DIY: Ancient anxiety medicine.
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- This exercise is a great way to re-centre yourself and bring you back to your body (and the present moment) when things are a little bit anxious and "UP." The act of conscious touch and gently squeezing your upper body can be very containing, and provide a sense of "here I am!"
It's also a great exercise to do when you just need a break: it'll help you notice your breath, and the present moment. Enjoy!
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QUICK HISTORY: I originally made this video for my online students, but it's SO potent and powerful that I had to share it with you. It's inspired by the work I've done with Peter Levine, the founder of the body work somatic healing therapy, Somatic Experiencing. Peter writes about this powerful exercise in his book, In An Unspoken Voice.
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I am very familiar with this technique! This is the Triple Warmer/Spleen Hug, that Donna Eden from Eden Energy Medicine has been teaching for decades! One hand is over one of the T.W. point on the upper arm, the other is on a Spleen point under the arm. It calms the Triple Warmer, the meridian governing the fight, flight or freeze response while the Spleen meridian boosts our immune system, increase our vitality and acts as a nurturing mother. What fun to see this exercise crossing over various approaches!
yes!! It is.
Who would have thought...I just imagined the right arm was calming the heart....super interesting.
I was also thinking about Donna Edens work
You said you were stopping, but I would actually really like to do at least 20 minutes of this exercise with you. So soothing co-regulating with someone else and be given such helpful reminders along the way. This was lovely tho, thank you.
I've done this before but didn't focus on the feelings. This time i did and felt like the kid whose mom finally touched him! Thank you. BTW, jin shin jyutsu has some easy, quick techniques for worry, fear, anger and feeling alone. They are holding your thumb, index, middle, ring and little finger for 2 or more minutes with the same receptivity used with hug.
At first, produced tension in my body because it took so much effort to keep my hands in position. Then I tried placing my hands inside my shirt, skin on skin. That was magic! Both because the hands stopped slipping, and also that direct contact produced such soothing energy and safety. It’s subtle, but very supportive.
I used this today during group therapy where I was feeling a lot of anxiety and depression and felt like I was leaving my SELF. This was very helpful. Thanks for this tip.
So glad it was helpful!
This is helpful and really works! I found..now I am past my worst anxiety..that it was really my body trying to tell me things! I was with the wrong people..trying to be in the wrong place and doing the wrong thing. Anxiety is your body talking to you. Pay attention and Listen. Something is Wrong! It can be more than just your thought process.
This is exactly the type of thing I want to learn more of. I work with individuals with schizophrenia and want to teach them this and other exercises. I would love a whole playlist like this video. Thank you!!
HI Saribidus, Jen here from Team Lyon. Wanting to make sure you're aware of the playlists on Irene's CZcams channel. I'll share a link.
Playlist of Sample Neurosensory Practices - czcams.com/channels/BkXgr0E9ZWUg4iSDEUKqVA.html
AMAZING! Wow, could I ever feel this calm my nervous system down. I almost cried too. Such a simple but powerful tool
I probably need to practice these things more because im so used to tightening up
As soon as I put my left hand on my shoulder, I started to tear up. I felt so safe and held, and the sadness just came out. But when I paused the video and got back into position, I had a hard time feeling my body again. My brain started running (In quiet moments, I have songs running through my head.), and I couldn't reconnect with myself. I restarted the video, got back into position, and I could feel again. I would have thought that having someone talking in the background would stop my connection to self, but it seems to have been the opposite. I am not well-regulated and have terror at the thought of connecting to myself, so maybe that little bit of distraction away from 100% focus on myself is what I needed.
Hi Brooke, Seth here from Team Lyon. It may be that yes, a bit of distraction is helpful, or, it may actually be that the reason it feels better to have someone talking is because it is sparking up your social engagement system, which is helping you feel safer. Either way, just keep following your impulses and exploring!
@@teamlyon3109 thank you, feeling the safety of having someone else there was my next guess, actually. :-)
@brookekrovic7739 I had the same experience of immediately tearing up! I noticed that I tightened up my throat to keep from crying. This is a common experience with me, as I really don't like to cry at all. I usually don't feel better when I do in fact, it makes me feel worse.
My mind also keeps running all the time, if not with thoughts then with a song, or music.
As I stayed with it longer, though, I noticed that I felt calmer, and I began to sway back and forth, as if my body was regulating and calming itself with the movement.
I'm not very well-regulated, either! Perhaps practicing this exercise would help me the more I do it.
Love this
❤thank you! Good One!
Thank you so much i was disociating and this really helped to bring me back
I tried this excersise, and I got in contact with an anxious sensation deep within my gut which caused me to become very afraid.. I just recently learned that I’ve been shut down most of childhood and that I never really knew what it feels like to have a regulated nervous system. Thank you so much, it helped me SO MUCH.
Wow this really helps! Thank you so much❤️
This is wonderful, thank you!
Thank you!. I love the gentleness how you explain the process of healing.
Thank you for all your videos. You’re so helpful.
Very helpful. Thank you.
Very soothing! Thank you💚
Love it. So nice, Can't even let myself go. Thank you
Thank you ! love this technique and sharing it with as many as possible
Beautiful. I love combining this with the 'voo' sound.
Thanks Irene, I need to remember this and also practice it.
Works quite well for nervous aggravation. Thanks.
Thank you sooooooooo much ❤️💞🌸
Love this, just found you, will be going to your website, thank you so much.
Works for me!
Thank you!
This video is great. Sometimes I take notes with your work. I've noticed some other video's have a 10/15? second forward or rewind button. It would be very helpful if you were able to install that on yours, since it's easy to miss a point I need to rehear. Thanks!
Thank you Irene.
Thank you for this gift 🎁
Wow, this was amazing! I have felt so overwhelmed and really stressed out lately and this exercise really helped me to calm myself and come out of that. The tears just kept streaming down my cheeks.😭 The funny thing is that I always fall asleep in that position at night, without even knowing it's actually an exercise to calm the stress energy. Thank you for sharing! ❤️
Awesome I did this while listening, nice, and calming, and feeling more prepared to do what I want to create in my day
Thank YOU Irene! I will practice this exercise and let you know how it goes! 😍
Thank you so much!!!!
Top of the line usman
Thank you so much. 💖
Thank you Irene. I found this very helpful. Also, the information on the breath and heart rate.
i kept yawning through this exercise....feels like releasing something! So cool, thank you!
Thanks, appreciated.
Irene, i'm not sure if you are moderating the comments on this video anymore, but i wondered about something... I first came across this calming exercise with a video I watched with Peter Levine being interviewed about safety and trust and feeling anxious. I tried it, and promptly burst into tears. After a few minutes, the tears passed and i started yawning. I tried the exercise again a few days later and had the exact same response. Now, as I try it with you, I am having the same reaction. What is that?! My sense its that its supposed to calm me... but it seems to be a release point of some kind and i'd love to understand a little more about it!!! Thank you for all that you do. Kristin
Hi Kristin
Yawning can be a few things .. but it is mostly a sign that the parasympathetic nervous system is coming online ... yawning is calming right? So that is what is happening. You can try lessening the grip and doing a little less and stopping before you feel the yawn. The other common thing that can be happening when someone always yawns is that it is a thwarted anger response ... and the body defaults to yawning because it is safer than expressing big lifeforce energy.
If you haven't taken in my other resources, or tried out my online programs, I would highly recommend them as these will help you dip into a greater process of self study of the nervous system and what might need to be shifted, or released, and integrated. Take care, Irene.
I’m f course you need her program.
Makes sense.
Merch ing trauma, is trending.
@@Lemoncare She has many, many, many FREE resources available on her website, as well as on the YT channel. Be blessed!
This felt amazing. Is it normal to laugh. I couldn't control it, I just erupted in genuine laughter. It was quite cathartic.
I'm glad it felt amazing Alexa!
Laughing can be a way of energy "shifting" or there being a change in our system. I'm glad your experience afterwards was cathartic!
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
Thank you for all you do. This video is Very helpful.
Good! Glad it helped. XO
So grounding and calming thank you! Did this before bed last night and woke up feeling so good.
Hey gonnanapro, Seth here from team Lyon. I'm so glad!!
Wonderfully simple tool that worked for me! I shared it with several friends tonight. I haven't yet dived in to your work but I'm excited to learn more.
Oh thank you so much! Glad it helped. And please check out my other resources that you can find on my site: www.irenelyon.com.
Thank you thank you thank you, this has truly been grounding I actually feel sleepy now 😅
We yawn because we are activating the Parasympathetic nervous system. This is a nice little exercise to calm ourselves down, will definitely incorporate.
Great!
Omg can you please make more of these? ❤️❤️❤️
H Jennifer, Seth here with Team Lyon. There's a playlist of practical neurosensory exercises here... czcams.com/play/PL_tIcR-r0CU5Xss_Mq1buU-tWdYVQksjI.html
Also, other free practical tools here... irenelyon.com/free-resources-2/
If you want to dive even deeper into the practical side of the work than what is offered in those places, I suggest checking out her paid programs here... irenelyon.com/programs/
Thanks for being here!
I love this . Practical in the moment strategy . Someone please input … if a friend or teen is unwilling for whatever reason to do the more somatic work ( not understanding, open, accepting, afraid …) how do other bodies therapies fit in the healing model with this stuff the videos talk about . It does seem to help .. I’ve noticed with myself and others such things as many reiki , Bowen, kinesiology, Acupunture, tapping seems to create shift and even ( but maybe less so ?? ) wellness chiropractic, yoga, dancing , cardio boxing class, trampoline bouncing , massage …
Irene, I've being watching you since last week and I feel we are on very similar tracks, by any chance you have material in Spanish? my followers would be very happy to read/hear what you have to tell them, it's great to find you and see that what I have discover to deal with anxiety is shared by other professionals. Congratulations and thank you!
Hi there -- thanks so much for your support and the work you do. Right now, I not able to translate my work into different languages as I don't have the resources available to me. One day it will most likely happen. For now -- keep doing your work and please tells your clients about this important nervous system work! Irene.
Instablaster...
A self-hug!
Oh my god I just can’t help but notice how similar these calming practices to yoga, especially the calming, realizing the tension and trying to release it and similar to mindfulness as well. So many connections in my brain are happening right now hahah
Yew!!! 🧠✨
I came up with one really nice thing to calm down mind,,,,just close eyes and relax...and just wait for those "spots" or light streaks to appear on your field...just be aware of them if its not making you tense.....
Thank you :)
Hi Irene. After watching a couple of your videos. I’m new to your channel and a now a subscriber. Which one of your videos would be a good place to start for trauma healing. There’s a chance I may also need to find a new therapist which is really scary for me. She’s been my therapist, off and on since 2003. We possibly have reached a certain end point. Im realizing lately I really need help to slow down. I’m often in a high arousal state. Thank you for sharing this practice. I will be using it often.
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this freaks out me bc i also have health anexiety specially during and around my panic attacks
👍💖 Thank you Irene. Amazing. I felt a warm energy and a smile with much gratitude for all my body had gone through and how it got me through all of the trauma without totally collapsing, giving up, or dying. Wonderful and helpful centering self-help tool. 😊
So wonderful to hear that this was your experience Diana 💕
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
I will practise this after doing a phone call at work.
Hello...thank you for this, i was wondering would it be good to do this lying down...?
Hi there, Seth here with Team Lyon. Sure! However feels comfortable for you.
Hi Irene, does this work if you're sat cross-legged, or is it best to do it with your feet on the floor?
I'm not fully sure from a Jin Shin Jyutsu prospective. As there may be a reason for having the feet on the floor.
But I would think that sitting anyway comfortable works! I would suggest playing with it and seeing what your experience is like!
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
Hi, lovely Idea, thank you - a very good friend shared this. I had to stop after just under 5 minutes as it was too much for me personally in my state of anxiety, stress, ptsd etc but this is great the 5 minutes I managed were good for me. Have you considered 1 or 2 minute versions? Bright Blessings and many thanks to you and the work you are doing in service xx Marcus_Bollonius (UK)
HI Mark. Glad that you tried this.
Making a recording that is only 1-2 minutes will be touch in this format as I need to offer some form of introduction.
I'm glad that you stoped and followed that impulse -- that is great. Keep trying this, and see how your system might change as you keep listening and pausing.
I'd love to suggest my other resources that will help guide you through some theory and exercises ... here is another that many people enjoy: www.irenelyon.com/shop/product/4-surprisingly-simple-steps-to-calm-overwhelm-out-of-control-emotions/
Take care!
Irene.
Hi Marcus
I have the same experience. Sometimes I start trying exercises and don’t really know when to stop. I’m getting more In tune but being with my body is overwhelming after being apart from it for so long. I wish you only beautiful things x
@@IreneLyon the link is no longer working. I'd really really appreciate the info if you can please let me know where to get it as of now? Horrific panic attacks and I could really use some relief. Thanks so much!
@@marissamia23 Try this!
irenelyon.com/4-steps-to-calm-overwhelm/
Also, here are some other free resources that might be helpful -
irenelyon.com/free-resources/
Sending supporting vibes your way.
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
I got really sleepy trying this.
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What does it mean when you feep nothing at all? No change whatsoever. I had tried some Vagus nerve exercises before, and nothing happened as well. Why doesn't it work for me?
Suzychocolate - Mara here with Team Lyon. When feeling or sensation is dulled, it may mean that one's nervous system is in freeze. Starting with vagus nerve exercises may not be the right approach. In Irene's teachings, she starts with the basics so you understand how the nervous system works, and the combination of that education plus practices that you do every day can help rebuild the capacity to feel. It takes time, and sometimes takes work with skillful practitoners. Start with this video series: irenelyon.com/healing-trauma-freeresources/
@@IreneLyon thanks a lot. I am new to this. I need to learn more.
The Freeze Response can be causing the shallow breathinh as well
Sure can!
I've done it like the whole video and I'm still panicky :/ there's something about hugging myself that really scares me and I have no idea why. It did help me notice some other feelings tho, like anger and tiredness
That's cool to hear that it did help you notice some other feelings. Sometimes that can be good insight into something different and lead us to something new :)
I will speak from personal experience - when I cross my arms this way it creates more activation for me too (I'm assuming because of some trauma I have to my one arm). But if I put the other arm on top it's more calming. It may not match what the reasoning is behind the practice from a Jin Shin Jyutsu perspective, but it changed the experience for me!
Might be worth exploring for yourself. What can you do that creates a feeling of less panic in your system?
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
I need advice for a cliënt who has so much hate and disgust towards her body that I can't get her into any body awareness exercise. She understands theoretically that her emotions are stored there and that it will be necessary to face them in order to progress. But the resistance is just such a blockage. I wonder if it is just a question of time or if there is something that I can do to help her with that
@wilma8326, Jen here from Team Lyon. Advising how to work with clients is beyond the scope of what we do here. Speaking very generally, I can offer is that attunement is what ultimately heals (including attunement to self). If someone doesn't want to go into their body, you might consider working in other ways for the time being. Another point of education is that often when someone feels hate or disgust towards themselves, these feelings likely initially stemmed from healthy responses that the person internalized when it wasn't safe to express them outwardly. This might also be something to keep in mind.
Hmmmm....It feels uncomfortable to do it the way you said. I can more easily reach and hold myself if I do it the other way round, i.e. left hand on right chest etc. But I'm not sure I find it relaxing or containing, I can't focus on my body enough.
Hi Uta, Jen here from Team Lyon. Every individual (and nervous system) is unique, so these practices will land differently in different people and at different times. Tuning into your experience and following your impulses are two foundational principles in this work, so I invite you to adapt the practice to see it there's a way to do it that feels more supportive to your system.
You can also do this (or a version of this) practice without focusing much on your body. For example, you might hold one arm with the opposite hand and allow your attention to notice the space your in, or the texture of your clothing.
@@teamlyon3109 Thank you. 🙏 I'll give that a go.... :-)
Could you do this successfully DURING a stressful event? eg dentist
Hi Sara Palmer, Jen here from Team Lyon. If you practice it and find it's soothing/settling to your nervous system, then yes, for sure you can practice it during a stressful event.
@@IreneLyon hi Jen! what if doing this exercise feels "suffocating" or has the opposite effect? It feels a bit like it's constricting my chest. thank you
It's been very challenging to learn to stay in my body when I'm under surveillance by a neighbor upstairs who stalks me and never leaves home.
Hi Kahlo Diego, that's completely understandable. Sometimes taking practical action where possible (moving, getting a dog or a roommate) can be very supportive of the nervous system and to healing in general.
I didn't feel relied from this, it made me feel squeezed and claustrophobic (which I have an issue with anyway). This is in no way a criticism and maybe as I'm overweight it just isn't as easy but just thought I'd add my experience to the comments. Other things you share work for me, just not this.
Can I work one on one with Irene?
Julie S, Irene now dedicates her time to teaching people to heal trauma and grow nervous system regulation through her free and paid online offerings and doesn't see clients one to one anymore.
You can learn from her in many different ways though. In addition to this CZcams channel, she offers other free resource and paid offerings too. You can visit her New Here page to become familiar with Irene's work and different ways you can learn from her. - Jen from Team Lyon
New Here? - irenelyon.com/new-here/
Where Peter Levine introduces those positions in a video, I thought: This is like JIN SHIN JYUTSU!!! (?)
Thank you, Irene, for giving it the credit it deserves!
I have been using JSJ since 2011 - the whole shebang with the meridian hand positions as well as the grand central to give myself energy that helped to get out of the burnout - and I would say this certainly helped me with anxiety and shyness. I used to be so shy and anxious. If one takes it further, using the bladder and kidney meridian hand positions every day for a while, one will certainly notice a shift.
Also when I felt depressed it helped me doing certain hand positions. Using our hands is what we have at our disposal wherever we are at any time. It is only natural, right? When we bang our head, what do our hands do automatically? When we have lower back pain, where do our hands go (actually a JSJ hand position too)
Therefore I am a big fan of hand positions/ JSJ since I know they have a very powerful impact on us.
Thanks for your comment! And for sharing the impact Jin Shin Jyutsu has had for you!
I haven't done much myself (other then this lesson) and am definitely intrigued!
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator.
this is the first thing that helps in years. why do therapists not teach that? I have talked to 30 therapists in my life. nobody helped, they did harm instead. the "talking therapy" re-traumatized me and I have PTSD because of those therapists. how come you teach helpful stuff but the licenced therapists in my country do not?
Hi Min chen, Jen here from Team Lyon. Great that you found Irene's work and that this practice was helpful! As far as your question goes, traditionally talk therapists have focused on working with the mind and cognition. Awareness of the impact and importance of working with the body is growing, so this is starting to change.
@@IreneLyon thank you for explaining. Unfortunately I lost most of my friends because they believed that therapy was helpful, but talk therapy of course is not helpful. I get blamed all the time that I am not better. Victim blaming is what they do to you when therapists do not help. I have no friends left because of the therapists. I will never be better and my life is ruined. I am sad that it took such a long time to inklude the body in healing. I have an auto immune condition as well and I cannot find a doctor to treat it. They say it is too complicated. Germany and it's doctors suck. Never come to Germany when you are sick
Did anyone’s body start rocking?
HI Courtney Gmeiner, Jen here from Team Lyon. Rocking can be one of the nervous system's (and body's) nature soothing instincts so rocking as you do this is not uncommon. Often a sign that soothing is happening as intended by the practice!
Why don't you offer free courses I know that people put effort on this but once Ill get over this And learn more I will give people access to a free programe cuz I know how it feels not to be able to get smtg that actually heal urself
HI Wiam, Jen here from Team Lyon. I want to make sure you know about all of no cost resources Irene has created to help folks learn about and work with their nervous system. Hope they help.
CZcams playlist of practical exercises: czcams.com/play/PL_tIcR-r0CU5Xss_Mq1buU-tWdYVQksjI.html
Free downloadable resources: irenelyon.com/free-resources-2/
I noticed that s how i sleep...N sometimes I stop myself from going asleep like this,telling myself I don't need to defend myself...Isn't this a hug we give ourselves,comforting ourselves? Is this tricking our body into believing is getting a hug?
Hi Gabriela, Seth here from team Lyon. It's no trick! that's a real hug! Yes, it is from ourself, but that is just as valid as getting one from someone else :)
@@teamlyon3109 ,Thank u, Seth🙂
Does it matter if hands are in opposite position to what u show?
I'm not sure if it does from a Jin Shin Jyutsu perspective... But I know for me I actually prefer having my hands in the opposite position.
I would say explore it and see what your experience is!
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
Irene, not everybody is a contortionist. I have fibromyalgia and I can't possibly get my right hand near my rib cage. It ends up being very frustrating. I could only get my right hand as far as underneath my left boob. Otherwise I have severe shoulder pain. Please realize that taking the right hand and bringing it all the way to the rib cage is really actually quite challenging. Can'tI just have my damn right hand underneath my left breast?????I know my heart is in there somewhere. Please let me know.
Hey Charli, Seth here from Team Lyon. Absolutely! Just adapt the exercise in a way that works for you. It certainly wont be useful to strain and be uncomfortable or in pain! The idea is to bring a sense of containment, or 'sensing our edges', to the body. So however you need to change this such that it works for you is fine :)
@@teamlyon3109 Thank you so so much!!
JIN SHIN JYUTSU, what does it mean?
www.jinshininstitute.com/
Hopefully this gives you some insight!
Nicole - Team Lyon Moderator
Please be aware that energy work can be a spiritual danger. For Christians this is not suitable since God clearly says that we are not gods that can save themselves. That's why He sent us a redeemer who took all our wounds, sufferings and traumas up to the cross. Always ask Christ to go with you back to your traumas and immerge every second of you life into His healing mercy and endless love❤
@@betmikael28 I have followed your advice for 40 years and that God and his perfect Redeemer son never answered, or helped; before or after the trauma. Your God is a sham and these therapies are a thousand times more effective than your death producing doctrine.
@@betmikael28 if that bring you describe were endlessly loving or merciful 🤢🤮 no one would have been traumatized in the first place. That Bible god was hell for decades.
Perla Margarita I am very sorry to hear that you have been through traumas and havent met sisters or brothers who could show you God's real love and beauty shining through them. It looks like youre angry with God-but as per definition God IS love He doesnt give traumas...its people' bad desicions(sins) and this worlds fallen nature that brings the suffering. That's the price for our free will (how else could we decide to do good or love someone). That's why He sent His Son to this suffering world to show us how to live, to help His children who are deceived by the spirit of death. Jesus's resurrection showd us that death has not the last word-and that the life after death is much more important than this handicapped life since it will last forever either in the presence of perfect joy within God or the absence of it. God wants the best for his children but noone is forced to believe, however we have all a limited time to make the decision. It's like with human love you dont want someone to force to love you-this would not be called love then. If you're open to it and want to give Him one last chance, go for ONE month, ONE x per week for a whole hour into an adoration chapel (or ask what time the Holy Adoration hour takes place) and tell Jesus openly everything you wrote here in the comment and tell Him how you feel and then just wait and listen for His answer in silence. However you decide I wish you all the best, lots of hope, strength and courage to never give up or settle with short term happiness but to always seek true fullfilling love (this sometimes means to make hard decisions and go the path that looks narrow and uncomfortable).
Maybe you can find here some inputs
czcams.com/video/UMqka3XgHuw/video.html
He raped my soul.
I thought he was my best friend.
But he just raped my soul.
And my heart is shattered.
And I can't breathe through the pain.
The darkness has hold of me.
Oh good God how I suffer.
I am tormented and tortured.
He discarded me and replaced me.
I'm in so so so so so much pain.
I desperately pray to die.
I am submerged in darkness.
I'm in hell with no escape.
I am flooded, constantly, with panic and terror.
The man whom I thought was my best friend,
discarded me like garbage. He gave me SEVERE PTSD.
(4 primary/core UNHEALTHY reasons relationships break down:
1. Contempt
2. Criticism
3. Stonewalling
4. Defensiveness)
Over four months of this horrific terror.
The PTSD is severe and intense.
The man whom I called my best friend,
ended up raping my soul...
PANIC AND TERROR
ALMOST CONSTANTLY FLOOD ME.
I am paralyzed and traumatized
and debilitated and breathless,
with almost-constant panic attacks.
I desperately pray for healing.
In February of this year (2023),
the man who I thought was my best friend...
Discarded me like garbage.
Replaced me for another.
In doing so...
He gave me SEVERE PTSD.
We're in June, now...
It's been over 4 months...
I MUST GET OVER THIS and MOVE ON...
Please, help me, God!
God, you have has blessed me to be a writer...🙌🏾
I humbly thank you and bow before you.
I pray to make use of this talent/blessing/gift!
Perhaps I write my way to healing?
I also want/pray to make myself ready,
with your miraculous help, oh God...
I want to be healed and purified,
that I may finally meet and spend my life with,
my twin-flame.
Here's what my trust is in: I don’t have to date.
I don't have to do those God-forsaken dating apps!
My kingdom spouse will locate me, he will come for me! 💍👰♀
Him, my twin-flame and I, are ordained to be together.
We are magnetized to one another: NOW, ALWAYS, ALL WAYS.
Maktub. It is written. It is God's will. Praise be to God!
Let me remind myself of how loving sex/intimacy can actually be.
(Because up until now, it's only been trauma for me...)
14 GENTLE URGENT REMINDERS, REAL/HEALTHY LOVE/SEX MEANS:
1) He also always (all ways) says he loves you outside the bedroom...
2) He looks DEEP into your eyes, into your soul, during sex/intimacy...
3) During sex: he wants full body contact... Hugs, caressing, hands all over your body
4) Spending quality intimate time together, both: before and after sex
5) Being intimate afterwards: cuddling, pillow-talk, playing, sleeping together closely
6) He prioritizes your pleasure, and attends to your needs and the things that you like
7) He pulls you in, super close and super intimate during sex
8) He compliments your personality, your character, your soul etc...
9) He kisses you with love and intimacy and passion
10) Slow seductive sensual lovemaking
11) He's open/vulnerable, he shows you his body, his insecurities, his fantasies
(without fear of judgement from you...)
12) He wants to meet your needs and he wants you to be satisfied
13) He understands when you don’t want sex and he doesn’t push or pressure
14) It’s not just about sex,
he's interested in conversation and outings and connecting:
outside the bedroom
AND PLEASE, GOD, LET ME ALSO ALWAYS REMEMBER:
The gift of rejection positions me for MY purpose!
The gift of rejection reveals what his role was/is: in my healing/destiny (THIS IS ALCHEMY)!
The gift of rejection draws me nearer to you, oh God! (As well as to my own soul!)
Rejection is redirection!🎉
Someone who is healthy is someone who:
1. wants REAL intimacy (and is capable of it, and willing to co-create it)
2. has their life (relatively) in order
3. genuinely likes and loves themselves
4. has healthy values and a healthy lifestyle
5. has deep self awareness
6. has a strong support network
7. is emotionally available and consistent
8. has a healthy vision for their future
9. can navigate conflict well
10. has a strong sense of self respect
Starts around 2:00 minutes
I would never take health advise from someone who can't even pronounce the letter T while speaking
Thanks Irene, I need to remember this and also practice it.
+Carmel D'Almeida Good, good Carmel. Practice, practice! :)