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I can relate to you on so many levels right now
Shaaanxo Message me if you ever want to chat Shan. I'll let you know when I'm next in NZ, maybe we can have lunch x
I am so overwhelmed and touched by your incredible comments- thank you so much.
I am slowly but surely getting around to answering each and every one. If I don't reply at all it's because you haven't connected to google+ but I have definitely seen it
BeautyLifeMichelle I'm so very blessed to of found your channel today, I am binge watching your video's. You are lovely and I wanted you to know this video was beautiful and raw. It touched my heart. I spent the day in and out of bed, I managed to ride my bike for 30 min but should be doing so much more, normally I lift weights etc daily. Today was a bad day for me, how timely your video was for me. I don't want to be selfish and say "woe is me", all I want to say is Thank you
+BeautyLifeMichelle I could never judge another human for what they're going through as I myself have anxiety with panic attacks.I would not wish it on my worst enemy if I had one..My anxiety is good now only comes out occasionally but it's always there waiting to surface...ESPECIALLY when I travel away from home and this is why I really don't...It's interesting how many You tubers I watch have anxiety but even for me YT is my happy place where I can forget about the world around when I feel bad...and it doesn't matter if you're a You tuber or celebrity or a movie star a singer or a stay at home mom , anxiety does not discriminate. Sending you some love hope you're well!
Michelle!!! I just want to give you a big hug!!!! You did so well with putting everything into words with what you've been through and only a few tears. You hit the nail on the head with why a lot of us joined CZcams. I moved interstate to be with Dean and although I made new friends, something was missing in my life. I wanted to express my creative side and connect with people. Now I couldn't imagine life without CZcams, it's changed my life so much! I love the new friends I've made through it and I wish we could all hang out all the time 😩 Your story is such an inspiration and I know it will help many. Chin up and I'm sure you will lose yourself in blogging and making videos again soon! Love you! ❤️❤️❤️
Crystal Conte Thank you so much for your amazing comment Crystal, I really appreciate it. I feel so similarly to you and genuinely couldn't imagine my life without CZcams now and the incredible community we have. I hope we can have coffee/wine (lol) some day, I would love to have a good old chat with you and get to know you better without the screen in between us! Love ya too girlfriend xx
Dean and I are coming to Sydney in July actually!! It would be so good to catch up and have a wine or two! I think we're coming 22-27th ☺️☺️
OMG yesssss! Keep me posted xx
Michelle, I want to give you a big virtual hug all the way from Ireland. This was one very honest video and I applaud you for uploading it. I'm sorry you've been having a tough time. I know what you mean about wanting to just show people the positive happy side of life but it's only human to experience the downside as well and that's refreshing to hear too. I think you're doing a great job with your CZcams channel and blog, you're doing a fab job representing us Irish on here. Ekk! So excited to see a video with your fella ;) Perfect is boring, human is intriguing. XXX
NakedWithoutMyLippy Thanks for your support and super kind comment Holly. Means the world. I'm gonna slow down and just do as much as I can now. I loved your video about youtubers and being isolated, and I linked it in the description box for people to watch.
Big virtual hug back! x
BeautyLifeMichelle Yeah, exactly Don't feel pressure about it because everyone works on a different time schedule. Thanks so much Michelle. X
Lovely! That is very brave. Thank you for opening up. I was crying throughout your video because I have had anxiety my whole life. Sometimes it takes over and had such a tough time before Christmas. That is the reason why I started youtube. It has helped tremendously and met so many lovely people. Thank you again. You're lovely and are loved xxx
Queen of Sheba Thank you for your support love. I'm so sorry things have been tough for you too and I hope they are getting better. Keep your chin up. Sending big love and virtual hugs your way xx
You are so brave. I have a chronic illness, I've struggled with it for ten years now. Gone from being hospitalised, house bound, bed bound, having good days and 'normal' days and back again. CZcams is such a good distraction from my kidney pain, including your videos. I like being able to put a 10minute video on and not thinking about how crappy I feel for that time. I have anxiety too and have struggled with depression. It's such a common thing yet so hard to talk about. Lots of love, if you're ever in New Zealand I'd love to get coffee! Xxxx
Erin Walter Thank you so much for watching and commenting Erin. I'm sorry to hear you have been having a rough time with chronic illness and I hope it's getting better for you. I love getting lost in CZcams and to be distracted from the bad days too. Sending big love your way xx
Your such a wonderful person Michelle. I don't even know you personally, but i can already tell you that. I have no idea how hard it must have been to come here to Australia away from your past family and friends and I'm so glad that youtube helped you out with feeling happier. I sometimes feel like if i hadn't of started my channel i would not be in the happiest of places at times. And its funny because i don't even have that many subscribers, but i guess just having an outlet where you can express yourself and know that someone is watching even if you don't know who they all are is comforting. xxx
I relate to you so much after watching this, words can't even describe! HUGE hug from Ireland, Shelly xxxxx
Melanie Murphy Thanks Melanie. When I saw you share you own struggles on your channel it really inspired me to share mine so thank you. I linked a vid of yours in the down bar, hope thats ok. Massive virtual hugs right back at you. x
BeautyLifeMichelle aw you sweetie! Thank you! I really understand as well what you said about the fear that people will have this perception of you 'pulling a Zoella' but the fact of the matter is, 99% of the population would never dare to open up in front of the world like that so I say to ANYONE thinking of doing so, even for self-therapy or as an easier way of telling their family their problems...or to help others...do it. It's so beyond worth it! xxx
I too have depression and anxiety. I am very quiet and shy around people and its hard for me because i often feel very alone. i dont have sisters or family to talk to, and i dont have many friends.
thank you for sharing your story
Helen Truong Thanks for your comment Helen. I'm sorry to hear that you don't feel like you have anybody around you that you can talk to. Please know that you are not alone, and that you are loved and accepted by the BLM family xx
I want to give you a huge hug! I 100% agree with you about the many CZcamsrs who found CZcams because they were lonely. I have a similar situation with illness & mental health and the past year has been tough, but CZcams really helped. Making videos makes me so happy. You're awesome for uploading this & I think it will inspire many of us to keep going with our work. I'm glad you're getting better and managing things. Don't be too hard on yourself if you can't get a video up or blog post publish when you wanted too, your health is more important to us. Much love xox
Jocelyn Patricia Thanks for watching and commenting Jocelyn.I'm sorry to hear you've had a hard time too, but I'm happy to hear you've found happiness in CZcams. I hope you're doing well and please know you will always have support here with the BLM family! xx
You're so strong to share this with us girl! 💕 I am introverted too and although I'm only 17 the last 5 or so years I've always struggled with depression and anxiety. Anytime life gets harder or stressful I find it so hard not to slip back into it.
But yeah that's why I came to youtube it helped so much with my confidence, I still haven't found a 'best friend' in real life and I'm so shy in person so CZcamss that one place where I look confident and feel confident in myself!
Love you girl! ❤️
I feel like you just said everything i've been wanting to say for such a long time. You are amazing. Remember that xxx
My Pale Skin Thanks girl. I really appreciate your support, and hope that if you are struggling with anything that you know you are not alone x
This video is amazing. Everything you have said is just so real and so true for so many people and I think this will help a lot of people feeling the pressure. A big hug is being sent your way beautiful
Rachelleea Thanks Rach, means a lot
Thank you for sharing this with us, Michelle. I have dealt with depression and anxiety for about 15 years, and this year has been quite hard for me in terms of my depression, and hearing you share your story made me feel not so alone. You are beautiful, inside and out, and I really respect you for sharing this. I'm so happy that you are on top of things now. Keep your head up, beautiful. ♡
You're so beautiful inside and out Michelle! So brave of you to share your story, these types of honest videos help so many people - including myself. ♡
StealTheSpotlight Thanks love, I really appreciate your support
Such an honest video, I hope no one gives you any hate for it, it's one of the most genuine things I've seen in a long time. I love the thing you said about why this is so common among CZcamsrs, and that talking to a camera doesn't mean we're self confident or vain or extroverts. Thanks for sharing, lots of love xxx
Omg Michelle I was welling up the whole time! I know how u feel as depression stuck when I was in Australia and unfortunately it won the battle and I had to come home! I love how raw this was! You needed to do it in this style! It came across so well and all I want to do is give u a big hug! You could see the relief in ur face by the end! Can't wait for the future of ur channel!!! Congrats on sharing your story and thanks so much for linking my video in the description! Love u loads xxx
Thankyou for sharing this with us. My heart goes out to you. I, myself have struggled with Depression & Anxiety most of my life. I understand where you are coming from & it gives me great comfort knowing you have found ways to manage it. I recently came across your channel & have been watching all your videos & I love them. Sending love! Xoxoxo
Aww Michelle!! Big hugs!! I hope that sharing this with us has lifted a weight off your shoulders and made you feel better. I personally don't care if you upload a video once in a blue moon! I'll still watch it anyway because I think you're fabulous, entertaining and awesome at makeup!! Good on you for being brave and sharing your struggles, I look forward to your upcoming videos! Xx
***** Thank you so much Melissa. I've actually found so much motivation through the comments and support on this video and have been filming loads lately. Just goes to show sharing really does help- huge weight lifted! xx
Such a brave video, well done you! I discovered CZcams when my depression and anxiety was at its worst and finding out that some of my fave CZcamsrs are in the same boat really helped so thank you for being so open with us xxx
Melanie Finlay It makes me so happy to hear that CZcams has brought you happiness the same way it did for me. The CZcams community is more powerful than people know!Thanks for the support xx
Thank you so much for this video Michelle, all my life I've struggled with social anxiety and I've always kind of been ashamed of it but hearing you say that you've embraced your situation and that it is what makes you unique really helped me see things from a different perspective. Once again thank you for opening up to us :) xxo
mynameismarie11 Thanks Marie. Social anxiety is definitely not something to be ashamed of. I find when I embrace it as part of who I am, it feels a lot better and life gets easier. Big hugs xx
You are so strong! It really takes a lot of courage to share this and it is incredibly brave of you. I know the pressure to be perfect can be overwhelming and opening up to people can be extremely hard. I can relate to you on so many levels here, as I have also dealt with anxiety, loneliness and being away from my family in the past few years while also having a close family member being diagnosed with a severe mental illness. Your openness, honesty and ability to transform your illness into such a positive outlet are truly an inspiration. I was already in love with you and your channel before this, and now I am even more so! Looking forward to more of your videos
Michelle, I love you so very much, and I hope you know that. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us, even though it was hard. You and I are similar in more ways than I though, and I truly 100% understand what you've talked about in this video. I wasn't really aware people were calling these types of videos "zoella copies" but it shouldn't be thought of that way. You're right, we flock to CZcams because of those illnesses that keep us from interacting with people. CZcams in a way is easier, at least for me. Still waiting to meet you and saving that big hug for you!!!
Such an amazing video, Michelle. You spoke with eloquence and grace. We live in some of the most beautiful cities in the world, (I live in Melbourne) but at the same time, they can be incredibly lonely. Thank you for sharing your story. Blessings XX
Michelle, I have gained so much respect for you after watching this video and I feel like I've gotten to know you much better. Being able to post this proves what a strong and courageous person you really are. Thank you for sharing and whenever you feel afraid to share personal videos like this remember there's loads of us here (me included!) , who will always be rooting for you & we want to see you happy. XOX I'm an *IRISH* subbie WOO!!
Stay strong michelle! I was diagnosed this week with ocd and anxiety. I enjoy watching you and I support you!
Hilary Griggs Thanks Hilary. I hope you're doing ok. Sending big love your way x
I'm so proud if you for doing this video, these topics aren't always the easiest to talk about. I suffer from a chronic illness & i understand the being stuck in bed unwell & it can be lonely! Ive dealt with anxiety & depression also im glad you addresed this & how its not shameful, because i know when i was diagnosed with depression i was so embarressed i didnt want to tell anyone because i thought they would treat me differently or think i was unstable! I'm just glad more people talk about it now openly so hopefully will help people dealing with anxiety/depression & to realise they should not be ashamed also that they aren't alone. I think you are an amazing young woman. Sending love & huge hugs from the UK xxx
kirsty a Thanks for sharing Kirsty. I too felt embarrassed and ashamed of my depression when I was younger but I now accept it as part of who I am. When I tried to ignore it and pretend it wasn't there, it got worse! I don't ever want anyone else to feel alone or ashamed like I did. Thank you so much for your support. Sending GIANT virtual hugs your way. x
BeautyLifeMichelle thank you for replying means so much 💜 i agree, and i wouldnt be who i am today without the things i've been through feel like im stronger because ive learned to accept it all and learn from it & not let it define me xx
i think your so brave for uploading this and you are definitely one of my favourite youtubers. i think you are doing so well and your just beautiful, inside and out x
Thank you for sharing, Michelle. I also have a chronic illness, interstitial cystitis, that prevented me from working a normal job for a few years. I manage it pretty well now and am back to work, but even though I'm a lot better, I still get waves of frustration and depression every now and then when it flares up. I normally don't like to focus/ruminate on my illness too much, but it's so important to acknowledge how you feel about it and let other people know you are struggling sometimes. Good for you! I"m glad you have a good support system there. I'm looking forward to seeing more videos! :D
Carolyn MacKinnon Thanks for sharing Carolyn. I'm glad to hear you are feeling a lot better even though at times it sneaks back in. I agree, I don't like to focus on it too much either or else it will consume me, but acknowledging it and facing it head on is also so important xx
I am so grateful to have found this video. I became sick last year and tried very hard to ignore it, continued working and going to Uni until I was eventually bedridden and then hospitalised for severe UC. I found everything here so relatable. Thank you for sharing. Best wishes x
Your such an incredible individual michelle! I'm very to myself too so I know how you feel and you sharing and uploading this video is so refreshing and real of you. I love all your videos. Your one of my favorite you tubers and you always put a smile on my face, especially when you do chatty grwm (excited you may only do these in the future now). I'm glad whatever you are going thru is becoming easier or better for you. Us subscribers will always be here for you to support you and help you no matter what. I'm sure when I say this everyone agrees and we all love you so very much hun. The days are getting brighter and your shining thru beautifully ♡ thanks for sharing this and keeping it real on your channel. Your amazing ♡♡♡♡♡♡ xoxo
Thank u for sharing this, michelle, it takes courage & I'm sure will be helpful to so many ppl! Glad yr starting to feel better, prayers that u continue to do so xx
Just came across this video, I know it's an older one but I wanted you to know you're not alone. I'm going through some similar health issues right now that are incredibly frustrating and anxiety has this ridiculous hold on me. It's always there in the background and sometimes it gets the better of me like it has been the last few months. Your personality is lovely, sweet and REAL. I try to watch your vids with my morning coffee to start my day off with a smile! Thank you for sharing! Sending you a huge hug from Atlanta, GA🤗
You're so beautiful! I hope you're feeling okay now. It's awful that you've felt like this but it's great to someone be so honest. It takes a lot of guts to share something like this so be proud of yourself :) xxx
kissandmakeup18 Thank you so much for your kind words, they mean the world to me! xxx
You are honestly such a beautiful person, don't feel as though you are a lesser person for showing your true self. Everybody has their demons and you are so brave and incredible to share that with the world. Your videos make me happy and I always look forward to watching them. You are one of the many you tubers who has inspired me to follow my passion for makeup and beauty here on CZcams. You're truly an inspiration, and this video truly touched me. Sending lots of love your way xx
Laura Bunn Thank you so much Laura. I really appreciate your comment. I hope you are well on your way to following your dreams and passions in makeup and beauty! Sending big love your way xx
I'm so proud of you for opening up i know how hard it can be. I really think this video will be able to help alot of people going through the same thing. I just recently went out and seeked help with depression after being ashamed of it for 10 years i finally feel like life is starting to fall into place for the good, so i hoe this video helps other people do the same. take care hun xx
Kimberley McManus Thanks for your comment Kimberley.I am so happy to hear that you've sought some help and are taking the first steps to getting yourself back on top. It's not easy, but I know you can do it! xxx
Thank you for this video Michelle! I have hypochondria (health anxiety), but a lot of people see it as a "joke" or not a real anxiety. This has helped me realise that there are lots of people who experience this and worse, although sometimes I feel like it's taking over everything I do and stopping me from trying new things. I hope you are staying strong and you are a lovely, genuine person xx
So sorry you have been going through such a hard time. Depression and anxiety are extremely hard to deal with I know. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Jody Newman Thank you for your lovely comment and support Jody. xxx
Yes!!! You are spot on. Sharing my story on you tube was so much easier than taking about it in real life. I too am a introvert, sensitive person that suffers from anxiety and depression. I started my You tube channel to share my life and all the things I was changing with my friends and family. Even though I share my life on you tube it is very hard to talk about myself and my world with people in my real life. Creating my channel helped me get closer to my loved ones and even strangers. It helped me a big way to get over talking to people I don't know. now as a business owner and yoga instructor I feel more confident talking to people in person and with my loved ones. I have always been that friend that people come to when they need someone to listen because I am not one to talk about myself or my life I rather be there for others. I still am that way but your video touched my heart. I know this feeling tooooo too well. I send you LOVE light and so many Hugs. THANK YOU FOR SHARING !
Leilani's Journey Thanks for sharing your story! I'm so glad to hear CZcams has helped you as much as it has helped me. That is so amazing that you are now a business owner and more confident in yourself. I really appreciate your support- sending big hugs right back at you xx
Thank you for this video! I like many people that have commented have struggled with anxiety and depression as well as other mental health issues and I love your approach of not being ashamed of who you are regardless of how other may view mental health issues! You're pretty awesome and such an inspiration :)
Michelle this broke my heart but I'm so glad you are feeling better. I will always be here to support you 100% and hopefully one day I can give you a big hug! This is nothing to be afraid of, you are a sincere brave and beautiful girl xx
itsSophieBelle Thank you so much Sophie. Hopefully we can have a coffee some day and a good old chin wag. Hope all is well with you . Big virtual hugs! xx
This sums up what I have been through even down to the chronic illness. Thank you for sharing - we need more open conversations like this. Glad you are feeling better x
Marion Godden Thanks for your support Marion. I hope things get better for you soon too. You are not alone xx
Incredibly put Michelle. You are wonderful. I love that your not over the top fake like a lot of the huge CZcams personalities tbh .. I smile every time I see a new vid posted by you! Crying is just another way of releasing emotion .. Just like laughing. Do whatever it takes to get your sparkle back. Lots of love from Dublin xxx
Michelle xx I feel like you just went inside my head and explained everything the way I couldn't explain myself. I'm so new to this whole youtube community and Ive wanted to become a part of it for a long time but have always been to anxious to put myself out there. But like you, thats also why I decided to take a leap of faith and give it a go. I am also an introvert and have always found it a bit hard to push myself into social situations when I would rather just be a bit of a loner and do my own things by myself. Thanks for posting this Video. I have always loved the vibe in your videos and this one just made me love you as a person even more. Xx much love
How brave and open you have managed to be in this video is amazing and I have an incredible amount of admiration for you. I have struggled with anxiety and depression a lot since I started uni over the past few year. It always gets me down when it prevents me from doing social things and I also use CZcams and blogging, although I have never done blogged myself, as a little escape from the world when I'm having a bad patch. Your video is so relatable and I have so much love for your CZcams and blog x
Your story touched my heart so much and when you started crying, I got so emotional and I started crying too. I'm so glad that you shared your story with us and I just want you to know that we are here and we are going to support you always! If there is anybody who think that this is another one girl who just wants to get attention from more people with story like this ,they can leave right now! I'm really glad that you got courage to share it and hope that you're gonna be more open to us! Love you! ❤❤❤
LittlePinkGirl xo Thank you so much for your love and support- means the world!
You're so brave for sharing this! Take all the time you need to get better 💖
thanks for sharing this michelle! It's been almost a year since I move to another country and it was hard to come to another country and find friends to relate to etc. youtube has been helping me a lot on my time alone and I'm so grateful for that!
Its Halo Thanks for your amazing comment girl. It is so hard to be taken from your comfort zone to brand new surroundings. I am so glad youtube has helped you too. You are not alone and you will always be loved and supported by the BLM family x
I'm so glad you are starting to feel better. Cherish every moment of it! I originally turned to youtube in 2011 after I was diagnosed with chronic illness. At 1st making vids was great but after a while the stress was too much. I have severe pain in my joints & fevers everyday. Trying to come up with quality content & struggling to be social when I was in agony eventually became to much. I didn't want my channel to be about my illness. I had to give it up. I've been housebound for over 4 yrs now. I wish I was able to make videos but unfortunately I can't. But at least i can watch videos. I'm so grateful to youtubers for making the content that they do. Its a place where I can get distraction from my pain, laugh, learn & relate. Its my window to the outside world. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you continue to feel better!!! XO
***** Thanks for sharing and commenting. I'm so sorry to hear life hasn't been easy on you lately. Keep your chin up girl, you'll get there. You will always be loved and supported by the BLM family here on CZcams x
BeautyLifeMichelle Thank you so much! That is so sweet of you to say! XO
Thank you for posting this. I can totally relate to depression and anxiety and of course everyone's reasons are different. It's nice to get to know more about you. Love you and your videos Michelle! Xoxo
Autumn Ayres Thanks love. I really appreciate your support x
I've not long subscribed to your channel, but I feel that this video has really moved me, I can honestly relate to you, I have chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia but sometimes the depression and anxiety is just harder to cope with and most of the time the they just make each other worse. I may not have been subscribed very long, or know you very well, but I just wanted to send my love, I know what your going through, it's a battle and sometimes you forget why you're fighting but things always get better eventually. I hope you're feeling better and I think it was so brave uploading this video x
Thank you for this video - it's was very real and emotional to watch. Well done for being brave and putting your mental illness out there. I struggle with depression and anxiety too, like you feeling better but still not quite there yet. Just remember you're never alone x
sarahroberts85 Thank you so much Sarah. I am glad to hear you're on the mend, even if you're not quite there yet life myself. Just take small steps every day you will get there xx
Michelle I just wanted to congratulate you on the strength and bravery you showed in uploading this video. I can relate to your story in several ways. I too am an introvert in a foreign land (Englishman in Colorado, USA) and have just recently suffered from anxiety. I've also turned to CZcams and it was eye opening to hear you talk about the backlash some CZcamsrs are getting for sharing their pain due to the perception of "pulling a Zoella." I'm trying to share my own story, but not for sympathy (not saying that you are) but to share some of the successes I've had by going to therapy and beginning to meditate. I've learned so much and been blown away by how many people suffer from this kind of mental illness that it really inspired me to share what I've learned to try and help others going through something similar. Best of luck on your road to recovery!
Michelle you're amazing, this video made me feel better as I have a similar situation and your strength is really inspiring.. Thank you for sharing and I'm really glad you're feeling better!x
I don't know how I missed this months back Michelle! But let me just say that this just makes me love u even more! HUGS!!!!
Thank you for sharing, very brave of you and your honesty is hugely endearing. Vulnerability and seeing your fragility is actually refreshing. I'm sorry to hear what a tough time you have been having. I too was diagnosed with a chronic illness when I was 20. It was an impossibly hard time and accepting my illness and learning how to manage it was a huge struggle. It also left me depressed and anxious although I experience neither of those things right now. Sending you a cyber hug for being so brave and honest. I can see it wasn't easy. All the best with your continued recovery and also your chronic illness. X
MrJameshart1 Thank you James. I really appreciate you taking the time to comment and share your story with me, and I am so happy to hear you are not struggling with these things right now xx
Thank you so much for this amazing video. It was really nice seeing this side of you and you're very brave for posting this. I'm sure its helped so many people including myself. I hope you succeed in every aspect of your life and you continue to feel better everyday. Wish you all the best and sending you tons of love :) xo
I am a Israeli youtuber for the last 6 months and I really need to say that you just took my thoughts and did video about theme! You are amazing! I send you my love from Israel :)
(**sorry for my bad English.. I couldn't avoid this video and not write anything)
Miss Reine Thank you so much for your beautiful comment xxx
Thank you for sharing this Michelle! I know how hard it can be to open up and talk about these types of feelings but thank you for doing so! You are one of my favourite you tubers because you do keep it real so thanks for sharing this side of you. I hope you are feeling better soon lovely ☺️
Denise Leyden Thank you for your lovely comment Denise. I really appreciate it x
You're so beautiful inside and out, and I just wanted to say I completely understand because I do suffer from these-and I did upload my story and it was the scariest thing!! But somehow it brought me some comfort to know that it might help someone. I'm happy to hear you're doing better, as I'm sure there are great days to come! Sending you sunshine and smiles!
B3beautybyblanca Thank you so much for commenting and for your support. I am so happy to hear you found comfort in sharing your story, and now I am glad I shared mine too.
Literally as I was watching that I felt like I was hearing my own story. Seeking help is difficult but I believe it does wonders. Medication also really made a difference, I fought taking it for years but it's a feeling in your heart that is hard to explain. All the best to you Michelle from Orillia, Ontario, Canada. Hugs!!
Jessica Lethbridge Thanks Jessica. Sending big love and good vibes your way xx
Thank you so much for posting this! I look forward to seeing your future content. Hope you continue to feel better :)
I love that you ended up putting up this video! I think as people we are always afraid to come off as vulnerable as that might open you up to possible pain but more often than not there is a strength in your vulnerability. So Kudos to you for being so brave and sharing that. I wish you all the best in terms of your health both physical and mental and I hope that as subscribers/viewers we collectively make an effort to make it safe for youtubers to share. Thanks for thins video! And can't wait for your next one.
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Hailey Darrlyn Thank you so much for your lovely comment Hailey. I really appreciate your support and kind words xx
Aww, this is so inspirational. I luckily don't suffer with mental illness but I definitely think CZcams has opened my eyes to what really goes on. I mean it is just so nice to see that youtubers ARE real and I think this is why it is such an attractive thing for young people because it gives them a break from the pressure of the perfect media. I am also really proud of you Michelle and that you have managed to share this as I bet it took guts. You are beautiful as always and i love you and always hope to support you especially in the tough times that are understandably off of the camera. Xxxx
Wow! That took so much courage to share! I know exactly how you feel! I have anxiety and depression too amongst other thing! I am so amazed you were so honest! Keep up the amazing videos and even if you do have to slow down that's fine! Thank you again you have made me feel like I'm not alone! 😘😘
Well done for speaking out! I'm sorry that you felt so scared opening up about your story. You are very strong to do this!! I made a video on my channel about my journey with anxiety & depression. I was scared like you. BUT lots of people have contacted me since the video for chats about their own struggles. It always helps to talk. End the stigma. Mind your mind xx
Haven't watched your videos for too long but you seriously seem like a really nice person. You're really strong for putting this up and I admire you for it. I can relate somehow because I have this weird fear to cry in public too, I guess we just like to keep things to ourselves. I just wanted to tell you to stay strong, because it will get better, sending lots of love😚😚 And again, thanks for sharing, I'm sure it'll help lots of people💗
Michelle, I am so glad that you have posted a video like this! Its so encouraging to see that there are other people who are going through similar struggles to myself but are managing to fight through them. Its ridiculous that mental health still isn't taken seriously by a large number of people because that can make us feel even more alone and guilty when we are going through a bad time. But the fact that you have had the courage to open up to us and show us that your life is not perfect, and you also have your struggles makes me feel less alone and I feel like I can relate so much more to you now! I hope you continue to get better and keep on posting videos (but please don't feel under pressure to do so if your not feeling up to it)! We will continue to support you in whatever you do! Hope you are okay! Sending lots of love! x
***** You are most certainly not alone my friend! The only way to change peoples minds and stereotypes on A+D is to come forward and show we are not ashamed of our struggles and show that they make us better, more understanding people! Thanks for your support, it means the world. Sending lots of love back to you xx
thank you for sharing this with us I really appreciate it! I totally understand you and what you're going through cause I suffer fron anxiety and depression too and it totally affects my life and my relationships still these days. knowing you're going through this makes me feel less alone so thank you xx
Huge hugs from me to you. I know those dark times all too well, and it was through the amazing support of my family that helped me to seek the help that I needed. I still go through rough patches. I'm so sorry that you have been dealing with this. It took me a very long time to be able to talk about it with people, I remember not wanting anyone to know, and it is so very very hard to break out of that isolation, if anything remotely social was required of me it would stir up overwhelming anxiety. I think this vid shows your amazing strength, courage, and humility...I'm slowly trying to see these qualities within myself, though sometimes the mirror is still a little foggy. I'm here if you need me. xoxo
The-Beauty-Vine Thank you so much for the support love. Sending all that love and support right back at you. We really do need to go for a coffee some day!xox
Sending you a bit hug. This was incredibly brave for you to do. So glad to hear you are doing better. Please keep us updated with your journey, love watching you xxx
Liesha Wood Thanks Leisha
Great job with putting your story out there Michelle, that couldn't have been easy for you well done. Its so nice to get to know you a bit better :) I have struggled with being lonely for years, im not really an outgoing person and can feel uncomfortable with people I don't know so a lot of the time I stay home. I love CZcams for that and while i don't make videos when i watch them it's like having someone in the room with me which is a really comforting feeling :) Keep up with the great work that your doing and I cant wait for your next video!
So glad that you could open up and share this with us, Michelle. Stay positive and know that we loveeee you :) xx
Michelle, you're such a sweetheart. Absolutely my favourite beauty youtuber, because you seem so kind and genuine. Plus you have pale skin like me, so even more to love! I hope you are much happier now, there's a lot of support here for you. :)
I absolutely loved this video! I can 100% relate as I am going through a very intense chronic illness and have been for the last 2 years along with that comes a lot of emotions and anxiety/depression.. I needed something in my life to distract me so I created my blog/Instagram page and it has really helped (although I have been in a funk since the new year so no motivation or energy to get it rolling again) I'm so lucky to have an incredible partner and I don't know where Id be without him but having a chronic illness and mental health problems is something I find many people do not understand so even though I love my friends they certainly don't understand. But I've come to terms with that as now I need to focus on me and my health and getting better as my bed bound life is something I wouldn't want anyone to ever go through! I honestly thank you for this video, your honesty and rawness made me realize I'm not alone and sometimes that's all you need to know! Your blog was one of the first I found so thank you for your inspiration xxxxx
Lauren allthatlozloves Thanks for sharing Lauren. I'm sorry to hear you have been struggling with chronic illness. However I am so glad to hear you have found blogging and have an amazing partner to support you! I don't know what I'd do without mine! You are most certainly not alone and will always have support here in the BLM family xxxx
Wow. Amazing video. Stay strong Michelle. You're such a beautiful person, inside and out. I can't relate as a CZcamsr, but as a fellow Brit, who also moved to Oz, I can relate to your feelings of loneliness. Although, like you I'm sure, I know moving is the best decision I've ever made, and I am so incredible happy. I love your channel. Your dry sense of humour and laid back attitude is what I come back for and your vulnerability in this video is only a growing factor to why I always return. Keep your head held high at how amazing you are and continue to grab life by the balls! All the best xxx
this was so relatable to me. thank you for sharing more of yourself! xx
You are incredible and so brave for posting this! Please know how loved you are -hugs-
Though I am a lot older than you, I can 100% relate to what you are going through, I have been plagued with depression and anxiery on and off for many years and have I think good reason for this,which are personal to me. I think this is such an inspiring video and I admire you so much for opening your heart to us, and I can bet there are a lot of people who have watched this that have found or finding themselves in a similar situation.I dont think anyone who hasnt suffered with depression can understand the greyness it causes, From experience it can take time but with the right treatment and support you will get there, thank you so much for doing this video, not only do I think it will help you but lots of your subscribers too. I think you are an amazing lady xx
caroline h Thanks for watching and commenting Caroline. I hope you are feeling a lot better these days. I agree, it is so hard for anyone who hasn't been through it to understand the huge affect it can have. My partner struggles to understand but he still supports me 100% so I'm very lucky. Sending big love and good vibes your way xx
I related to this SO MUCH! I have been diagnosed with quite a few different chronic illness and am bed ridden a lot of the time, and always in a lot of pain. I completely understand what you mean by feeling anxiety around socialising, and dealing with depression. Im struggling a lot with that at the moment. I'm so sorry you've had to go through that, but I believe for myself that it's something that will make me stronger and i totally believe that for you too!
Hey Michelle!!!
Opening up is hard and your story does connect to some aspects that have happened in my life. You truly are an amazing person; strong to not let the negative things get to you. Stay positive and after watching the video, you have made a smile appear on my face 😊 Most of the time, I have a sad face because of some of the things in my life have either sccared me or have put me in a really tough spot to go through. Also, crying is natural and there's no need to be ashamed of it. I'll shout you out and probably see you around in the future.
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Hi Michelle! Good for you for seeking help. I have recently done the same and although I am in a slump, I do have high hopes for my future. I struggle with similar issues - you mentioned letting go of being "perfect" - this is something I would really like to work on for myself. I've isolated myself from a lot of things in life, for fear of not being perfect. Anyway, best of luck to you, you are so sweet and a joy to watch! Best wishes, Julia
Awwwww Michelle, sending a massive virtual hug! You take your time Hun, I'll still be here :) lots of love, Emma xx
MissDollyDimples Thank you so much Emma. Sending a virtual hug right back at you x
Well done Michelle for uploading this honest video, glad to hear you're feeling a bit better and I'm sure you'll get to 100% soon! Keep your chin up, we love love love your videos! Xx
TheLindsaydrummond Thank you so much Lindsay xx
You are truly an amazing person. with or without CZcams. even thinking of sharing your Illness, depression and anxiety I applaud you for your courage and wish you the very best. without saying too much on here, I also suffer from a Chronic Illness and more. I have SLE, Sjogren's Syndrome and a Seizure Disorder & Chronic Pain to just list a few I have to deal and battle with every day so believe me when I hear you speaking and your voice trembling my heart breaks because I can relate 100% on these feelings. Im glad to hear your doing much better. just remember every day is a battle and you can choose to just try your best and the days you can take advantage of them and film, enjoy things you love and on the bad days stay in bed or on the couch and watch things you enjoy and it's ok to be sick. it doesn't make you lesser than anyone. my Husband is from Sydney Australia. he moved to NJ in America to be with me while I was very sick and we been together since 2009 and married in 2012. things will get better and things will get worse. surround yourself with the people you know you love and trust and go from there. all my best now and always. xx
This is a really, really good video. It makes such a difference when people you admire have real issues and struggles and have been through the same or similair things. Thanks for opening up about it x
Emily Clement Thanks for watching and for your support
A massive *high five* to you, Michelle! Thank you so much for sharing your story. As a massive introvert, I completely get how difficult it is to open yourself up like that - but please know, you have my complete support! I also completely get the feeling when you make plans and you set your 'to do' list and you don't get through it the way you intend - the feeling that you've let yourself down and you're your own biggest critic. Don't be so harsh on yourself. You are amazing. Just keep doing things your way. x Laura
The Glowing Skin Girl Thank you so much Laura, I really appreciate your support x
Awww. Such a sweet girl! Posting this video just shows how real you are! Much love xoxo
I'm currently going through my second lot of CBT for depression and anxiety. I find it so amazing how many people suffer yet it's still so taboo to speak about. I hope you find a way to manage, please know you're not alone and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sending my best wishes Michelle, xx
Nicola Harrison Thanks for sharing Nicole. I agree- it shouldn't be such a hush hush subject but unfortunately it still is. Sending lots of love and support right back at you xx
Michelle, I just subscribed to your channel after happening upon this video. I've seen this one and the video where your boyfriend did your makeup. I can't say for certain if I have watched any of your other videos. I might have but I can't remember. I'm sorry to say; my memory is really horrible sometimes.
I am happy you are able and comfortable to share about the depression and anxiety issues you have. What that means is you are getting a stronger hold on them than they have on you. It's also very okay to cry now and then. It's cleansing to the body and the soul. I've been dealing with the same issues for years as well as a non-life threatening chronic illness as well. I understand all too well when you say you live a reclusive life. Of course, I'm quite a bit older than you are.
I''m glad to hear you are getting help. There are medications that can make you feel so much better and help you overcome much of the depression and anxiety. You just have to give them time to work. Best of luck there.
I hope we can be friends and I am willing to help you in any way possible since I know some of what you're experiencing.
Michelle you are so beautiful inside and out and you're so strong and inspiring for being brave enough to share this with us. Thank you for giving us the courage to do the same. All the best to you in everything!!!!!!!
Michelle❤️Keep going💪🏻
I hv been suffering from depression also so I definitely know how you feel and how everything tears you apart but this little part of yours actually can turn you to be a greatest person and always remember in mind that ppl who love you will always support you for no reason you dont hv to be afraid to share the part of who you are because nobody's perfect thats why we r all unique and when you come to difficulties please think of Tomorrow is another day so take it easy! Love ya😘😘😘
Dra Dra Chan Thank you for sharing and commenting. I really appreciate your support and hope you get closer to overcoming your own depression. Chin up, sending big love and hugs your way xx
Thank you so much for sharing this side of you. As a new mom prone to depression and anxiety, I think I really just discovered CZcams as a place to feel more connected and to feel inspired by other amazing women, yourself included. You would think that YTers would be very extroverted and alway have their sh-t together, but it actually makes perfect sense that many are instead using YT as an outlet because they don't have it in their outside lives. It's very strong of you to share your story, and we appreciate it more than you know :) Be well luv.
I just wanted to say how much I love you, and I hope you find that this video is helpful in your journey! We're here for you boo ;)
Megan McTaggart Thanks Megan, love ya too girl
I wish you all the best, Michelle. :)
I've also countless times failed to finish projects that I've wanted to start, for personal and for work because of low spirits and I totally understand your situation.
I'm still a fan and am always happy whenever you upload one of your awesome videos. :)
Hope you feel better and take your time to get back into the groove! You are gorgeous and fun and I love your videos!
xoxoxo
TheBaronessBlack Thank you so much for your support and for understanding! We can only do our best in life and everything after that will have to wait until we're ready x
Good on you Michelle for sharing your story. Depression and anxiety is so so common but yet people who suffer still don't like to talk about it and I think the more people who speak out about it will help take away the shame of it... I to suffer with depression and anxiety and thank you for sharing your experience and I love you more for it. Your a gorgeous person and I wish you nothing but success and happiness..
nuffie1989 So common, yet the fear of being seen as weak is what's stopping us all from being able to seek help and get better. I'm sorry to hear you also suffer from A+D, and I hope you have a good support network around you to help you through the tough times
Aw Michelle, sending much love and virtual hugs from Ireland! Such a beautifully honest video and I feel like I know you a little more now. No matter what you choose to share, the good, the bad and the ugly we all appreciate it and love seeing your videos pop up. Looking forward to your chatty videos, they are my favourite of yours! xx My question for your Q and A How does like in Australia compare to life in Ireland? Myself and my partner have been taking about making the move for ages!
The Drug That is Beauty Thanks girl, I appreciate your support and comment. It really means so much to me!In regards to moving to Aus, I think it's always a positive choice to move around and see the world with your partner when you are young and able. Everyones situation is different, but the main things I would suggest putting extra planning into are - making sure you have enough money put aside in case you do not get work easily, and making sure you document your relationship with your partner in case you need info for a future visa. Other than that, your Aus experience will depend on what you chose to do yourself. Hope that helps xx
Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story. 💖
Claudia Hegarty Thank you for watching and commenting Claudia x
WOW this was deep! I love you even more for sharing your story, I could see how hard it was for you, I 100% agree with what you said about youtubers looking for a different way to connect with people, alot of people say to me you seem so much more confident online your a good actress... I'm not acting its still me just a more comfortable, confident happier me so i can totally relate to you. thanks for sharing hope your ok, wish I could give you a hug x
You are amazing and inspirational! Your honesty and commitment is something you should be so proud of. I have a mother that has a mental illness and for longest time I just wished I could communicate with her. It's for this reason I want to highlight your strength and that is that you are a phenomenal communicator. Xxo