Living with Depression english ver. 【Oktavia】憂鬱と生きる【英語で歌ってみた】

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  • čas přidán 25. 08. 2024
  • PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE go support Yanaga Miyuki! They’re an amazingly talented producer who in my opinion doesn’t get the fame they deserve. Unfortunately they don’t have an official CZcams channel but you can follow them on Twitter here! ( / yanagamiyuki )
    And also I encourage you, if you are a Youtaite/Utaite, to perhaps look into covering this song? In whatever language you like (I nearly sung this in Japanese but then I realized how embarrassing my Japanese is still... haha...). I want to see if we can get a lot more covers for this song, and also other songs by Yanaga MIyuki! (Living with Depression inst: piapro.jp/t/7ouO . You need an account to download it, but once you are on the page, scroll down to where you see ‘yuututoikiru(inst)’ and click the blue link below!
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    Lyrics: tinyurl.com/li...
    Please feel free to use them! They’re based off of ForgetfulSubs’ translation.
    Request a song: symphonymermaid...
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    Hi everyone! Sorry about the lack of activity, but September is my slow month. At this point college is starting to pile on the work and tests, so I have to prioritize them over covers, even if I really wish I didn’t have to. Also I briefly caught a cold again this month because of course I did. I’ll attempt to release another cover this month, but definitely no promises as it might be too hard to find the time to record another song before the month is up.
    Anyway, things actually managed to line up in a sense for this song. This month is Suicide Prevention Month so I wanted to do a cover that would maybe speak to those struggling with depression and thoughts of no longer wanting to live. It’s a song that has honestly captured my heart. I mean, every time I get to the “Kimi ga ite/You are here” part I get very teary eyed because yes, I am here, and so are you. Despite everything else.
    If I’m honest, and I will be honest for a moment here because this song just really makes me emotional. Depression isn’t really something that goes away- it’s like an annoying free loader you sort of just have to live with. I’m doing much much better right now myself, but it wasn’t very long ago I was in high school and made a very rash decision. I’m glad that I was stopped because now the idea of ever doing anything like that seems silly. Especially because now I have something to look forward to- seeing all the support, kindness and friendship from this community.
    I know I can’t speak for everyone and I know I don’t know what’s going on in your life. But I hope you can at least find some comfort in this amazing song.
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    ♫ Credits ♫
    Vocals/Sub/Mix: Oktavia
    Music/Lyrics: Yanaga Miyuki (nicovideo.jp/my...)
    Art: Yue ( / yue0313 )

Komentáře • 370

  • @Forgetfulsubs
    @Forgetfulsubs Před 7 lety +1956

    I was gonna make the ‘this cured my depression’ joke but I think that would take away from how beautiful it is . . .

    • @OktaviavonSeckendorff8
      @OktaviavonSeckendorff8  Před 7 lety +268

      i'm glad you liked it ;v; honestly I never would have thought to cover this song nor have known about Yanaga Miyuki if I hadn't seen your subtitles! So thank you sooooo much as always ♡♡♡

    • @oddlysatisfiedviewer8568
      @oddlysatisfiedviewer8568 Před 3 lety +13

      In all seriousness though this would cure depression.

    • @flameshu2
      @flameshu2 Před 3 lety +7

      @@oddlysatisfiedviewer8568 I don't feel cured good song though.

    • @kierandaxton2597
      @kierandaxton2597 Před 3 lety +2

      i dont mean to be so offtopic but does anyone know of a trick to get back into an Instagram account??
      I was dumb forgot the login password. I love any tricks you can give me.

  • @lucymouney2463
    @lucymouney2463 Před 6 lety +633

    "See, I think it finally hit me between depression and glee, that I want to keep on living"
    That line hit me hard (no pun intended), because that's exactly the realization I had a week ago.

    • @herofromthedark
      @herofromthedark Před 4 lety +22

      My comment is 2 years late, but I'm happy for you!!
      Everyday is a struggle for me. Some days are easier than others, but no day is ever easy. A lot of the time I feel hollow, like all that was warm and good inside me has been scratched and scraped out. My spark inside has been burning dimmer and dimmer. I've been listening to some of these songs to keep myself centered and not let it get me so run down, but even so... its hard to keep on living.

    • @PDS350
      @PDS350 Před 3 lety +7

      @@herofromthedark I hope you are still here, if so thank you for staying strong through it all

    • @herofromthedark
      @herofromthedark Před 3 lety +7

      @@PDS350 I'm still here. Thank you for asking. It means a lot!

    • @Yuki.chan33
      @Yuki.chan33 Před 3 lety +1

      Same

  • @LlMlNAL
    @LlMlNAL Před 7 lety +531

    I know this is late. But i just got out of a mental hospital for having depression and psychosis and this song has been helping me through getting back on my feet in the past few days, thank you.

    • @LlMlNAL
      @LlMlNAL Před 4 lety +32

      Wow I commented this two years ago! Haha,,, lots of things have changed and it turns out ya boy doesn’t have just psychosis, but actually DID aswell. I’m so much more stable now and am working hard to get better every day :)

    • @mynameisddotcalm1008
      @mynameisddotcalm1008 Před 3 lety +12

      Cosplay Cat Criminal man broooo. That’s literally so cool that you responded 3 years later lol, and that you’re better now!

    • @kl1934
      @kl1934 Před 3 lety +2

      @@LlMlNAL I'm retarded as fuck.... what's DID?

    • @mynameisddotcalm1008
      @mynameisddotcalm1008 Před 3 lety +4

      @@kl1934 dissociative identity disorder.

    • @kl1934
      @kl1934 Před 3 lety +1

      Thanks!

  • @ZozogamiBuru
    @ZozogamiBuru Před 7 lety +564

    You never cease to amaze me, Oktavia. Such a powerful song with such meaning behind it. I can definitely feel the "I'm here for you" behind your voice as you sing this tune, something many people struggling with depression (myself included) have been longing to hear for a while. On behalf of these people, I want to thank you for covering this. Keep up the good work! ^^

    • @OktaviavonSeckendorff8
      @OktaviavonSeckendorff8  Před 7 lety +37

      i'm going to cry really messy
      THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT i'm so touched you listen to my stuff because I honestly admire your work so so much, and I'm really glad that I was able to reach you! ( ;∀;)

  • @yinyang-p9265
    @yinyang-p9265 Před 7 lety +504

    Man, Oktavia... I'm so glad that whatever decision you tried to make in high school, it didn't work out well, because I really can't imagine a world without you in it, doing your very best to brighten up everyone's day. I'd been doing pretty well for quite some time, and then all of a sudden, a few weeks back, depression hit me hard again. These covers really do help me feel better, and hopefully soon, everything will go back to normal. Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to create this amazing masterpiece for everyone to enjoy!

  • @alanderful9656
    @alanderful9656 Před 7 lety +2038

    i find it funny how suicide prevention month is the same month that school starts

    • @elenacienfuegos8450
      @elenacienfuegos8450 Před 6 lety +176

      It's because lost one weeping.

    • @wriolettesy
      @wriolettesy Před 5 lety +141

      Probably because of how school increases suicidal thoughts for many.

    • @jefferyC
      @jefferyC Před 5 lety +12

      If school makes you 'think about suicide' then you aren't really thinking of suicide

    • @denizyuksel5093
      @denizyuksel5093 Před 5 lety +134

      @@jefferyC Stress in school can lead you to that if combined with other factors, albeit i think that what he/she meant is a far cry from what is correct.

    • @morimori7456
      @morimori7456 Před 5 lety +55

      the worst part is how your social anxiety gets in the way at the beginning and everything feels like hell
      and my birthday is the same month and it gets even worse

  • @crossover2986
    @crossover2986 Před 6 lety +222

    i've known all kinds of people with different depressions. clinical definitions, suffering, abuse-it hangs like a storm cloud over my life, with all the people around me. i see it more than anyone, and i suffer from it some, too. this song... i understand. even when i don't really understand a lot, this, i do. this is a song about living with that kind of desolation, unable to claw up, and yet still walking forward every day-and just maybe finding one more reason to keep going, somewhere in the anarchy.
    even though i know it's just pointless, unheard commentary, i want to thank you for showing this to people. and i want to thank all of you for listening. even if it's a little impersonal... it means a lot. thank you, and good luck.
    -The Nonsense Speaker

    • @genomerc
      @genomerc Před 6 lety +12

      Its never pointless in the end, someone will always see what you do,,even the smallest acts of kindness are seen, even a single comment. Maybe you dont know it but other people do. Also hang it there, and like you said "yet still walking forward every day-and just maybe finding one more reason to keep going". There are a lot of reasons to keep going, you just gotta look, even when its hard, strive to make your life worth living and maybe make someone else's life worth living too. Because while helping other people, you kinda end up helping yourself as well. I believe you can get better, I did it, so maybe you can too, not in the same way, well maybe, Im not sure, because everyone heals in their own way. Im not the one you probably didnt want to reply to you but here I am...do my best to help
      -The Unasked for Speaker

    • @littlepidgey6062
      @littlepidgey6062 Před 5 lety +1

      +GenoMerc thank you x

    • @hyoriittai5411
      @hyoriittai5411 Před 4 lety +5

      Nonsense speaker as in the song cuz if yes then I see what you did there

  • @Dead__Space
    @Dead__Space Před 3 lety +52

    As disturbing as Googles constant spying is, I'm grateful it led to so many beautiful songs that have helped me through the toughest part of my life (so far). Thank you, Oktavia.

  • @_ladyyadzra2731
    @_ladyyadzra2731 Před 3 lety +34

    Lyrics!
    A brand new skirt and
    view through the window,
    moving out on a 1, 2, ready to go.
    Any place, any place, any place.
    On or beyond the road.
    Don't need to read a tweet,
    post or anything.
    No complex text will own me
    when I can sing.
    Any phrase, any phrase, any phrase.
    I'd like through lightless mornings.
    That person fallen. Broken,
    once we'd point and joke around them,
    throwing sticks and stones.
    Ah, that one word, sole sound,
    still pounds on you even now.
    Fervent to persist in hitting you down.
    I'll pencil in emotions of today,
    so I'm aware of where
    it stared me in the face.
    Ah, ah, ah.
    That feeling's peeling away.
    I paint each day gone gray
    with a rainbow
    of music I find therapeutic,
    although
    not a, not a, not a tune stays
    to save my good mood.
    Kindness blessed my life,
    and I didn't note it's price,
    pressured others to be nice.
    I really believed that we both
    shared the same despair
    and I truly saw
    the cause of your cries!
    Through all, you've survived.
    To me, that means more
    than words can describe.
    No reason, no why.
    I'm simply happy
    to see you by my side.
    See, I think it finally hit me.
    Between depression and glee,
    that I want to keep on living!

  • @eruanee
    @eruanee Před 7 lety +131

    Honestly, thank you so much. I love the original version to death, and I really needed to listen to this song right now, I think. The first time I heard this song, I expected it to be negative, and its positive meaning makes me cry, tbh. This is such a great cover and again you impressed me.
    gosh im so emotional

  • @LeviAckerman-tn4zj
    @LeviAckerman-tn4zj Před 6 lety +89

    LIVING with depression.
    I cannot believe I discovered you just now...

  • @ebebeyun897
    @ebebeyun897 Před 7 lety +64

    tHE CHORD AT 4:21 HIT ME O H MY GOODNESS OKTAVIA
    OKTAVIA OH M YYYY GOODNESS

  • @florille2186
    @florille2186 Před 7 lety +145

    I nyoomed here as quick as I could

  • @thebingus7243
    @thebingus7243 Před 5 lety +136

    Alright so here to provide my analysis on the song meaning because I'm sick of people saying it's too cheerful. Essentially the speaker is sick of feeling down and not getting better so she resorts to trying to move on. The happy music is there as symbolism that she wants both herself and the people around her to believe she is fine. She covers up her depression with music mostly and trying to seek out to others however she fails. In the end though she finds the truth between her cheerful facade and her depression that wants to be okay and she wants to keep trying.

  • @misopaste
    @misopaste Před 7 lety +80

    Your harmonies have me shook as fook

  • @rowanadam8878
    @rowanadam8878 Před 7 lety +42

    Yanaga Miyuki is such a talented producer, I love the chill, clean quality of their instrumentals. Thanks for singing this!

  • @miirukuutiia9725
    @miirukuutiia9725 Před 7 lety +72

    Wonderful cover Oktavia!
    Your voice is soooooo smooth in this song, and beautiful. Never forget that we are always here for you, no matter what!!
    If you need a break because of college, then say the word. You need that time to do your work and to just rest yourself and your voice 😊
    And this producer does seem to be doing good on these songs. Very emotional. Nice choice in the song!!
    We lubyuu Oktavia!! ♥️♥️♥️

  • @maxaroni39
    @maxaroni39 Před 7 lety +29

    Oktavia, I'm so happy you're here. Thank you for sharing your story, and to anyone else reading, we are here for you! I struggle with anxiety and OCD on a daily basis, and often find myself depressed without a reason. You and your music have helped me cope and always lift up my spirits. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

    • @anisa3962
      @anisa3962 Před 6 lety +2

      Roni Finn Hello, we struggle with the same things! 💖 Glad to see I'm not alone on it ;; I hope it gets better for you!

    • @maxaroni39
      @maxaroni39 Před 6 lety +1

      uwu anisanao Thank you! Things have been getting better, little by little. I hope that things will get better for you, too ♡

  • @graceforrest3024
    @graceforrest3024 Před 7 lety +704

    Hey, since your the mermaid witch, are you interested in becoming a human? Cause I could help you with that
    All it will cost is your voice

    • @erossore271
      @erossore271 Před 6 lety +33

      Contract?

    • @twintwail
      @twintwail Před 6 lety +14

      Few months later and this comment still makes me laugh wth

    • @enamelalchemist
      @enamelalchemist Před 6 lety +9

      MELZ0DY hey buddy pal chum i see you’re depressed enough to still be here
      also same oof

    • @twintwail
      @twintwail Před 6 lety +11

      I saw this notif on my phone and I honestly thought it was from a undertale video i commented a on few years ago and i wanted to cringe so badly

    • @user-hk7en6gs1m
      @user-hk7en6gs1m Před 4 lety +2

      Even though this is from 2 years ago every time I see this comment I laugh -

  • @thebattycatalystgloommulad1731

    I’m crying.
    Thank you all for existing.

  • @marshieaika9318
    @marshieaika9318 Před 7 lety +50

    I always relate to this as well as Failure Girl. I always make mistakes and they always have high expectations. But due to that, I lived with parents punishing me when I didn't meet their expectations. I really wanted to die, thinking that I'll be happy in the next but I was scared to. Instead I found anime and Vocaloid. I still was abit depressed until I found an otaku who I can share everything. It made me relive those memories. Such a bittersweet melody. Thank you. :)

  • @wolfforest5112
    @wolfforest5112 Před 5 lety +15

    Every time I hear the line "I think it finally hit me between depression and glee, that I want to keep on living", it helps me remind myself of that. I really do want to continue with my life even if it becomes difficult to handle because it is mine, and I do have moments where I wouldn't trade anything for my life and my friends that I hold dear. So I just want to say thank you Oktavia for singing this powerful song which I have come to regard as a personal anthem

  • @MCChubbyUnicorn
    @MCChubbyUnicorn Před rokem +13

    Weird, this song is hitting a lot harder now that I am actually taking care of my mental health now. Anxiety and depression are like an abusive relationship: it makes you question if you are actually being abused after a time, and you don't realize how bad it really is until you at least somewhat get away from it.

  • @Magicalwolfgamer
    @Magicalwolfgamer Před 11 měsíci +3

    I love this song!! I have depression and anxiety. I had to go in this may of 2023 . But hey I am still here. I’ve gotten a little better but it’s getting to the point where I can manage my depression with out having a relapse Of self ha3m .

    • @FakemakerJoey
      @FakemakerJoey Před 4 měsíci

      That’s good. I don’t know you or anything, but I’m glad you’re doing okay

  • @connorbabylon5957
    @connorbabylon5957 Před 2 lety +14

    When I was 16 I listened to this song every single day. Thank you for being one of my coping with depression :)
    I'm 18 now and I'm starting to feel healthy again.

  • @lemonboy7250
    @lemonboy7250 Před 4 lety +29

    hey, you reading this.
    I'm so glad that youre still here today reading this comment! Though we dont personally know eachother, i am proud of you 💖 Keep living for better days and it will surely one day come. JUST BELIEVE.

    • @redberyl9157
      @redberyl9157 Před 4 lety

      No u

    • @NijaKiwi
      @NijaKiwi Před 4 lety

      Welp so then imma ask u some question
      *did we get over our depression or did we get used to it?*

    • @redberyl9157
      @redberyl9157 Před 4 lety

      @@NijaKiwi I just accepted my depression. So I probably used to it

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety

      Thanks for the comment, Alex, and I feel the same towards you. I’m glad a good person like you exists. Something is only impossible because we deem it so. Use the force! Do or do not, there is no try!

  • @hoppe5932
    @hoppe5932 Před 7 lety +18

    Ever since I saw your comment on the original subbed upload, I was waiting for you to cover this. This song is one of my personal favorites and you did amazing job covering it. Thank you so much for this ♡

  • @triscuitpeepee
    @triscuitpeepee Před 3 lety +9

    i cant find my old comment, but i listened to this a year ago when I was very suicidal and wanting to end my life. a year later, im glad im here to listen to this beautiful song again and know that the hard part is over, and if I could handle that shit last year, im strong enough to do it again.
    thank you oktavia!

  • @forestdragon778
    @forestdragon778 Před 6 lety +38

    Long(?) text wall below.
    The part involving music keeping the mood hit me hard, as someone with overwhelming social anxiety and growing frequency in panic attacks, I use Music to help me with it. So that hit home for me, this entire song, actually, even though I don’t know if I have depression. I still get random thoughts..but I know. They’re just thoughts. And every time I get those thoughts...I just tell myself. “Hey, Me? Your life isn’t half over, live it with all your life! give it all you got! Don’t give up!”
    Thank you for reading.
    And...
    Thank you for covering this song.

  • @guessimshakespeare7736
    @guessimshakespeare7736 Před rokem +12

    3:49 Dude I literally started sobbing when she sings “Through all, you’ve survived. To me, that means more than I describe.” It feels almost like validation that I’ve lived so long. I actually have such a bad problem with wanting to live that I’ve decided I’m living off of spite for probably the rest of my life, cause anger at life and the awful people around me keeps me going more than anything. I’m actually getting to a weird point, back when I was younger, I was betting on how long I’d live, and next week I’ll be three years past when I was betting.

  • @sunnyshine6532
    @sunnyshine6532 Před 6 lety +12

    I'm not even gonna rant about how late I am. I do not care. I am just glad I found it. I have severe depression and this song made me cry happily. I love it. It is a way I would express myself. Love it

  • @Madreck_DoesRandomStuff
    @Madreck_DoesRandomStuff Před 3 lety +5

    Okay, am I the only one who thought of how nature can be so beautiful throughout the entire song?
    As in clean beaches with turquoise waters, clear starry night skies, the sun shining over flower meadows, etc.
    This is honestly the most beautiful song I've ever heard. I think I'mma go paint now.

  • @daivionterry5241
    @daivionterry5241 Před měsícem +1

    2024 and I’m still coming back to this song because of how meaningful it is

  • @emocrybaby
    @emocrybaby Před 3 lety +5

    This song is so beautiful
    I've suffered with depression for years now this song really makes me feel like I'm not alone it makes me feel a lot better than usual thank you for making this

  • @Kirsedd
    @Kirsedd Před 5 lety +7

    i love this song! for this past year, i've been going through a lot, especially adjusting as a freshman in highschool. i've listened to countless songs, but only this song has been so damn accurate about my feelings. the part where she is sad and lonely, to the part where it says kindness blessed my life but we were just too blind to see it, the part where she says we share the same despair and the i want to keep living part. This song is simply beautiful and makes me happy and sad in the same time since it makes me recall the past, but its also a reminder for me about the decisions and challenges i had to face to get to where i am today

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety +1

      Yeah, it’s important to try and notice the little kindnesses we receive from others in life. They are a sign to reach out to those people. Also, it proves that the good things about ourselves are true, and proves that the negative things people say about us are lies. It’s easy to hate and be mean, anyone can do it. Being kind and keeping your heart open to others is hard, people only do it when they feel it’s important and true! 1 kind word is worth more than 10,000 insults.

    • @Kirsedd
      @Kirsedd Před 2 lety

      i honestly forgot i even commented this lmao
      since i posted this comment, I've been through a lot, but my life is so much better now and I'm so glad i kept on pushing through. I'm graduating junior highschool this year and I'm actually doing and pursuing the things I've always wanted. i hope past freshman me is proud

  • @HoryYutsukiYainima
    @HoryYutsukiYainima Před 6 lety +6

    I had listened to living with depression when it got released and I had been on and off from listening covers lately... But your voice has so much of a deepness on this song, your soul is totally in it and it makes me wonder what kind of person can sing this wonderful song so perfectly!
    Thank you so much for covering my favourite song.

  • @eloise4392
    @eloise4392 Před 7 lety +11

    Finally! I was looking for a cover of this song ever since I saw ForgetfulSubs' video! As magnificent as usual, Oktavia.

  • @Slaggedfire
    @Slaggedfire Před 2 lety +4

    This really is very beautiful, and I feel drawn to this the same way I am drawn to hated by life itself. I relate to it.

  • @starscandietootm1304
    @starscandietootm1304 Před 7 lety +33

    I've looked for so long for someone to cover this song! Maybe I should become a Youitaite.

    • @OktaviavonSeckendorff8
      @OktaviavonSeckendorff8  Před 7 lety +8

      DO ITTTTT

    • @starscandietootm1304
      @starscandietootm1304 Před 7 lety +6

      I wish I could. One, I don't even know how to begin with taking out the original voice and putting it with mine. Too I don't have a microphone. 3 I'm too young and also I'm not allowed to have a CZcams channel. Maybe I could use the singing app but like I said I don't have a microphone. I won't be able to post it on CZcams but I'll try some way. I'm also bad at translating things

    • @andylim6643
      @andylim6643 Před 6 lety +1

      I think it's ok to ask, credit and borrow the other parts that you don't have the experience to fill (such as lyrics and karaoke soundtracks). Don't let all the pieces of work discourage you. I think a lot of people are friendly to give you a helping hand when you get started. Then you can progressively tackle the parts you are interested in getting better at.

  • @skylet3245
    @skylet3245 Před 6 lety +3

    The instrumental combined with your lyrics honestly feels so bittersweet. This song is beautiful, making me feel both more energised and like crying, I guess?

  • @michanforever
    @michanforever Před 7 lety +2

    As someone with severe depression, this song was already really important to me, so hearing your lovely cover is just...so amazing, honestly. As in I'm tearing up as I even type this comment. I mean, a few years ago I reached a new low and almost did something really rash too, but I managed to stop myself and get help. And it's a really long road, but I'm improving. Recovery isn't linear. But I'm getting there.
    Idk how to even say it? I'm just. glad you're here. And I'm glad to be here too, knowing there's support out there. Thank you so much, I look forward to your future covers (but don't overwork yourself tho, school can be so tiring lol)

    • @littlepidgey6062
      @littlepidgey6062 Před 5 lety +1

      'Recovery isn't linear'
      Thank you, when I get bad it's hard to remember these things but that's very true and I needed that right now- thank you

  • @roy-nyan
    @roy-nyan Před měsícem

    I remember discovering this channel a few years ago and thinking 'why isn't there over 100k subscribers yet, this girl's voice is amazing' and subscribed.
    I'm happy for you now, and this remains to be my favorite cover to this day.

  • @miirukuutiia9725
    @miirukuutiia9725 Před 7 lety +134

    rEMEMBER!! WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!
    And those who have been in depression or anything of the sorts 😊
    REmeMbeR!! WE ARE ALWAYS HERE!! U NEED HELP, COME TO US! We are here!

    • @hibikikuze1876
      @hibikikuze1876 Před 5 lety +3

      Depression can really consume someone to the point where they can't pull themselves out in which they need something or someone to get it of it.

    • @hibikikuze1876
      @hibikikuze1876 Před 5 lety +2

      It has been hard for those like me who are slowly sinking even if we struggle it doesn't guaranty we can live like we want to.

    • @metametodo
      @metametodo Před 4 lety +2

      I'd recommend you look carefully at your words. What I'm saying isn't directed at you specifically, however what you wrote made me feel the necessity to express this.
      Depression is more debilitating than that, not as simple. I truly appreciate your and all offers of help. But I feel that simultaneously it is deeply necessary to make clear how unhelpful it can be to say "come here and I'll help you". This is unrealistic, and even clashes a bit with the principles of "offering help". Depression especially is absurdly debilitating in a way that some days you may not even be able to move a finger to eat food, by sheer and pure apathy. In these grave situations simply talking can feel hard, like answering "yes" for an offering of a food you like (example from personal experience).
      So I ask you to imagine the complexity and viability of asking for help, be it from one's best friend, who loves you the most. There's many ways someone depressed can fail at asking for help, many are distortions of reality, such as temporarily believing everyone hates you. It isn't any easy to go and ask for help.
      This is September, suicide awareness month apparently. And it reinforces the message I'm trying to give. I deeply appreciate whatever help and compassion people manage to offer, and I feel bad to write all this as if it were to you reader only, I'm sorry for that. But I hope people become more aware that helping is more than sending suicide lines phone numbers, or saying "you can dm me when feeling bad, you can tell me everything!".
      Helping is by definition a pro-active activity, and with mental illnesses that pro-activeness becomes even more crucial. It's best if you can check on people, promote activities together, just being together may help them a bit already, even better if you encourage activities that let them open up, take part in physical exercises, practice their hobbies. For you to be doing and planning such things is a great blessing for someone who is locked inside their room, laying on the floor for the last 2 hours completely lost in their thoughts. Sometimes all you can do is listen, maybe you're able to encourage them to speak a bit more, or just being together, hugging, being present.
      Asking for them to come at you isn't realistic and you're asking them to do much of the job, when they simply cannot even feel alive properly. It's usually up for the helpers to make a starting move, if they really are willing to help people. (And of course, no one is obligated to help, and you can help to the point you're able or want to, but I'm really tired of how common it is to people put out an image of helper while not acting much)

  • @lemontealife
    @lemontealife Před 7 lety +3

    I loved this song from the first time I heard it. Not only from how it sounded but also the meaning behind it. Thank you so much for covering this; it really made my day, Oktavia!

  • @Torlaine
    @Torlaine Před 11 měsíci +1

    It's the 6th anniversary of this cover and I still continue to listen to it from time to time after this long.
    I'm finally starting to get better and enjoying life :D
    Thank you so much for this beautiful cover

  • @inkwriter3736
    @inkwriter3736 Před 7 lety +14

    I can't tell if it's the temp in my room or this song because I got the c h i l l s.
    Beautiful work Oktavia!

  • @kel34
    @kel34 Před 4 lety +3

    I’ve been depressed for atleast 7 years. every single thing I do gets stopped by my lack of energy and sleep. Everywhere I go, I feel alone. Even with thousands of people around me. It hurts really bad. I’ve tried to end it all over 14 times. I have so much to go for, but I don’t wanna live life alone anymore. to whoever sees this, don’t make the same decision I’m making. farewell, earth.

    • @macev1385
      @macev1385 Před 4 lety

      Please know that you will be missed

    • @violetaxdxd6294
      @violetaxdxd6294 Před 4 lety

      Hey, are you there? Please, I want to talk

    • @rainehilbero9626
      @rainehilbero9626 Před 3 lety +3

      I won't tell you life is precious or those dramatic shit and I won't dare to compare you're situation over mine BUT PLEASE, LIVE ON NOT FOR ME, NOT FOR ANYBODY BUT FOR YOU! EASY TO SAY BUT I REASSURE YOU'RE NOT ALONE, we will get through this.
      Please, continue living.

    • @kel34
      @kel34 Před 3 lety

      Malena Arcila I’m here.

    • @kel34
      @kel34 Před 3 lety

      Raine Hilbero I tried.

  • @TheWinterHaze
    @TheWinterHaze Před 7 lety +4

    This was absolutely gorgeous Oktavia. The art you chose is beautiful, and it explains so much about depression with its subtleties. Your singing was beautiful too of course! And IM so happy you did it in English. I just got back from 2 days of comicon and am both internally, and externally exhausted from everything! When I got home my emotions were outta wack, and seeing this new upload made me ecstatic. Its so upbeat, yet tells a sad story at the same time. Its just what I needed, thank you

  • @nothinghere1698
    @nothinghere1698 Před 5 lety +20

    A cheery tune which doesn't fit its message is what depression is all about. We hide it away because we don't want to upset those that we love.
    Just like the song describes, this kind of music is therapeutic because it shows just how much we can relate to one another through a shared tune.
    It lets us know that there are other people who feel just as miserable as we do. This is something to be cherished.

  • @djcinnamonpuff4703
    @djcinnamonpuff4703 Před 7 lety +39

    Maybe you could do a cover of Appetite of a People Pleaser by GHOST?

  • @omfgsunny
    @omfgsunny Před 7 lety +4

    Tragically beautiful. An incredibly emotional cover and gives me chills every time I hear it.

  • @jehantiny_burn8869
    @jehantiny_burn8869 Před 6 lety +1

    oktavia i know this has been out for literal months but you released this cover right as i moved to college and honestly it's been so helpful for me? i'm chronically ill and my body is getting worse and worse, and that's been really hard to deal with, especially in a new place, and this song has been genuinely helpful for me, and is actively getting me to be more positive. it's beautiful, your voice fits it perfect, and your lyrics are stunning.

  • @f0x1ro1
    @f0x1ro1 Před 6 lety +11

    In everyone of us, there is another person, what cries when we pretend nothing happened. Every emotional wave leaves big scars on that person. On our soul. But this only makes our soul harder. Until it can feel nothing...
    Its kinda too easy to break a human, don't you think?

    • @hellraiser217
      @hellraiser217 Před 6 lety

      Not at all. If only people were more driven by rationality rather than emotional impulse they might be a little less helpless when it came to solving their own circumstances. Besides that, your definition of breaking and mine are different. A human is broken when they lose the ability to reason, not when they lose the ability to feel anything. You do not need to feel in order to think nor do you neccessarily need it to be useful. A person without emotion is defective but serviceable, a person without the capability to act in some semblance of a reasonable manner is broken beyond usage. At least, so says the utilitarian side of me.
      What other part is left says that such musings are for those with time to waste and nothing worthwhile to do for it's meaningless really. After all, most of those who make use of us will scarcely know our names unless we endeavor to make ourselves truly outstanding which I'm not willing to do. After all, the lives of the truly remarkable seem truly quite miserable.

    • @f0x1ro1
      @f0x1ro1 Před 6 lety

      You are true. Some way.

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety

      It’s actually extremely hard to “break” a human being. It takes something like a government controlling every aspect of life in society to even be possible. Evil only exists because people aren’t allowed to stop it. Persecution only exists because people are isolated and separated from each other. Torture and brainwashing only happen because people don’t know what it looks like and don’t know how to defend against it. And broken hearts only exist because people can’t see the wounds to help heal.
      Broken people can always be fixed and put back together with help from others.
      I’ve spent my life trying to understand everything about pain and human behavior, and honestly, I’m disappointed with how plausible saving the world actually is. 😎

  • @Elizabeth-hu9os
    @Elizabeth-hu9os Před 7 lety +14

    I saw this and dropped everything to watch it XD

  • @crimsonplantnurse
    @crimsonplantnurse Před 6 lety +5

    My friend attempted suicide two days ago. She survived and I went to see her in the hospital yesterday. This song keeps me going. Thank you 💜

    • @littlepidgey6062
      @littlepidgey6062 Před 5 lety +3

      I'm sorry to hear that, I hope both of you are okay ❤️

  • @h.j8400
    @h.j8400 Před 7 lety +16

    Omg, I really love your voice ❤️ this is awesome asdfgdff

  • @armandofornario8071
    @armandofornario8071 Před 5 lety +1

    Whenever i have a anxiety/panic attack i always reach out for this song, it makes me calm down, thank you for covering it oktavia

  • @Littlepain98
    @Littlepain98 Před 2 lety +1

    I'm so glad I found this song and you. It's great to always come back to this. The feeling this fits helps explain to my friends/family rather easily.

  • @hatchet_fish
    @hatchet_fish Před 4 lety +9

    i really find this video relatable cuz living with depression can be quite painful without anyone helping you through life. if you have someone who's helping you throughout your depression they usually can bring you up and make you happy, though without somebody could bring you down. please if you have somebody and you have these issues, try to interact with that friend as much as you can! don't hang out with any toxic friends, please, i beg of you.
    i used to have severe depression but it got much better when i hung out with friends of mine who were not toxic.
    anyways sorry for my bad grammar i'm not english, i'm japanese !! enjoy the day (っ´ω`c)

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety +1

      I agree. Want to be friends and help each other out?

  • @MichisDanglyAngly
    @MichisDanglyAngly Před 7 lety +1

    i love u and i love this and i'm honestly a lil speechless reading ur description. thank you for staying here.

  • @Tommyjoe577
    @Tommyjoe577 Před 3 lety +3

    I love this song so much it's just so beautiful

  • @kitsuneayano
    @kitsuneayano Před rokem +1

    Your songs covers are just so peaceful to listen to when I have deep thoughts and just need some good music to calm me down from things in life and gives me inspiration for my art .

  • @Mixypup
    @Mixypup Před 3 lety +3

    Me: “huh living with depression.” *CLICK* me: “I DIDNT KNOW DEPRESSION COULD BE THIS VIBEY”

  • @Wortwort-Spooderbat
    @Wortwort-Spooderbat Před 4 lety +2

    this song saves my life so much many a time. i relate to it all. thank you so much for creating this. you've saved so many lives im sure including me

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety +2

      Thanks for your comment. Little things can make a big difference in people’s lives. I’m going to keep trying to help people because of your comment! What I do might not seem to matter to me, but it could mean a lot to the people I help.

  • @spiderlover6993
    @spiderlover6993 Před 3 lety +1

    When living with depression you learn to cry and smile at the same time. I do have to admit I teared up a little.

  • @AndyCandy3110
    @AndyCandy3110 Před 2 lety +2

    I am deeply in-love with your Covers. Thank you :). ❤️

  • @ladylacrimosa7823
    @ladylacrimosa7823 Před 6 lety +3

    Somebody one told me that pain is temporary, and that thing that they said is what kept me from doing something that i would regret. Anyone else going through the same thing, remember that everything that your going through is temporary. You're not going to keep your hand stuck in the middle of those painful thorns, you're going to push through and get that rose. Yeah yeah, i know, you're probably thinking 'but doing you have to pull your hand back out?'. Yes, yes you do. But once again, that is temporary. How long you feel that pain all depends on how long you stop thinking about the reason that you're going through the trouble of getting past the pain. And if you thought that the thorns represented depression, you're wrong. That want/need to get that rose is the depression, going through the thrones is starting recovery, grabbing the rose is emotional stability, and then getting back out is finishing up recovery, and lastly finally out of the bush and bandaging up the wounds from that event is moving on. Long process, i know, but once again, its worth it.

    • @littlepidgey6062
      @littlepidgey6062 Před 5 lety

      This is true, pain means it's getting a little better, the numbness is worse- where it makes you want to give up

    • @sayoriutsugj2856
      @sayoriutsugj2856 Před 5 lety

      I honestly think there are no help options because of the situation im thinking way to much about even though my thoughts probably aren’t true. So ive list all hole and the only reason im still alive is it would break someones heart.

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety

      Good explanation

  • @DemiNiBlack
    @DemiNiBlack Před 4 lety +1

    This song is beautiful ~ It took a moment to parse the way the lyrics flow, but once we got an ear for it the song flowed well. Thank you for sharing this with us!

  • @indigoparadox
    @indigoparadox Před 7 lety +1

    Just FYI, not only is your voice moving, it's also beautiful. I really like beautiful things, so as always, my thanks for sharing!

  • @sophiajames6742
    @sophiajames6742 Před 4 lety +2

    every day people are always making fun of me for no reason whatsoever, this is the very first time I hear this song and it made me cry. TYSM oktavia for making a english cover of this song. TYSM!!!

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety +2

      All those people who make fun of you, they are wrong and what they say is a lie. Try not to believe or listen to the things they say, because that’s what the bad guys want. Thank you for writing this comment, thank you for telling the truth and speaking out about what’s happening to you! If you ever have self-doubt or want to talk, message me on my channel. My name is Jake, I hope we can be friends 😁

    • @skylarlark1987
      @skylarlark1987 Před 3 lety

      @@Sav3TheWorld Thank You!

  • @Weeb_Fox
    @Weeb_Fox Před 6 lety +1

    As someone with depression, I listen to this when it becomes too much to take.
    You help. Thank you.

  • @zanakozue9897
    @zanakozue9897 Před 4 lety +1

    Your amazing. Keep up the good work oktavia. You help more than you know😊 this song is amazing

  • @crystalsuka6004
    @crystalsuka6004 Před 3 lety +1

    Honestly, I love this song. Who knew a song could make you both happy and sad.

  • @daivionterry5241
    @daivionterry5241 Před 2 lety +4

    first comment in 2022, some parts of this song really hits home

  • @ladyofthesith1943
    @ladyofthesith1943 Před 5 lety +1

    I can't get over how great this art is, especially her hair.

  • @zakuro8532
    @zakuro8532 Před 3 lety +1

    I am thankful for having this day, a full stomach, a peaceful life and loving family.

  • @ashlynnplummer5123
    @ashlynnplummer5123 Před 2 lety +1

    I think you just saved me. Sincerely, thank you. ❤️

  • @Elizabeth-hu9os
    @Elizabeth-hu9os Před 6 lety +7

    I can relate to this😭. This is pretty much my life. This girl is actually me... I couldn't stop crying when I watched this... the girl is so similar to me. Music saves me. Just like it helps her. I just.... I... she is me... Thanks once again for such an amazing and beautiful cover Oktavia. You always help me struggle through the day with your amazing voice. Thank you so, so much.

  • @alexandershiramoto7764
    @alexandershiramoto7764 Před 6 lety +1

    I swear to god the visual are beautiful. The way the girl emotion/expression change just felt so heartwarming for me. Oh and of course the song is also a masterpiece

  • @yourverybestfriend7920

    Like three months ago I discovered this song, and searched all over for some sort of cover on it, and was heartbroken because I thought it'd just stay under-appreciated and I'd never be able to listen to it and understand it beyond subtitles. I searched all over for covers and found nothing (low-key hoping that I'd find one of you covering, but not getting my hopes up). I hugely appreciate you covering this!

  • @CaityCat
    @CaityCat Před 7 lety +1

    I'm glad to see this, I've adored this song for awhile, and thought it didn't seem to get as much love as it should.

  • @yamihikari7857
    @yamihikari7857 Před 6 lety +2

    I'm so happy you are doing better!
    I'm not doing very good right now, and I'm only 14, trying to stay alive.. But I know I have to keep ny faith that things get better.
    Your wonderful voice and the songs you cover are just a masterpiece and can really help!~
    Thank you. 💕😊

  • @valxena9640
    @valxena9640 Před 7 lety +3

    I can't put to words how much this song means to me. I wrote translyrics for this song a while back, but whether lack of equipment or fear of not doing it just, something always kept me from covering. I... I'll try to cover it, because of what you asked. I don't think I have depression, I've never been diagnosed. But I've had points in my life where I thought dying would be better than staying here and pulling everyone around me down. But somehow, I'd come out of it alive and promptly beat myself up over thinking that way. Then I would have 'justified' (not actually, but in my mind) thoughts of suicide. It's been a never ending cycle since I graduated high school. But this past summer, I finally found some strength to stop it. Obviously, that doesn't work on its own. It's still hard at times, but I know one thing is absolutely certain.
    I don't want to die.
    The last thing I ever want to do is take my life away from the people around me. It would be selfish of me, I think. But at the end of the day, I know deep down that my real reason is that I want to keep on living for my own sake. Which ... seems selfish in itself. But if it's the selfishness that keeps me alive as opposed to the alternative, then I can accept that I'm selfish.
    I don't want to feel those deep sadnesses anymore. But I also understand that they will be part of my life. And I'm learning to live with it, depression or not.
    So, thank you for covering this song. Again, I'll try to cover it too, but I've been trying to for about 5 monthes, haha. I wrote the lyrics back in April, sooo, there's not a whole lot of hope, but I'll try.
    Thank you for singing, to this day.

    • @Sav3TheWorld
      @Sav3TheWorld Před 3 lety +1

      It’s good to be selfish about good things. I want to help people, so I do it!

  • @suneater9106
    @suneater9106 Před 7 lety

    I'm so happy you covered this!!!! This song has been my favorite for so so long and you give this song justice with your voice!!! Thank you so much for gifting us this

  • @dasherboyaj554
    @dasherboyaj554 Před 3 lety +2

    I feel this song now
    SO so very much..

  • @aquartzy5418
    @aquartzy5418 Před 4 lety +1

    This...the art ..the sound is priceless😭❤

  • @jonathanpayne8699
    @jonathanpayne8699 Před 7 lety

    Thanks for covering this song, Oktavia! I was feeling a bit down but this really lifted my spirits!

  • @sunlaa7221
    @sunlaa7221 Před 7 lety

    Really good Oktavia! I hope you continue to work on these song covers and do well in school, because we'll be here for you!

  • @crescentcreme
    @crescentcreme Před 7 lety +1

    Your voice is gold! So beautiful! The melody is amazing! Really, it’s amazing

  • @kyunu-kun
    @kyunu-kun Před 6 lety +2

    I've been facing a decision in my life, and your voice literally saved me. Thank you ;v;

  • @yangwenli9808
    @yangwenli9808 Před 6 lety +2

    I feel I hit a wall and I can’t get up. Life seems just an obstacle I need to get through everyday. I don’t really see the point to keep on living but I don’t want to kill my self. Can anyone help me? You did a great cover of this song!

  • @KuroNeko22949
    @KuroNeko22949 Před 3 lety +3

    Wait.....why I fell this song is talking to my soul?

  • @catn168
    @catn168 Před 6 lety +1

    I relate a lot to this song

  • @Camdavis11
    @Camdavis11 Před 6 lety

    First off. WOW. Amazing cover and translation work. Makes me cry, everytime.
    Secondly, thank you so much for getting me into this producer. So talented and so beautiful.

  • @FelicityMayunami
    @FelicityMayunami Před 7 lety

    i've heard this song once before and loved it and then forgot about it but now i just
    bless you oktavia

  • @Celly01
    @Celly01 Před 6 lety +1

    This song cheers me up and helps me know that I'm not alone nor is anyone. I'm so glad you're amazing! (I'm not suicidal just feel ya know down but hey no worries! I'm alright! Also keep singing❤)

  • @catbeans
    @catbeans Před 7 lety +1

    perfect timing,, this cover cheered me up

  • @wolfboss6728
    @wolfboss6728 Před 6 lety +1

    I can relate to this...

  • @WarlockofThorns
    @WarlockofThorns Před 6 lety

    Discovering this and you have just given color to this grey day. This is beautiful, thank you Ms. Oktavia.

  • @wingsly8406
    @wingsly8406 Před 7 lety +1

    ahhh so beautiful as alwayssss
    it is such a pretty song,, you did so well!!
    i hope you're and will be okay because i feel like you truly deserve it!!!
    thank you for being awesome and covering this song!!
    if i ever manage to start singing here too, i will certainly cover it too, it'd be nice if it could be more famous!!!
    ahhhh anywaysss looking forward to listening to you again in the future, don't worry about inactivity or anything take your time, your covers are worth the wait anyways hehe
    i wish for the best for you!!!