Benchside Reverie by LaDama from album "Quarantine"

Lyrics:
I'm sitting I'm sitting on a bench in the station,
and I see,
there's a child on TV,
he has a fixed gaze, a crooked head,
a mouth like the profile of a violin
they say there’s a problem
a unique case
one of a kind in the world
he swings in his mother's arms.
I look at that child and think it's you.
That day you appeared before me
and I decided to follow you
I’ve abandoned everything,
I followed every path
I gave my blood and soul
I have reached the last border
To tell you in how many ways
and to what extent
I misunderstood
Walking down
I misunderstood
until I understand
in your silence
that maybe It was true,
all those were you
but the rest was just mine
and you
this crazy, desperate intimacy
that I offered you
you never asked for it.
The only way I have left
to keep repeating
to not betray myself
now is to leave the field free
is to stop digging
to insist,
is to remove the nail from the crack
it's leaving you alone
and accepting
leaving you alone
and accepting
that you don't want all this
Now I know
even the mind has its tumors
and so you were this,
an illness,
the most beautiful of all.
you were this, an illness,
the most beautiful of all.
the most beautiful of all.
(Madness)
the most beautiful of all.