Therapist reacts to a 45 by Shinedown
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- čas přidán 12. 05. 2024
- Therapist analyzes the lyrics to 45 by Shinedown to discuss the value of shifting your anger away from what happened and toward the negative things that anger or situation makes you want to do. Shifting your anger toward something that can actually change is a more powerful action instead of focusing the anger on the past which can create a sense of hopelessness.
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“A lot of us died a long time ago no one could tell because there wasn’t any blood” I feel this quote
where did you find this. i agree with you, so so much
And to think this song was written in total awareness during a time when we didn’t help people who have these thoughts.
I would recommend going down the shinedown rabbit hole. How they started and who Brent was. And how he came out of this and still creates real music today for the winning team. He's a hero
And in case it gets missed, which is easy to overlook, is be sure and take the branch of Shinedown that is Smith and Myers. Brent's story is such a perfect and epic journey for any therapist to see and potentially use to show that here is someone who not only hit bottom, but stayed there and then not only climbed thier way out but decided to climb the mountain that was next to the hole. Especially how today his is so open and often discusses his continuing mental health struggles. She could probably even land an interview or long format conversation. He's a living example of everything is possible.
His story is absolutely amazing! They’ve been talking about mental health in their songs their entire career. Jump down the rabbit hole and you won’t be sorry you did. He and Zach were recently on Beet Kreicher’s podcast Bertcast and they talk about it.
Agree
I went through hell on the wards in the nursing home in 2020. The only thing that really helped me heal was seeing them live in baton rouge. That did more than I could ask for, I was alive and not gone but I did try.
Crow and the butterfly
This entire era of music was intense, there just seemed to be so much sadness, sorrow, and hopelessness. It fit really well with a whole generation of kids who felt like they'll truly never have a place in the world, and no one knew what their future was going to look like, not to mention, most kids who listened to this style of music were the "weird" kids so your only escape was music since school and often home weren't safe spaces. This is what made bands like Slipknot, Linkin Park, Shinedown, Hoobastank, Incubus, Korn, Tool, Evanescence, etc... so popular, they all seemed to encapsulate that loneliness and fear we were all feeling at such a young age. This is the reason why my musical tastes haven't really modernized because there's really nothing modern that I feel really resonates with me much like the metal and rock from the early 2000's.
I feel this, I do get into newer music and other music here and there. But every time, I always come back to the early 2000s.
You really hit the nail on the head with this comment. Felt lost then, still feel lost now but it feels somewhat like a blessing to have had these bands and this music to lean on, then and now.
You forgot A Perfect Circle, Nine Inch Nails, Stone Sour….. ✊ I miss those days
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I agree. I grew up in the 1990s and early 2000s and used music as my therapy. I just thank God our generation didn't grow up with social media. I couldn't image how much harder that would have been.
There's a version of this song where at the very end, he whispers "but I'm still alive" and it radically changes the song and makes it all so beautiful and encouraging.
i wanna find that version, id also recommend the acoustic version
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"what a shame" will probably give you chills and tears
I was looking for this one
Played it at my twin brothers funeral. Kentucky Deluxe and Marlboro Reds. Too many commonalities in the song. The whole album was the shit. Call Me gets at Me, too
And Save Me
If this is first reaction to shinedown welcome to the worm hole as you will not stop listening to them
💯!
This is probably Shinedowns saddest song. But it is also a banger. Great analysis.
What a shame is a little worse.
"45"
"What a shame"
"Save me"
"Crow and the Butterfly"
"Call me"
And of course "Second Chance"
These are the songs that have always gotten to me.
There is a live version of this song, I believe from Kansas City. Brent Smith explains the origin of this song. It's a message that many need to hear.
Yep. From the Somewhere in the Stratosphere double live release
Kansas City 2003 I believe. Has a different ending as well.
Problably my favorite version of it. Just love that entire show! His voice really shines when it's acoustic.
Came to say that!
I was hoping someone brought this up! Really really moving when and how he explained the song. Complete silence in the audience. This video here with Taylor brought me to tears
The acoustic version of this song is so powerful, would highly recommend giving it a listen!
More shinedown! Also Brent (the lead singer) shared one of your videos on the band Facebook a week or so ago!
That's how I heard about this channel/foundation and what they're doing. I'm all about it! I requested more Shinedown since their platform IS mental health
It was always the breath at the end that got me. Cause I’ve been there. That breath on the other side of deciding not to leave. That always put a pit in my gut..
then brent smith got sober and now makes the most uplifting songs... definetly one of my favorite bands
Thank you
Shinedown is so good, and has gotten me through everything from depression, divorce, military deployment. They have become a part of my life since Leave A Whisper and has never stopped. I think you will have a lot of options going down the Shinedown rabbit hole, and it’s a great one.
That song will never NOT get me in the heart 😢❤
It's amazing how this band evolved and changed over the years this band really can make you feel something, absolutely incredible live as well
Shinedown has a huge catalog to choose from.
An often overlooked song is Burning Bright (from the same album as 45).
More Shinedown, please
Burning Bright is my all time fav.
such a good song
And, Breath. It's such a good song!❤
One of my favorites!
Listen to atmosphere and atmosphere demo, very different but both are amazing
I was 16 when this song first came out. I won't ever forget hearing it on Rock 108 for the first time. It, along with Down With The Sickness by Disturbed, was responsible for me finding rock/metal music and getting into the genre. The lyrics spoke to me as I didn't have a great childhood at school. The song itself was powerful and I quickly became a Shinedown fan. It's one of the songs I'll still turn to when I start to feeling depressed or unable to see the brighter side.
Shinedown, Disturbed, Godsmack, A Perfect Circle, Metallica, Linkin Park, Three Days Grace, Killswitch Engage. They're all who I turned to in my mid-to-late teens to get me through some of my toughest days. And they're still who I turn to now in my mid-to-late 30s, twenty years later, to get me through tough days.
I think you're just me from the past. I'm that kid now. the ONLY band I don't hear on a regular basis there is killswitch engage.
I hope you keep rocking on. the bands are comprised of beautiful souls, who truly mean the best for anyone they're talking to.
although now I'm curious if you listened to SOAD-either way, I am happy to see people rocking out the feels. hope you are having a wonderful time in the music!
You forgot Tool, Korn, Nine Inch nails ✊
@@kristenharrison9279 you know, those are also amazing! I 100% agree with you they are amazing. slipknot I've recently been listening too as well! rock on my friend.
Everyone is free to interpret the song how they want to, through their own filters. I find it therapeutic and heartening.
A friend told me awhile ago that anger,bitterness,and rage stem from being hurt. And if we identify what hurt us then we can deal with the hurt and move past it. That has actually brought so much healing to my life.
Would listen to this tune when it first came out and years later still listening. No one does know or has a clue or cares. The problem is you can’t change some pain and illness. If I didn’t wake up tomorrow it wouldn’t really matter. Even to people I’ve loved and helped. You always have to be fine ❤ Thanks as always
Ive seen them live twice and knowing how close we were to not having brent around to make his amazing music is insane. Brent and the rest of the band are all amazing people and i love that they have stuck by one another and have always used their platform to help and empower people especially those who are struggling or have struggled. Thank you shinedown for every song yall have blessed us with
I remember when this hit the radio waves. It had quite the impact. Beautiful and tragic.
Shinedown is amazing. Every freaking song they made is incredible in my book. Love the song, Second Chance. There's lots of meaning there!❤
Dear lord, I need a therapist like you! This video hit me right in the feels.
My heart goes out to you. And anyone feeling sorrow , grief , hopeless… my heart aches for everyone
Please explore more Shinedown, their music and lyrics cleanse the mind and soul! I have stayed sober for 21 years because of Music Therapy and this band exemplifies that!
Back in 2016, my husband died by suicide. He always said he was going to die before 40 and we would be better off without him. I have severe depression with suicidal ideation and have to take meds to sleep more than a couple hours every couple of days. He called the night before right after I had taken my meds. I wanted to be there for him, but he just told me to go to sleep. I should have known, but I just told him I loved him and went to bed. I still struggle with survivor's guilt. I was VERY angry, because everything was way harder since his death. Yes, I did try to follow him. It's been eight years, I'm on disability for my depression, but I have moved beyond the pain. I have remarried and our children are all grown up. There is light, no matter how dim it seems at the beginning. ❤❤❤❤
I lost count of how many times this song saved me. I had to have it on repeat so I could make it home sometimes. What sucks is that people can listen to this song and really not understand what it is. Some may also see it as a call for help, but I now see it as a call to fight for myself.
I seen Disturbed live this year and they preformed " reason to fight" it was incredible, anyone struggling just know people WILL miss you. Thank you for the video Ma'am.
This song came out about the time I went through my divorce, their music helped me get through that trauma.
I have been listening to them since the Jacksonville days. This song helped me through my dark times then and now. It's a blessing to see someone else's reaction to them. Congrats on finding a band that will have you in tears one minute and raging with joy the next.
If youve never had the chance. Go see them live. One fo the best shows ever. But watch the audience when songs like 45 are performed. So many people FEEL and LIVE this song.
Shinedown are awesome? You should really try "A Symptom Of Being Human" that hits in the feels but in a good way.
A Symptom of Being Human is an amazing song! I would love to see her reaction to it.
I love this song❤
That and "Daylight" are incredible songs from that album.
Interesting that you heard "Anger" in the last section. I've always heard it as more "Screaming into the void"... a desperate attempt at catharsis when there is no apparent solution to the problems. But I wouldn't equivocate that with anger. When you get to that point, anger is in the rearview mirror, you're well beyond it. This is the point of desperation for relief in any form. To my ear, this is more a scream of reluctant resignation. I suppose there's no right or wrong interpretation of art, I just hear it a bit differently.
I always feel this song in my soul. My brother took his own life when he was 16. I know he went through all of this and me being so young when this happened, it took me a very long time to fully understand what he went through at his darkest time. This song helped me fully understand his pain. I still grieve for my brother and this song gets me every time. RIP Jason 🖤
I love Shinedown. This episode hit me. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder a decade ago. I've been dead for years inside just managing each day. Meds didn't help. I also found out my T levels are extremely low. Have sleep apnea and feel like a zombie at times. I have been screaming for years Wishing I were dead but I have a family and refuse to go out that way. I am not staring down the barrel of a 45 but having to face the fact that i will be living the rest of my life as a hallow shell of what I used to be.
From djstarion: @tylerwright8328 Hello!
I read this and there's definitely some wins here, including figuring out what's going on, because that can be SUCH a hard step for anyone.
Have you tried talking to your doctor about the T levels (I'm assuming testosterone?) and the sleep apnea. Low quality sleep coupled with low test can have a HUGE impact on your mental health, and I would actually go that route to try and get yourself out of that hallow-ness. Maintaining and improving physical things in your body can definitely help you mentally.
I remember Brent saying that staring down the barrel of a 45 was a way of looking and what the world is throwing at you, and how to overcome it. I know you can overcome it too. It's just about finding the right direction.
From Shan: @tylerwright8328 Hi Friend,
Thank you for sharing and opening up. I'm sorry to hear about how you have been feeling over the years. I know you have been going through a lot and I understand how drained and empty you must feel from it all and for how long it has persisted. I do want to take a moment to recognize and acknowledge your strength and resilience. You have kept pushing and are still pushing through it all, one day at a time. That alone is something to be proud of, because it is not easy and it takes a lot.
I think that though you have tried some methods, such as meds, that have not worked, there is still other resources out there that can be tapped into or tried that could hopefully provide even a bit of relief for how you have been feeling so that you don't have to continue feeling like a hollow shell. The thing with mental health is that everyone's experience is different which also means everyone's journey to mental wellness is different as also. Different resources, methods, and combinations of efforts work for different people. Of course, I'm not sure of everything that you have done or tried throughout the span of time since you were diagnosed, I just want to try and be even a little encouraging that there is still something out there can be of help to how you are feeling. It just might take a little extra time to find it.
Also, like @djstarion mentioned, physical health plays a part in how we feel mentally. And the things you mentioned such as low T levels and lack of sleep can really intensify feelings/symptoms of depression as well. So maybe some physical relief from these things can provide some mental relief as well.
No matter what, I hope you are able to find some relief soon and can slowly begin to reconnect with yourself and who you used to be. :white_heart:
From Micro: @tylerwright8328 Hang in there, friend. As a fellow buddy with clinical depression, I feel this with you. Just his constant numbness, emptiness and average mood that makes life seem so bland. It's hard to keep on finding reasons to push through when nothing seems exciting or tasteful anymore.
Sometimes though, we might be hit by a golden nugget of beauty. It may not be a permanent state of joy, also not something fundamentally transformative, but it shows us how much life *can* be beautiful at times and hide treasures of joy. To me personally, it helps a little bit to intentionally turn down the thoughts that make me reflect on life in general and loses me into deep philosophical questioning. I feel less depressed when I feel *alive*, and this spark is one I can find - sometimes - by using my five senses and setting an intention to a moment. Could it be the smile of someone I love, the warm sun on my skin during summer evenings, the breeze when I place my hand out of a window while driving, the perfume of my favorite coffee... it's all small, insignificant things on appearance. But sometimes it can turn out to reveal itself as a beautiful stillness in the midst of chaos, for the time that it lasts. :heart:
I saw them twice 20 years ago- didn’t know who they were as they were touring with 3DD and Our Lady Peace. The moment they came on stage- they captured me. This song hit me so hard. What a message. And that was when so many of my friends had enlisted to fight for our country- and looking back- the ones that came home will never be the same. And they were often told to keep it in. Breaks my heart.
They also do one of the only breathtaking covers of Lynyrd Skynyrd to date. (IMO) just what an incredible talent.
Two years ago this August, my husband of just shy of a year committed suicide in our home and I found him. That is an image I will never forget, it was the single most awful thing to happen in my life. I was suicidal after it happened, basically didn’t have anyone for support. I listened to this song a ton during that time. This song is so powerful, I listened to this song a ton during that time.
This song is hauntingly beautiful and it resonates so much with me and how i grew up, im getting better mentally but songs like these give me a place to vent and im grateful they exist
I've spent years on the edge, sometimes music like this is the only thing that gets me through it. It's the only way I'm heard. It's important.
Stay strong friend, you are not alone. I spent 20 years living on that edge, stumbling on the brink and asking myself why I don't give in to the darker impulses.
Music has been my therapist through it all. I throw my headphones on, crank the volume and push forward.
It gets better. Life ain't perfect but it does get better. Keep jamming out and pushing forward, you've got this.
Glad your still here friend...I was raised in an abusive up bringing as a child and it has damaged me into adulthood but God, music and my family has gotten me through most of my issues..
Shinedown this song has got me through a lot. I love this band
This song was written for a reason.. I’ve been there couple times and I found my reasons to live.
As a Shinedown fan I am feeling so bad for the therapist right now. Gee let's have a very empathetic caring person with a high EQ listen to the raging mind of someone with those thoughts and feelings. What can happen? Especially when she had a friend who succumbed to the darkness... What can go wrong? My sympathies.
My condolences to you and the family of your lost friend. I genuinely hope you've managed to find your peace.
My son Kenny loved Shinedown. He lived with depression but he was murdered in 2020 for no reason. Forever 27 ❤
Monsters by Shinedown is great. If you haven't heard it, you should give it a listen.
Please more Shinedown one of the best rock groups ever
There's something just DIFFERENT about Brent's power in his voice combined with these lyrics. You crushed the analysis on this one, I have similar experiences with a friend and this song. So I felt every deep breath you took. This song just hits different for me as well.....
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE THAT YOU ARE UTILIZING THIS PLATFORM FOR RAISING FUNDS FOR SERVING THISE WITH MH/SUD! Kudos to you young lady!!❤❤❤
“Everything’s Wrong” by All That Remains 🙏
Best song by shinedown. This song really hits deep
5:09 - As a medically retired combat veteran, I can with absolute certainty, this is breakdown is unequivocally, without a shadow of a doubt, absolutely spot on.
The acoustic version from Kansas City with the backstory for this song completely changes its meaning for some people
They talked about and explained it’s about the world. 45 was referenced as earth but I never believed it!!!! It’s one of my favorite songs
You’re a therapist and you didn’t know?!? That song encapsulates a generation of us…
Would love to see/hear you dissect more Tool music. "The Patient" off the Lateralus album, and "Descending" or "Invincible" off their Fear Inoculum album are all really great songs, and it would be really cool to get your take on the meanings of them. "Invincible" hit me pretty hard, as I had just retired from the fire service just before their latest album came out.
"beating tired bones, tripping through remember when"
Disturbed - inside the fire will for sure get you, love your insight on music
She did one on sound of silence
In an interview they said the 45 is a metaphor for life
I've had Crohn's Disease since 2001 and fibromyalgia from uncontrolled pain shortly after. Being and to accept that life is what it is and finding what small things you can lift yourself up from is so vital
I'm alive because I put or make it my goal to put things in my life that need me.. we are our own worst enemies.. love this song
Listen to the unplugged version. You'll definitely have tears. So much more intimate and filled with a quiet resignation. Still has a hopeful message but it's more poignant.
There’s a lot of people that have been hurt, most don’t know how to deal with it, but are also too stubborn to authenticate their problems or pain. It’s not easy! I’m struggling with this issue with people that I love and have lost, just keep fighting!
I would love to see your reaction to "Ghost" or "Family" by Badflower. :)
I like how u interpret this,,,this song hits home to me every time I hear it
Thank you for your as usual on spot and amazing analysis
Love your videos. Love the way you break things down. I'm dealing with alot of struggles just like everyone. You make me think.
The song is showing his growth to wanting to die
Then realization he wants to live and has to fight his demons
You ever get a chance to see shinedown live they are fantastic. The production value is top notch.
Still one of my favorite songs that came out at the time, when my ex took my daughter away didn't see her for a year, she was 3 years old now shes 16...
I love your reactions.. always brilliant, insightful, and HELPFUL! Keep it up!
Been there multiple times and unfortunately never had the courage to pull it. But yeah Shinedown has a lot of songs like this that suicide victims and survivors can relate to.
It's not unfortunate. I'm familiar with where you've been. Even if you don't have anyone close to you, there are people out there that see and understand you. Continue not finding that courage.
@@warspyder7406 yeah everyone that I was close to is dead
Love that you just go right into the video. Gonna check your other videos after this.
Love your analysis, and it bears to be said that there has to be a willingness to do so for change. As mental health professionals we have to recognize signs that will encourage growth and when to admit to clients when there is more work to be done before healing and acceptance can happen. Psychoanalysis is not a party trick or a mystical art, it is a jigsaw puzzle that you work together to find the pieces. Our experience and ability to look out for triggers or traumas present a safe environment in which to grow and succeed. Again thank you for the insights into your personal experiences!
Hearing this song as coming of age teen in 2004. It still hits hard. It was perfect. It is perfect.
Thank you for this breakdown. Much needed...
Goated rock vocalist.
I love what you do . Please keep doing this. It will reach people that need it.
In a concert Shawn explained that 45 did not reference a gun.It was a metafor of the world and everythings its gonna give you take away from you.
Who is Shawn?
I really wish I had caught that switch up years ago. The perspective of this song as a rallying cry may have helped prevent both of my own attempts, and perhaps even helped some friends along the way. Thank you.
You're really good at this. I've probably watched all of your videos. Thank you for sharing your insight.
One of my favorite song when I was younger. Nice to see you reacting to this!
Just seeing this now and Im crying for both the video and also you with what you had to go through when you lost your friend ....😭😭😭
What a shame is a heart wrenching song. By far my favorite. But there is also a symptom of being human, get up, monsters, state of my head. Listen to some of brent smiths interviews about how some of the songs come about. They have been dealing with mental health issues from the beginning
Loved this track and your analysis of it. Love the pivot in the final chorus
The sign of relief at the end of the song gets me every time. I work in mental health and am working toward my MSW to be an addiction counselor for people with severe mental illness and am so excited to find your channel. This is great!
I love the message you're trying to bring to this song. This song has been around for nearly 20 years and it still gets me riled up, it still drives up memories from high school driving around alone screaming this song in my car because I had no one that I felt could relate to what I was going through. Shinedown has helped so many millennials get through so much. We owe them. ❤️❤️
Sitting here crying watching this knowing I've fought through so many thoughts about ending it all, yet still wishing it all was over. The struggle continues but I'm so tired. I won't give up but some days I want to so bad
Keep fighting friend. The world is a better place with you in it. Even. when it is hard to believe.
I can tell you as a suicide survivor that chriskinds is correct. It is a better place with you here. Find someone, doesn't have to be a professional, you trust but will also tell you with no bs attached to talk to. Those feelings won't go away overnight unfortunately but they will pass I promise
From Lyss: @ionystherogue5627 Hey there friend,
First off, I just want to say thank you for being open with us here, we appreciate it and don’t take it for granted.. I believe that sharing how you feel, and what you have been through, can help others feel less alone. Once again, thank you so much.
You are not alone in this fight my friend. I have been there, crying on my bathroom floor, bedroom floor, in my car, just thinking about how much I wanted to die. It gets hard. Emotions build up, what we have been through can be too much at times. Some days I just ask myself why am I still here? I ask myself why I haven’t killed myself yet. I appreciate you for sharing what you have felt, as it has made me feel less alone… thank you.
I am so proud of you for staying, for fighting. You are so strong and brave. I hope you continue to stay.
Life is tiring, the world is tiring. I totally feel you, some days it’s just like that last thing happens and it is the last straw, it makes you think again like why am I still here. Please know you are not alone in how you feel, the thoughts you have had, or what you have been through. Many, including myself are on a similar page to you; I try to remind myself that there have been many in the place, or headspace I am in now, and they are now living proof that it gets better. In the moment it can be so daunting, and scary; it can feel like nothing will get better… in those times I try to remind myself of those where it did get better, where things changed, where things didn’t stay terrible. I think that can be of assistance to me in the moment, to help ground myself, bring myself back down to earth, to the current moment.
I am proud of you for not giving up.
I you have come so far, that is something to remember. You may be in a bad moment, but think of the other bad moments you have been in before this- and how you overcame them, how you stayed even though it was hard, even though you didn’t want to.
In the moment I know this will be hard to accept, as I have been there myself, trying to remind myself- things get better… it takes time and work, but it does get better.
You have come so far my friend, and that is something to remember, to praise yourself for. You are doing amazing. It is hard to see the light at the end of a tunnel, but my friend it is there. Please know that we are always here for you, to listen, or to be a shoulder to lean on. You can always post on the heart support forum, and we will be there for you.
Take it slow, take it easy.
Sending love,
Lys
Such an incomprehensibly powerful song. I saw it as a sort of war cry when it came out and I still see it that way today. One of my favorite songs ever.
Another incredibly powerful song is "The Idol" by W.A.S.P. It hits along many of these same lines and has a very powerful video attached. Part of the chorus reads "where's the love, to shelter me?!"
Simple Man - Shinedown. Its my favourite without question.
I love this song....I lost my father to suicide 5 years ago and this song hits me hard. I have been going dealing with my own demons and feeling with the result of it
I love this song! Shinedown are such a fantastic group, all of their albums are fabulous!
Love your reactions. I think theres a song you need to listen too. Its heavy with emotion. Its about what this song is. Its called SUFFER by SPITE. its one of the most emotional songs iv hurd, heavy like the end of korns daddy. Also anything by HATEBREED. But im here now for SPITE.
This song isn’t about a gun, 45 is a metaphor for the world
I mentioned to my therapist how much I enjoyed this series and they were pretty psyched to hear about this. I love your content. It made me donate to the fundraiser.
You should really listen to Shinedown's song "Daylight". It's about having someone there for you when you aren't sure you'll make it through the night and likewise being there for some in the same situation. It's a beautiful song, really inspirational. I'm an introvert so I don't really feel things like loneliness and depression, but this song gets me crying every time for the people that do.
To listen to these songs from the late 90's early 2000's now looking back A lot of us were depressed teenagers, but look at us now, out here living life. Music saved a lot of our souls...
Ive heard this song countless times but never been in a place to feel it like this until now. I am feeling this big time. And how you are analysing it too...
As one who has a story of SI I can tell you that Shinedown and Jellyroll has influenced my mental health for the better. It's one thing to point at others and say "you don't understand me"... but Shinedown and Jellyroll music helped me to name my depression and anxiety. Until you can name it you cannot overcome it.
thank you for your reaction to this, my life is so closely related to this. i don't know if things will ever be OK again. i have just became very good at concealing it. just smile and they will leave you alone.
From ThriceTheThird: @jimhaga9553 I relate to what you are writing here, and want you to know that you are not alone. I hope that things can come to be OK for you again some day with time, and think that one way that has helped me to try to get to that point has been finding a safe space where I can let it out. Where I can stop concealing it. One of those places for me has been forum.heartsupport.com. Though I reply more to others now, then I post. I have found that anywhere I can share with peers, who are understanding and kind. Has lead to improvements in my mental health. You don't have to fake your smile here. You can feel free to share what you are going through if you ever want/need regardless of the emotion/expression involved. I understand faking the smile all too well. If you ever want/need to share more, we got you. Hope your day is going alright today <3.