My Transition and Detransition Story

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  • čas přidán 10. 09. 2024
  • I am a female to male to female detransitioner. If you have any comments, video suggestions, etc, please leave them in the comments below!
    -K

Komentáře • 118

  • @jb71577
    @jb71577 Před 2 měsíci +43

    I'm 47, if social media was a large influence when i was 12 in 1989 this could be my story. I'm so glad you are alive. Please know that things get better!

    • @carinacnl4985
      @carinacnl4985 Před 2 měsíci +2

      Im 49 same story as you.

    • @vikicha13
      @vikicha13 Před měsícem

      43 and absolutely same story. I believed I was trans for at least 20 years. 😢 I am gay though, but occasionally, I can like a man. One thing never though, it is spinning the bottle 😅.

  • @nathanjensen4490
    @nathanjensen4490 Před 2 měsíci +16

    Coming from a transgender man (FTM) it sounds like you had a lot of complex issues you were dealing with way more than just gender dysphoria. I’m happy you were able to figure it out before doing anything irreversible. It can be hard for some people in the trans community to hear that some people don’t find solace in transition or within the community. It’s truly not the right choice for everyone and it’s a long journey for sure. More tolerance and acceptance needs to be shared with those that do understand the struggle but ultimately find their way out and shut the door behind them. Proud of you in your recovery hun best of luck.

  • @marykuhn4321
    @marykuhn4321 Před 3 měsíci +47

    thank you so much for sharing !
    I'm currently trying to detransition socially and I often feel alone with my situation but those kind of videos always leave me feeling hopeful and a little smarter haha

    • @kamryn3598
      @kamryn3598  Před 3 měsíci +6

      If you need anything, I’m here for you! 💕

    • @thegroovyhead
      @thegroovyhead Před 3 měsíci +1

      Good for you! Wishing you the best. Many cheers!

    • @Jdjustsaying
      @Jdjustsaying Před 2 měsíci +3

      There is a growing number of you. I hope that you find some support.

    • @Iwoasasaned
      @Iwoasasaned Před 2 měsíci +1

      I wish you all the best on your way to love yourself just like you were born. I am convinced that even if you feel alone with that struggle now, at least in a couple of years from now, there will me more destransitioners than transitioners . The way may be harder for you and the other detransitioners now but you smooth out the rocky way for those kids to follow you. God bless you

  • @thekathrynwest
    @thekathrynwest Před 2 měsíci +9

    I relate to this. When i was 14-16 i really struggled with my identity and came out ad FtM trans. My parents didn't allow me to even socially transition. Now, I'm almost 25, and I've come to accept the fact that i don't really identify as anything and that's okay. I dress feminine sometimes, i dress masculine sometimes, most of the time I'm right in the middle. I've come to accept that it's okay to not really feel a strong pull towards either or anything. I have times i absolutely love doing my makeup and wearing dresses and other times i show up wearing sweatpants, a graphic tee, and my hair that hasnt been washed in three days in a bun. I work with teenagers and tell them all the time to not stress about it, you have your entire life to figure out who you are, what you want, and who youre attracted to. I will always use their preferred pronouns and name, but i also realize, it can fluctuate. It may not fluctuate but it can and both are okay. My kids at work know I'm not going to judge and ill always advocate for them. They're foster care and juvie kids and at the end of the day i tell them as long as they're not harming themselves or someone else physically or emotionally, I'll always support and love them

    • @acdc6467
      @acdc6467 Před měsícem

      How wise you are to be so young!! Im so glad to hear that you were saved from any changes. You saved yourself but your parents had a little to do w that even if they were strict. Those kids are so lucky to have you there for this kind of thing!! Good luck little sweetie!! ❤ I hope you influence the right kids at the right time! ❤️🙌🏼❤️

    • @acdc6467
      @acdc6467 Před měsícem

      How wise you are to be so young!! Im so glad to hear that you were saved from any changes. You saved yourself but your parents had a little to do w that even if they were strict. Those kids are so lucky to have you there for this kind of thing!! Good luck little sweetie!! ❤ I hope you influence the right kids at the right time! ❤️🙌🏼❤️

  • @Miss.Denise94
    @Miss.Denise94 Před 2 měsíci +14

    Darling, I'm so glad, that you're still around! You're just adorable

  • @Louisejames23
    @Louisejames23 Před 2 měsíci +8

    Social media is poison sometimes and should never be a substitute for professional help/advice. Thank you for sharing your story and I hope you find happiness ❤😊

    • @kennyjohnson8479
      @kennyjohnson8479 Před 2 měsíci

      So is porn it to warps and destroys the mind and soul. Being exposed to it young messes with you. And I worry for kids today exposed to it younger than even I was. Plus, today they can get it with a couple clicks instead of getting a magazine from someone.

  • @mountain36wolf
    @mountain36wolf Před 2 měsíci +4

    Proud of your courageous victory! Such maturity, wisdom you have earned. You are helping ppl by sharing your lived experience. Thanks 😊

  • @bearlycountry2406
    @bearlycountry2406 Před 3 měsíci +16

    I don’t know you but I’m so proud of you for telling your story. You can be an inspiration for many other teen girls who are feeling the same way.
    I had a very similar but different story in my teens, I was living a promiscuous (for the time) lifestyle and hanging out with other people who were going nowhere fast. I turned it around as well, I’m 40 now.
    Please don’t let anyone convince you not to tell your story. Many young people are struggling and want to know they’re not alone and that there’s hope for a future. As a now 40 year old woman, my best advice to you would be to make the best choices you can and surround yourself with good friends. I always tell my kids to show me your friends and I’ll show you your future.
    With all that said, God Bless you and my Mama heart is so proud of you. Keep it up beautiful girl.

  • @UteHeggenTranswidowHeals
    @UteHeggenTranswidowHeals Před 3 měsíci +16

    I recommend Carol channel here on YT. She's detransitioned for a couple years now. Her perspective may help your process. Be well, find healing in nature.

  • @lookslikeiwin
    @lookslikeiwin Před 2 měsíci +4

    A Christian faith is so helpful! I'm so glad you went to church that day! I grew up Christian, but I struggled with my gender identity from the time I was very little, at least 7, until I was 30 and had already had a child. If I'd not had my faith and my conservative parents, things might have been very different. When I first heard about transgenderism, I thought it was ridiculous because you can't really change your gender, but I understood the motive a little too well. When the movement took off I learned to appreciate my femininity instead of wanting to change it. Thanks for your story!

  • @BellaAnderson-o11o1o
    @BellaAnderson-o11o1o Před 2 měsíci +3

    I'm glad that you got out of those vicious cycles and overcame those adversities in your life. Thanks for being so honest and sharing a part of your life's history with us. I'm certain it'll help many people who are struggling through similar things as well.

  • @madamedestcroix
    @madamedestcroix Před 3 měsíci +8

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. Its incredibly brave of you to do so and I hope that you get a lot of supportive comments. I think that girls your age and younger should be so angry about how adults have failed to protect children from online pornography. I've seen comments on other videos by girls saying that they became hooked on porn at 8 or 9 yo. It is societal child abuse that enables this to happen. I'm so sorry to hear how awful those years must have been for you. I'm glad that you found a way back to yourself, you are clearly a very good natured young woman. I really hope for good things for you in the future.

    • @Twink6629-lg3te
      @Twink6629-lg3te Před 2 měsíci

      Yeah I don’t think watching porn caused her to transition I just really don’t see the link here. What you are talking about is a completely different issue.

    • @necelticsox
      @necelticsox Před 2 měsíci

      @@Twink6629-lg3te Watching porn as a minor can cause them to have a distorted image of themselves, including the idea that they're trans.

    • @kamryn3598
      @kamryn3598  Před 2 měsíci +2

      @@Twink6629-lg3teWhile porn may not be the root cause of my transition, it definitely led me down a dark path. Everyday people younger and younger are being exposed to explicit materials, and it is not good for them. I speak from experience.

  • @seeleygirl6178
    @seeleygirl6178 Před 2 měsíci +3

    You seem so feminine to me. You can appreciate and even be envious of a woman’s beauty without being a lesbian. I’m glad you touched on that. Thanks for helping others. Social media does romanticize all this to kids. Poor kids are confused.

  • @sciencenotsrigma
    @sciencenotsrigma Před 2 měsíci +2

    I was married to a FtM trans person, for a long time. I would have just thought you were “one of the bois”, if I’d seen you during your transition. I mention this because of people who accuse people of de-transitioning because they couldn’t pass, but that’s not it! You look good, either way, but what’s important is who is feel like, on the inside. I’m glad you’re feeling good about who you are, today! ❤

  • @Hopespringseternal
    @Hopespringseternal Před 2 měsíci +4

    Thank you for sharing! This is true bravery. I know porn is so detrimental to the growing brain and development. Social media, too. Everyone needs to hear your story because it makes it all so real. Too many people want to stick their heads in the sand. God bless you and prayers for continued success!!

  • @deniserock8740
    @deniserock8740 Před 3 měsíci +7

    Thank you so much for sharing your story! It needs to be shared far and wide!

  • @MagentaDinosaurs
    @MagentaDinosaurs Před měsícem

    I relate so much to not knowing whether you're attracted to someone or want to be like them, personally i was a late bloomer and for that reason I couldn't relate to a lot of what my high school peers were experiencing with attraction, and people refused to understand and just assumed I was hiding something, which honestly made me second-guess myself.
    I'm very glad you're still here, and that you're figuring yourself out 💜

  • @noelleroher5335
    @noelleroher5335 Před 2 měsíci +4

    Continue your self healing journey! Always love yourself. ❤❤ You're beautiful inside and out!

  • @laramauss1948
    @laramauss1948 Před 2 měsíci +3

    you have a very cute female voice with this lovely southern accent. In the first second of that video I was confused why your voice is so female, because after Testosteron, Detransitioners suffer from a deep voice. What a luck you never acted in a medical way!

  • @joysmemorylane8767
    @joysmemorylane8767 Před 2 měsíci +3

    Praise God for your family, especially your sister who loved you enough to not give up on you. Thank you for sharing your story, which is encouraging and gives me hope that returning to the way God created you is possible for others I know who struggle with the same issues you have conquered with God's power. May God bless you and keep you as you share your journey.

  • @blackenedambeince6598
    @blackenedambeince6598 Před 25 dny

    Hey Kamryn, it’s Mason, if you remember me. I just want to say, you did help me alot finding my true self, and I’m just very proud of who you are, and where you went. I just wish the best for you, the absolute best, you were a great friend to me!

  • @safy907
    @safy907 Před 3 měsíci +10

    Congrats for really finding yourself and I hope you achieve peace. Focusing on identity instead of goals in life and what and how to achieve it is todays fundamental flaw. You are a very pretty girl and best wishes for your life.

    • @Twink6629-lg3te
      @Twink6629-lg3te Před 2 měsíci +2

      Understanding self and self-identity is kind of the basis for even knowing what you want to do with your life and making the right decisions. This is a very general statement that just isn’t true

    • @necelticsox
      @necelticsox Před 2 měsíci +1

      @@Twink6629-lg3te What she's saying is that focusing this much on yourself is not healthy. There are more important things in life like the goals you want to achieve.

  • @masonduarte8001
    @masonduarte8001 Před 2 měsíci +1

    Thank you for sharing this story. I'm trans and always had to grapple with difficult feeling my whole life. When there is no one around to share those feelings, its so difficult finding your own voice.

  • @LeilaAisha
    @LeilaAisha Před 3 měsíci +3

    You are not alone. You don't have to be ashamed of anything and at least you didn't damage your health with surgeries like so many others. I watch Buck angel sometimes, great channel if you want to watch some sober stuff. You are very lucky because it's a huge business in usa now and they're doing surgeries and hormones like it's nothing. It's scary actually, all the propaganda and the money included - you are lucky you didn't get too far to destroy your body completely. Good luck and don't worry, yea you will struggle sometimes but life's like that, it gets better with age especially if you find a healthy boyfriend, who will be your friend too.

    • @Twink6629-lg3te
      @Twink6629-lg3te Před 2 měsíci

      Buck angel is a 30+ year old man who makes content where he makes fun of and bullies teenagers. He’s a pathetic grifter online and a horrible person to take information or advice from

  • @happy_in_black
    @happy_in_black Před 2 měsíci +1

    I'm curious to know what was actually talked about at the church service you mentioned, given it related to specifically trans subjects. Well done on finding yourself! 👏🏻

  • @missangela97
    @missangela97 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Thank you so much for sharing your story!

  • @writethosefeels
    @writethosefeels Před 2 měsíci +1

    thank you for sharing your story sweet soul. i wish you all the best on your healing journey as you continue to grow as a person. it takes a lot of courage to be honest with yourself, and with your experiences and identity. proud of you! we're all living and learning as we go.

  • @HansBjorgman
    @HansBjorgman Před 2 měsíci +1

    I'm very glad you didn't take it too far. You have great parents that didn't allow you to.

  • @andrewg79
    @andrewg79 Před 3 měsíci +5

    I'm so proud of you, Kamryn!!!

  • @kaileylandis8663
    @kaileylandis8663 Před měsícem

    Thank you for sharing your story❤️ i’m proud of you. I just saw this randomly on my CZcams homepage. I felt drawn to click because of my loved ones who are transitioning. It must be such a hard thing to go through.

  • @Tourettes0
    @Tourettes0 Před 3 měsíci +4

    God bless you. thank you so much for sharing. ❤

  • @urszulaaaa7896
    @urszulaaaa7896 Před 3 měsíci +3

    Thank u for your story! Its so important to talk about it.
    Keep going!
    Greetings from Poland

  • @audi9110
    @audi9110 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Your story is incredible

  • @matthewlott5280
    @matthewlott5280 Před 3 měsíci +3

    Im so proud of you Kam! Keep doing you! You are amazing!

  • @helenemartin9535
    @helenemartin9535 Před měsícem

    Being like Nature made you is always the best decision. I wish you happiness.

  • @candacepeludat5053
    @candacepeludat5053 Před 2 měsíci

    So proud of you, what a journey you've been on. Stay with God & know that Satan is cringing because he lost the battle.

  • @user-pr8pt8yc7q
    @user-pr8pt8yc7q Před 2 měsíci +4

    Thank you for sharing your story

  • @marilynbosma2352
    @marilynbosma2352 Před 2 měsíci +3

    Thank you, Kamryn, for being so vulnerable. I’m so thankful that you did not have the surgery. So many precious people are suffering because they did have the surgery. I’m so glad you know God and His love for you. I desire for all those who are in the transgender community to know God and His love for them. Jesus paid the price for all of us, if we turn to Him and ask Him to forgive us He will.

  • @Susmarie1591
    @Susmarie1591 Před 3 měsíci +4

    You are very courageous! Thank you ❤

  • @sciencenotsrigma
    @sciencenotsrigma Před 2 měsíci +1

    Wow…I really would have bought that you were FtM. You made a very convincing young man. Yet, you’re such a cute young lady. You never really know what’s going on inside a person. Glad you’re finding what makes you happy!

  • @chevarie2008
    @chevarie2008 Před 2 měsíci +2

    There is notging wrong with you. Your perfect yiur beautiful just lovely

  • @normanicole4714
    @normanicole4714 Před 2 měsíci +4

    Glad you foundthe path thats right for you. Gods plan for me is thst I am trans. Never doubt there are people that are trans by Gods design.

  • @suninaries571
    @suninaries571 Před 2 měsíci

    Thank you for your honesty, your story will help other girls.

  • @classicclassycluedup8505
    @classicclassycluedup8505 Před 2 měsíci +7

    Being a member of the LGBTQ community the support is with good intention people know how hard this journey is in life and being different is hard. It seems to me you are confused and a good therapist with specialist focus on identity. Finding the right therapist is hard. I am worried that young people feel like, they need to transition. Being gay is different to having to transition. Being a Tomboy is not being gender queer. Exploring your gender identity by dressing a certain way is part of exploring your path. Your self harming speaks to more complex problems than gender dysphoria. You are worthy, you are you. Invest in you and go gently.

    • @writethosefeels
      @writethosefeels Před 2 měsíci +2

      this, for sure. invest in you and go gently is well said.

    • @kamryn3598
      @kamryn3598  Před 2 měsíci +3

      I really appreciate your perspective. As someone who has always been a “tomboy”, when I struggled to fit in, I was encouraged to transition and was told that I felt that way because I was transgender. I think that it is overly pushed, and it causes more people, like myself, to wrongfully transition.

    • @nylalyris
      @nylalyris Před 2 měsíci +1

      @@kamryn3598honestly, yeah I hate that ppl who are just Tomboys or fem boys are told they are trans and they start to actually believe that. I think when ppl look at detranstioners they also start to question the validity of trans ppl when I think both are valid.

    • @denisekruczyk6847
      @denisekruczyk6847 Před 2 měsíci

      Agree. Find good therapist. But many evil things are done with" the best intentions"

  • @marciesullivan3492
    @marciesullivan3492 Před 2 měsíci +3

    Thank you for sharing your story. My daughter is struggling with her faith and sexuality and this gives me hope that someday she will accept herself as God made her and turn her heart back to Him. ❤

  • @Red.Rabbit.Resistance
    @Red.Rabbit.Resistance Před 3 měsíci +4

    we have a lot in common. Just the other way around.

  • @theashwoodfaerie2
    @theashwoodfaerie2 Před 2 měsíci +1

    I'm so sorry this happened to you. But I hope you won't use your experience to invalidate truely transgender folks experiences. A small minority of de-transitioners share a view that being transgender is only caused by trauma, and can be "fixed" through therapy without any kind of interventions.

  • @scottishno5
    @scottishno5 Před 3 měsíci

    I read comments on another Dr Who video where they were arguing that the viewing figures didn't mean anything now that streaming is in place and that all programmes are doing badly now... Made me think of conspiracy theorists.

  • @WillowMary33
    @WillowMary33 Před 2 měsíci +3

    I thank God you found your way out before mutilating yourself. Now you can live a healthy life as the young woman you are.

  • @jenniferolg
    @jenniferolg Před 2 měsíci

    I’m curious about your loneliness and lack of friends. Are you finding it easier to make and keep friends now? Has the Christian community embraced you like your felt the LGBT community embraced you previously?

    • @seeleygirl6178
      @seeleygirl6178 Před 2 měsíci

      Even in church groups you have to put effort into letting people know you’re there and you’re in need. Or willing to make connections.

  • @jordannemclean6467
    @jordannemclean6467 Před měsícem

    So sweet

  • @Keon994
    @Keon994 Před 3 měsíci

    Have you damaged your reproductive system in any way or were you able to make a full recovery?

    • @kamryn3598
      @kamryn3598  Před 2 měsíci +3

      No I did not surgically transition or take any hormones. I only transitioned socially by cutting my hair, wearing masculine clothing, and using male pronouns.

  • @myleechai21603
    @myleechai21603 Před 3 měsíci

    Hello from Tennessee! Where are you from, if you don’t mind me asking?

  • @TeresaBlaize
    @TeresaBlaize Před 2 měsíci +1

    Your a gorgeous girl

  • @julesparkinnen185
    @julesparkinnen185 Před 2 měsíci

    God bless you darling girl

  • @tinanguyen1794
    @tinanguyen1794 Před 3 měsíci +1

    🙏🙏🙏

  • @dianalee8967
    @dianalee8967 Před 2 měsíci +1

    I think there's a difference when you try to make yourself go the other way in your teens then somebody that is born that way like my nephew he was very feminine as a little boy at 3 4 5 6 years old he even liked to wear earrings and so on so that's a natural thing that he did have more female hormones than male hormones at Birth that's the way it is when you're born that way and he grew up to be a gay man and has been that his whole life never went back and forth. You changed in your teens that was a mistake.

  • @schildca
    @schildca Před měsícem

    Out of curiosity, how can any single person be a "they" that states more than one?

  • @jackieharris4681
    @jackieharris4681 Před 2 měsíci

    For christ sake ! We all know !!

  • @necro4983
    @necro4983 Před 3 měsíci +2

    get better microphone pls

    • @Juice.boxers
      @Juice.boxers Před 3 měsíci +11

      Bruh

    • @necro4983
      @necro4983 Před 3 měsíci

      @@Juice.boxers hurB

    • @kamryn3598
      @kamryn3598  Před 3 měsíci +10

      I was just videoing on my phone. I’m not very technologically advanced haha.

    • @fiffer93
      @fiffer93 Před 3 měsíci

      Thank you for sharing your story! I’d love to hear more about the church service and how God spoke to you.
      I went to school with your mama and aunt. ❤

    • @Basicallybiblical116
      @Basicallybiblical116 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Great stuff!!! Glad to see you sharing your story still!!!
      Keep at it!!
      Let me know if you decide to keep doing CZcams! I’d love to help if I can!!

  • @gloriaf6971
    @gloriaf6971 Před 2 měsíci

    I don't believe a word she said.

    • @seeleygirl6178
      @seeleygirl6178 Před 2 měsíci +1

      That’s very strange of you to say. You must be very confused to not trust others. Are you being paranoid that it’s all a conspiracy to talk about God? How sad.

    • @seeleygirl6178
      @seeleygirl6178 Před 2 měsíci +1

      There’s pictures at the end.

  • @reekydebbarma5397
    @reekydebbarma5397 Před 3 měsíci

    Do you know that the current life ur living is sinful and will end in hell if you don't repent jesus died on the cross for you and rose on the third day as an atonement for your sins as a holy God he cannot tolerate sin he made a hell for sinners which burns forever heaven is waiting for sinners to repent choose today where will you go after u die confess and believe jesus as your lord and savior today John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish , but have everlasting life. ROMANS Chapter 10 verse 9to 10
    9 That if you confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.
    10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
    Romans chapter 3 verse 23.
    23 For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

    • @kamryn3598
      @kamryn3598  Před 3 měsíci +5

      I have repented thanks to God’s mercy 🙌

    • @reekydebbarma5397
      @reekydebbarma5397 Před 3 měsíci

      @@kamryn3598 Amen tell me your testimony

    • @Twink6629-lg3te
      @Twink6629-lg3te Před 2 měsíci

      When you religious mfs talk like this you literally sound bonkers and crazy. Like this type of religious talk sounds straight out of outlast 2. “REPENT OR YOU SHALL BURN” like do you people ever look in the mirror, sled reflect and think “damn I sound criminally insane, maybe I should stop talking like this”

    • @classicclassycluedup8505
      @classicclassycluedup8505 Před 2 měsíci +6

      Stop trying to scare her with religion. This young person just told us how easily influenced they are.

    • @reekydebbarma5397
      @reekydebbarma5397 Před 2 měsíci +1

      @@classicclassycluedup8505 it's not about religion its about jesus savior

  • @stephanieannaolson6316
    @stephanieannaolson6316 Před 2 měsíci

    Thank you for sharing your story