My Miscarriage Story | 14 weeks
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- čas přidán 14. 05. 2017
- It is important to talk about miscarriage. So many women go through it, share this video if you are or know someone. Let miscarriages not be a silent topic. You are not alone and most importantly you are a mom.
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Your story is my story. I miscarried at 12 weeks a couple of days ago and here I am, looking for answers and comfort in the same place you did. I'm so sorry you went through this, but please take comfort in knowing that this video helped someone.
That brings joy to my heart that i brought a little comfort to your sweet family.I am so sorry you went through this. I am sending all the love in the world to you. Thinking of you!!! xoxoxo
Same here. Just had my miscarriage confirmed today. Thank you for posting.
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Same. I hope you’re feeling better now since this is an older comment. It happened yesterday for me
Honestly, I've watched every single miscarriage story on CZcams since having my missed carriage at 12 weeks and this was the most honest real and home hitting one. It was almost nice to watch this and know someone else in the world can relate to me. I'm so sorry it happened to you and we can hope for rainbow babies soon. ❤️
I had 3 missed miscarriages.. horrible! The 3rd were 8wk old twins 😢 now I’m 14wks (which is the longest I’ve been pregnant) and I’m freaking out. I am so sorry for what you both went thru! ❤️ God is with you.
Honey please relax and try to not think so much of the loses you have had. You can a rainbow baby and this one could be that one, but you have to relax and try to stay positive. I had 2 loses before I had my last 2 sons. One of the things the Doctors told me is my anxiety was so bad w my baby that I was making it hard for myself to hold onto the baby I did have. Try to relax love. This is not the babies you lost it's a whole new baby. Be happy enjoy it, you are farther along than the others and that is a great sign. I know it's hard not to think of the past TRUST ME, but you must. Think positive as much as you can. If you need to reach out, reach out to me. I am a great listener. If I can help in anyway I will. Bless you and your family and that beautiful baby to come love.
How are things going sweetheart?
Hope everything it well!
Hi had 3 miscarriage one is 2 months 2 twin January 16 miscarriage sorry for you
I see that you posted this 8 months ago, so I was wondering, how did everything turn out, and how are you doing? Just wanted to check on you. I'm praying that everything went okay.
I really appreciate you’re vulnerability and sharing this, and I love how you said “ it’s not necessarily in time that you heals but rather learn how to grief” also when you said “ I’m choosing to go down a good path and bring light into other peoples life” you’re an angel.
After two miscarriages in a row we are now expecting our first baby girl 💕
I had two miscarriages in a year. So happy for you, I hope my next pregnancy will be successful.
Bless u and your family
Literally had the same experience. I had to deliver 2 days ago a 15w old baby. I miss my angel. I feel everything you’ve felt. I eat healthy, I did everything right. My body didn’t even tell me that the baby stopped growing. I was sitting here thinking I was 19 weeks and the baby was only 15 weeks. This is the worst pain I ever felt. And it’s true. You don’t realize how much you want to be a mom until you become pregnant. I just had to search and get some comfort so thank you. I’m Def going to be crying forever. I just keep looking at the handprints they gave me. And I cry every time. I don’t know if I’ll ever be the same tbh. I’m sitting here bleeding out missing my baby. Feeling like I failed her.
And to add to that my bf died in November and I can’t even say “I can just try again” I feel like I can’t have another chance, not that she’ll ever be replaced.
I lost my baby at 12 weeks a few days ago. I started spotting two days before my appointment and was reassured by my friends and family this was normal... but I knew something was wrong. I never knew how much I could love someone I had never really met. Miscarriages should not be a silent topic and the grieving process is so, so hard. Hearing I am still a mom brought me to tears
Im so sorry to hear similar situation
I know this is an old video, but you have just helped me feel that I’m not alone. People try to comfort you but it’s hard to accept condolences from people who I know don’t understand. I had a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks, nearly 3 weeks ago and the pain is so strong. I had a feeling something wasn’t right, no symptoms, just a feeling so I went for a reassurance scan, and that’s where I saw the baby but no heartbeat, my world fell apart instantly.
The way you said “Am I still a mom?” Really hit me, and I believe I will always be a mother to my baby after hearing you say that. Thank you so much for being so brave because I could not have made that video. Sending lots of prayers to all the ladies who come here looking for some support, like I did x
Thank you so much! If your goal was to help others in the same situation I can tell you that you did. I don’t have anyone to talk to that has experienced a miscarriage and that is why I started searching online.
So many of the things you said in this video made me feel so closed to you, a complete stranger, because that’s exactly how I am feeling. Specially when you said that it doesn’t matter if you carry a baby for 2 weeks, 2 months or 20 years, you are a mom. I carried my baby for 2 months and I just found out yesterday that unfortunately my little angel is not longer with us.
Your courage and your honesty are giving me strength and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Much love from Perú ❤️
oh my goodness carla. i am thinking of you. i am sending you all the love in the world. i hope one day you will get your rainbow baby sweetheart
I'm so sorry for your loss. This was so incredibly moving. It's hard to find answers about miscarriage because people don't talk about it. Thank you for sharing.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I've had several losses, one of them being a missed miscarriage. Sending hugs and prayers your way!
I am sooo sorry 😭😭😭 I've had 2 MMC's first May 2016 @ 12 weeks, and the second one (last month) June 2017 @ 15.4 weeks. I had d&c's with both. I totally understand what you're going through and it is most def frustrating! You feel guilty, discouraged, let down by your body, you know it's just all around devastating. But you have to remember that it is absolutely NOT your fault, I tell myself this every day and this is what gets me through. Keep up the good energy because most ppl won't even talk about it 🤷🏽♀️when it's actually pretty common and should be talked about to bring awareness to women ttc and even thee expecting mommy's. This tragic event can happen to anyone, and at any point in your pregnancy! I'm just trying to stay positive with each passing day, I find that's what helps me on my TTC journey. My bf and I are both very healthy 25 yr olds (still pretty young) so we won't give up and my best advice is that you don't either! We'll soon get our 🌈 babies 🤗😘 *baby dust to you* ✨ This is ONLY a test, and the only way to pass it is to NOT give up! 😘😘😘
Thank you so much for sharing this. A little less than a month ago, I experienced the same, and it's a devastation and heartbreak that's indescribable. I'm so sorry that you had to experience this. Again, I wanted to thank you because I found so much comfort in this video a few nights ago. Thanks to you and so many other brave moms out there who shared their stories publicly for me and the world to see, I found the courage to share my own story. I just want you to know that a piece of my healing is thanks to you. And congratulations on beautiful baby Luna!
oh no, i am so so sorry! i hate that you are going through this.i am thinking of your family!! and i hope one day you get your rainbow baby sweetie!!!
Thank you so much for this. I also had a silent miscarriage and found out at 11 weeks. Then went on to have further complications because the pill didn’t work, so took it a second time which put me in full labour on my own at home. It’s been lonely going through this during lockdown. You’re positivity just really lifted me up then, thank you x
i just lost my almost 12weeks baby today, and i cant explain how i feel. my husband is not saying anything and i cant shed a tear even though i want to. ...i understand how you felt and i pray God consoles us sooner
I just want to say thank you for being so honest and open with this chapter of your life. We just found out 2 days ago that we lost our little one. The family & friends have been great but I just needed to connect somewhere with other women who know this chapter x
Oh my god!!!
I just needed to her some one else .. I had a Miscarriage on June 19 I had to deal with it by myself and to this day I still feel a hole in my heart. I got extremely excited and I planned so much and then in one day everything went dark I was almost 2 months . God bless you!!
Thank you for sharing.. You did bring light into my life by expressing. It feels so special when you said "You are a mom" and did cry at that moment. Thank you again.
I can't thank you enough for posting this. I had a miscarriage after being raped when I was 15 and never told anyone until after i turned 18. this helped me accept what happened to me and understand that it's okay. I am so sorry for your loss but you're not alone. thank you again
I’m so sorry you had to go through that alone. ❤️
I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through, you’re so strong to share your heartbreaking story ❤️ thank you.
Thank you so much for this video. I went in for an 18 week appointment & already having heard the heartbeat once before, so sure of hearing positive news. Unfortunately they couldn’t find a heartbeat & baby had passed at 14 weeks. I am due for surgery tomorrow & so scared but your story helped comfort me in knowing it will be ok. Thank you so much for being so brave & I can assure you that you’ve helped others out there as well 💗
I've been following you since April 2019, when I just found out I was pregnant, and couldn't get myself to watch this video as I felt too paranoid, just watched it now - I'm so sorry you went through this xxx you are an amazing mama
Thank you for making this video. I had a miscarriage 3 weeks ago today, at 11 weeks. The pregnancy was a complete accident. I was on the pill, and had been for four and a half years, and suddenly I was pregnant. Up to that point, I didn't even know whether I wanted children, but as soon as I knew it was there I wanted it so much. I've had such a difficult time dealing with it since then. All I do is try to keep myself busy, hoping it'll give me something else to focus on, but it's always there anyway, at the back of my mind.
We hadn't told anyone about it. I'd read that once you hit 12 weeks that the chances of miscarriage were significantly reduced, so I was waiting for that and to have a scan to make sure it was alright. I was going to tell my family on my birthday, which was 10 days after the loss.
For some reason, this point of hitting 3 weeks since it happened has hit me really hard. I think it's because it feels like it could have happened just a few days ago, and it's like time has slowed down for me in my grief, but the rest of life just carries on, like it didn't matter.
Anyway, thank you for sharing your story. It meant alot to listen to someone who feels the same way I do. xx
The emotional pain of a miscarriage is something that can’t be put into words. I miscarried a few days ago at 12 weeks. sending all the mums and dads of an angel the biggest hug ❤️
i’m so sorry, i know it’s been a while since you’ve posted this but that type of
loss just doesn’t go away. I’m praying that you’ve found some sort of peace.. I’m pregnant right now only 8 weeks with some issues right now and i can’t imagine going through this.. you are such a strong woman.
I am so so sorry for your loss, I lost my little boy 7months ago and this is the first time I have come to the internet regarding miscarriage. I think your such a strong person to publicly share your experience. Everything you have said is exactly how I'm feeling and I've never spoken to anyone else who has been through this. You've really helped me understand it's okay to grieve.. it's hard to carry on when all of your world feels like it's falling apart. I send all my love and prayers for yours and your partners future x
I’m so thankful for finding your video.... I just experienced a miscarriage two weeks ago at 9 weeks pregnant, I have two children and didn’t think that this would happen to me but it did and it has been the hardest thing and what’s even harder was how sad my 6 and 5 year old boys were when my husband and I told them. Your story has helped me cuz I feel the same way you felt and I turned to the internet for clarity, you are the sweetest and I hope your doing great
I lost one at 10 weeks and 3 days. I had to have a d&c. Hardest thing I've ever gone through. There's still hope though. Don't give up 💜
Thank you so much for this. I’ve never seen your other videos but I, too, searched the internet for “miscarriage support” and it brought me to you. Thank you.
It gets better. I had a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks as well. I was in your shoes one year and two months ago and have yet to have my rainbow baby. My heart goes out to you and hope you have your rainbow baby sooner than later ❤ miscarriage is not talked about enough but talking about your experience helps. You seem like such a strong young lady and I am truly sorry you went through this. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my baby, they say time heals and it will. ❤
Oh my goodness when you said you googled if you were still a mother I LOST IT. This is the first video I’ve ever watched that you’ve posted and my heart is with you girl. Wishing the best for you and your family! I know this video is a lil older but that still doesn’t make it easier per say. Wishing you comfort and love 💕
Thank you for exemplifying the courage to share your story. Many of us look for miscarriage support online, and I am one of those moms seeking it. I also had a MMC around 12 weeks. Similar situation as yours, except I let it happen naturally.
It is different for everyone, but during the grieving process I found solace in watching fertility success videos and educating myself on the importance of preconception practices. I’m 41, but I still have hope.
I am 13 weeks today. The trauma from the last pregnancy still lingers. We bought a Doppler to help ease that anxiety in between dr. visits.
I hope your rainbow, if not yet already arrived, is on the horizon. Very sorry for your loss.
I was scrolling through my CZcams feed and I stumbled upon your video. I know that this was posted years ago, but I’m so sorry for your loss. I recently had a miscarriage on February 22 of this year. I was 7 weeks pregnant and I was so happy. My family was so happy. And everything your explaining is what my boyfriend and I went through. It’s the worst feeling ever and I would never wish this upon anyone. I appreciate you and your bravery for posting this! I wish nothing but the best for you and your family !
Thank you for this ♡ I’m so sorry and I’m going thru this too. I appreciate your bravery and am grateful for your strength to post this. Bless you
I want to give you a hug so bad! I've had multiple miscarriages over a span of 5 years, every word that came out of your mouth hit me so hard! Having to tell friends and family that you've lost the baby that they were all so excited for is the worst. When you said "am I a mom? I don't have a baby" I cried so hard! Its something I've said too many times. I know I don't know you, but we share the same story and the same pain, and for that, I love you. I hope you and your husband finally get your prayers answered.
You are the mom of a tiny saint in heaven! Thank you for sharing your story
We lost our first baby in April at 14 weeks and 3 days so I can completely understand and relate to everything you are saying stay super strong xxxx
Thank you so much for this... Your courage and faith are inspiring. It is what I needed to go through this day. Taking one day at the time.
You’re video is very comforting, thank you for sharing. I had an ultrasound last Friday when I went to the ER for bleeding and I saw a heartbeat at 6w2d and was told everything was ok. I had my first OB appointment today and there was no heartbeat and the baby stopped growing. It’s so heartbreaking getting the ok and getting your hopes up to just get them shattered. Watching your video just helps with the grievance ❤️
I lost my first pregnancy a few days ago. My story is so similar to yours.
I was 9 weeks but I started light bleeding so my doctor sent me for a reassurance ultrasound telling me everything will be fine but there was no longer a heartbeat.
I was given those pills too and it was the worst pain of my life, I ended up having an emergency D&C
Now I’m dealing with this emotional pain.
I’m so happy to see you went on to have children, this was my first pregnancy so I really hope I can get pregnant again and have a healthy baby 💓🌈
I came across your video after having my missed miscarriage at about 10 weeks with my twins last week. Your story is similar to mine. It was the most traumatizing moment in my life when the doctor told my husband and I that they couldn't find their heart beats. I opted for a d&c because I knew I wouldn't handle seeing my pregnancy pass. I'm taking it day by day grieving. Knowing that we can be healthy and taking good care of ourselves and this still happen has helped me with the guilt of wondering if I did anything wrong that may have caused my miscarriage. That this has happened to others too. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm so sorry for your loss and yes, you helped me with my heartache...thank you! Although it's been 28 years for me and 3 healthy children later, the pain has never gone away. The thoughts of the gender, what he or she would look and be like and of course the why are still thoughts I have to this day. I lost my baby at 11 weeks. It was my second pregnancy but I conceived that baby only a few months after the birth of my first child so I thought maybe it was to soon and my body wasn't ready. My saving grace is when my mom said when I got pregnant for the third time, "this is the baby you lost...she just came back to you when she was ready." I think about that statement all the time and believe it because it helps me get through my loss. I also believe it because I found out I was pregnant with the baby I lost on Mother's Day. When my second daughter was born 3 years later, it was on May 12th so her birthday occasionally falls on Mother's Day.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I feel so sorry for your loss and I was crying with you for your baby. I went through the same thing just a week ago, it's so hard, extremely hard.
I wish you all the best, definitely soon you'll become amazing parents.
Thank you for posting this video. I just feel so sad, i have never felt like this before. Your words comfort me so thank you.
I was 13 weeks yesterday, and found out last night I had a missed miscarriage, just like you. It's the most horrible thing I've ever experienced, but it's things like this that make us stronger. Your courage inspires me. Your story is almost identical to mine and this brought me some comfort to watch. Thank you for posting. ❤
Hello Kat, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. It brought so many emotions my way . I had my missed miscarriage at 10 weeks. May24 th, was the hardest day of my life. Healing has been so so sad, and I just want to say I'm so sorry you and your love have to go through this. I feel so void, I wanted that little baby more then any thing. I keep hearing oh well you can try again. And it's just not helping the pain. I feel like even though I could try again. It was my first pregnancy, and so so hard to just jump into the next. I'm glad more women are talking about there stories. It's been so so painful, I just feel for you. Thank you for shedding some light, love it has made me feel less alone. Much love to you and your family. Xoxo
I appreciate this video so much. Our stories are so similar. I lost my sweet angel around the same time and had a missed miscarriage. It’s been so recent and I feel like I can’t swim to the surface right now. I’ve done the same, looking towards the internet and message boards for some sort of clarity and it helps to know I’m not alone. Thank you so much for this ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing. I had a miscarriage November 15th 2014 and I still think about that baby every day, even though I now have a 16 month old beautiful daughter. It is so hard. And it never goes away. But trust me when I say you will get your rainbow baby and you ARE a amazing mother. ❤️
I loved reading your comment. Brought me so much joy!! sending all the love to you and your babies :)
Oh hun your story really touched mu heart. I lost a baby at 12 weeks as well and I had a d&c. I'm so sorry for what you went threw. Just know it does hurt a little less over time. And when you do get your rainbow baby you appreciate everything so much more.
I'm so sorry for your loss, but thank you for doing this video! I had a miscarriage at 13+2, three days ago and as many of us do I now went looking for answers and other peoples experiences on the internet. As you and your husband, we also decided to start trying and got pregnant straight away. I started bleeding heavily the day before we were going to our first check up at the doctors office, and got rushed to the hospital in an ambulance as I'd lost a lot of blood. In the hospital is where I first got the pills to pass it naturally, but after several hours of things not working as they should I had to have the rest surgically removed that same night. I can really relate to your feelings around the "Natural" way. I experienced it as traumatic and I feel like that has been one of the hardest things to deal with after. The trauma of contractions and feeling like I was giving birth, while not getting to hold or see the baby that we where so exited to meet. I send all my love and prayers to you and your husband and I wish you the best of luck. Thank you again for sharing.
Thank you, this is very touching and real. I could relate so much on how your loss impacted you. My 4th miscarriage was 2 weeks ago and one of the most stressful thing I've been through. God loves and cares for us mums so much. We have so little control over pregnancy and that's scary. As much as I desire a baby to hold, I know my hope lies in surrendering and trusting in God's good will for me. This will ultimely bring the peace I need. You are helping so many of us feel not alone in our pain I pray that you have peace and many blessings.
It’s 3 am and I’m awake searching for answers, for comfort, for anything. We found out today at 10 weeks pregnant, our first baby, didn’t have a heartbeat. A missed miscarriage. I was in complete shock. I didn’t even know what a missed miscarriage was, now it’s all too real. Your story touched my heart and I’m thankful for women like you brave enough to share. It helps to know you’re not alone.
I am so sorry for your loss. I experienced the same thing you did in August of this year, a missed miscarriage but at 11 weeks pregnant. The baby only measured 8 weeks with no heart beat. I cried right along with you during this video. When you asked yourself “Am I still a mom?” I couldn’t help but say out loud “YOU ARE” , because I had to ask myself the same question. Thank you for sharing your story and encouraging me to possibly make a video one day on my experience as well. And I love how you have decided to go down a positive path as you said because I too feel the same exact way. God is still so great through all of our seasons! Thank you so much again and may God continue to bless you and your husband 💛
I am so sorry that you went through that. Your story is so important and heard! I am pregnant and they basically told me today I will have a miscarriage. It’s just not something you want to hear. But thank you for sharing your story! Like I said it’s so important and so needed by myself and others. My prayers are with you. This may be an old video but I am still thinking of you and wishing y’all the best!
Thank you for this video. I had a miscarriage in march 2017 at 8.5 weeks and another in June at 7 weeks and now I'm currently 14 weeks pregnant and everything is going good so far- we bought an at home Doppler and I Doppler her everyday for peace. It still doesn't help the pain of the other miscarriages and I agree it's hard thinking I would be due right now or this many months pregnant. It's definitely the most pain emotionally and physically I've ever had. Took the pills with the first one and was throwing up bleeding and diarrhea it was awful, second was a d and c much easier but still hard emotionally especially when it was our second in a row. Thank you for being so raw and sharing this. I cried with you. Also thank you for saying we are still moms- so many people don't acknowledge that and it's heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm praying for a rainbow baby for you
I am so sorry for you loss. Your story is similar to mine. My heart was so filled with joy and while I was nervous during my 14th week ultrasound appointment I was hopeful. Til this day I remember the doctors expression when he could not find the heartbeat and he told me my baby stopped growing at 10 weeks. My heart dropped and I didn’t know how to tell my finance. Taking that pill was the hardest thing and the physical pain and emotionally pain made it the worst time of my life. Two weeks later I am still bleeding and at times I can’t stop crying at work and at home. It’s very hard and you just need to grieve. You are a mom because you gave love to this baby regardless of how many weeks you were. That is still your baby and even I pray to god everyday that he is watching over my baby.
I can relate so much to your story. On April 2019 this year I found out I was 3 months pregnant 👼🏼and on May 2nd 2019 I had a miscarriage 😭 in my home. After having my healthy first born I never thought I would have to experience a miscarriage. To hear your story truly bring me sadness and I pray you are blessed on the right time with a beautiful Angel ♥️. Thank you so much for sharing your story Kat. ♥️♥️♥️
Thank you for sharing your story. You inspired to share mine as well. I just posted my video today and I’m already blown away by all of the comments and messages from women who have gone through the same thing and felt so alone and scared. It breaks my heart 💔
me too! I had no clue that so many women go through it. it doesn't make it easier though. thanks for watching sweetie!! xoxo
Thank you for sharing - I have just gone through this myself - going for my D&C on Monday. You will get your chance to be a Mom, and you will appreciate your little one so much more. X
You have no idea how helpful you are being for my experience right now. It all resonates with me in a very bittersweet way. Thank you!
I lost my baby girl at 17 weeks and I had a life threatening infection. I had a d&c done and had to stay in the hospital and the hardest part was when the nurse brought me a memory box for her and that was the hardest thing I ever had someone bring me. Stay strong your not alone
Thank you so much for your video. I suffered a miscarriage last week and thought I was at the point where I was feeling good again... turns out it comes in waves. I'm in tears hearing your story and I feel for you... it's SO nice knowing you're not alone in these feelings, though. I thank you for being so vulnerable and I wish you all the best.
i am thinking of you!! so sorry for your loss
This is exactly what I went through at 10 weeks. I also had a missed miscarriage, and had to take the pill. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I still mourn that loss. I will be 14 weeks tomorrow. I have a fetal Doppler at home now just so I can hear the baby’s heartbeat whenever I want. It helps so much, but I still worry every single day.
I went in for my very first ultrasound yesterday, and the same thing happened to me. They couldn’t find a heartbeat, and my baby is 3 weeks under developed. Hearing your story really touched home to me. I didn’t feel like I had anyone to relate to, and I have been turning to every single website about how or why this happened. Hearing you say that it was just your body holding onto your baby really helped me. I thought I did something wrong, but, sadly, it happens. Thank you for posting this, as this really helped put things into perspective for me.
Your video is sooo comforting, but so sorry for your loss. I lost mine at 13 weeks last July this year and like you I started thinking of names and was so excited about the baby. I know how hard it is for you. We will go on to meet our rainbow babies soooon. Baby dust to you! ❤️
I can really relate to your story after experiencing a miscarriage at 13wks. Although it happened a year ago, the memory is still raw and it felt like it just happened yesterday. It left a black hole in me, I'm still trying to cope with the emotional pain. Thank you for sharing your story, it's very comforting to know that someone out there understand that very painful feeling and I'm not alone
I’m going through the same thing at the moment. I went to my twelve week check up on June 23rd and my doctor couldn’t find a heartbeat with the Doppler and sent me for an emergency ultrasound. My doctor explained to me that if everything was fine the tech would share the heartbeat, and they were only to call my doctor if something was wrong. When I got to the hospital for my ultrasound, they saw me right away, I laid down and was optimistic. As she started the ultrasound she immediately turned the monitor towards her. I knew something was wrong and started sobbing. She asked me to wait in the room because she needed to call my doctor. My baby was measuring 12 weeks 1 day and on the 23rd I would have been 12 weeks 2 days.
I am still pregnant waiting to be scheduled for the procedure. It’s been two days of agony, two days of me begging God for this to be a bad dream. I look at myself in the mirror and I see my bump, started to show very early and I’m just devastated.
I feel alone, I feel like in our culture it’s not considered a real loss. Everyone tells me to cheer up, not to get my feelings get the best of me. I feel like I’m not allowed to grieve, like I’m not allowed to cry or feel like I have a lost a part of that’s still inside me. Thank you for your video.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I just went through my own miscarriage at 8 weeks with our first pregnancy. It was natural, and equally as traumatic as you described. Thank you for bringing awareness to this horrible thing that so many of us go through. Not being able to have real conversations about it just makes it that much worse for those of us going through it. It’s already painful enough, it shouldn’t scare you on top of it, just because you don’t know what to expect. Sending love to you and yours 🖤
Thank you. I went through all the same this week. The embryo left me naturally on Friday night. Missed miscarriage is more common than people think, and I have never heard of this. These videos help me to somehow survive.
Thank you for sharing this, I’m so sorry for your loss. I just lost ours at 13 weeks due to a missed miscarriage as well, and I’m desperately searching for similar stories, strange I landed on your video. I chose the d and c and feel somewhat traumatized by it, partially because I have an irrational fear of anesthesia and chose to do it while fully awake. I wondered if I should’ve done the pills but hearing your experience makes me feel a little better, mine was over in 5 minutes and didn’t drag out for hours. Maybe it’s just all around a traumatizing thing to go through, pills or surgery it’s just heartbreaking and life changing. I’m happy to see you have two beautiful babies now, I have a 12 year old daughter already but would like to have more, you give me hope❤️
You are so strong. You are not alone, thank you for sharing this story. I’m 14 weeks pregnant and terrified each time I feel a cramp or anything that seems weird. This is our second pregnancy and what I hope will be our rainbow pregnancy.
You WILL have your rainbow baby one day 💜
Thank you for sharing your story and your pain. I just miscarried at 8 weeks. I decided to wait a week after I found out to tell my husband on Father’s Day. I kept the secret, I told him Father’s Day morning and he was over the moon. I miscarried later that day. I am dealing with so much grief and pain. Everybody tells me I have my older two children and I should be thankful. That at least it happened early. That I can try again. But I don’t want to have to try again, I Wanted this pregnancy, I loved that baby and I will never get to hold him or watch him grow. Nobody around me seems to understand. The only thing getting me through is the moms online that have been there and that let me pour my heart out to them. Thank you so much for sharing and pouring your heart out to us. Sending prayers and love to your family.
I'm in like the exact same place as you. I got pregnant and was so happy and I miscarried at 14 weeks. I had multiple ultrasounds done and seeing it empty and not hearing the heart beat was awful. Thank you for sharing. It helps me to not feel so alone.
this is the first time ive seen your story and i just want to you to know that im so so sorry for what happened to you, the literal same thing happened to me exactly a year before you, ;(
I’m so sorry for you, for me and for every woman who had to go through this awful painful experience physically and mentally.
Oh wow! I cried through your whole video. I’m so sorry for your loss.
I cried watching this. I went through exactly the same. God bless you and sorry for your loss x
I feel your pain I was crying with you. I lost my baby girl at 22 weeks last year in January. She was alive for almost 2 hours but the NICU said they couldn't do anything to help her unless she was 24 weeks. I just remember them wheeling me to the labor room and just being in pain and so scared and not a day goes by that I don't think about it. Last year in June I had an early miscarriage I was probably about 5 or 6 weeks pregnant. Here I am pregnant again little one will be 15 weeks on Monday and I had the procedure I had to get to help keep this little one in till full term last Tuesday. I'm just praying for healthy rest of this pregnancy and delivery. It really is hard to see babies or see others having a successful pregnancy. I had 2 sisters that were due the same year as me my nephew was born also in January last year at full term and healthy and my niece was born last year in August and she is healthy. I remember the first time I was around my sisters with their babies and me just empty handed I broke down and just cried.
My first pregnancy was a chemical pregnancy and tho it was only two weeks that it lasted I still had two positive tests, I still was already getting the symptoms of being pregnant and my fiance and I was so filled with joy, until I tested again the next couple of days and there was no line, the digital one said I wasn't pregnant and what you just said about your still a mom even if it's just two weeks or 23 years made me so happy but so sad at the same time because I always thought I wasn't a mom or was never gonna be a mom and your sweet kind words just lifted all this grief and sadness off my shoulders because I can say I was a mom at one point and could possibly still be a mom. I'm sorry for your loss, and for everyone's loss. Ill be praying for you and everyone in these comments tonight because watching this really helped me. Thank you so much for sharing your story!
I am so sorry, and I’m sorry to everyone who has gone through a loss of your baby. I felt like I needed to comment. You’re all so strong and brave. You’re truly amazing. ❤️
Girl I’m so sorry!!!! I had two missed miscarriages in a row and my son passed away day before my appointment at 16 weeks 4 days April 2019. First two I did the pills and my last miscarriage I had a managed miscarriage where I gave birth to my son. I’m sorry for your loss! Don’t give up. It’s been 8 months since I’ve lost my son I’m still grieving about him. We named him Joseph Adam, we are expecting again I’m 10 weeks 6 days today. It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to grieve. ❤️ pray and heal from this.
This video literally broke every peice of my heart, I'm truly praying for you... you are soooo strong I can not say that enough.
You’re so strong! I admire you. Thank you for being strong!
Thank you for braving this pain and sharing this story. I just found out I am experiencing a loss, but have no symptom of the miscarriage haven’t happened yet. I feel like a ticking time bomb just waiting waiting for the inevitable.
You are still a mother. I just want you to know that. My live to you and I just want you to know you have helped me by sharing your story..
thank you so much for doing this video. i lost mine at 13 weeks due to anencephaly and it is truly heartbreaking. i feel just like you did. xx🌹
Thank you so much for this video. It is important to talk more openly about this topic. I am so sorry for your loss! I have suffered two miscarriages in a row (one, a missed abortion at week 10) so I feel your pain completely. Thanks again for sharing you story.
I’m so sorry for your loss!
I went through the same thing in January of this year. We had just moved to a new town announced to everyone that we were expecting and then my world came crashing down. I was along during my ultrasound which should have been my 12 week ultrasound but instead they told me my baby was dead and I had, had a missed miscarriage. I booked in a DC but my body took things itself the night before I was scheduled to go in. I’ve had 3 kids and nothing compared to the pain I was in. We had to call an ambulance because I thought I was going to die with how much pain I was experiencing and how much blood I was losing. When I got to the hospital I was made to shower so they could check my blood loss and whilst in the shower alone I passed my baby. It was the most heartbreaking experience I’ve ever been through.
It’s only been 3 months since it all happened and things are getting easier and better. But it’s changed me completely. I’ve been diagnosed with depression and PTSD.
Thank for you sharing, it’s terrible to say because I wouldn’t wish going through this upon anyone but it’s comforting to know I’m not alone ❤️
Thanks for sharing this... the exact same story just happened to me and it’s devastating.
I wish it was as normal to share this as it is to share a happy pregnancy. Because it’s such a hard time to understand what’s happening inside ourselves... it’s surreal...
oh i am so sorry. it needs to be talked about more i agree!
Hi Kat, I know this is couple of years old and I see you have had a baby since, massive congratulations to you both! My husband and I had a missed miscarriage and found out last week, I went down the pill route too, being given Cytotec and it was the worst thing I ever went through too. Thank you for posting this video as I feel that watching these miscarriage video's, it's helping me grieve. my friend sent me a link on Whatapp yesterday to show that when you've had a miscarriage (or carried the baby to term), their DNA and cells remain in your body and stay in your brain for the rest of your life, so you are always carrying a piece of them with you every day. It gave me some comfort anyway...
Thanks again for sharing your experience, I feel I will never get over this but for now, I'm saying afloat.
Gosh, this just breaks me. My condolences to you & yours love. I totally understand your grief. I lost my daughter this past May at 21 weeks & 6 days. Heart wrenching. Prayers to you & yours love. ❤️🙏🏽
I never could have imagined the sadness I would feel going through a miscarriage. It’s a different kind of sadness I haven’t felt before ..
Your video touched my heart so deeply. My husband and I just went through our first miscarriage about 6 weeks ago. We’re getting ready to try again and I’m scared. Everything you said completely describes how I’ve felt. We have a two year old son and he is our world. I can’t wait to experience pregnancy again, if I’m blessed enough to. Thank you so much for posting this video. Best wishes to you and your family. ❤️🌈
I am just speechless. I am so sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagaine what you are going threw.
Thank you for this video. Made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I just found out I miscarried today.
I'm so sorry this happened to you.. I just had a miscarriage yesterday I was 7 weeks.. i took the pill just today and it's honestly the worst pain ever.. I could never go through this again. I hope you are doing okay x
i hate that you have to go through that! i wish i could be with you to give you a big hug. Love to your family xo
I completely sympathize with your story I recently had a miscarriage on Thanksgiving and my heart is still so broken my body also thought it was still pregnant and went through the same I even had a belly showing although the baby stopped growing weeks before thank you so much for sharing it honestly brings comfort to know I am not alone ❤️
Thank you for sharing. The same thing just happened to us. This Friday we had an appointment. We were supposed to be already 14 weeks 3 days and the doctor didn't find a heart beat. Baby stopped growing at 13. The worst part is that I'm still carrying the baby and waiting for the medication to help my body expel and it scares me as hell but I just want this to be over. This is the worst feeling ever... But as you said, this things do happen and we should be positive because I read that some studies were done and that after a miscarriage, chances are that we are going to have healthful pregnancies. Sending you all my good vibes! Thank you again for sharing. It made me feel like I was not alone.
Your story is my story, too. I miscarried at 14 weeks and my body hung on to that little baby too. This video helped me grieve. I feel you. Thank you so much.
I am so sorry, this is heartbreaking. I hope you and your husband heal
I am so sorry You went through this 💔 My heart hurts for You watching this. I've been through this a few times and know your pain. I wish I could give You a big hug :(