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hey i don’t know if you have any other socials but i found your yt and it’s been so much of a lifesaver to see another black non-binary person talking about their experiences especially with medically transitioning

Yt randomly recommended your video from 9 years ago and yoo, u r so cool then and now. I like your topics in video anddd sorry, no comments, u r cool ❤️

this was helpful thanks <3

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It's been 2 years but i hope all is well with you!

Thank you for sharing - any updates on how things have been going? I have a lot of the same struggles myself

So I used Androgel and a blocker (Nolvadex) from Indian online pharmacies for about a year. Yes, I also have to hide it from my straight husband which is messed up. But honestly at your age, it should be more effective. I saw absolutely zero effect because I am more than twice your age.

woowww i feel reallllly similar about dealing w misgendering w t and wanting to dress more feminine once i feel more comfortable around that! ugh but its annoying placing emphasis on other people getting it right. im tryna stop focusing on that so much and get my own energy focused on just doing me. hope ur top surgery stuff worked out. the bureaucracy is soooo obnoxious

you sound like a feminine boy qwq

It's so awesome to see another nonbinary person of color on CZcams! ☺ Your videos are super helpful to me, as I'm figuring out whether I want to take T at a low dose or not. Definitely wanna get top surgery, tho. I'm glad this channel exists! Good luck with your journey! I'm sorry people have been bothering you. They can be really ignorant. 😞

Im about to go through that too! Nonbinary and going back on 2 for a second go. Last time around I was too nervous about passing to do anything fun with my hair lol but this time I want to wear dresses sometimes and do my own thing more. Scared about it too but it makes me comforted to know that a lot of people are venturing through it. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Im sorry people were so rude to you, ugh how obnoxious. The people whose opinions matter are the people who listen to you when you tell them how you identify.

I'm so sorry that happened to you at your job, that's awful. Ppl crossing lines like that thinking it's ok to wonder and ask themselves about smthng so personal is disgusting. I'm afraid if it ever happened at my job id tell them to f**k off. You def look a lot different from when you started! I relate to a lot of what you're saying tho. I've been on low dose for about three months and have def had some voice changes and trying to prep myself how to navigate that (plus restroom) w/this transphobic society. It sucks that we have to be picky about the spaces where we can be ourselves out of safety. I've also dealt with trans guys trying to gender me as a guy knowing I'm nonbinary and it's really messed up. Hope you feel better too ✨✨

Great video! I'm going through something like this right now as well. Even though my gender and ideal presentation is nb, people try to put me into one category or the other so living as nonbinary seems to always need an explanation. I agree that it's frustrating to not know how you're coming across. I've found myself "butching it up" at school in order to make it more predictable, but even on my most "masculine" days I am gendered as female by some people. Thank you for making this video, looking forward to more.

I think humans are so incredibly perceptive. From experience, if you don't fake confidence about belonging then people mirror that and begin to treat you as such. Do more of what makes you feel confident and happy because that what matters. I'm really sorry about the horrible drive thru incident. I am happy to see an update from you regardless, and I hope you're having a good week.

Honest to god I think you sound like a boy. You sound nothing like a girl. I also think you are very much passing. When I see you I would immediately assume you were a boy. I think that your face looks masculine and passing. You look great. I've been watching your videos since the beginning and I always get excited when you post another vid. I love hearing your story. CZcams is full of white non binary folks so it is nice to see a person of color.

Nice to see you!

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This was so helpful. It's been difficult to find nonbinary people sharing their experiences on dysphoria, especially socially. So thank you so much for sharing your experiences. It's been really validating for me to hear you share similar fears and thoughts to some of mine. This is the first of your videos i've seen so I'm not sure how you're doing now, but I hope you're keeping well and staying strong. All of the best and all of the love. :)

that's awesome ! agree on aesthetics A++

Yaay~ also, <3 your aesthetic in this.

Don't beat yourself about not asserting your pronouns etc. It's really scary tbh; I've recently started to come out to people at my college campus, which is a pretty safe, accepting environment, and it was *still* nervewracking, I put it off for ages, I let people misgender me, etc, etc. I will say it can feel pretty good to have done it, but it does make you vulnerable and that's definitely legitimately terrifying on some level. also your videos are really relatable and I really appreciate them :)

thank you so much for sharing your experience here! it's so helpful and good to hear someone who's going through a similiar stage. i'm not on T though but your updates (esp the ones where you talk about your relationship with your family and coworkers and people in general) are so so reassuring, and help me feel a lot less alone

Heya. I realize I'm a little late commenting on this. So I'm sorry about that. Being a nonbinary transmasculine individual myself, I can relate well to a lot of this. I just wanted to let you know. I can see you changing. You're making tremendous progress- and while it's being invalidated left and right, I hope you can at least take some encouragement from being visible to a stranger such as myself. I'm sorry you're continuing to struggle with being misgendered. And that this may be easier for me to say than for you to live through. But you're such a warrior. Everyday you get by is amazing. And it won't all be for nothing. This isn't your forever. Hang in there friend.

sorry very few ppl are respecting ur gender. its valid regardless of cis ppl being a**holes. kids have been demonstrated to understand transness, sounds more like the adults are the immature ones there. finally, regardless of how problematic the concept of passing is, your feels make sense. every day u take t, you're closer to looking like u need, right. take care

the way you described your gender sounds just like I would describe mine ^-^ Thanks for making this channel :)

Your voice sounds great! Thanks for sharing your journey!

best of luck with the paper work! and i def see some changes, looking great ! and like QueerAsCat said, hope your mom learns to be more accepting of who you are... and if not that you have the support you need to leave unhealthy spaces.

congrats on submitting the paperwork for your name change. i hope it all goes smoothly. :) i hope you mom comes around and warms up to your new name as well, even though that'll obviously take time.

Congrats!!! :D

Thanks for updating us and sharing such a personal journey! Your voice sounds great!

congrats on your name change:) your voice is sounding awesome!!!! hope things get easier with family xxxx

I'm so happy for you! :) I really like both names

*telepathically sends you lots of good vibes and courage* when it comes to what you tell others, do what you have to do to feel safe. self-defense and self-care is important. that said, i hope you don't mentally police your identity to yourself. stay strong! those of us who share your struggles have got your back. :)

Just found your channel through tumblr. Thanks for posting these videos. Also your hairs pretty cool, I love the blue.

smdh @ your parents saying "do it after school" wtf. Sorry they're not supproting you. Hope they get to acceptance soon.

im really glad that you were able to have that conversation with your sister and able to help her see that your nephews isnt healthy. also HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!

im glad that your sister is startin to open her mind more..and you look happier! much love&light

your thoat might get sore..mihgt not..but it will start to crack a lot before your voice drops any..mine was crackin all over the place..especially when i would sing..but you look happier and that can be a positive change!

great video..cant believe its been 3 weeks already..time is really flyin! how are you feeling emotionally?

Compared to your last video your voice sounds a teeny bit deeper to me! Wishing you all the best for your journey :-)

i came out to my immediate family before my medical transition and the rest of my family found out from talkin to my mama and one of my uncles that i told..then if became real i guess to them when we saw each other again..but by then i was a year in and they had known for awhile and it went pretty smoothly.

my sisters say bye like that..lol..but on some real shit..i am so happy for you and i feel so proud of you for doin this with all the adversity that you are facing. i cant wait for your voice to change!!!!

congrats!!!!!

im sorry that you are goin through this shit with ya family..but it will make your transition more meaningful when you are farther along in your transition..congrats on startin HRT and being strong and courageous enough to do this for you! much love&light, Bless Up

Hey we would love to talk more to you about being on the channel? If you could email me that'd be great, it's winleyschooler@gmail ! Thank you

CONGRATS!!!! proud of you!

Congrats man I hope everything goes well!!

Owww, Alex! Hard situation, eh? Disconnecting from oneself isnt the best&most fun thing to do, but in situations like that, it can save you a whole lot of discomfort and Ughhhh-feeling. I hope the week will go by and you will be able to go back to a more welcoming life-space. Me and Ting and Clark are in montreal, so it would be cool to have you hang out with us if you want to and can escape from your family a bit! :) :)

I think you totally have a right to feel like you don't want to wait anymore. Even if the wait has been longer for other people, it doesn't mean you should have to wait as long nor that you don't have a right to "complain" and feeling less optimistic about how soon things will turn out for you. Waiting is a painful process, and 2 years is already a long time when you already are sure oyu want to be on hormones and have surgery. Sadly, there isn't any way to avoid waiting in those situations. I hope your summer will be fun and filled with activities that motivate you! I'm excited to meet you at Pride and have you on the TCP team ;) Seriously, waiting is a hard and strenuous process even though it may seem like we aren't really doing anything since we're waiting for things to happen, but it's so challenging mentally. Make sure to treat yourself with everything you want and makes you happy :)