant nothing to him, I just want someone to text when something makes me happy or text someone my proud moments knowing they will actually be proud of me, it’s hard to move on especially when you loved someone that much. Everyone says I will move on, I try to smile then let it out at night laying in bed. im not sure if he even cares, I hope he does because I really cared for him.. pls leave suggestions on how I can move on step by step.

    • @Nazevk
      @Nazevk Před 9 měsíci +7

      Sorry for what you have to go through, I know it hurts I’ve gone through it the same thing before. There’s no method or trick to carry on with life after a person, you just have to understand that the more you leave yourself in that position the more it will hurt the more it will affect you. You won’t be able to be happy if you’re living life of sadness because of a person, the best thing you could do is to focus on other things, start life projects, but don’t let a person tourn you apart from the inside because of a breakup. Here’s a life lesson, you never really fall in love with a person, you fall in love with the dream, a whispering fantasy. Any love is a fantasy. Don’t look for that person anymore, try looking for yourself. You won’t be able to move on if you don’t stay strong, if you don’t let the person go. Everything in life is not about how much a person is depending on you, how much they say they love you, how much they care. What matters is how big their heart is for you, their actions, their words. I recommend staying single, stay single for a while, for months perhaps. I haven’t dated someone in 4 years, I’ve noticed how sadness and depression wasn’t getting me nowhere. Don’t try chasing someone who wouldn’t want you back, not worth it. Trust in the Lord your God, pray to him ask him for directions, to guide your life, to change you. Seek him, you won’t be able to do this by yourself. In Psalm‬ ‭34‬‬:‭4‬-‭5‬ says ‭“I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.” Stay strong, takes time to move on, you will be alright.

    • @martinchircoff9060
      @martinchircoff9060 Před 9 měsíci +4

      I broke up with her a year and a half ago, i hated her, hated the relationship and how she treated me, i gave everything of me to make her life perfect and in the process i forgot about mine. I lost friends, I argued with my family, I made my little brother cry, I did things, said things that I simply can't forget and can't forgive. I continued with my life though, I'm studying and doing pretty well, I'm going to the gym, I've never looked better, I feel so strong and mature but it still feels as if I'm the same guy who lost everything and has no direction.
      I accepted the fact that we broke up, I let her go and moved on, but I being in a relationship is the thing that hunts me, being in live with someone and creating memories is the feeling that I most want. But it's not there, im alone, i haven't met anyone.
      That doesn't mean that there isn't hope, I understood that there are things that are suppose to happen, there are moments that need to happen in order to become someone bigger and better. Look at yourself in the mirror and embrace what you've become and will become, someone beautiful, powerful and capable of being human.

  • @benyounesshayder1201
    @benyounesshayder1201 Před 5 měsíci +5

    The monsters was under the bed but now theyre in my head

  • @Zemiaza
    @Zemiaza Před 10 měsíci +10

    I feel very weird. Like I’m going to cry and I don’t know why. I’m relaxed any somehow conflicted, tired too.

  • @sako3xx
    @sako3xx Před 5 měsíci +9

    idk if i can do it anymore.

    • @sako3xx
      @sako3xx Před 3 měsíci +2

      barely thuggin this shi out 🤣🤣

  • @chomp727
    @chomp727 Před dnem +1

    wow when i found this song i was just happy to finally have found a calm relaxed not super sad sleeping music. for some its the same like for me and for some its rly sad.
    stay safe and strong people! one day! :c

  • @Lu9cii
    @Lu9cii Před 11 měsíci +8

    This is pure depression

  • @albertodolores
    @albertodolores Před 11 měsíci +41

    Una sonrisa del momento
    Un recuerdo del ayer
    El se mata en pensamientos
    Por momentos que no van a volver .

    • @viniical
      @viniical Před 11 měsíci +5

      ¿Escribiste esto tú mismo?

    • @muramic
      @muramic Před 9 měsíci +2

      Beautiful ❤️

  • @whotrynamrd
    @whotrynamrd Před měsícem +5

    is love too much too ask for?

  • @G.0.A.T100
    @G.0.A.T100 Před 8 měsíci +7

    You know that feeling, when you just wanna feel what feeling last felt like, that feeling that actually feels like what it's like to feel..yea..I can't feel it anymore (I'm going insane)

  • @LaithSamman
    @LaithSamman Před 3 měsíci +6

    2 years clear from hugs 😂😂 (help)

  • @realahhjigga
    @realahhjigga Před 11 měsíci +17

    i wish i could go back to being my happy 6 year old self before everything happened.

  • @adamarrudadelima308
    @adamarrudadelima308 Před 8 měsíci +8

    Will this never end?, Will it be the same thing for my whole life?, I can't take this anymore

  • @Funk0_
    @Funk0_ Před rokem +6

    This picture reminds me of the winters we had in Colorado when I was a kid.

  • @nanabaydoun6648
    @nanabaydoun6648 Před 11 měsíci +5

    Obsessed >>>>

  • @br1tico474
    @br1tico474 Před 9 měsíci +6

    Today I listened to an old audio of hers and I felt sad and started to tear up because I miss her, I liked her but I realized that I lied to myself and I still miss her And I told myself that I didn't feel anything anymore and I would never love again and I'm not going to say goodbye, that's just me venting. Goodbye guys, take care of yourselves

  • @user-mo9xb1cu9k
    @user-mo9xb1cu9k Před 8 měsíci +26

    I hate myself

  • @bobiznc294
    @bobiznc294 Před měsícem +2

    tha feeling that will become when i listen to this song .......😔

  • @Gnarp_darp
    @Gnarp_darp Před 9 měsíci +4

    This gives me such a vibe.

  • @ykufw.J
    @ykufw.J Před 4 měsíci +2

    I've been through so much pain I don't feel it anymore I just know it's there.

  • @elizabeth.anastasiaa
    @elizabeth.anastasiaa Před 10 měsíci +18

    I can’t wait for winter

    • @nicolasbruno829
      @nicolasbruno829 Před 9 měsíci +1

      Same, I want that warm, soft, quiet, nostalgic night-luminance back 😭

    • @tezaksam5247
      @tezaksam5247 Před 9 měsíci

      ​​@@nicolasbruno829i feel like when its winter time its like to look back what youve done and to look what will you do,it feels so surreal and its like when time stops just weird and i want that because im unhappy,this summer was so bad i worked a whole summer,no one ever checked on me,i was just alone going from job to my house alone,and i was hoping to be different than school but it wasnt,no friends no memories nothing to remember but still it was so bad that i will remember that period for the rest of the life
      Sorry for english

    • @nicolasbruno829
      @nicolasbruno829 Před 9 měsíci

      @@tezaksam5247 Yeah, you described it perfectly I love that. I hope you can find peace this winter and afterward, we'll all be looking for it, and I guess we just have to trust that life has good and bad times.
      Also don't beat yourself up, everybody learns languages at their own pace and I understood everything. 👍

    • @tezaksam5247
      @tezaksam5247 Před 9 měsíci

      ​@@nicolasbruno829sorry bro for not answering and in last week i really took life seriously,im trying my best and thats giving me hope for december when like i said for me time stops.
      And i appreciate your answer and i hope you are doing good.

    • @nicolasbruno829
      @nicolasbruno829 Před 9 měsíci

      @@tezaksam5247 Thanks and dw, prioritize life always. I hope you are doing good and keep getting more hope… See you in December 👍

  • @arise_femto
    @arise_femto Před 11 měsíci +31

    same shit, different day.

  • @Ava24528
    @Ava24528 Před 8 měsíci +4

    I love this song sm

  • @chrishelm7754
    @chrishelm7754 Před 6 měsíci +6

    I feel like I’m alone on a bench in a snow storm watching life pass by

  • @johnhonaker2998
    @johnhonaker2998 Před 5 měsíci +4

    This song makes me feel like I'm jumping out of reality .

  • @fran111
    @fran111 Před 4 měsíci +3

    Esta canción, se siente como el final feliz de una película triste.

  • @Isitmatthew
    @Isitmatthew Před rokem +11

    I listened to this 30 times already

  • @yaboibroter
    @yaboibroter Před 6 měsíci +3

    Crazy how everyone wants to feel sad.

  • @Kitkit8972
    @Kitkit8972 Před 5 měsíci +4

    i feel like every time i take a step forward i go 4 steps back

  • @willowum
    @willowum Před 6 měsíci +4

    Bu şarkıyı dinlediğimde çaresizlik üzüntü hissediyorum. Bazende daha farklı, bilmiyorum eskilerin vibe ını veriyor gibi. Garip

  • @cjshutup
    @cjshutup Před 8 měsíci +1

    i love the small guitar plucks so much

  • @wynxamatina
    @wynxamatina Před 4 měsíci +2

    I find this calming❤

  • @ngl.evd0
    @ngl.evd0 Před měsícem +1

    its.. beautiful...

  • @69nCRACKED
    @69nCRACKED Před 11 měsíci +8

    If I lose her I lose everything.

  • @-OopossummzO
    @-OopossummzO Před rokem +7

    Infinite IKEA vibe

  • @zone5036
    @zone5036 Před 8 měsíci +2

    The song of this winter

  • @ybzuq
    @ybzuq Před měsícem

    whenever I listen to this song, it automatically brings me back to him. I remember when we listened to this song together while we were watching the stars together. Although it was dark and totally cold. He told me that the Poison tree reflected his feelings. Poison tree is not only the definition of depression but deeper love. We have known each other for many years now and have loved each other for so long, I have loved him. I am wearing now a necklace with a poison tree on it to remember him. To remind me of us. I love you

  • @marspIanet
    @marspIanet Před 2 měsíci

    i feel like i HAVE to show how good this song is, but i cant express in words.

  • @donniewalters00
    @donniewalters00 Před 11 měsíci +5

    poison tree and limerence have my heart

    • @zxraiiedits
      @zxraiiedits Před 11 měsíci

      Fr tho love them both sm ❤

  • @gamerh.t3439
    @gamerh.t3439 Před 6 měsíci +5

    I am so tired from this feeling
    I am so empty same shit every day like it's been 2 years now i am getting exhausted
    I just wanna know did this feeling will stop
    I really want it to stop i can't resist anymore same thoughts every night same feeling every morning hope one day i can feel happy when i am alone
    If someone passed this situation please tell me

    • @juanenriquemendoza7653
      @juanenriquemendoza7653 Před 5 měsíci

      Look towards the future, not the past.
      Stand strong, find hope in something you truly believe in.
      Set a goal, something bigger than yourself, something bigger than “happiness,” “pleasure,” or “joy.”
      Bet it on purpose
      Make it about your PURPOSE
      find hope in that.
      Never stop fighting for what you believe in.
      Believe in yourself to support the people who you need you the most, including yourself
      Find hope in purpose, find hope in the future.
      What happened in the past, happened
      It IS, inarguably, history.
      Stop looking behind you. Eyes up, and focus on what’s in front of you, the ambitions you’ve set out for yourself.
      Move forward. Rage…
      Fight… always.

  • @karmina_
    @karmina_ Před 10 měsíci +3

    New favorite song for sure, tysm

  • @BecauseThe-zd4ee
    @BecauseThe-zd4ee Před 2 měsíci +2

    This reminds me of 2020😢

  • @bugbo1111
    @bugbo1111 Před 21 dnem +1

    It’s just relaxing in a way even tho it’s like linimal space

  • @aarontapp-xi8sc
    @aarontapp-xi8sc Před 9 měsíci +5

    I think 2012-2019 were the best years of my life. I am 16 now but I wish those times would last. I have so many regrets. I wish me and this girl name Brianna would continue to love each other as we used to but since she is in Florida and I am in the Midwest of the united states this was never possible. I rarely see or talk to her anymore. I have so many feelings balled up inside me I just wanna release them here or anywhere but I must continue to be strong for me and my family and friends.

    • @aarontapp-xi8sc
      @aarontapp-xi8sc Před 9 měsíci +3

      Brianna If you ever see this message just know I will always love you even if you move on and I won't stop you from living the best possible life you can.

  • @buniiprincess
    @buniiprincess Před 11 měsíci +8

    GODDDDDDDDDDD i wish I appreciated the time I had with you I wish I held you more I wish I kissed you more I wish I smelled you more lol I wish I pulled you in more I love you so much at the beginning I wasn’t thinking of the limited time and it went past me so quick without me even realizing. You saved my life, you made me realize that even in this fucked up world I can have you to rest my head on when things got too hard, you were always there for me , you didn’t judge me or my feelings or when all I did was cry uncontrollably… I keep thinking about the little things we did together and it keeps making me cry knowing it’s being taken away from me, i was so stubborn and didn’t realize it till later, i played dumb , you stood by throughout all of my nonsense and made me believe I could be lovable. I love you because you make me feel things; my emotions are on fire when I’m with you, I get to forget about myself for a bit. You did that , I love you so much. And I never want to let go of a part in my life that had you in it because you’re all that could ever make me happy. Please don’t forget me, I will love you forever

  • @lucasaidanbowen
    @lucasaidanbowen Před 4 měsíci +1

    I am in love with him so much. He doesn't even know I look him in that way, but I cannot stop thinking about him, he haunts my mind and that's crazy how I love him. I know he thinks he's worthless, I just want him to know he is unique. He is the loyalest, kindest person on the entire world. I want to hug him, feel him in my arms, feel his heartbeat. In my dreams I'm in a field of dandelions and wishing on every one that he'd be mine. I can't live without him. I can't even fall in love with anybody else, I just want him.

  • @hzm.d5019
    @hzm.d5019 Před 10 měsíci +5

    bro i used to listen to this shit back in winter 2022

  • @A41k0_
    @A41k0_ Před měsícem +3

    I love you stranger.

  • @blanco0949
    @blanco0949 Před 3 měsíci +1

    had the worst deppresive episode of my life in 2021-2022 and listening to it now literally makes my chest hurt from memories of listening to it during that time.

  • @Lov3leaff
    @Lov3leaff Před 10 měsíci +2

    I love the background

  • @user-pf8qy3kl4m
    @user-pf8qy3kl4m Před 6 měsíci +3

    this is the most calming music i ever lisiend 2 i love u bru take care

  • @davidmtuedwa3165
    @davidmtuedwa3165 Před měsícem +1

    for even though ive always been told that seasonal change is inevitable: why does my winter never seem to grow old?

  • @Ceylin-yn8cl
    @Ceylin-yn8cl Před 9 měsíci +3

    Reminds me of 2021.

  • @camilleryan
    @camilleryan Před měsícem +1

    bro, everytime I watch this video, I always get an add beforehand telling me I might be having symptoms of depression that I should get checked... the fact its before this video makes me laugh everytime.

  • @TheFlaminOctanes
    @TheFlaminOctanes Před měsícem +1

    "who have you become?" better than who i was before.

  • @Iuvzach
    @Iuvzach Před 6 měsíci +4

    Bro it's 5:49 AM and I haven't gone to bed yet, i'm a fucking mess I swear to god.

  • @zekesdumbworld
    @zekesdumbworld Před 3 měsíci +1

    This takes me way back to 2019😞

  • @cartervonbroda2691
    @cartervonbroda2691 Před 8 měsíci +3

    i fumbled her🥱

  • @jtx2144
    @jtx2144 Před 3 měsíci +1

    After years since she’s been gone she still pops into my dreams had a dream of her yesterday and it felt so real until I woke up n realized it was just a dream idk why she still pops in my dreams and idk why I still think of a girl that never loved me I always tell myself I’ll never take her back just cause she never loved me but knowing that little part of me I will take her back in a heart beat n it’s sad

  • @RH3TTWA1K3R
    @RH3TTWA1K3R Před 4 měsíci +1

    My hamster just passed away, this made me get all my tears out in a good way.

  • @RV.shorts496
    @RV.shorts496 Před 11 dny +2

    I lost everyone, i don't have anyone, i am all alone, she left, don't know what to do, voices getting louder

    • @user-gl7qs9yv7o
      @user-gl7qs9yv7o Před 9 dny

      Talk to someone you can trust and if you can't please talk to a therapist about this ❤

    • @Yochisfn
      @Yochisfn Před 4 dny +1

      Ok bro look she left you and it’s a good thing she did cuz you still have more time In life and you will find someone better and just cuz she left you doesn’t mean your whole family left so spending more time with family is better then just a girl

  • @bryanmontenegro4885
    @bryanmontenegro4885 Před 4 dny +1

    After leaving the hospital ive been at a state of extreme numbness mentally.

  • @santery9968
    @santery9968 Před 10 měsíci +8

    this reminds me of the days when i wasnt doing good and brings me a mix of calmness and loneliness. as if it reminds me of who i really am at my core. ik this is cringe

    • @bo0ob0o0o
      @bo0ob0o0o Před 10 měsíci +2

      i feel you 🖤

    • @okokayy
      @okokayy Před 10 měsíci +3

      i'm a married man in his 30s with a 9-5 federal government job, i feel you. i'm lonely deep down too.

    • @crueldiary
      @crueldiary Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@okokayy Trust me, you're not alone, and you're going to feel better, not today, maybe not tomorrow, but you will, something you can try is listening to music that makes you feel happy, it's ok if one day you want to cry and need some music to feel like you want to cry, but try listening to music you like and makes you feel better, it really helps. ❤‍🩹

    • @okokayy
      @okokayy Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@crueldiary i had the shittiest day today and have been crying for what feels like the majority of my day, i really needed to read this, thank u i hope ur doing okay on ur side 💙💯

    • @okokayy
      @okokayy Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@crueldiary no im listening to icytwat - threat/reckless 😈

  • @Piiiiiiiiit
    @Piiiiiiiiit Před 2 měsíci +1

    I’m so tired of falling short and letting people down. I feel like i can’t even accomplish the bare minimum anymore. If I’m so miserable in what are supposed to be the best years of my life then what hope does my future of mediocrity hold for me? I’ve been handed everything I need to lead a successful, happy life, but still can’t seem to even get out of bed to feed myself. i’m unmotivated, untalented, unremarkable, seems like the only thing that sets me apart is my complete inability to do or contribute anything of value to whatever i’m a part of. I’m so tired.

  • @israelduarte1189
    @israelduarte1189 Před 5 měsíci +1

    When you want to cry but you just cant anymore. When youve been through so much and put yourself through so much you cant even sympathize with yourself or anyone.

  • @FiveNightsAtFreddys_1
    @FiveNightsAtFreddys_1 Před 5 měsíci +1

    2021 winter hit different

  • @adn-pyro7051
    @adn-pyro7051 Před měsícem +1

    Oh beautiful poison tree... let your power grow in meeee

  • @Jin_Sakai71
    @Jin_Sakai71 Před 10 měsíci +5

    Winter 2019-2020…

  • @nolangonzales8534
    @nolangonzales8534 Před 27 dny +1

    There's nobody for me back home, and there never has been.