The Reason I Wanted To Die 僕が死のうと思ったのは【Cover: Nakashima Mika】【Lyrics: amazarashi】
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- Cover By: Nakashima Mika
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A little background about this song...
Amazarashi originally wrote and sang the song and gifted it to Nakashima Mika when she was going through a really rough time with her comeback after taking hiatus due to sickness. She had eustachian tube dysfunction which feels almost like when you are on a plane that's descending. The pressure build up in your ears causes all sound to seem very muffled. Her condition was so severe that she could barely hear her own voice while singing and had a really hard time hearing the accompanying music. She was treated in the US but ultimately could not be cured of the condition.
She performed really poorly on her comeback live performances - bad singing volume, off tone, off rhythm. A lot of people and Japanese media bashed her while knowing nothing about her condition and said she just came back for the money and her singing is not good anymore.
She said she cried really hard when she received this song and felt like it represents the voice from her heart. It was really touching to see her perform this live on stage, stomping her foot to the sound of the drums so she can keep the beat since she can't hear the accompanying music that well.
There's a video of her performing this song live. It's not the best version of the song by any means - she goes off tune and her volume is all over the place. But you can truly feel how much passion she has and how she just wants to keep singing.
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Original version by Amazarashi:
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Damn......
I know nothing about this song, the singer.
This just pop up at my home,
But this comment about background if true is so touching and amazing.
K now I want to die
Yeah, it's true. But you got one thing wrong. Nakashima Mika isn't actually singing in this video but 芝麻Mochi. Look her up. She is also an amazing singer and has great covers.
@@NeoErwecker Oop. I thought she sounded odd here. The description says "Cover By: Nakashima Mika" which trolled me :|
”The reason I can’t stop thinking about death, must be that I take living too seriously.”
This line hit me really hard.
Exactly. Always put a smile on your face and dont give a shit about anything. Life's too short to worry
Same
@@blu9856 Everything isn´t meaningless. There is meaning beyond life. And even if you don´t want to accept that then you should know that our actions can influence others into doing something great, or even do it ourselves.
Not just a few words is the reality
@@Samuel-qc7kg maybe the meaning is making memories
I feel like dying, but I don't want to die. I want to escape my life, but I don't want to leave everything behind
You're not the only one...
I feel the same.
Guys stay strong. I promise things will get better if you don't give up on yourself. No one believes in you more than you do. This song is basically a reminder that maybe once you may have thought of ending it all, but were able to overcome it to be in the place you are or will be in the near future. You guys will do amazing!
Exactly how I feel.
Same helppp....
i've learned that it's not that i want to die, it's that i want to live. live a different life and escape from the current version of life that i have. and that reinventing yourself, making changes in your life, going to a place you've always wanted to go, doing something you've always wanted to do - signing up for singing classes, trying out to be an actor, entering a language academy to become fluent in japanese so you can work in japan and live like a local - doing reckless things like that, is infinitely better than ending the life you currently have. that's what's so beautiful about life. there are endless possibilities that you can follow. and if you're not happy in one path, go ahead and change your course. take another path. do that over and over again until you find happiness. my philosophy professor used to say: "happiness isn't something you look for. it's something you create."
The truth is, I like to be alone... But I hate being lonely
You are not alone. I'm here for you now. because i have same problem.
I was always alone. wherever i went i was alone. But i had faith that someone will show up for me. No one did yet, but I know the feeling so I'm here for you now
Hey victor do you know how what the song he had label as a beautiful Japanese song by any chance?
Marry an Otaku. That way you can be alone together in each of your own Otaku world.
I feel you man, being alone is lonely
Words!
It sucks when you can't explain yourself.
@Aelgin Domingo, it’s like a feeling of pain that pain never be eased. It just keeps on throbbing on and on but no one helps caress them, it *Hurts* but it’s always been like that for me.
Yeah, and many misinterpret
But your comment catched my eyes.
Why are there so many random comments
Too many feelings to put to words
"If I'm just living like a dead, empty person then what's the point in living"
Everyday is the same, it's not fun waking up knowing that today will bet the same as yesterday and every other day.
@@theoneeyedowl4182 I went through the same thing as you and all I can say is, just stay strong because that feeling will pass eventually. And now when I feel a bit down I try to remember those days of feeling empty and depressed because everyday was repetetive and tell myself that I managed to get through that so I can get over my sadness a bit. Just hang in there, the clouds will pass eventually
芝麻翻唱的真的很棒，很動聽
兩年前在廚房工作，早上四點半便要起床，稍做整理便要出門了，那時真的非常不適應，可以說天天都不快樂
在通勤的路上我總會戴著耳機聽著一首首歌，試圖平息心中的不安，尤其聽到這首歌，好幾次都快哭了
最後我還是選擇離職，因為我明白，那不是我所想要的生活。感謝這首歌給我這樣的勇氣。
人活著如果連選擇快樂的權利都沒有，真的會想結束這可悲、無力的一生
嗨 雖然不認識 但是我支持你 因為我在慘飲業包含學生時代也待了快20+ 不爽不快樂的日子佔了90%吧 現在正在嘗試轉換跑道
🙏
“在黎明到来前，总要有人照亮黑暗”，恭喜你找到你人生的光明了
"You can't change people"
"So what do you do?"
"You love them."
The Irony.
crawlingrainbow love changes people
*The irony*
crawlingrainbow you said it mate!
@@ZaeQ what's so ironic about it?
Hi. This is deep.
"The reason I can't stop thinking about death, must be that I take living too seriously."
This entire song makes my heart hurt...
don't take life too seriously, you are not coming out alive of it one way or another, while you are here, why won't spend the time the best you can? who knows? perhaps you would end up liking it enough to share it with others
It should go away with time.. once you fall in the "hole" it's hard to get out
Yes just don't want to end up dying without actually living.
Such...sad song :(
Well living can be a hassle sometimes, some people think their better of dead that continue living, i understand them since we are creatures born to die after all
24 yrs of existence in this world yet I havent heard someone said this words to me "I Love you", " I'm proud of you" and "I appreciate you". Even just once I really wanted to hear it before I die. Lucky are those who heard these words from their parents or from someone. 🖤
I love you. I'm proud of you. I appreciate you. Hug?
did you say these words to others???
always think for being the giver not the receiver.
@@mahmoudmajzoub9699 yes
Same my parents make me feel like I only need to study and clean and make money for them
Parents are worst.
この歌が海外にいる僕と同じような方々に届いて、そして伝わっていることが嬉しい
多分みんながそれぞれに自分自身を孤独だと思っていても、こういったところで同じように孤独を分け合えていることが凄く嬉しい
死にたいなんて思っても、本当に死ぬことのないように生きていてほしい。
*You don't want to disappear, you just wanted to be found.*
💔
@@urbae1079 I didn't know our nicknames could match XD
LOL I just realized that.
Oh my
@@urbae1079 u guys are destenied to be found or is this 1 in a million chance
I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this
I hope you'll find someone who'd make your life meaningful, dear 💖
You did a good job staying alive until now, I'm wishimg for your good future from the other side of the world 💖💖💖
That's the same feeling I get when I watch a good slice of life anime.
@@user-gr2qf1py8j I feel you
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Fock you.
This has been my comfort song way back 2020 when I was conducting field experiment for my undergrad thesis. It was on set of covid and there's not much people around. I remember crying with this music playing in my earphones, it was past 7pm and I'm still in the field watering my experimental plants. it was dark, i was alone with no one to help and no one in sight. I'm so glad for surviving all that. I've since graduated and planning to pursue graduate studies next year. I get bittersweet feelings whenever i listen to this song. i remembered how alone i felt, how hard it was, but then i get so proud of myself for making it this far. ❤️ This song will always hit home❤️
I'm proud of you! Good luck 🤞
So you are also from the plant science background?
@@SoupySerenity yes and I am currently enrolled in a Master's Program for Master of Science in Plant Breeding. Time flies so fast💖
當初聽這首歌到時候是國小，那時純粹覺得旋律好聽，現在要升高一的我，完全明白了歌詞，一路上不容易，但從來沒有輕易放棄，努力的做好每件事情。
會考不是在5月中嗎？特殊管道、學制？
"the reason I wanted to die"
CZcams : recommended to you
LOL sorry I laughed
How a wonderful message to you, maybe u have one second thought about death, it comes to u.
Lupa Nama SAME LMFAO
but i ended up liking it
Lmao same
Same, it was recommended to me today..
it's sad when u realize that a random stranger in comment section can understand u more that ur family
Ugh!!!!
true.. and when home doesn't feel like home anymore it's extremely suffocating
@@sonali8528 YES
It’s easier to love somebody that you dont know and interact with day in and day out
Hahahahahajajhahahahaha🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
I am literally in tears, this song already sounds sad enough, but when you read the lyrics, it's all the more heartbreaking. I have never heard a song that I could resonate with more.
This just gave a voice to all my unspoken fears and inner darkness.
The line, "the reason I wanted to die is because I was called a cold-hearted person." is what really gets to me.
But really, this song, as a whole would be what it sounds like if our hearts could put into words what burden it
And it is very real and powerful. Such tragedy portrayed in a song, that it is truly beautiful and mesmerising.
I remember my friend telling me her family problems, anxiety and depression. I didn't know how to comfort her since I couldn't relate. I just stayed by her side and silently cried behind her while she keeps telling her stories. I hated myself for being unable to comfort her properly. I hope that listening to her and staying by her side help her a bit.
When I started college, I finally understood what she meant. I entered the world she were facing that time.
"Depression"
I always had anxiety and i find it normal but this time, depression is unfamiliar. People around me use to admire, praise, and had high expectations to me. Second year college when i fall under severe depression. The eyes that use look at me with expectations turns to "disappointment". I feel like i made a wrong decision and were not happy with my course. Instead of supporting me, they tease me like I won't succeed. I started to feel so lonely even though i have a lot of people surrounding me.
Then i got failed grade, it was my first time. Just like i expected, they were disappointed but pretended it was okay. I plan to k*ll myself in our first family vacation with my relatives. I take a lot of pictures to left something behind. When I got a chance to get near at the cliff, i take a step back and plan to jump. I will make it look like an accident but i got scared. Not because of dy*ng but the consequences of surviving. What if i became a crippled instead? How should i answer all their questions?
That is when i discovered this song and people who had similar experience who are currently listening to this song. I were not alone, they are strong and still fighting. I started picking up things i gave up. Arts and writing stories. I'm still not good at it but I'm much happier now.
But since i failed a subject and had to take other pre requisite subject, i couldn't graduate this year. My relatives keeps asking me why i won't graduate this year? You are going to graduate this Year, isn't it? Why? If you don't want your course then be police instead. Then they would laugh. I felt embarrassed and couldn't draw for a long time. My friends and classmates are graduating this year while I'm held back a year. I pretend to be okay but I'm really not. I'm scared of the future but right now, i want to live at the present.
But recently, i heard that my little sister who was raised by my grandma were suffering from depressions. I got scared, i wonder if I'm one of the reasons that she were in that state. We had some small conflict but I'm pretty sure it is mostly because of her course. I didn't know how to comfort her. Instead of asking her, i just kept conversing with her and make her smile as much as possible. I'm afraid of failing and losing her. She is not strong like me. I had things that hold me. Arts, writing, movie, novel, manga, musics and pets. But i don't think she has that much.
Be strong, your wrist is never a canvas for you to draw at.
Hi! I feel you. It's okay if it will take you time to graduate, we all have our own different timeline and pace. Everything happens for a reason 😊 TC always, take good care of your sister.
ไม่ว่าคุณจะเป็นคนที่ไหน แต่เราเจอเรื่องราวเดียวกัน เราไม่หวังให้คุณสู้ต่อหรือสิ่งอื่นไปนอกจากทำตามหัวใจของคุณ ทำตามความต้องการของคุณเถอะ มันจะต้องออกมาดีแน่นอน ขอให้เชื่อมั่นและลองยืนหยัดเพื่อตัวเองสักครั้ง โชคดี แข็งแรงและมีความสุข รักและกอด (Thai)
Can i know what u working on now? Im having similar situation like yours
U 've done ur best , and u still do ur best to live ur life , not everyone see that but i'm sure that some people Saw , see your effort and courage even if they didn't, don't tell u about that. But in the secret u have inspire some people by the way u fight for yourself, i'm sure of it . We're all an inspiration for someone. Please keep fightin' , i know that it's not easy but please don't let the World win over you. But overcome it , u're not alone even if u think u are. God loves you , so much that He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.(John 3:16).
Trust him , if u didn't before try and see
U have nothing to lose.
The expectations crush you from inside I feel the same way my parents don't have have anyone instead of me to take care for them thus I push myself everyday and hope that one day I will proudly hug my parents and will fullfill their dreams
願點開這首歌的人都能被溫柔以待🥰
說真的中島美嘉10年患病接近失聲 停止一切演唱活動 併發症導致耳疾 聽力下降 期間冷嘲熱諷說她不努力 驕傲自大 多大的委屈和壓力 這首歌聽到最後淚流不止 堅硬的心一下子就軟了 每次看她這首現場 在跺腳打拍子 去摸音響找拍子 我在拿着手機找紙巾 前半首歌她在唱着她的絕望 後半首歌還在激勵我們 這纔是我們真正的歌姬
推
中島美嘉是Aimer嘛？
阿官 不是
去看看美嘉現場的 再看看我寫的關於她的事 會有觸動
原來是這樣，原來她蹲下去摸音響是為了找拍子！QwQ
2013 : I want to be Superman🥰
2023: I just want to be happy in life😢
人の絶望感って比べられないよ。本人が辛いって思ったら辛いし、死にたいって思ったら死にたいよね。人生丁寧に生きてるからこそ感じるものが多いだけ❣️そんな丁寧な生き方してる人、友達になりませんか？☺️✨
The worst type of loneliness is
When you are around people but still feel lonely.
Yea that shit hurts bro
Idk but I just cried reading your comment. I feel it Every single day .
omg i feel that
I feel that everyday. Like I'm not there and no one sees me
That feeling that chokes you inside and you feel like something is strangling you inside. That drowning feeling that makes you want to reach out but no one notices it.
有一種病
叫微笑抑鬱症
你永遠不會知道你身邊那些笑的很開心，好像每天過得很快樂的人內心到底是不是真正的快樂。
願你們能被世界美好對待。
鐘鉉😭
我觉得那不是病，那是活在世界上一定会经理到的事。因为我经历着，所以我明白。
刷完小丑很有感～
@@user-np5vg2ms7t 那是病 是心里疾病
@@user-cq5xu4ms7b 理
聽了五年了，到現在還是很感動😢😢😢
I haven’t listened to this song in months but the part where it says you’ve been told you are a cold-hearted person still makes me break into tears
Good to know I was not the only one who cried so hard to that part
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候
umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara
浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流
nami no manimani ukann de kieru
把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧
kako mo zubannde tonn deike
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
因為出生的時候杏花綻放了
tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara
若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著
sono komorebi de utata neshi tara
是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢
mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana
薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔
hakkame gyouko no toudai
生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車
zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha
在木造的車站暖爐前
mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de
想出發卻不知道往哪裡走
dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro
今天彷彿還是昨天
kyou wa marude kinou mitai da
現在不改變就別想奢望以後
asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya
這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊
waka tteru waka tteru keredo
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受
kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara
得不到滿足而哭泣
mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa
一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧
kitto mita sare tai to negau kara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為鞋帶鬆開了
kutsu himo ga hotoke takara
對於重新繫好不太擅長
musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo
與人之間的關係也是如此
hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為少年注視著我
shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara
在床上低頭下跪
betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo
對著那一天的我說對不起
anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to
電腦的微光
paso konn no usu akari
樓上房間的生活動靜
jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn
對講機的鈴聲
innta fonn no chai mu no oto
捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年
mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn
與看不見的敵人戰鬥著
mie nai teki to tataka tteru
六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德
loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote
反正終點只有醜陋
goru wa dou se minikui monosa
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為被說是個冷漠的人
tsume tai hito to iware takara
會為了渴望被愛而哭泣
ai sareta to taite iru nowa
是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖
hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為你很美麗的笑著
anata ga kirei ni warau kara
會老是想著死亡這些事
shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa
一定是因為對於活著太過認真了
kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為還沒遇見你
mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara
因為有你這樣的人誕生
anata no youna hito ga umareta
讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了
sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo
有像你這樣的人生活著
anata no youna hito ga iki teru
讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了
sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
The lyrics didn't have many likes because the listeners couldn't pause to read such melody
@@warmcobra6814 then you do it
But I do
一了百了？什麼東西
王莉 死的意思
Romaji Lyrics.
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa umineko ga sanbashi de naitakara
Nami no manima ni ukande kieru kako mo tuibande tonde ike
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tanjoubi ni anzu no hana ga saitakara
Sono komorebi de utatane shitara mushi no shigai to tsuchi ni nareru ka na
Hakkaame gyokou no toudai sabita āchi-kyou suteta jitensha
Mokuzou no eki no sutoobu no mae de dokoni mo tabidatenai kokoro
Kyou wa marude kinou mitaida ashita o kaerunara kyou o kaenakya
Wakatteru wakatteru keredo
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kokoro ga karappo ni nattakara
Mitasarenai to naite iru no wa kitto mitasaretai to negaukara
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kutsuhimo ga hodoketa kara
Musubi naosu no wa nigatena nda yo hito to no tsunagari mo mata shikari
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa shounen ga boku o mitsumete itakara
Beddo no ue de dogeza shi teru yo ano hi no boku ni gomen'nasai to
Pasokon no usu akari joukai no heya no seikatsu-on
Intāfon no chaimu no oto mimiwofusagu torikago no shounen
Mienaiteki to tatakatteru rokujouhitoma no donkihoute
Gouru wa douse hidoi mono sa
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tsumetai hito to iwa retakara
Aisaretai to naite iru no wa hito no nukumori o shitte shimattakara
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa anata ga kirei ni waraukara
Shinu koto bakari kangaete shimau no wa kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugirukara
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa mada anata ni deattenakattakara
Anata no youna hito ga umareta sekai o sukoshi suki ni natta yo
Anata no youna hito ga iki teru sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
Credits: beautifulsonglyrics.blogspot.com/2013/08/mika-nakashima-boku-ga-shino-to-
Thanks
arigathanks!
thanks
I am trying to improve my language ability,so I want to make friend with you.
@@user-ps8lb5jd4z Sure, but i just copy pasted the lyrics... I do understand hiragana and katakana tho. But not much for the kanji
"Giving up is alright as long as you stop being down."
- My dead friend.
我曾經想死的時候聽過這首歌，我突然就想到了，疫情期間誰壓力不大呢？還不如好好活下去挖掘這些歌，做自己想做的事情，我還有很多事情還沒做，我不能在2021就死掉，所以我會盡力好好活著的
Good luck 👍👍👍
Ur doing good, I hope you do perfectly benign bro
@@kshitij99951 thanks
Japanese songs does hit right in the soul
Yusssssss Japanese songs r the best 😄😄
Yaall should listen to hated by life. It sets up ur mood like crazy 😁😁
Same bruh!
@@rayanray9811 ikr
@@cloudwalker679 bruh it was so tough for me to believe that he is a 30 year old guy, after I heard the song for the first time.😅😅😂😂
*The worst part of being strong is that no one ever ask if you’re okay.*
Yep.. You're not wrong actually..
I hate it, that no one notices what I am actually doing. No one cares anymore for what I might be playing or watching or listening to. And I dont know about them. Whats the point then in doing anything. I could lay on the ground all day and no one will ever know
Looking strong *
you are not strong enough if you expect someones attention.
Even if they did it’s not like we can tell the truth. I’d say that asking if I’m okay would just be awkward for all parties involved.
4 phases of growing up
1st: being a carefree kid
2nd: wanting to be awarded for what u did
3rd: puberty hits and u dont want anyone to control what u want and dont want to do
4th: tired of living alr and just want to sleep forever
加油 各位天之驕子 沒有人生來平凡
加油 各位地才天才 沒有人該被放棄
The worst feeling in the world isn’t being lonely. It’s being surrounded by people who make you feel lonely
@Buster head Find new friends through doing what you like and common interests.
Deep
Totally agree
No, being alone is worse is worse. There's a reason isolation is a punishment in prisons
@@theresnothinghereatall really? i enjoy being alone rather than being with ppl who make me feel alone... its better to just go with your daily life work do your own thing than be with someone who just waste your time
The reason I wanted to die, is because I realised how empty my life is. Everyday I wake up and do the same routine again and again and again. I look in the mirror and tell myself today is going to be different, but its not. Everyday I find it harder to talk to people & to go out and to do things. I don't like going to places with too many people, as it reminds me of how alone I am. Sometimes I like to play mmorpgs just so I can feel like a different person, have a different life and not have to think about the real world. Sure, being alone is great because you can do anything you want whenever you want, but when you're breaking down and really need someone, that's when you realise how truly lonely you are. I'm sure deep down, every introvert just wants someone to hug them and tell them that everything is going to be okay
So painfully true, I can relate. But is it really the end of the world for you? Your life may be empty - but have you really lost everything? Loneliness hurts as hell, but most of you introverts still have a chance at finding that person to hug you and tell you that you're going to be ok. You just have to try a little harder instead of hiding back in your shell.
I found that special one for me. My shield against the entire world. I could keep ignoring the hate in the world as long as I had her by my side. I could dream with her. We've had our share of issues, nothing is perfect, but we were there for each other. Yet I had to watch her go through hell on her own, watch her smile slowly fade away. I was by her side but I was helpless to do anything... I could not save her. I prayed to gods to be able to trade my life for hers and found out that no such things exists. She died scared and alone on a hospital bed. After fighting pain and suffering like a true hero her dreams and hopes were shattered. To not be able to save what's truly important to me... I am worse than trash.
I would gladly die on the spot as long as she would get what was stolen from her. But we don't get to choose most of the time.
So for you Kirayazu the introvert, and all other introverts out there, I ask you - is the world really over for you? I won't truly love anything again until I find my end, if it doesn't find me in my sleep. Hah... always thought that dying in your sleep is one of the lamest ways to go :)
What's your excuse? Stop looking for it. Go out there, meet people, embarrass yourself to the max until you find someone to hug you. Whether you find your other half in an MMO, on the street, at a random place... no one will be able to find you when you hide in your home. So go forward. There is no god. Probably never was. But we are here, aren't we ? For now at least...
I cried reading this because it's so relatable. Much love from one introvert to another ♥️
@@Alex-zq3bj wow that hit me hard... I'm so sorry to hear that. Stories like these make me hate how unfair the world is to people. She seemed like a really strong, lovely person, I definitely don't think I'd be strong enough to handle death like that. I can only hope to find someone as great as her. Also please don't think you're trash, I'm sure you did your very best to stay by her side and support her as much as you could possibly do.
Thanks for your words though, I know that I should just go out there and meet people but I just find it hard for some reason. I always overthink things in social situations. But I really hope I can finally break out of my shell like you did, and possibly find the one. I know it's not too late but it had gotten to the point where I never even bothered to think of the future anymore. No matter what, I just couldn't think of a happy future for me. But now I have hope that soon, even I will be able to find my shield against the world. I'll take your advice to go out there and embarrass myself, and hopefully find someone that is equally as embarrassing 😂. 2020 will be different I hope. A new decade marks a new start after all
Lol! Story of my life also.. what game do you play?
("^o^")...???
對於 有的人… "死" 是
唯一歸宿 & 選擇的路…
畢竟~ 有些 活著的人
未必 真心 會希望 想要你活著
表面上 嘴裡說著 希望你好
但 心裡詛咒你 巴不得你快死
又不甘願 沒撈到點 你的好處 💬
#虛假的溫情是暖不了人的
「為了描寫濃烈的希望，
必須先描寫深層的黑暗。」
by amazarashi（本歌作詞）
The most wisest saddest yet supportive comment section you'll ever cross
Fr :( all these stories are inspiring tho
MMonkeyDLuff yyy generic response
True, I cried reading them
It's like a sanctuary from what a shithole internet usually is.
I have hope for it ywt but 🍿
it isn't that I want to die, it's just that I don't like living. I'm tired
same in here...am so done
I’m sad to hear that you’re tired and hurting 😞 I hope both of you guys have someone to talk to and will get the time to slowly heal.
Same, just want to sleep forever. I don't care if I get that covid19 and die.
@@Lucky19ann see you in heaven, bro
@@xe5101 don't die tho. I don't like seeing other people suffer. I dont mind if it's just me. Sending you hugs tho. I have no one to talk to so I just take it out on CZcams.
第一次听这首歌时才刚上大学，现在医学大三每天都是不容易的日子，每次听到这首歌都能回想起这段时光的滴滴点点，希望大家都可以坚持下去
amazarashiの曲が世界中の人々を助けているのを知りすごく嬉しく誇らしい気持ちです
挺怀念半年前，全都是中文评论的时候
看到过很多暖心的评论
比如那个，教别人比起自杀，更好方法其实是睡一个好觉醒来就是新生的那个楼主
或者那个叫别人珍惜身边的人的那个，好像是身边有很亲的人过世了
还有人写‘’致陌生人‘’的信，用很朴实的言语描绘出了生活的平凡之美
还有太多太多的人，没在埋怨，没在写自己的痛苦自己的绝望，而是告诉大家，生命很美好，失去了才后悔真的是太晚了
都是很成熟的人，都是很好的人，都是很值得的人
都会痛苦会挣扎会绝望，都明白人生并不完美
但还是会满怀希望，带给素未谋面的陌生人一份善意
虽然现在看不到这些评论了，但还是想向这些人致谢，谢谢你们帮我度过了一段困难的日子，谢谢你们给我希望，谢谢你们依然坚信着美好
也希望你们能得到你们应得的一切
2020/02/26
2020/03/03
@@LoveAnninMiruTheMost 2020/3/3我也是
2020/3/6
2020/3/6
2020/3/7
きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから
一定是我們活得太認真了
發自內心的喜歡這首歌，就像心聲般的淌流著。“有的人哭著哭著就笑了，有的人笑著笑著就哭了”。
素敵な歌声ですね
聴いている自分まで悲しくなってしまいました。
This song hits harder the older I get. There’s always something or someone out there y’all
路過這裡的每一個人 不管你今天過得如何 都要好好的活下去ㄛ
你也是，要坚强啊！！！
努力啊…我可以不要嗎？努力是指…對什麼呢？對課業嗎？還是對工作？我想要…抓住一些自己能抓住的，而不是這些…
努力嗎？…等我找到我想要的…我就會想要做了
我知道你们很多人都过得不容易，但请你们不要放弃你们的生命，去追寻属于自己的东西。我曾经认为我身边的朋友都是真心的，天塌下来还有这帮兄弟帮我挺着没想到只是我的“认为”和“以为”罢了，慢慢的被排挤被冷漠冷暴力，当时我的心情是从天堂蹦到地狱，真的很难受，不管你们经历的是什么请用力挣扎的活下去。
一起加油
加油。
2019 今年大一生 近幾年的生活可以說是我人生中最黑暗的日子
父母離婚,因為跟我媽有爭執被掃地出門(她過程還說了很過分的話) 後來過了1個禮拜還是跟我道歉讓我回到家裡 但我能感覺到 我們之間還是有說不出的隔閡
進了大學後完全沒興趣交朋友 其實最害怕的是自己
因為我的心逐漸地在冷化 孤獨一個人也無感無謂 也索性跟過去一些關係不錯的朋友斷了聯繫
每天對自己的討厭正在日漸遽增,生活就是一天又一天重複的無力感,我無法打破這樣的現況,就像是把我關起來的牢籠,每天都在反覆失眠痛苦輾轉度過
我恨透了自己,也恨透了這一切 心中越發空虛
恨自己沒能力,恨自己過去為甚麼要傷害別人,恨自己的媽媽把家裡所有人當透明人 剩下也只有冷眼 無視
學貸繳的清嗎 我真的有本事把畫畫的課學好嗎 我有本事養得起自己嗎? 假設我這一切都做到了 意義又在哪?
我想我就是活得太認真了吧
2天前 也就是禮拜5
我把下午的一節課簽完名就提前走了,我的室友對我說了:你這樣很糟糕欸
我只能苦笑著回答:我知道我很糟糕(我當時覺得這個很糟糕像是在回答我這個人裡裡外外都糟糕透了)
(禮拜5我通常下午會回台北上結構繪畫的課 我大學在新竹)
那天突然地對自己的厭惡已到了前所未有的高峰, 回到台北後在路上我是非常認真地想要怎麼自殺
跳樓嗎? 我怕痛 喝農藥之類的嗎?
當時走在馬路上,我心中是如此的希望能有台車用力的撞死自己,這一切的痛苦就能結束了
但我沒那麼做 因為我沒那勇氣 我知道當我死的那一刻 一切就真的徹底結束了 最後我也只會化為塵土然後被遺忘吧
在我晚上在新店上課的時候,進階班的老師鼓勵我能脫離基礎班了 我的筆法甚麼的夠穩固了
當天晚上我真的很開心,因為我終於知道我的努力不是白費的
而今天 又偶然在youtube的推薦裡看到了這個影片,雖然1年前就聽過好多次了,但當時的我也僅僅只是覺得好聽而已(當時過的挺好的完全沒想過自殺)
而現在又聽到又多了很多感觸,眼淚不能止住的停不下來
我想不起來 但我有好久沒在youtube上回文了(發自內心的那種)
我只是希望 每當有自殺念頭的人想不開時 能夠知道 你並不是一個人
當你被痛苦跟悲傷環繞無法呼吸時 我們與你同在 (也歡迎聊天 我們可以談談 也許你會比較好受)
2019/3/17 一個沒路用的大學生
@@allenpai3541 是的 幸福與努力是要靠自己爭取的 希望大家能一起加油 別被自己打敗了
@@mikewang2662沒錯！我也會好好努力的 一起加油～
加油💪 有陰影的地方就有陽光 一起朝陽光走吧！
我是一個高一生的媽媽，一聽到這首歌常不自覺掉淚，感覺到這首歌是一個努力想擺脫困境又不知該如何走出的痛苦，多想握著你的手跟你打氣，告訴你，人生未來有很多不確定性，也許現在不盡如意，但是，未來一定一定可以海闊天空，有個值得你去愛的人或事務，請努力跳出這個框框，到時候回頭看，原來這些都是成長的養份，祝福你
@@user-on5jc5em2g 謝謝你!
I find this song by chance at the critical moment when I almost give up on my life. I just felt tired and can't seem to find a reason to live. This song help me a lot to find and hold even the tiniest ray of hope. Life sure is hard, and we all felt tired at some point to the extent that we want to give everything up. And even if people often said that it's alright and that you're fine, you know you are not alright and you just can't explain why. Till this day I still felt tired and still can't explain things to my friends and family. I'm still alive wondering maybe, just maybe, I can find a place I belong.
May we both find the place where we belong.
The comment section feels like a hug... one's that connects with the soul
everyone at the thumbnail:
*violet evergarden!*
blind me:
*saber!*
Actually...same
+ KEKW
Not gonna lie I also thought Saber.. until I saw the bow ribbon tie on her hair..
i only see saber ok
if it was fate she'd be berserker class lmao, too op
歌聲，穿透了歌詞帶出了難以言盡的感情
老實說 這一句"會老是想著死亡這些事 一定是因為對於活著太過認真了"我真的感動到想哭了
這歌詞真的是人生的寫照
Muar
Never did I cry loudly like a little kid listening to this song as I'm right now...
"I dont know when is the last time i cared about myself."
"I dont know when is the last time i felt emotions"
"I dont know when is the last time i think of suicide"
這歌曲簡直是跟我的狀況一模一樣，之前聽的時候沒太在意，今天看了看歌詞…眼淚不由自主地流了下來，再看看大家的評論…原來不止我一個這樣活着……我曾經嚴重懷疑自己是否有自閉或抑鬱，雖然在大家面前我總是掛着一臉無憂的笑容，即使是多麼糟的事總是留到晚上睡覺時抱着自己的身體無聲地哭泣，到早上又是那塊已經掛了十多年的面具。我總會自己一個人想着別人不會想的問題，即使在大家面前我是多麼的陽光、正面、樂觀，但這難道不是大家所期望見到的嗎？常常會有很多學生獎勵計劃…大使選舉…每個選出來的都是那些有着陽光笑容、思想正面的…究竟大家是不是真的這樣？撫心自問…哪有可能每個瞬間也是？但大家就是有這樣的潛意識，難道有抑鬱、自閉的是他們想的嗎？社會的眼光對人心其實是有很大影響的，就算有自己的想法也會因周遭的人所改變………………………………………………………謝謝你，肯看到這裡來，不知不覺就愈寫愈多，但寫完心情也好多了😊
看開點你會輕鬆許多，人生路不好走 但你 還是要堅強走完！加油吧！年輕人 ！
你跟我一樣
"The reason I wanted to die, is that you smile so beautifully"
"The reason I wanted to die, is that I hadn't met you yet"
The reason I wanted to die,is that I had met you
lol
as a kpop stan i can relate sadly, she is across the other side of the world and no matter what i do, i probably never get to meet her
this song helped me a lot in 2021 when i was probably at the lowest point of my life. it was when i had online school, and only have little time left to prepare for my college enterance exam. i feel stuck at that time, dont know what im doing with my life. my mental was broken, and im slowly rotting in my house unable to go outside at all. the stress i got worrying about my future, knowing while im rotting away in my room, my friends out there enjoying their life making achievement. i feel left out and lonely. also the pressure i got knowing im about to become an adult and have to be independent only adds up to my stress. for some reason the lyrics in this song and all the comments section here, i can related to. it give me comfort and hope to get out of the shithole i was in. now everytime i listened to this song it gave me bittersweet feelings. it reminds me of the time when i was at my lowest, but also when i was trying hard to fix my life. now i just laugh and be proud of my self whenever i talk about my past of that time :)
I'm glad to hear that. Thank you, genuinely, for sharing your story, I'm glad this song is meaningful for you :)
Never understood the feeling of loneliness until I lost my mother and grandma. It's been few years but the pain of this grief never really goes away. I just got better at masking it. But when night comes, the silence is deafening and engulfs me and my sadness. Yet, this song gave me such great comfort.
*來源自網路
*來源自網路
*來源自網路
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候
umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara
浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流
nami no manimani ukann de kieru
把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧
kako mo zubannde tonn deike
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
因為出生的時候杏花綻放了
tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara
若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著
sono komorebi de utata neshi tara
是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢
mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana
薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔
hakkame gyouko no toudai
生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車
zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha
在木造的車站暖爐前
mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de
想出發卻不知道往哪裡走
dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro
今天彷彿還是昨天
kyou wa marude kinou mitai da
現在不改變就別想奢望以後
asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya
這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊
waka tteru waka tteru keredo
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受
kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara
得不到滿足而哭泣
mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa
一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧
kitto mita sare tai to negau kara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為鞋帶鬆開了
kutsu himo ga hotoke takara
對於重新繫好不太擅長
musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo
與人之間的關係也是如此
hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為少年注視著我
shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara
在床上低頭下跪
betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo
對著那一天的我說對不起
anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to
電腦的微光
paso konn no usu akari
樓上房間的生活動靜
jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn
對講機的鈴聲
innta fonn no chai mu no oto
捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年
mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn
與看不見的敵人戰鬥著
mie nai teki to tataka tteru
六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德
loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote
反正終點只有醜陋
goru wa dou se minikui monosa
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為被說是個冷漠的人
tsume tai hito to iware takara
會為了渴望被愛而哭泣
ai sareta to taite iru nowa
是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖
hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為你很美麗的笑著
anata ga kirei ni warau kara
會老是想著死亡這些事
shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa
一定是因為對於活著太過認真了
kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為還沒遇見你
mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara
因為有你這樣的人誕生
anata no youna hito ga umareta
讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了
sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo
有像你這樣的人生活著
anata no youna hito ga iki teru
讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了
sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
*來源自網路
*來源自網路
*來源自網路
*來源自網路
*來源自網路
Wow
Tnx
Thanks
Thx
this is hanzi version, am I right?
【歌詞】
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候
umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara
浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流
nami no manimani ukann de kieru
把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧
kako mo zubannde tonn deike
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
因為出生的時候杏花綻放了
tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara
若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著
sono komorebi de utata neshi tara
是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢
mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana
薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔
hakkame gyouko no toudai
生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車
zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha
在木造的車站暖爐前
mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de
想出發卻不知道往哪裡走
dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro
今天彷彿還是昨天
kyou wa marude kinou mitai da
現在不改變就別想奢望以後
asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya
這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊
waka tteru waka tteru keredo
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受
kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara
得不到滿足而哭泣
mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa
一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧
kitto mita sare tai to negau kara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為鞋帶鬆開了
kutsu himo ga hotoke takara
對於重新繫好不太擅長
musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo
與人之間的關係也是如此
hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為少年注視著我
shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara
在床上低頭下跪
betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo
對著那一天的我說對不起
anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to
電腦的微光
paso konn no usu akari
樓上房間的生活動靜
jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn
對講機的鈴聲
innta fonn no chai mu no oto
捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年
mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn
與看不見的敵人戰鬥著
mie nai teki to tataka tteru
六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德
loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote
反正終點只有醜陋
goru wa dou se minikui monosa
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為被說是個冷漠的人
tsume tai hito to iware takara
會為了渴望被愛而哭泣
ai sareta to taite iru nowa
是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖
hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為你很美麗的笑著
anata ga kirei ni warau kara
會老是想著死亡這些事
shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa
一定是因為對於活著太過認真了
kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara
我曾經也想過一了百了
boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
是因為還沒遇見你
mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara
因為有你這樣的人誕生
anata no youna hito ga umareta
讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了
sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo
有像你這樣的人生活著
anata no youna hito ga iki teru
讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了
sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
👍
ありがとう6
I'm pretty sure you typed it one bye one. There's some romaji that you misheard
@@ronaldanson6894 I'm not 100%, but I assume that that's Chinese, not Japanese.
The video itself already has Japanese subtitles.
@@warangkanaboonweing6389
What do you mean? 😅
全部のコメント読めるようになりたいな〜
サビのところがとても心に刺さりました。神曲ですね。
Being alone isn’t a bad thing, it’s different from feeling lonely, but it start to hurt at some point as loneliness slides in, no one to open up to, no one who understands you, being quiet throughout the day huh ignoring what people says about you, communication, interaction with others start to be difficult, it hurts real bad to be the “odd one out” among your group of “friends” that you blend in with, but life continues,
I know how you people out there feel, screaming inside everyday, self reflection, thoughts and unstable emotions, wanting to say everything out but to think there's no one who is willing to listen and care, only to listen to sad emo songs and cry alone at night having the same old conversation everyday, from an outgoing extrovert who loves to speak begins to speak lesser unknowingly turning into an introvert,
But I know a fact, it's NOT that there's NO ONE out there who cares, but it's just the matter of time for that specific person or group of people to appear in your life, this may be a long journey but I will get through it, to you guys out there stay strong, don’t give up yet, continue to stay positive,
It’s fine to smaller your circle, it’s totally normal, as quality over quantity,
Appreciate the people, your real friends, that sat with you in the dark, don't ever let them down and cherish them like a family member of yours, show your care to them, trust them, understand them and love them :)
You think so? I enjoy that kind of loneliness. I'd rather hurt myself than let someone else hurt me again.
@@whannabi and yet here i am. Failing and failing and failing at it..
loneliness that slowly consumed me and it's peaceful at first then it hurts deep down later
just never thought that I will be the one to go down this path...
Wow, tears welled up in my eyes, I am left speechless and humbled by your comment. Thank you for sharing this
自殺要ㄧ瞬間的勇氣
但活著要一輩子的勇氣
is there anyone here listen to this in 2024
生きたくないけど
逝きたくない
って気持ちしかない、
学校も楽しいし友達もいる、
親にはたまに腹立つけどちゃんと感謝もしてる
毎日充実している
でも
何かが足りない
The saddest part is, if you are feeling down, the person that going to cheer you up is from the internet
To be honest... I feel like the only reason i'm feeling better is because everyone here sharing their own stories. And that makes me realize that there's some people who have been trough even more depression than me. Not only that, there's also some people trying to cheer you up even though they don't know who you are. Internet is a blessing but also a curse, depend on the way you see it in your own eyes. BUT PLEASE THINK POSITIVE, I KNOW AND YOU KNOW DEEP DOWN IN YOUR HEART THERE'S SOMEONE YOU WANT TO MEET. SOMEONE THAT WILL BRINGS YOU JOY. SOMEONE THAT WILL SAVE YOU. SOMEONE THAT WILL BE WITH YOU FOREVER. I'M NOT GIVING YOU HOPE I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH. SO, PLEASE STAY A LITTLE BIT LONGER, PLEASE! IF IT END BADLY, THERE'S 1 THING YOU CAN DO. START OVER. NEVER GIVE UP. WHATEVER IT TAKES, DON'T GIVE UP!!!
And remember this:
Everything has a happy ending. If it's not happy. IT'S NOT THE END!!
.
Raja Anaya cool men!
everything will be better tomorrow..
Same here but honestly it sucks so many are suffering
It feels so relaxing. Hearing your words in the sun light while... feeling confuly empty...
Goosebumps goosebumps ...⚡
The worst type of loneliness is when the people close to you slowly distancing themseleves
the few people who were by my side moved on and I feel like I've been stuck in the same place for 5 years
this currently happened to me
those people who gave me happiness, understanding, validation, and wanted are now slowly moving away from me
then i realized getting attached to someone is the worst mistake i ever make
@Buster head no its all my fault
i grow up as a loner since i was a kid, and people always come and go in life
only a very few stay
friends usually stay for 3-5 years until they moved on from you, and that's a pretty normal cycle in life
what i'm currently experiencing is this, my group of friends is already 3 years old and we start to move on with our lives now
the problem is, this is my very first circle of friends where i meet people who understand me and give me the feeling of worth, things i have never experienced in my entire life
this is why i feel hurt knowing themselves start to distance away from me, at the same time if i tried too hard to keep our relations, they might find me annoying and want to end our friendship faster. they might see me as some good friends, but they will never experience what i feel about them
this is why its my fault, i should never develop any kind of attachment just like i always do before this. i don't want to feel this way ever again.
sorry if i just vent to you
This is so true...
@@tornadoostaff I'm going through the exact same thing. If I was allowed to forget them all, even the good memories, even the feelings, I would. Because I don't think the prize is worth the pain. I were always a small-group person, I made the mistake of getting attached to my few friends, and now they just don't talk to me anymore.
歌詞
僕が死のうと思ったのは ウミネコが桟橋で鳴いたから
波の随意に浮かんで消える 過去も啄ばんで飛んでいけ
僕が死のうと思ったのは 誕生日に杏の花が咲いたから
その木漏れ日でうたた寝したら 虫の死骸と土になれるかな
薄荷飴 漁港の灯台 錆びたアーチ橋 捨てた自転車
木造の駅のストーブの前で どこにも旅立てない心
今日はまるで昨日みたいだ 明日を変えるなら今日を変えなきゃ
分かってる 分かってる けれど
僕が死のうと思ったのは 心が空っぽになったから
満たされないと泣いているのは きっと満たされたいと願うから
僕が死のうと思ったのは 靴紐が解けたから
結びなおすのは苦手なんだよ 人との繋がりもまた然り
僕が死のうと思ったのは 少年が僕を見つめていたから
ベッドの上で土下座してるよ あの日の僕にごめんなさいと
パソコンの薄明かり 上階の部屋の生活音
インターフォンのチャイムの音 耳を塞ぐ鳥かごの少年
見えない敵と戦ってる 六畳一間のドンキホーテ
ゴールはどうせ醜いものさ
僕が死のうと思ったのは 冷たい人と言われたから
愛されたいと泣いているのは 人の温もりを知ってしまったから
僕が死のうと思ったのは あなたが綺麗に笑うから
死ぬことばかり考えてしまうのは きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから
僕が死のうと思ったのは まだあなたに出会ってなかったから
あなたのような人が生まれた 世界を少し好きになったよ
あなたのような人が生きてる 世界に少し期待するよ
To those gone too soon, we raise our glasses in your memory. To those we cherished, we'll live life to the best to our ability. Until we meet again.
"The reason I cry that I long to be loved"
We can all relate to this statement one way or another
i never been loved
crying in the bed wish someone will loved me one day but i long to be loved
Daijobu
Yes this is true!! Story of my life. Idk what love is.. i hope someone will teach me someday.
Hey don't lose hope there still time left it's not the end of it...I mean if you're still hoping just hold on to it..
Thats true
I know how you feel
誰不曾有過，想要離開這個世界的想法?
想讓自己不再有煩惱，想讓自己不再因為別人的眼光笑著，想...逃離被冷落的孤單
偶然會突然這麼想著，想著為甚麼...?
這是個連問題都擠不出來的問題，更何況是答案
但是每每想起"為甚麼"，總是會在心裡默默地淌血
淌著心裡的血，流著顏面上的淚
心就像被哽住般，有種說不出的難過...
明明必須笑著，但是...眼淚總是會在別人面前不爭氣的落下
就這樣，一個又微笑又流淚的表情露了出來
日復一日的...
The cover singer is 芝麻Mochi, not Nakashima Mika. It took me years to actually find this voice's owner
Hey, thanks for commenting the artist's name. Can you link some of her songs?
love can change everything, but losing someone we love will kill everything.
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
)
在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候
(umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara
)
浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流
(nami no manimani ukann de kieru
)
把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧
(kako mo zubannde tonn deike
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa)
)
因為出生的時候杏花綻放了(tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara)
)
若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著
(sono komorebi de utata neshi tara
)
是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢
(mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana)
)
薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔
(hakkame gyouko no toudai
)
生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車
(zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha)
)
在木造的車站暖爐前
(mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de)
)
想出發卻不知道往哪裡走
(dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro
)
今天彷彿還是昨天
(kyou wa marude kinou mitai da
)
現在不改變就別想奢望以後
(asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya)
)
這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊
(waka tteru waka tteru keredo
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa)
)
是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受
(kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara
)
得不到滿足而哭泣
(mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa
)
一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧
(kitto mita sare tai to negau kara)
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
)
是因為鞋帶鬆開了
(kutsu himo ga hotoke takara
)
對於重新繫好不太擅長
(musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo)
)
與人之間的關係也是如此
(hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
)
是因為少年注視著我
(shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara)
)
在床上低頭下跪
(betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo)
)
對著那一天的我說對不起
(anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to)
)
電腦的微光
(paso konn no usu akari
)
樓上房間的生活動靜
(jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn)
)
對講機的鈴聲
(innta fonn no chai mu no oto
)
捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年
(mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn)
)
與看不見的敵人戰鬥著
(mie nai teki to tataka tteru
)
六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德
(loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote)
)
反正終點只有醜陋
(goru wa dou se minikui monosa
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
)
是因為被說是個冷漠的人
(tsume tai hito to iware takara)
)
會為了渴望被愛而哭泣
(ai sareta to taite iru nowa
)
是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖
(hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara)
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa)
)
是因為你很美麗的笑著
(anata ga kirei ni warau kara
)
會老是想著死亡這些事
(shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa)
)
一定是因為對於活著太過認真了
(kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara)
)
我曾經也想過一了百了
(boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
)
是因為還沒遇見你
(mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara)
)
因為有你這樣的人誕生
(anata no youna hito ga umareta
)
讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了
(sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo)
)
有像你這樣的人生活著
(anata no youna hito ga iki teru
)
讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了
(sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo)
You are the best !
謝謝你
Love yaa
感謝字幕君～
U r da best
I kept waiting, for someone that doesn't exist
same here😭😭😭😭
Other people: the person I love doesn’t even know I exist
Me: the person I love doesn’t even exist
That Never Exist*
Xe wut..
maybe your someone is waiting for you. hope you find each other.
anyone still listening to this? me too. i hope someones there for you :]
Ofcourse this song is my safe space 😊
For those who don't know, the person in the picture is Violet Evergarden from the movie...Violet Evergarden lol. The series is good and you can watch it in Netflix.
i thought it was saber lol
@@xxgaelelcubanoxx2672 They have similar designs and color schemes, but this is definitely Violet. You can tell most easily by the mechanical hand.
@@parminmehanfar2051 Good for you? People who have seen Fate but not VE could easily mistake her for Saber. As I've said, they have similar color schemes and designs-- that includes the hair. If you're familiar with both, you'd be able to distinguish both. If you're only familiar with one, you might misidentify the other.
當醒來，你發現自己沒有工作沒有讀書的動力，自己活著就彷彿只是在等待著她的到來。然而你下一刻才意識到，其實再也見不到那嚮往的面容，自己恨不得一走了之，卻又不知道為何而死，薇爾莉特和我們都一樣。
朋友自殺了。沒想過這麼開朗、溫柔的她，自己獨自一人承受了這麼多痛苦，在面對我們的時候仍掛著燦爛的笑容。我只想跟你說，我好想你，不要走，不要離開我們，我們很愛你。
很遺憾..😞祝她一路好走..😞加油💪
少了你，世界也不会变得完美。😢
往往挂着灿烂笑容的人，背后都是承受了无数的痛苦，也只有他/她自己知道。
其實死了之後就會變的很輕鬆 已經沒必要感受任何事了 她現在肯定已經解放了 她已經自由了
@@Garbo1 我也这样想
I keep coming back to this song and it gets me every time each year. It hits right in the feels
就算背負了多大的壓力
我也曾經想結束
我的生命
經過了朋友的鼓勵我就想據敘活下去！過著多彩多姿的人生！
大家也要努力活下去喔！
一起加油吧！
When I look up the lyric, I try to connect each situation after she sing , "The reason I wanted to die." and I can't find any correlation at all. Then I realize it's not about someone's sadness or depression. It is about everyone's. Sometimes, people wanted to die because they faced failure, losed someone dear to them or simply because they are live too seriously. Rather than judging and saying, " I have harder problems than you.". This song tries to embrace everyone's worry and said it's okay not to be okay. Such a beautiful and comforting song...
thank you
Sometimes you have no fucking idea why you're sad. You ask yourself "what went wrong?" and the only person you can blame is yourself. You can't explain yourself to anyone. You try to search for reasons. "Maybe it's because X or Y" but deep down, you know that those things can be fixed, and those things might not matter in the long run. The real reason is because you don't like yourself and you don't wanna be yourself. I think that's what this song represents. A depression coming from self-blame that people try to find reasons for, but can't.
Just like the anime, which makes total sense. The best storyline I've watched so far.
曾經想過死
在班上毫無緣故的突然被罷凌著
絲毫不想去上課也讀不下書也無法跟家人說出口
但也早已忘了是哪個契機
突然覺得
我為什麼要為了一些根本不重要也不需要的人痛苦著？
我還是有珍惜我的家人朋友阿....
為什麼要為了別人眼光來存活著才能證明自己呢？
不～我根本不需要那些......
當我不再在乎別人的眼光跟言語後
瞬間覺得活著真是美好
不用再在乎別人的思想言語目的,只要做自己喜歡的事情,不要造成其他人的困擾就好
人生是為了浪費在美好的事物上
我不會在浪費在不重要的人事物身上了
喜歡自己做的事情跟喜歡自己才是活著最重要的！
2018/9/25 25歲臭宅
加油
甘巴茶🍵
同感 一起加油
مابعر اليابنية اسف
「霸」凌，還有同感(≧∇≦)
When I was young (7) I always acted and says things that was on my mind. I never knew how bratty I was. I never knew what was right or wrong. I wasn't spoiled just had a horrible attitude.
I had always hated my sister and was jealous of her everytime..
It was because she was loved by everyone. My other relatives, my neighborhood friends, even my cousins. She's a smart person and always independent.
When I talk to people, yes they talk to me kindly. But it sounded forced. Meanwhile when they interact with my sis, they laugh, smile and look at her with adoration.
Now I'm a bit older, I see why they like her more. Nowadays, my parents would prioritize her and always took care of her more. They're closer to her.
She's social. I remember she told me that she had to do everything by herself 'cause my parents would prioritize me as a baby more and never really had a close relationship with her...
Sometimes I look at my family. They're all stable. My mum is an English teacher, my father's a construction worker and my sister is a scholar and is aiming to be a doctor, studying on one of the prestigious schools for doctors.
And then there's me. A lazy, "fat pig" in the picture....
I tend to wonder what would happen if I was "out of the picture"? I bet they would be happier.
No more spoiled bish, just a hardworking family.
I sometimes feel like I wasn't planned at all. I'm just an extra and my parents were just forced to take care of me and my horrible behavior. I don't deserve to have this feeling of depression nor do I deserve any happiness. I'm just a nobody in this family that I once tried to destroy.
I always try and struggle to do something for the better of my family.
I practice my singing but I always sound like "I give no effort", "Dying" "I give a horrible voice". I've been told everyday and I'm losing motivation. I try to become nicer and give everyone hope when they are sad or just depressed. I try to be a top student with morals and give everyone assurance that I'm dependable.
I try to be a better person than before
But in the end, my mum calls me a "liar, lazy bish." A "pest" in the family or just "trash" that can't do anything right cause the "only thing I'm good at is causing a mess". I'm "useless" and has nothing to do in life.
I always thought of "disappearing" in their life.
For me, I'm just spoiled and a nobody.
I hate myself. Everyday. I try to find hope but I get nothing. I get mad at them but what's the point? It was all my fault that I was born spoiled.
My sister was right, "You can't do anything right and you act like you're spoiled. Have you looked at yourself?"
I wanna sleep and not wake up the next morning...I don't want to try anymore but reasons of living pops up in my mind. Selfish right? I'm so pathetic...
Sorry if my comment is a bit too long. I just want to vent. I don't know how long can I keep these feelings stuck in a bottle. I don't want it to overflow.
hello hope that you are feeling better alr! im not gd at helping but i just wanna say its ok to be imperfect u dont have to be the way others are like because everyone is unqiue in their own ways. no matter how hard things can get pls dont give up on urself theres always people that will love and care about you and i will be one of them❤️
@@mmhello3275 Hello ( ◜‿◝ )
Thank you for the motivation.
I'm still trying my best to be a good person. Even though it's just a comment, it still made my day. Thank you for this small token of help, I'll try to atleast have appreciation of myself. I also hope you are doing okay during this pandemic. Keep safe ╰(*´︶`*)╯
@@naeumihara2886 good to hear that it made your day and stay safe and happy too:)
I... personally related to everything you've said, I feel 'useless' and a burden on others but you know what, there are people who try to do nothing about it and there are people like you and me who want to change. We try to move but we're stuck, we work hard but we're still stuck, it's honestly so depressing. But at the very least, we're trying and in a world where people measure you by what you've accomplished, I want to measure myself by how much I tried even though I didn't achieve it but maybe someday I will. I want to also measure people by how much they tried and not by how much they achieved so I have the utmost respect for a person like you who can see their own faults and then try to make themselves better. You're doing a good job and don't let anyone make you feel like you're nothing. (Song recommendations: So Far Away by BTS and Agust D, It's a song I've listened to over and over and I really relate to the lyrics, maybe you'll like it to) Sorry for the long reply, I guess I just wanted to vent too so that makes two of us xD
Hi ... I just read your message and I was like.... Yeah, that's me jahahaha.... Well almost, there is a lot of comments here about how meaningless they feel, and is kind of sad, I think that feeling empty and alone has gotta be hard work in ourselves to stop feeling that way.... ‘cause it's all mental......And is so hard.... Because let me tell u, I'm the star of my house, I'm like ur sis, in my house everyone tells me how smart I am, and u know what?, I feel completely useless..... I'm in the university, I can speak English (I'm native Spanish ) , I can play guitar and violin, I have gone to other countries for study. And it's not enough..... I just think..... : hey you are a disappointment for ur family, and this fail u have done proofs that u are a fraud and they don’t deserve to deal with ur useless existence and bla bla I can keep going ...... Those thoughts can get very deep and start feeling empty for days...... I have siblings and sometimes I think they hate me because of my supposed “success”.. they say ... yeah they just give u things because u are the favorite one .... or “ they prefer u over us “, and even that I tell them that I’m not that smart ,they think I’m joking. I really feel like a creep, and a fraud
And I also have no relation with my family, when we go for a visit , our conversations are like : “heyyy....... How is school...... “ and me is just.... “Like always u have asked before” ..... sometimes is just exhausting to think before talk when I speak to them , cause they also judge every single word I say. .....
I got how u feel, and i know that is not as simple to say... “Just value yourself”.... Or “life is hard but precious “ ... Noup is a hard work we gotta do to make our yourselfs comfortable with us....... Cause everyone can fell this way :’( .I just wanted to say that Don't get disappointed, just remember that life is the hardest thing u will ever go through, you are doing great in life, cause u are trying, and as long as u don't give up ,it won't be over ;) , you can change your path.
すごく歌上手くって綺麗な声すぎる！！
後ろがヴァイオレットちゃんなの可愛い…
It's hard to live with a body that wants to survive,
with a mind that wants to die,
and a heart that is already dead
Your body is in one hell of a condition
English teachers: This is some shakespeare shit
Same
r/im14andthisisdeep
This some deep zhit bruh 😎
This hit me deep, i've realized that introverts like to act that they have it together and can function alone but deep down they want someone to be with them most of the time, someone who will make the effort to be with them.
I 100% agree with you. I am a introvert too. I enjoy being lonely. Being lonely is a awesome luxury because I get to watch more things and discover more things that a lot of people do not know. However, the negative side of being lonely is going through the loneliness. Because what's the point of watching CZcams videos like these and playing amazing video games when you have no one to share it with?
......
somehow every time I hear this song my heart hurts after I read the comments below I start crying as if some of the comments are written like my life
I came here in 2018-19 when i was most depressed and constantly wanted to off myself - now I still am depressed often but it seems my brain is getting better at giving me just the right chemical cocktail so i dont care anymore (50% of the time)
You all might be lonely but you still have yourselves that's more than a blessing
Think about it
People are selfish and stubborn sometimes they can just walk out of your life
But you will always have yourself
Love yourself
because you will be with yourself for the rest of your life so might as well love and enjoy being with yourself
每當感覺快撐不下去的時候我就會來到這裡
重複地聽著這首歌流淚
在將眼淚抹去後繼續迎向明天
這首歌陪伴我無數的低潮
讓我堅強下去
+1
+1
是的呢...
加油，你可以的
+1
The lyrics speak for itself which is relatable to some of us. Feeling of emptiness and our search for the meaning of life wanes off as time goes by. I find it a chore to just wake up and go to work. But suicide is the not answer. I constantly remind myself no matter what I will need to pull myself together everyday. To those who have made it so far, do stay strong. You are not alone~
Imagine suiciding, cringeeee
うん…本家もスキだけど、ごまもちさんの「僕が死のうと思ったのは」が一番スキです。
"The reason I wanted to die
Was that my shoelace had come untied
I was never really that good at re-tying them
My relationship with others are the same way, too"
This hits me hard. I'm suck at mantaining social relationship. I'm bad at being the first person to start the conversation. I can't even be an open person to my friends. They ended up making a new friend who can give more insteresting conversations. Deep inside I cared for them, but I couldn't brave enough to tell them. I always listened to their stories, but I couldn't even share mine. I was afraid that I might burden them. Maybe they thought I couldn't trust them, and that's why they left. I'm alone, and I think it's fine until I found this song. Deep inside, I'm not really fine...
I think I found my twin :o
😭
I feel you 🥺
I feel the same way 😭😭😭 when they move on with other friends, I convinced myself I'm fine on my own.
uhm whenever people complain at not being able to stay in touch with friends i just laugh , sorry but i can’t feel sorry for you for being a douchebag 😂
PrayForKyoani 京阿尼加油
Their voice is so beautiful, I'm so glad I finally found this after searching for it so long
Reading comments in this comment section cheered me up, I've been always thinking that I don't have a place in this society. I don't have many friends IRL instead, I have a lot of online friends who are more special than my schoolmates. I just don't want to be ignored. I have many things to talk about with people. I want someone who can understand me the most. I want someone who I can rely on when I couldn't bear anymore with this life.
czcams.com/video/dQw4w9WgXcQ/video.html
Better to talk to someone about your problems than bottling it up inside it will pile up i swear
@@YowaiEnjoyer yeah.. I did. Fortunately I have a lot of good friends, even though we haven't meet in person
I'm not depressed or anything, I just like this song..
Thank you!
exactly!!
Finally!!
Me: My goodness. What an idea. Why didn't I think of that?
Yeah, it's amazing
I have just about to share this link, but I just enjoy listening it after read the comments. Keep going my friends