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Prissyboy
Canada
Registrace 11. 01. 2014
Life+top surgery+dysphoria
WEEELLLLL A LOT HAS CHANGED...sorta. Mostly my hair because im pretty sure hrt changes have slowed down quite a bit.
(had to re-upload since the last one cut off)
**2 years 4mos on T altogether, 1year 10mos on injections**
(had to re-upload since the last one cut off)
**2 years 4mos on T altogether, 1year 10mos on injections**
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Fears & general thoughts about being read as non binary
zhlédnutí 345Před 7 lety
just me rambling about being "read" as nb, and sometimes being read as a cis guy... mostly feelings and experiences in the past months //Edit// Ummmmm when I saved the video it ended at 10 min-ish. Did not intend for a whole song to play out to a blank screen at the end lol
Non Binary 1 Year on T(injections)//Packing thoughts
zhlédnutí 415Před 7 lety
(Posted a few days ago but JUST realised it was set to private lol) Heeeeeyyyyyy, it's been awhile lol I decided I'd start counting my months or whatever by Injections only.
Non Binary 15 Months on T (9mos injections)
zhlédnutí 477Před 8 lety
oh my gosh... ive been trying to upload this mess for a weeek now. ( i made this last Monday)
lil update 'bout coming out trans @ work
zhlédnutí 129Před 8 lety
wow so im outside for once lol, also sorry about the angle (new to the whole phone recording thing) I was waiting for my bus and i figured I'd make an update while I had some free time.
Non Binary 14 months on T(8mos injections)//updates//dysphoria
zhlédnutí 270Před 8 lety
Hhi hihihi, it's been awhile :/// Not really talking about body changes, mostly just some thoughts/recent developments in my life. Mostly still having voice dysphoria, and thoughts about coming out as trans at work and experiments w// "passing".
Misgendered foreverr ???
zhlédnutí 239Před 8 lety
so i've been feelin kinda shitty lately gender wise & life wise so it's mostly me venting
Non Binary 10 months on T(5mos injections)
zhlédnutí 357Před 8 lety
So i made this video 3 weeks ago and I've officially done the rounds for getting my name changed as far as school/bank/work/ids. I'll try to make a video about my experiences with that stuff. I've just been busy with work/school and more ppl being in the house so it's difficult keeping up w/ video posting. tumblr: wherethequeerthingsare instagram:prissyboi
The Gender Tag w/ Cyrl
zhlédnutí 281Před 8 lety
Finnaallly im uploading this thing. I did it about 3-4 weeks ago lol
Non Binary 8 months on T(3mo injections)
zhlédnutí 284Před 8 lety
Heyoo Cyrl here & yeah i probably talk too much so this vid is p long lol Made this video 2 days ago. Forgot to add emotional changes..which is still zero because i've been reacting to things the same as ever. I still have access to a a p good range of emotions. i don't cry from personal sadness(which i never really did) but i still tear up over sad scenes in movies & cute baby animals so i fee...
Non Binary 7 months on T (2mo injections)
zhlédnutí 397Před 8 lety
also sent off my gender marker change papers at the same time but forgot to add that in the video
Non Binary 6 Months on T (3wks on Injections)
zhlédnutí 342Před 8 lety
(Made this on the 24th) Heyyoo, sorry about no 5 months but there was p much nothing new between 4 & 5 months.
Cyrl Here (New Name)
zhlédnutí 236Před 9 lety
I found a new name and i love it!! Do you folks think I'm being to rash 'cause i wanna make it official and put it on my name change papers already?? I'd like to hear what ppl think, comment or msg me via tumblr (wherethequeerthingsare)
Non Binary 4 Months on T (Androgel)
zhlédnutí 733Před 9 lety
tw for transphobia/cissexism 4:10-30 As of now I'm 20wks on T and about about 2 weeks past my actual 4 month mark. Also helloo influx of new subscribers!!!! My tumblr: wherethequeerthingsare Trans Collab Chanel: TransFriends
Self Policing my Gender
zhlédnutí 219Před 9 lety
So this is re-uploaded from the trans collab channel im apart of (TransFriends) Also this video is about 2weeks old but i'll be uploading my 4 month on T video later. Idk i think it works as a video for my personal channel better since im talking about my feelings when i interact w/ ppl being a non binary person.
Waiting to come out to extended family
zhlédnutí 112Před 9 lety
Waiting to come out to extended family
More rambling about testosterone & life
zhlédnutí 67Před 10 lety
More rambling about testosterone & life
hey i don’t know if you have any other socials but i found your yt and it’s been so much of a lifesaver to see another black non-binary person talking about their experiences especially with medically transitioning
Yt randomly recommended your video from 9 years ago and yoo, u r so cool then and now. I like your topics in video anddd sorry, no comments, u r cool ❤️
Hehe thanks, glad you like my lil videos. Tbh I constantly forget I used to make videos and making an update video has been on my ‘to do list’ for like 4 years now. Like Ive had top surgery since and that video is wayyy overdue 😅😅. Basically your comment reminded again hehe 😅😅
this was helpful thanks <3
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Nigga
It's been 2 years but i hope all is well with you!
Thank you for sharing - any updates on how things have been going? I have a lot of the same struggles myself
Yeah actually lol I made two videos recently that I still have to edit hehe. I've actually moved out and I'm like 3 years on T. And just had top surgery in August!
So I used Androgel and a blocker (Nolvadex) from Indian online pharmacies for about a year. Yes, I also have to hide it from my straight husband which is messed up. But honestly at your age, it should be more effective. I saw absolutely zero effect because I am more than twice your age.
woowww i feel reallllly similar about dealing w misgendering w t and wanting to dress more feminine once i feel more comfortable around that! ugh but its annoying placing emphasis on other people getting it right. im tryna stop focusing on that so much and get my own energy focused on just doing me. hope ur top surgery stuff worked out. the bureaucracy is soooo obnoxious
you sound like a feminine boy qwq
It's so awesome to see another nonbinary person of color on CZcams! ☺ Your videos are super helpful to me, as I'm figuring out whether I want to take T at a low dose or not. Definitely wanna get top surgery, tho. I'm glad this channel exists! Good luck with your journey! I'm sorry people have been bothering you. They can be really ignorant. 😞
Im about to go through that too! Nonbinary and going back on 2 for a second go. Last time around I was too nervous about passing to do anything fun with my hair lol but this time I want to wear dresses sometimes and do my own thing more. Scared about it too but it makes me comforted to know that a lot of people are venturing through it. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Im sorry people were so rude to you, ugh how obnoxious. The people whose opinions matter are the people who listen to you when you tell them how you identify.
I'm so sorry that happened to you at your job, that's awful. Ppl crossing lines like that thinking it's ok to wonder and ask themselves about smthng so personal is disgusting. I'm afraid if it ever happened at my job id tell them to f**k off. You def look a lot different from when you started! I relate to a lot of what you're saying tho. I've been on low dose for about three months and have def had some voice changes and trying to prep myself how to navigate that (plus restroom) w/this transphobic society. It sucks that we have to be picky about the spaces where we can be ourselves out of safety. I've also dealt with trans guys trying to gender me as a guy knowing I'm nonbinary and it's really messed up. Hope you feel better too ✨✨
Great video! I'm going through something like this right now as well. Even though my gender and ideal presentation is nb, people try to put me into one category or the other so living as nonbinary seems to always need an explanation. I agree that it's frustrating to not know how you're coming across. I've found myself "butching it up" at school in order to make it more predictable, but even on my most "masculine" days I am gendered as female by some people. Thank you for making this video, looking forward to more.
B Erbes thanks! yea right now I'm finding it v weird to be seen as a cis guy, like I feel more trapped in my presentation then when ppl think I'm a cis girl. I'm mostly? ??? and frustrated by that
I think humans are so incredibly perceptive. From experience, if you don't fake confidence about belonging then people mirror that and begin to treat you as such. Do more of what makes you feel confident and happy because that what matters. I'm really sorry about the horrible drive thru incident. I am happy to see an update from you regardless, and I hope you're having a good week.
A Ok yea that's my goal, trying to focus on my own self perception than other ppl's. and thanks :)
Honest to god I think you sound like a boy. You sound nothing like a girl. I also think you are very much passing. When I see you I would immediately assume you were a boy. I think that your face looks masculine and passing. You look great. I've been watching your videos since the beginning and I always get excited when you post another vid. I love hearing your story. CZcams is full of white non binary folks so it is nice to see a person of color.
Nice to see you!
sup
This was so helpful. It's been difficult to find nonbinary people sharing their experiences on dysphoria, especially socially. So thank you so much for sharing your experiences. It's been really validating for me to hear you share similar fears and thoughts to some of mine. This is the first of your videos i've seen so I'm not sure how you're doing now, but I hope you're keeping well and staying strong. All of the best and all of the love. :)
that's awesome ! agree on aesthetics A++
Yaay~ also, <3 your aesthetic in this.
Don't beat yourself about not asserting your pronouns etc. It's really scary tbh; I've recently started to come out to people at my college campus, which is a pretty safe, accepting environment, and it was *still* nervewracking, I put it off for ages, I let people misgender me, etc, etc. I will say it can feel pretty good to have done it, but it does make you vulnerable and that's definitely legitimately terrifying on some level. also your videos are really relatable and I really appreciate them :)
thank you so much for sharing your experience here! it's so helpful and good to hear someone who's going through a similiar stage. i'm not on T though but your updates (esp the ones where you talk about your relationship with your family and coworkers and people in general) are so so reassuring, and help me feel a lot less alone
oh gosh thank you for this! I'm so happy these videos are even remotely helpful to someone lol
Heya. I realize I'm a little late commenting on this. So I'm sorry about that. Being a nonbinary transmasculine individual myself, I can relate well to a lot of this. I just wanted to let you know. I can see you changing. You're making tremendous progress- and while it's being invalidated left and right, I hope you can at least take some encouragement from being visible to a stranger such as myself. I'm sorry you're continuing to struggle with being misgendered. And that this may be easier for me to say than for you to live through. But you're such a warrior. Everyday you get by is amazing. And it won't all be for nothing. This isn't your forever. Hang in there friend.
sorry very few ppl are respecting ur gender. its valid regardless of cis ppl being a**holes. kids have been demonstrated to understand transness, sounds more like the adults are the immature ones there. finally, regardless of how problematic the concept of passing is, your feels make sense. every day u take t, you're closer to looking like u need, right. take care
thank you so much. it's just hard not to think that maybe if I could pass as a guy it'd be harder for ppl//my family to insist I was a girl. but at the end of the day it's not really my responsibility to make people respect my gender, so I'm just tryin to be ok when they dont
the way you described your gender sounds just like I would describe mine ^-^ Thanks for making this channel :)
+Willam Piper Thank youu for watching!! I'm v happy to know that other people share my own gender feelings :))
Your voice sounds great! Thanks for sharing your journey!
best of luck with the paper work! and i def see some changes, looking great ! and like QueerAsCat said, hope your mom learns to be more accepting of who you are... and if not that you have the support you need to leave unhealthy spaces.
+Mel Beltrán thanks so much , and honestly im not too concerned with my mom fully accepting me just because i have other people in my life who support me. Plus i know eventually i'll move out again and won't have to deal with her as much
congrats on submitting the paperwork for your name change. i hope it all goes smoothly. :) i hope you mom comes around and warms up to your new name as well, even though that'll obviously take time.
Congrats!!! :D
Thanks for updating us and sharing such a personal journey! Your voice sounds great!
congrats on your name change:) your voice is sounding awesome!!!! hope things get easier with family xxxx
I'm so happy for you! :) I really like both names
*telepathically sends you lots of good vibes and courage* when it comes to what you tell others, do what you have to do to feel safe. self-defense and self-care is important. that said, i hope you don't mentally police your identity to yourself. stay strong! those of us who share your struggles have got your back. :)
QueerAsCat !! thanks and the identity policing really just extends to social situations but i appreciate the concern :))
Just found your channel through tumblr. Thanks for posting these videos. Also your hairs pretty cool, I love the blue.
***** Oh cool, thanks!! :))
smdh @ your parents saying "do it after school" wtf. Sorry they're not supproting you. Hope they get to acceptance soon.
Mel B thanks, im hoping as my transition progresses they realize this isn't a phase :/ i mean im 23 and i came out to them at 20 ...
im really glad that you were able to have that conversation with your sister and able to help her see that your nephews isnt healthy. also HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!
im glad that your sister is startin to open her mind more..and you look happier! much love&light
your thoat might get sore..mihgt not..but it will start to crack a lot before your voice drops any..mine was crackin all over the place..especially when i would sing..but you look happier and that can be a positive change!
great video..cant believe its been 3 weeks already..time is really flyin! how are you feeling emotionally?
[MR!]Elisha26 ah emotionally i still feel pretty level. pretty content, no real differences and i still tear up looking at cute animals so thats good lol. i feel like i won't really start noticing things till after my first month maybe
yeah at first it doesnt feel like too much..then it starts to hit you and you be like "oooooh..i see" watch out for the aggression
Compared to your last video your voice sounds a teeny bit deeper to me! Wishing you all the best for your journey :-)
A Ok aha thanks :)) can't wait for it to really drop tho
i came out to my immediate family before my medical transition and the rest of my family found out from talkin to my mama and one of my uncles that i told..then if became real i guess to them when we saw each other again..but by then i was a year in and they had known for awhile and it went pretty smoothly.
[MR!]Elisha26 like i came out as trans to my immediate family 2 years ago and i feel like it's just been rumors//speculation on my extended fam's part. and since i'm not hypermasculine, they don't think it's really true. ugh i knoow im gonna have to really talk w/ them eventually tho
yeah you will just like i did..i had to confront my uncle/godfather after a year into my transition..and as you get into your transition more you will get confidence that will help you handle it
my sisters say bye like that..lol..but on some real shit..i am so happy for you and i feel so proud of you for doin this with all the adversity that you are facing. i cant wait for your voice to change!!!!
congrats!!!!!
im sorry that you are goin through this shit with ya family..but it will make your transition more meaningful when you are farther along in your transition..congrats on startin HRT and being strong and courageous enough to do this for you! much love&light, Bless Up
Hey we would love to talk more to you about being on the channel? If you could email me that'd be great, it's winleyschooler@gmail ! Thank you
CONGRATS!!!! proud of you!
Thanks so much!!
youre welcome bruh
Congrats man I hope everything goes well!!
Thanks, me too lol
you more than welcomed man lol
Owww, Alex! Hard situation, eh? Disconnecting from oneself isnt the best&most fun thing to do, but in situations like that, it can save you a whole lot of discomfort and Ughhhh-feeling. I hope the week will go by and you will be able to go back to a more welcoming life-space. Me and Ting and Clark are in montreal, so it would be cool to have you hang out with us if you want to and can escape from your family a bit! :) :)
I think you totally have a right to feel like you don't want to wait anymore. Even if the wait has been longer for other people, it doesn't mean you should have to wait as long nor that you don't have a right to "complain" and feeling less optimistic about how soon things will turn out for you. Waiting is a painful process, and 2 years is already a long time when you already are sure oyu want to be on hormones and have surgery. Sadly, there isn't any way to avoid waiting in those situations. I hope your summer will be fun and filled with activities that motivate you! I'm excited to meet you at Pride and have you on the TCP team ;) Seriously, waiting is a hard and strenuous process even though it may seem like we aren't really doing anything since we're waiting for things to happen, but it's so challenging mentally. Make sure to treat yourself with everything you want and makes you happy :)