Emily Story
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- čas přidán 13. 09. 2024
- The heartbreaking story of knowing your child is going to die.
Listen to Emily's story in full as told by her mum, hear the heartbreaking reality of child loss and what that looked like for Emily and her family after Em's Brain Cancer diagnosis.
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About 18 years ago my daughter, Heidi, 27 at the time, was put in the hospital because of her diabetes. She was put on the list for kidneys and pancreas. I have severe health issues of my own, so her brother, Wyatt, then 24, said he would stay a few nights. Bless his heart. When I went down to stay, she had me kicked out! I asked too many questions. And, the reason she did not like that is because she had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer, but she told NO ONE. Family members talked about what a horrible mother I was...I felt like I didn't deserve to be a mother! Fast forward to Feb 4, 2008, her birthday. She was home and we celebrated her 28th birthday. Back in hospital a few weeks and my son brought her home on March 4th. I was so mad...we could barely get her inside the house!! When she was settled, I snuck to my room and called her doctor. I asked him why on earth he would send her home like that. He said, didn't she tell you? I said tell me what? He said, Deb...she is totally full of cancer. There is nothing we can do. She refused all treatment. He was really upset and I robotically thanked him for taking care of her. I sat in the corner crying and praying. I had run into something that I could not beg, borrow, or steal to fix it. I had always been able to fix anything that came along. Hospice told me she had maybe a week to live. On the night of the the 8th, her blood sugar dropped to 23 and she had to go to hospice. My sister told me and Wyatt to get a good nights sleep and she would spend the night with Heidi in hospice. My sister is a very strong believer so there was a comfort knowing that if Heidi had any questions about God, or death, or anything kike that my sis could help her. The next morning, we went to hospice. She was resting...they kept her very comfortable. ALL of her family got there, her dad and stepmom, siblings, Nana and Papa (her favorite people on the planet!)...everyone. When Wyatt and I got there, she said, "Wyatt" and he ran over and sat on the bed and held her hand. He said, "Im here sis...I'm not going anywhere" At 9:26 am, Wyatt said I think sis just took her last breath. He was right. Shortly after, I noticed he was not there. I found him outside, bent over, sobbing uncontrollably. He has never been the same. He has such vivid memories of the last months with her. They were so, so close. I too am a believer. I want to be assured that my daughter found somewhere far better than this life. I believe that God chose me to be Heidi's mama for a reason. He decided that I was strong enough to take this knife in my heart, every day for the rest of my life? Because I am 68 and Wyatt is 44 this September, and we still want her back. Wyatt, sadly turned to drugs. Heroin. Yep, heroin is his best friend, lover, whore, partner...he is in the land of H. I have saved him on several occasions. In 2012, I found him on his floor at 8:30 am, seizing. Paramedis came. they gave him Narcan twice and it didn't phase him. By noon, his head was shaved for brain surgery for a tennis-ball-sized blood clot against the brain in the executive decision area. Great...his decision making is probably worse than before. By the grace of God he walked out of that hospital with just short term memory issues. He has an above genius IQ but can't tell you what day it is or if he ate breakfast. Month off of drugs. But, he went back!! I am so sorry, I have carried on too long. My heart breaks for any mama that has to say good bye to their beautiful babes. God bless you each and every one...
Sounds like a lot, I’m sorry you didnt have a good relationship with your daughter and son and they didn’t find it easy to communicate with you. it’s obviously causing you great grief and regret. We can’t turn back the clock so we must find comfort in the knowledge we tried even if it wasn’t enough or what they needed. I’m sorry you didn’t get to spend the time with your daughter at the end but it’s important to be grateful she wasn’t alone. I hope your son finds healing and peace as the demon is relentless and always wants to win.
Oh Deb, how much you went through and are still going through. Your children both sound amazing in their own ways. Watching your child die feeling so helpless to do anything, like you say - this is something you can beg borrow or steal your way out of fixing, yet a mother should be able to fix anything for their child. Until they can't. That is a feeling you can never ever recover from, we get it and we are sorry that has been part of your story too. Sending you love to know you are not alone. Thank you for watching Em story and for taking the time to comment and share your story too x
I am so sorry for your loss! And the things happening to your son as well. Greetings and hugs to you all.
@@sharonhoward884 She didn't say she didn't have a good relationship with her daughter or her son. Her daughter didn't want her to know she had cancer and was refusing treatment. Her son found his sister's passing hard to bear and turned to d rugs.
So sorry for your loss Deb. Prayers for your son to improve.
Listening to this has brought back so many memories, my nephew was diagnosed when he was 14 yrs old, he had a very aggressive spinal tumour, he started chemo in May, he died in the November , my brother and Sister in law, and all of the family went through so much, we live in Suffolk and he was treated at Royal marsden in Surrey, I learned so much from my nephew and think about him all the time, thank you so much for sharing your story, I went on to have 3 children of my own, and we lost our son at 5 and a half months , I then really understood how the loss of a child impacts you, and my understanding of my Sister and brother in law’s grief . So much more I could say ❤
I’m so sorry you and your family have had such devastating losses. So very sad 💔Thank you for taking the time to listen and comment. Karen xxx
Grief is so unique and lonely isn't it? You can never truly understand until you have experienced it yourself. We hope the podcasts go some way to making you feel less alone. Thank you for commenting. Sending love
@@RoomToGrieve your podcasts have really helped me, I realise I had bottled so much up, as my husband really took our sons death hard , we both did , but I needed to talk about it and he couldn’t and so I kept so much inside, my husband was diagnosed with cancer Mantle cell lymphoma in 2014, two weeks later , I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease, but my main concern was Steve, after chemo and an auto stem cell transplant and an immunotherapy treatment finally he was in remission but sadly he contracted Covid , he was taken into hospital on the 3rd December and I wasn’t allowed to visit, I never contracted Covid even though I was with him all the time until he was admitted on day 8, on 14th December , they called and said they was putting him on end of life care, I was able to then go and be with him , with our two daughters who had just told us, they were both expecting their second babies in the Summer, the hospital had said Steve had been unresponsive for 2 days, but he told me he loved me twice and that meant the world , he passed away with me laying beside him 17 hours later, we would have been married 40 years that next Summer, losing Steve has been so hard, but listening to you both taking about Emily and Brad has made me realise I hadn’t fully grieved for our son Daniel, and before I felt so very alone , friends can’t contemplate the loss of a child as they haven’t experienced it and I wouldn’t ever want them too, it’s like being part of a club , that none of us ever wanted to be a part of, I can’t thank you both enough for being so brave and also for thinking of others when your both going through such pain yourselves, I feel so less alone and feel understood .
@@chellyw63I’ve been busy painting today, 56 balustrades to be exact, in 30 degrees heat. All I could think about was what you have been through so much sadness but you journey must of taken so much bravery, to carry on each day. We don’t even realise we are being brave do we ? You are not alone, yes you are in a club none of us want to be in. But it’s a lifetime membership so even watching podcasts, messaging, chatting is much better than feeing alone. Lots of love, Karen. ❤
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You recall this event with grace and strength. Your daughter was incredibly Strong! This disease is pure evil. You are an Excellent Mother, doing all you could to make her comfortable and loved. Until you meet again, and you will. xxx
Thank you for your comment. You are so right, I will most definitely see her again, it keeps me going every single day. ❤️
Thank you so much for watching and for taking the time to comment. We will definitely see both kids again and hope until then, we continue to help others and to do them proud x
Oh Karen, I'm so sorry for you and your family, thank you for sharing your heartbreak. Emily knew she was loved. God bless 💔
Thank you Mary for watching our podcast, and your kind words ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. Emily was truly a warrior. And so are you.
You will see her again on the other side. So sorry.
@@berylalanthwaite5325 Thank you, knowing I will see her again keeps me going every day. ❤️🖤💜
Thank you for watching and taking the time to comment. Emily truly is amazing and we will most definitely see her again one day. We hope you enjoy the other episodes x
You gave all your love and she was beyond brave ❤
Thank you Angela, you are right she was brave, that’s why I’ve got to be brave too. ❤️thank you for taking the time to comment.
@@karenkinsella7509 Thinking of you and sending love ❤️
My heart is breaking for you all and I am so so so sorry for your loss of Emily I truly am!!!!!!!!! Thank you for sharing her story!!!!!!!!!!! I have stage 3 lung cancer and I am fighting like hell to beat this darn thing!!!!!
Sending you love and strength on this journey, remember to be kind to yourself and rest when you need. Its ok to do you things you want and not want you think others expect from you. Thank you for taking the time to watch Ems story and for taking the time to comment and share your story.
This brought me to tears 😢 you sound like a wonderful mum and Em sounds like she was full of character! I have a poorly daughter older than Em with a brain condition that happen at 21 after she finished uni and I know it’s not at all like your story but the point where you said “ I’m her mum I should be able to fix her” broke my heart I can relate I’m sorry you lost your girl I to have lost a lot of my girl but she’s still here by the grace of god, she would hate me saying that. Truly inspirational talk with such genuine emotion and love. We are not far from Stockport and are often at the MRI which of course is next to the children’s hospital. Staff hit and Miss. Thank you for sharing yours an Emma’s and your family’s story. This vlog will stay with me for a long time. Take care 💔🥹🤍💕
So sad to hear what your daughter is going through, it’s so frustrating as a mum that we can’t make them better, it’s heartbreaking. Keep strong Sally and just get through each day at a time. Thank you so much for your kind words. 🖤💜❤️
@@karenkinsella7509 Thank you Karen for your kind words in return 🙏and sorry it’s Emily I was so caught up in the emotions of your vlog I got Emily’s name wrong 😢
Honestly, please do not worry, we understand and sending love and strength to you, your daughter and family.
My dear lady. There is no trying to understand your heartbreak and pain. However i am feeling it from your shareing. You are an amazing mother. May continue to leace you with smiles from your memories together. She was fiesty and strong.Thank you for shareing your storey
From Florida with love.
@@dianacurry6248 thanks for watching and your kind comment, most days I can recall those smiles, they are very special. ❤️💜🖤
Em definitely was fiesty, strong and unique - she is missed so very much every day! Sharing her story with others does help so thank you for listening and taking the time to comment x
I wish that I could give this mom a big hug. Thinking of you as you grieve, and praying for comfort for you and your family. Thank you for sharing Emily’s story.
@@LoLo-pv6do Thsnk you so much for your kind words, I will take them as virtual hug ❤️💜🖤
Thank you so much for taking the time to watch Karen share Em story, it means the world to us to be able to share Brad and Em with others. Thank you for your kind words
Im heartbroken here for you ❤. Emily was and always will be a very courageous young woman. I love the way you told your story, you really conveyed the sadness but also the sense of humour you all must have as a family. Im from Co. Wexford in Ireland and lots of Kinsellas here ... Emily had the fighting spirit. You loved and minded your daughter to the best and you will see her again. I wish healing for you and all your family ❤
Thank you for your beautiful words. I’ve got to believe I will see her again, it keeps me going every day. It must be 30 years since I visited Co. Wexford, before I was a Kinsella even. ❤️💜🖤 Karen x
@@RoomToGrieve You'll have to visit someday again. We just had the Fleadh Cheoil here last week and the weather was good after a bad summer. A lot has changed in 30 years I can tell you. My husband has a sister in Stockport ... Sure half of Ireland went over there. Keep your head up, you did Em proud and I'll always remember her ❤️
Thank you for having the strength to tell Emily’s story. Much love light and light to now and in the future. 🥰😞
Thank you so much for taking the time and for your kind words x
Emily's comments made me smile at times. A loving family, and great mum.😊😊😊😊
@@katewebber1131 Thank you for watching, her comments make me smile too. ❤️💜🖤
Em is unique and one of a kind, thats for sure! We miss her terribly. Thank you for allowing us to share her with you x
Thank you for sharing your story you are very brave and a wonderful mum ❤️
@@DeborahBooth-zv4bp Thank you for watching, I love the fact people are getting to know Emily, ❤️🖤💜
Karen and Em are both incredibly brave and Karen does a brilliant job at sharing Ems story. We hope these podcasts provide some support to others in the same way they help us to cope with everyday until we see them again
So sorry,I know what you’re feeling I lost my beautiful daughter last Christmas to cancer and I miss her so much,it’s heartbreaking just to think of her loss,sending you love and hugs 🥰 ❤
Thank you so much for watching Emily’s story, which must of been so difficult for you, it is heartbreaking and I hope our future podcasts can help you feel less alone on your journey, like us your grief is in the very early stages and we have a lot to navigate in the future. No words can describe how much we miss them 💔
I'm so sorry for your loss . Emily sounded like a real firecracker. I lost my dad to cancer when I was only four years old . I have absolutely no memory of him at all ,unfortunately. Almost a year ago ,my boyfriend and I found out he has terminal cancer . He has finished his chemo and has started radio therapy last week. It's 5 times (days) a week for 4 weeks. I'm from Canada and never had any children . I'm scared of what's to come and how I will cope as I'm not coping well now. My best friends since I was young are in Canada. I'm just trying hard to take one day at a time.
@@cathyridley3005 thanks for watching and commenting, I really feel for you. Your current situation is so very difficult, I remember the anticipatory grief so well, from opening your eyes in the morning to going to sleep at night. Even the smallest of tasks can be so overwhelming. Everyday I used to look at Emily and think she’s here, she’s strong, she’s a fighter, what if the treatment actually works, it was my mantra. We did so many things together in the time we had, they don’t have to be massive things, just special ones for you and your boyfriend, things you can look back on and smile. I didn’t really call it making memories. I called it making smiles. Concentrating as much as I could on each day. You are doing it right by one day at a time. The loss of your dad so young will probably have come back to the surface because of everything you are going through, please be kind to yourself and keep doing that one day at a time. Lots of love, Karen ❤️🖤💜
Hi, thank you for messaging. Just take it one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time, its all we can do. Do what makes you happy and what you and your boyfriend need, not what you think others expect. Its ok to rest and its ok to cry, this is incredibly tough so try not to put too much pressure on yourself. We are sending you so many hugs and lots of love during this really shitty time. We are so sorry you are all going through this. Thank you for taking the time to watch Em and to learn about how amazing she is. We are so sorry that you already know this journey because of your dad too. Life can be so incredibly hard and cruel sometimes. Sending love, light and strength x
@@RoomToGrieve Thank you so much for your kind reply. X
Sending love from one bereaved mother to another. I know your pain.
@@nellie23102010 Thank you, I’m so sorry that you are also on this heartbreaking journey. ❤️💜🖤
Sending love right back at you! It s journey and understanding we wouldn't wish on anyone. Those that do not understand this are privileged but we are thankful they are. Thank you for taking the time to comment and we hope you have found some comfort in the other episodes, they help us, we help each other and we hope we can provide some support to others too x
I'm so very sorry for your loss. My husband died from a brain tumour, Glioblastoma, 18 years ago. Like you I was called into a room and given the news I was least expecting, I thought he'd just had maybe a mild stoke. It's such a shock when it's suddenly just put upon you like that. Thank you for telling Emily's story, she was clearly a beautiful girl xxx
@@Babyboffa2018 Thank you for watching Ems story, and for your kind words. I’m sorry for the loss of your husband, it’s heartbreaking. I bet even though it was 18 yrs ago you can still remember the shock of being in that room and given that news. It’s so very sad. ❤️🖤💜 Karen.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved daughter.
Thankyou for watching her story. ❤️🖤💜 Karen.
My husband died at 47 of a brain tumor..3 months and he was gone...im so so sorry for your sweet strong daughter the pain I can't imagine losing my child losing my husband was something I didn't think I'd live through..its been 20 years 💔 😢
I am so sorry you know this too, sending you love and thank you for sharing with us. Thank you for watching and getting to know about Em and for taking the time to comment. The podcast helps us and we hope it helps others to feel less alone. Grief is so much lighter with someone who gets it x
I wish I could share with you experiences that have greatly comforted me with those who've left their mortal bodies, your daughter Emily is very much alive, well and free from pain, she's still Emily, she's near you but you can't see or feel her, I feel humbled to have this gift of the spirit, for me the veil between here and the spirit world is very thin, it's grief that sucks the wind out of you, this separation is the hardest thing we go through, especially a child.
Thank you for commenting, I agree with you the separation until we are together again is the hardest thing, I do feel her close to me, and hope with all my heart she’s happy and kicking up a storm somewhere with Brad. 🖤❤️💜
Superb mother and family, we are so sad for you all , your unfailing love just spills over.
So heartbreaking I lost my son to heart failure this time last year,I don't know how I'm getting through the days I can't get over the fact I won't see him again life goes on but it's never the same💔
We are So sorry you are on this journey too. Yes life does go on, but it’s so different now isn’t it. It’s like being at a different speed as everyone else, we know exactly how you feel when you describe not seeing your son again, it literally takes your breath away some days. We’ve just got to carry on for them and get through each day as best we can. Thinking of you ❤️💜🖤 Karen x
@@RoomToGrieve thanks so much for replying no one else understands the loss of losing a child(he was 36)but still my child,take care 😔❤️🩹
I am so sorry for your loss. Its not fair😢. Cancer is a horrible horrible illness, and so brutal. Emily had so much strength in spite of the heavy physical challenges she had to endure. May God give you strength and peace for the journey ahead for you and your family.🇦🇺🥰
Em is a true warrior, just like her mum! Cancer is the worst and life can be cruel and so painful. Thank you for taking the time to watch and comment. We love that more people can know Em! x
May her soul, and the souls of all the faithful departed, through the mercy of God Rest In Peace. Amen. 🙏🏼🙏🏼💔
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I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine the pain you are in. No parent should ever have to bury their child. I hope your happy memories overtake your grief as time goes on until your family is reunited with your beautiful brave girl. ❤🙏
Thank you for watching Ems story and your kind words, we try each and every day to think of happy memories, and can’t wait to be reunited ❤️💜🖤
So very sorry,what an amazing family you are 💖
I am so sorry for your loss. Emery was surely a trooper! And you standing alongside with a mask on your face. It must have taken the rest of your remaining energy. A parent should not have to grieve a child. We are the ones that should go first. But these things we cannot decide. Greetings and many hugs from Norway.
Thank you for sharing the illness and passing of Emily. Take care. One day at a time❤ one day after an other ❤
Many thanks, not just for watching Em’s story but for your kind comments, these podcasts are really helping us and others through each day. 🖤💜❤️
EMILY.
Ohmygod I’m sobbing, I’m 63 and I would of loved to have met her, two of my sons have the same personality as em, the times I’ve wanted to hide when they start.. you will meet again Godbless love and just remember the good times.❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much for watching, I’m sorry I made you sob, I’m glad your sons have character ❤️. And she had better be waiting for me. Love Karen x
Please can you share what color were her eyes?
My little girls eyes were a vivid blue, I lost her when she 3 1/2. That was 26 yrs ago. The pain isn’t as sharp as it once was but it’s never far from my mind and heart. ♥️ our bodies insist on breathing so we have to learn how to live a life without them.
Yes our bodies do keep insisting on breathing, well said 💔. Her eyes were green and brown. So sorry about your own loss, so very sad. ❤️🖤💜 Karen. X
Thank you for sharing, this is a truly heart wrenching situation. We want to fix everything for our kids and when you can’t it must be devastating, but you did everything humanly possible with the love only a mum can give. Sending my condolences to you and your family, Emily sounds awesome
Thank you, not just for watching Emily’s story but for your kind words. Karen. ❤️💜🖤
Heart Breaking Story. Emily was an incredible, amazing young woman. Bless her. Nobody young should have c. It shows us all how quickly a situation can change, from being unwell with a few odd symptoms and then at peace. I kept telling myself when my mum passed, at least she's not in any pain and having to have more treatment. I'm going through my own journey now with a little one. Treasure every second of every day and do everything while you can. We never know how long we all have. Bless her what an incredibly strong mum and daughter going through all that together and dealing with the news. It should never happen to youngsters. 💗. I bought McDonald's into hospital for my friend who asked for it. Sadly thar was the last time she ate, and she seemed fine. Lack of compassion is dreadful and I've experienced the same both with myself and my mum and little one. When you're at your lowest and have no answers and so many questions, all you need is a sympathetic ear, smile and someone to ask if they can do anything for you. Emily would be so so proud of you and the rest of the family. She knew you were there throughout and that's important. Hugs xxx
Thank you for watching Emily’s story, you are right situations can change so quickly. Your kind words mean a lot to us, so sorry for the loss of your mum, but our thoughts are with you as you navigate your own journey now with your little one, take care ❤️💜🖤
Thank you for sharing. Life is so very fragile. You are an amazing mum ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thanks for your lovely words and for watching Ems story. Karen ❤️🖤💜
I’m deeply moved by your strength telling this life changing story of your sweet Emily. You are magnificent. Xxxxx
Thank you so much, I don’t think I’ve ever been called magnificent ! but I will accept that as I’m having a difficult day today, thanks for watching her story and for commenting. ❤️🖤💜
@@RoomToGrieve well it’s true. The way you told her story - I was so moved. Emily was with you and will always be safely tucked in your heart. I’ll say it again - magnificent! Xxx
Karen, thank you for sharing your Emily with us. She sounds like such a witty strong young lady. You are a beautiful strong family.
I lost two brothers before I was 15, one of which was my older brother from cancer. I can truly say those two years are still a blur. I saw my mama be the Lionness every second of every day. Towards the end I remember feeling so terrible for wishing he would go, his pain was just beyond belief, it was in every part of his body. I couldn’t believe how much pain a human could survive both physically and mentally.
Years on my Mama just dropped dead in a split second in the next room. To this day i am only able to keep sane because I know my Mama is resting now. No more pain. I wish you and your family all of the love and pray for some peace if possible. 🤍🤍🤍
When you said “no amount of love” it really hit me hard, I burst into tears. Bless you 🤍
Reading your comment on Ems story and our other episodes it’s evident you have suffered so much trauma in your own losses, please keep watching and know you are not alone. Bec. 💔
@@RoomToGrieve thank you very much darling. I appreciate that a lot. It’s nice to have a place to feel less alone in this rollercoaster of grief. Bless you ❤️
Your Bravery is so strong,I admire Your Heartfelt details to convey all You went thru with Your Beautiful Daughter of such positive bravery, with Your Husband ~ Blessings Always💕✨🕊🙏🏻🌹
@@irenefeltham8984 Thank you for your kind words. My bravery is needed now to carry on without her. ❤️💜🖤 thanks for taking the time to comment.
Both Emily and Karen are extremely brave. Thank you for watching. We hope we can help others in the same way we can help each other. Grief is lonely and complicated and its easier to not do it alone
My daughter survived leukaemia at 2 years old. Her diagnosis was also out of the blue not expected at all, I thought she had virus, you can not imagine getting that news. I am forever grateful she survived but when I hear stories like this my heart breaks
Thank you for watching and commenting, you are absolutely right that nothing in the world can prepare you for being told your child has cancer. So sorry your little girl had to endure the trauma but it lifts my heart she’s still with you. Please give her a massive hug from me. Lots of love Karen ❤️💜🖤
So sorry for the loss of Emily Karen she was a warrior braver than me!. Thank you for sharing your journey. I cant imagine your pain. You will see Emily again one day God bless you and your family 🙏💜💜
Thank you for watching Ems story and taking the time to comment, I live everyday with hope that I will see her again. Karen ❤️🖤💜
I am so so sorry for your loss.my heart is breaking for you. As i have been listening to your story i have lived every minute of your journey with you.
Shes around you all the time.
@@trishlong8835 You are so right, I do feel she’s around me. Thank you for watching her story, and your kind words. ❤️💜🖤Karen
Thank you for sharing Emily with us, your beautiful, courageous, funny girl ❤. My mam had 2 deep rooted tumours, inoperable, we had her for 12 weeks from diagnosis and they were hell. You will be with her again, God Bless xx
we are so sorry you are also on this grief journey losing your Mam, we hope our podcast helps you in some way 💔. Thanks for watching Ems story, and we do believe we will see our kids again, we just have to. love Karen & Bec. ❤️🖤💜
Awwww bless you. She sounds like a lovely brave soul. And you faced it all head on, she got her bravery from all your support. Your story about Emily is brutally honest.
I lost m youngest son tragically and suddenly in2018. Losing a child is for me, the worst experience to live with with. I send us all love strength and BIG HUGS
So sorry you know this cruelty too, its a pain like no other, sending BIG HUGS right back at you! Thank you for taking the time to watch Em and to comment and thank you for sharing your story x
Iam so very sorry for you all as a family 😢💔🙏
Rest in peace beautiful Emily xxx🩷🌸
Karen, I am so sorry for what you and your family have been through. I'm glad you had some fun moments to cherish. With much love to you all. I believe you will see Emily again.
Room to grieve host... Thank you, I haven't seen your story but I'm sorry for loss too.
Thank you for watching Em’s story, and for taking time to comment. I agree with you, I will see her again. 🖤💜❤️
My most sincere condolences 😢❤
Thank you so much for taking the time to watch x
You are nothing short of awesome - your raw honesty is incredible. And your story told with the real times and feelings that your amazing Emily and you and team kinsella experienced and what you share here is numbing. Like everyone says here already, no parent should have to go through this. You are the best mother ever. You made the best memories.
Thank you so much for your kind words, being Team Kinsella is so hard without her but we have no choice other than to keep going. ❤️💜🖤Karen x
My heart is breaking for this family.Mum is so brave ,and the dsughter is such an inspiration bless her so not fair .❤❤
Wow. Thank you for sharing. I just don’t know how you have remembered all this detail. I lost my 4 year old boy to cancer 4 .5 years ago after 17 months of leukaemia and I watched this video peeking through my fingers. All the same. All your feelings. It has ruined me and my family. Big hugs to you and your family from me and mine. We must try to look after ourselves and throw all the self care we can at it to get through our remaining days. (I couldn’t watch it all tbh got to 36mins) Emily looked so gorgeous and the way you talk about her really shone her character through. Xxx
@@hannahrogers6956 Thank you for watching Ems story, you did well getting to 36 mins, it must of been so difficult for you. So sorry for the loss of your little boy, It used to break my heart seeing the little ones in the oncology clinic waiting room, playing together as if it was the norm. They were so brave. You are right we have to look after ourselves now and be brave like they were. Thanks so much for your kind words. ❤️🖤💜Karen. X
@@RoomToGrievethank you. Your “game face” mantra rang very true. Yep that was my son playing and me trying to make out it was normal, he wasn’t silly tho and knew ALOT was up. This has helped me though so thank you 😘 Emily was braver than brave as was Benjie. It’s been a v v tough time as I know it has also been for you. Xx
My heart goes out to you and your family ❤
Sounds like Emily had a great sense of humour .Cant believe how she was so accepting of all the things she had to go through. Such a brave girl.I think you should write a book about all the funny things she said.It would help other kids in the same position .It would mske them smile.❤
Thanks for watching her story and acknowledging her wit. That means so much to me. Me and Bec have written a book about the early stages of grief ( not yet published - we’ve been too busy ) and within that book we have included full stories about our children, the book is not about them, it’s for others that are grieving but we were encouraged to include their stories, a specialist nurse at The Christie told me very early after Emily’s death that Emily’s journey needed writing so she could continue to help others. Thank you 💜❤️🖤 Karen. X
Heart breaking story god bless dear em what a lovely brave mum god bless you ❤
Thank you for your kind words. ❤️💜🖤Karen.
you had such an amazing relationship with your daughter, thank you for sharing your story
Thank you. Your comment is very much appreciated ❤️💜🖤 Karen x
Karen, your story touched my heart big time..just as your beautiful girl was as and is a girl of courage, you are also a lady of great courage..to tell your story in such a calm, yet very emotive way, when you yourself is going through the very painful process of grieving is admirable...the trauma that you all went through was horrendous, but through it still tried to be the shining star ✨✨ ✨..for your beautiful daughter. My heart was deeply moved when you said about your daughters eyes..i can resonate with that..
This life is a very painful and cruel journey, one that we are just left with the question why?? But we dont get the answers..their is nothing more sorrowful than losing a child, a woman who has given birth to her precious child..
Thank you so much karen for having the courage to share your story..may your heart gently heal as you conrinue on in your journey.
And thank you for room to grieve for airing this very moving and touching account of emily and her familys life
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@@pianomarieatthekeys2573 Thank you for your kind words, and for taking the time to watch Em’s story, you are so right about life being painful and cruel and yes every day I ask Why ? Doing the Room to Grieve podcasts is a massive help in our journeys and knowing we are connecting with others on the same path is giving us strength to carry on. Thank you, Karen ❤️💜🖤
Thank you so much for watching Karen tell Ems story; they are both incredibly brave. Emily is missed terribly and everyday we ask why must life be so cruel and painful. As Karen has said, this podcast helps us and we hope in turn, it also helps others.
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter Emily, she was so strong, funny,beautiful and so not frightened of that nasty horrible disease cancer. I too loss my 27year old son to Non Hogken lymphoma he was gone within six months you really cannot put into word's the way you feel going through it all and also how it feels to lose a son/ daughter 💔💔 Sending love to your family and you as Emily's mum Xxclare 🙏🙏💔💔😢😢
So sorry Claire for the loss of your son and that you are on this horrendous journey too. Thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to watch Em’s story. ❤️💜🖤Karen x
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Oh mummy my heart breaks for you and your family, you did a fantastic job of sharing Emily’s story. Thank you for sharing 😪
Thanks for watching Ems story and your kind comments. ❤️🖤💜Karen.
Thank you so much for sharing this sad story. God bless you.🙏❤️
Thank you for watching Ems story and for taking the time to comment. ❤️💜🖤Karen
Sending you love and prayers. Your beautiful Emily was truly an inspiration! So brave ! I’m heartbroken for you all xx 😘
Thank you for watching Ems story and your kind comments ❤️💜🖤 Karen x
Hi everyone, in our own way we all suffer the loss of our loved one’s & thinking how brave they all were ❤️🩹 makes me feel so proud but still very lonely & lost without my husband & brother ❤️🩹❤️🩹 love too you all. ♥️🌹
Hi! You are right and your words are so true. Thank you for taking the time to comment and for watching to learn more about Em! x
Wow ! Emily sounds like a right tough fighter! Thanks for sharing the most HORRIFIC thing parents could go through! Bless you,and your family.! This was a hard one . As SUZY from not far away!
Thank you for taking the time to watch our podcast and to comment, it really means a lot to us ❤️🖤💜
Thank you for sharing, Emily sounds amazing and you are too. So sorry for your loss, heartfelt condolences to you all💖xx
Em is the best! and is so very missed! Thank you for taking the time to watch and to comment
Hi dear lady I have nothing but admiration for you and Emily and your family you could’ve gotten angry and bitter and found fault with everybody and everything but none of you did and even if you did it would’ve been a normal response to the situation my prayers and admiration are with you all
Thank you Carol for your kind words, and for taking time to watch our podcast. We feel anger and bitterness takes up far too much energy, we are passionate about grief education and making a difference our energy has got to remain positive, not just for our children but for others going through so much sadness. Karen xx
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤
@@annhall9095 Thank you ❤️🖤💜
Thank you for taking the time to watch Karen share Emily's story. They are both incredibly brave and Em is missed so much. Sharing these podcasts helps us and we hope they can help others too x
Sending so much love❤️
Thank you for watching her story. Karen ❤️🖤💜
I have no words. RIP Emily x
This is enough, they are no words. Thank you for taking the time to comment and thank you for watching and learning more about the amazing Em! x
This is how my daddy would have been if this was one of mg siblings or me. Whenever we were sick or in the hospital he NEVER left our side. I was diagnosed with CVID (Common Variable Immunodeficiency). My bone marrow stop producing an immune system. Most people have heard the story about the Boy in the Bubble. His disease is what i was diagnosed with. I stayed sick A LOT and almost lost my life several times. I will never forget when I went septic and ended up going into septic shock. I was on the very edge of death. The entire time i was in ICU and then when i was put in a regular room, he never once left my side unless he went to the cafeteria to get food or to go to the bathroom to use it or take a shower. If one of us kids needed to go to the dr, he took us. Dentist, he took us. I had to go to physical therapy a few times after being bed bound in ICU for weeks at a time, he went with me. And its not that my mother didnt want to. She loved us very much as well but he wouldn't leave us and one of them had to stay with the other kids while one stayed at the hospital. He was the type that if we were on antibiotics and it said to take them every 4 hours, he would set his alarm to go off in the middle of the night to make sure he woke us up for our next dose.
I really miss my daddy 😢
@@jenw.1412 Thanks for watching and sharing your lovely Daddy, just the comment alone of the 4hourly antibiotics said it all to me. ❤️💜🖤
Thank you for sharing your Daddy with us, he sounds amazing - the BEST! I hope you get to be with your dad again one day and us with Brad and Em - Can you imagine the reuinion :)
I am so very sorry for you losing your baby. I cried with you
Thank you, I appreciate you watching and commenting on Ems story ❤️🖤💜 Karen x
Dear Karen you are one courageous Mum, your Sassy Beautiful Daughter is always around you,and you will meet her again , she is now back to how she was before she was poorly, to honour your Daughters life you must carry on and be happy just remember not one of us is promised tomorrow, your Em would want you to live your life, as she would say it Karenis don't piss me off Mum, lam sending you love and lam truly sorry for the painful heartbreaking journey you have been on 😢😢😢xxxxxxxx❤❤❤❤
Thanks, yes she would say exactly that, and I do believe she’s back to herself - it takes some willpower every day but I won’t let her down. 🖤💜❤️
Just heartbreaking! I’m so so sorry for your loss….. your story will stay with me always xxxx
Thank you so much for watching Ems story, and for your kind comment. Karen xx
Omg, so very sorry, rip lovely one. Much strength to you all xx
Thank you for watching Ems story and taking the time to comment ❤️💜🖤
Heartbroken seeing this. My sister in law is currently in treatment for stage 4 brain cancer 😢
oh no. our thoughts are with your sister in law and all your family as you journey through this difficult time. ❤️💜🖤
@@RoomToGrieve thank you so much 💖
Mom you did the best thing you could do for her, normality, letting her come home. You were the best mom to her, she was with the people who knew her best. She is at peace now watching you from heaven swearing you out! lol
@@deborahrob5859 Thanks for your kind words, yeah I can almost hear her swearing, she’ll be a badass Angel. ❤️💜🖤
She most definitely is! Karen and Em are both amazing, thank you for taking the time to watch and comment x
What a beautiful young girl so brave and courageous, she will be waiting for you in heaven with open arms , free of pain x
@@lindaharper4624 Thank you for your lovely words, she had better be waiting for me, I remind her every day ❤️🖤💜
Oh my heart❤....what a lovely lady.
Thank you for watching Emily’s story and taking the time to comment. we really appreciate it. ❤️💜🖤
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Prayers 🙏🤲
Emily was so brave and so were you and her dad and the rest of the family sending big huggles l don’t know what else to say. From Lynda ❤
@@lyndaward5179 Thank you for watching Em’s story, and your kind words. And for the big huggle ( a word we used often, it made me smile hearing it ) ❤️🖤💜
Saying something is enough, so thank you so much. There are never the right words but any word is better than none. x
I’m so sorry for your loss …
Thank you so much for watching Ems story, and taking the time to comment. ❤️💜🖤
Sending love and hugs to you ❤
Thank you for watching Ems story. ❤️💜🖤Karen.
There is a Plan for each and every oné of us when it comes to the end of life. So Sorry for your magnificent loss. X
I love the fact that she encountered each and every challenge without fear. Incredible!
Thanks for watching Ems story, like you say she did deal with every challenge without fear, it made us as parents stronger because we too then had to do the same. really appreciate your lovely words ❤️🖤💜
So sorry for your loss. xx
@@victoriaholloway7050 Thank you for watching and your kind comment. ❤️💜🖤
Thank you for taking the time to watch and to comment, means the world we can share Emily with others x
I cant watch this video without saying something. Im incredulous at your strength and honestly. Your Emily is the same age aa my son. Im heartbroken for you. Totally. Youre an incredible woman
So brave. Shes waiting for you xxx
Thank you so much for watching Ems story and for your kind words. ❤️🖤💜 Karen. X
Thank you so precious lots of love xxxxxxxx
@@vanessaseal3407 Thanks for watching and your kind comment ❤️🖤💜
Thank you for watching and for allowing us to share Em with you x
You will see her again one day, don't worry, sweet mama. Love from corinne. Brighton. ❤
@@cozmarine7771 Thank you for commenting, you are right I will see her again one day. That thought keeps me going. ❤️🖤💜
Thank you! And thank you for taking the time to watch and for allowing us to share Em with you
Revelation 21:3,4. No more suffering pain or death..
She is now in Jehovah’s perfect memory, there will be a resurrection of the righteous and the unrighteous and Jehovah cannot lie.
Es tut mir unendlich leid 😢
Tragic so very sorry no parent should out live their children
No they shouldn't, you're right. The pain in indescribable. Thank you for taking the time to watch and learn about Emily and how amazing she is!
So sorry for your loss? My son Conor died 13/7/2024 with Glastoma brain stem cancer 3 times I had him down in hospital for tests because he was paralysed down the hole left side of his body feeling sick and bad headaches. Doctors said it was nurlogical that he would get better in time. He kept getting worse over 5 weeks it was a Tuesday I was suppose to work that night as I am a carer in the community conor came into help me put shopping away he went into livingroom I went into talk to him and he couldn't remember who I was so I rang an ambulance went straight to hospital doctor kept him in said they made a wrong diagnosis he went for a scan next day nothing showed up went then for a Mri scan found out he had a tumour. He was in Altnagalvin Hospital for 4 weeks then was brought up to the Royal hospital in Belfast for biopsy? That's when they told me he hadn't got long to live he was in the Royal for a week and a half git back to Altnagalvin hospital he died 3 days later ? It has totally devastated me he was only 24 years old I miss so so much he couldn't talk or hardly hear or see at the end he was so brave 💔
I read your message last night and couldn’t answer straight away, I needed time to think of how to respond to everything your son and your family have been through. I have no platitudes, all I can say is that we understand, your anger, frustration, disbelief, pain, unfairness and heartbreak. You will probably be on autopilot for the next few months at least, due to the trauma and shock of losing Conor, just think of a day at a time, some days even an hour at a time. Please feel free to email us directly roomtogrievepodcast@gmail.com then it’s more private, myself or Bec will always respond, you can build up a network of support and I promise this will help, having people around you that just “get it” can make a massive difference. Love and understanding from both of us, Karen xx
Im so glad you were team Kinsella xxx so glad Dad was involved and he made it in on the mattress xxx
Thanks for watching and commenting, it was so nice just to be together at that point, sounds crazy we enjoyed those nights together, we even had midnight feasts. ❤️💜🖤 Karen x
I’m shocked they didn’t assign support staff to her when she was admitted ❤
Thanks for watching and commenting, I try to avoid memories of the admission, I think a lot of the events were literally just like having a nightmare. We had the care when it was needed the most. ❤️🖤💜 Karen. X
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If there was medicine in Paris she could have had it is so wicked
Maybe the new government should watch this..
Thank you. There are so many great things about our NHS and we wouldn't be without them but sadly there is still so much research and funding needed too.
God help ya Karen. I want Em to still be here. It makes no sense. I know I’ll think about Emily and you a lot. Sorry. I don’t know what else to say. ❤
@@enigma_-_79 thank you for you kind words, and I know, I understand there is really nothing else you can say is there 💔. Karen
Thank you for your kind words and for watching.
Brain Juice ! She was a witty little one .
I know. I can smile when I go back to that memory. She made very difficult times funny ❤️💜🖤 Karen.
Brain juice lol what a funny person. Rip Emily
Thanks for watching her story. She was funny ❤️💜🖤. Karen.
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seems you should have been taking more time with your daughter instead of chatting not so good a mum not paying attaintion to your por daughter
Well, I seriously hope you don't have any children. Spending all this time on social media simply just to bully people instead spending that time with your kids.
We are ALL just imperfect parents doing the best we can. There isn't 1 perfect parent in the world.
Anyone that would raise their child to think it's ok to get on social media and bully a grieving mother shouldn't have kids. So if you don't have any kids yet, PLEASE keep it that way. Don't ever have any. And if you do, I hope and pray they become decent adults in spite of you.
From the sounds of things this mother and daughter had a beautiful relationship! One that you obviously lacked from your mother. Otherwise you would know just how ridiculous you sound!
Oh, and it's "attention" not "attaintion" and it's "poor" not "por". If you're going to be a bully at least try to sound a little intelligent.
You poor sad soul. I feel so sorry for you. I hope you find your heart somewhere. 😢
Thank you for listening. Karen and Em are both warriors who have to deal with a cruel hand in life. We miss Em and Brad more than words can say and would not be able to get through each day without each other, so in turn we hope these podcasts help other people going through grief
So sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter she sounded amazing your story had me crying then laughing hense the brain juice what a strong lady she was but she as a amazing mum too sorry 😢😢😢😢 rip Emily god as gained a amazing strong angel ❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much for watching and your kind comments, yeah you are right she’s kicking up a storm with Brad, she’ll be a Bad Ass Angel 🖤💜❤️
Em is a perfectly unique character, one of a kind who is missed so very much! Karen and Em are both warriors. Thank you for listening x