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In that episode of House he was abusing another drug and using the alcohol medicinally to counter act it's long term side effects

Can quetiapine or brexpiprazole worsen my sleep Maringá me awake in the middle of the night?

Thank you for this. I think these ought to be considered in an official diagnosis. I would have felt less like an impostor when I was diagnosed. It may have been obvious, but I felt like the points on the the BDI which matched only covered a fraction of what is (not) happening inside me and were too broad. It made it stand out what doesn't match, or doesn't *appear* to match - such as no mention of how anhedonia can be partial, causing me to think I don't experience it, and to get angry at the world for not providing me with, or me not achieving, things good enough to make me feel a fraction of what My Fave Things do. But, speaking of those... as someone who was diagnosed in my early teens and dealt with this long before that, is somewhat treatment resistant and has never known life without at least mild depression being a constant (I'm in my late 30s now) I don't have such a thing as a past, healthy version of myself to miss. This was, and likely will always be, what I am. And I think there's a reason. I have since discovered other things about myself and, I have to say, points 1 and 7 are not symptoms in my case, or at least not only symptoms, but also causes. Coming to accept my queer identity and that something is clearly off about my neurology on a hard-wired level (yet to be assessed) where "basic" cognitive and social functions are like a marathon of overwhelm or a perplexing game of chess, helped me understand how I kind of *am* displaced. In a way, my environment was not designed to have me in it. I know that's kind of true for everyone; even the Earth itself being habitable is kind of a miracle and I could just as easily have gotten different cards and spent my childhood in a war zone and not survived it, so I know I'm absurdly lucky and comfortable. But being this way means I've found community primarily through those special exceptions - the things which do give me pleasure when everything else either feels like nothing or hurts or feels foreign, like a facsimile of whatever it ought to be that people speak of having experienced. Having so called special interests, hyperfixating on a specific thing with extreme intensity for sometimes years, appears to be a fixed personality trait I can't even fathom existing without and has given me joy and sometimes fulfilment, some semblance of purpose when otherwise I'd be merely surviving. My interests are not a bandaid to cover for a lack of a life but they are the only way I can have a life because this is just who I am. I never actually wanted many of those things the average Joe manages to do (and I watch in awe indeed) or aspires to have. I was not built for it. And the world does not like that. Not to downplay the depression at all, to be very clear! I have better and worse periods and have been completely incapacitated in the past, struggled with addiction and rather be sleeping through days (if could sleep at all) than doing even things I normally enjoy, so I can tell the difference. But I don't have trouble connecting to "real" life and myself only because I'm depressed. It's more of a feedback loop between my mental illness and the rest of who I am - someone for whom depression is the completely normal reaction to expectations that are impossible to meet and an environment which might as well be foreign in how it doesn't fully recognize who I am as a thing one can be. And I think that, these days, that will resonate with a lot of people. You don't have to be queer or disabled in any way to relate at least to some extent.

People with Complex PTSD can wake up in the middle of the night due to cortisol spikes. You wake up and feel wired and cant go back to sleep easily. I did this for years and would be awake for 2 to 3 hours. I couldn't go back down. You are constantly sleep deprived. I'm past it now, but it took years to find domrbody that recognized it and knew how to treat it.

I can't sleep I wake up incredibly easily My routine is completely messed up Can't take this s*** anymore bro

Dude I'm already redlining to just keep up with basic day to day responsibilities

If you can’t enjoy your life help someone else to enjoy theirs.

My sepia toned kind of life.

Excellent Topic to discuss!! Thanks

For those that might have some measure of insomnia or MDST- Disorder Multidimensional Sound triggering disorder: My hearing is the last thing to shutdown when i try to sleep. Recently I went to SD 3.75.9999999999 and realized that i was also at 3.0 at the same time. I could hear a youtube video on my headphones and talk to a girl at the same time in the dream vision, both at the same time. If you have insomnia, get a set of headphones or better yet, noise cancelling headphones to make your sense of hearing shutdown properly. Proper rest is found at SD 3.7, 3.75 or at 3.8 and above. I realize i was not disconnecting from this reality properly in order to have proper sleep. I hope this helps everyone. Insomnia is devastating. Heather O'Rourke showed up a few12 days ago and just smiled and smiled...she knew i had a great and powerful secret.

My pro tip is to look around for autism and ADHD symptoms as well. Those can create an "off" self image that constantly rubs with how the average lives (note I used "average" and not "normal"!).

I feel so much value in your videos because you have experienced it too

This started for me when I was 8 years old. I will be 73 this coming Oct. I have gotten professional medical mental care. Sometimes I think it helped. BUT now?!!! I am back to feeling as I did at 8 years old

Great video man, tnx

It's about time we have M.A.I.D. or whatever you call it in the U.S. NO ONE can tell a person they don't have the right to opt out. What do they do with you if you fail suicide..put you in lock up either in jail with a bunch of shady and creepy people or put you in a 'mental health facility' (isn't that tag a Shangrala explanation for THAT hell) with a bunch of shady and creepy people. Either place you lost all control of what happens in your life. Now how in the hell does that make sense?? If I ever decided to do it myself, NO ONE would ever see it coming. I openly laugh whenever a new therapist gives the spiel about how everything is CONFIDENTIAL unless I say I'm going to hurt myself or anyone else. How fucking hilarious!!! You'd have to have a below functional I.Q. to do that on purpose if you truly meant to 'hurt myself'. Hurting myself is living everyday with very painful, incurable and barely controllable illnesses where people find me an easy target, and aim full at me, because I'm too physically weak to defend myself and so isolated that there is no one to stop them....being alive is 'hurting myself'. Opting out is simply ending a 50+ year long battle in this body and freeing myself. A animal custodian would do better for their animal than what I'm legally allowed to do for myself. It's not like the world needs more people in it. There is absolutely no way I will ever agree with this guy on this. I'm not 12 to and had my first puppy love break up or something as equally silly. I've put in my time, I've tried everything there is to try. The ONLY reason I listened to this is to see if he came up with any unique ideas he can spew from high on his soap box. Nothing new at all, imagine my surprise.

Everything does happen for a purpose. It's not pleasant more often than not. it's brutal. However, that discussion is between you and God! That's the most important relationship in your life, God + you. Nothing else matters.

Guys does anyone else feel that depression, anxiety, and obsessions are all different manifestations of the same condition? I feel like once they start, they often come and are exacerbated alongside each other. I also, struggle a lot with rigid thinking, which causes me to overthink and ruminate so much on a subject. The aim is to evaluate things so much to examine how they align with that perfectionistic vision I have in my mind. If something is just a little off in my opinion, I keep thinking and thinking about it. This can sometimes cause me to lose touch with reality to the point where I can’t recognize if my thoughts are valid or even real. Something like psychosis.

YES! People walking into my house are always shocked by the bright colors. I amp them up deliberately because if they start to look grey to me, I know I'm in trouble.

This is honestly so well put. I love how you make scary things feel actually manageable.

I wish I could get addicted to video games. I don’t enjoy them anymore :(

Didn't know passive S I was a thing. Has just started for me less than 10 weeks ago. Now I can work on exploring it, addressing it and developing my skills to cope. Everything for a reason.

I might have to make a poster of these points, and maybe a daily checklist, to keep it in mind, because this is great stuff. Oh he’s talking about another way of doing it using phone notifications. Not sure that would work for me. The Lock Screen thing could be good.

The first day I started meds, the colors were amazing! But it hasn't been the same since that one day.

I can relate to every item. Add a super strong longing to be completely alone with no one bothering me, which is impossible so I feel uncomfortable all day. Video games are my only refuge.

Wow, you really hit the nail in the head with this video...

Same here...Takes someone who has experienced the ..same thing as we have to understand. The social stigma attached to it makes people turn against us instead of understanding ..a bit. I love your video.Thank you very much!! I feel less lonely here. ☺And I'm glad you feel better now. I guess me too I feel a bit better slowly but syrely.. But depends on days I guess but I'm accepting more thongs in life now and I feel and know they support me (upthere in heaven). Guy de Montréal au Québec.

It took a long time for me to learn to talk normal human with normal humans after growing up in a highly intelligent/educated family. For a while I couldn't get the point of "chit chat" and stayed in my corner away from all that. Parties were, and still are the worst. High emotion, positive or negative disturbed me simply because my home was pretty emotionally flattened. It has taken me years and still at times being with people is a mental health discipline when I would rather be alone. I appreciate your work shared with us here!

I only feel like that just before exams but after that i willl love this world again

Anxiety for me hit an all time high after getting a rhinoplasty surgery. Started getting anxiety/ panic attacks a month post op and for that first year felt confined to my momz apartment. Antianxiety medication helped in a big way and got my life back on track. Fast forward now I have aligners and am now realizing the life crippling anxiety started because of my misaligned jaw. Anxiety is a bitch, I just hate when people told me the anxiety was the problem. Nah the SYMPTOMS were debilitating, difficulty breathing from blocked nasal passages, tight diaphragm, etc. That makes anxiety worse and that's what these doctors/ psychologists don't understand sometimes.

So interesting to hear other people describing the color thing and not realizing it until you’re feeling a bit better

I really admire and resonate with this deeply personal and empathetic type of therapy approach which emphasizez your ability to be a good therapist because of your own immense struggle more than your credentials and experience. Some mental health professionals would scoff at this calling it unprofessional or warm against it as not objective enough, but i genuinely love the work you are doing. Keep going, you are helping more people than you know.

I really do admire what you do, but no, I don't know that it will not last forever, and nobody else can know that either. For me it has lasted decades, in spite of years of different treatments/ therapies/medications/etc. and real effort on my part. It IS possible that someone can feel this way forever. Just like it's possible for someone not to feel this way forever. Life is unfair. What I find invalidating is that I have yet to come across one mental health professional in person or on CZcams etc., who can or will tell the truth to those of us who have a chronic, untreatable mental illness that it is terminal and it isn't up to us to fix it anymore. That would be validating. And then maybe we could get real help in managing that decision once it's been made. People with physical illnesses are given this gift, along with humane treatment when they are ready to give up. People with mental illnesses aren't. I think a lot of us would just like to hear that truth, someday, and then maybe people would realize we deserve a humane end to our suffering too.

19:30 《-made me sit up and take notice

"Normal people look like superheros" - never heard anyone say this out loud. I have always felt this way most of my life. But it was more like this: "these people literally know something that I for some reason don't know - some secret knowledge that allows them to have success that I just do not have in my core and nobody has ever told me." Instead of looking at cars I would look at nice houses, and think "wow so many successful people that have it together - how is this possible that so many people can keep their life together and have consistent success to maintain a nice home? It is so hard for me just to even get up and get through the day." Being middle aged, I don't feel quite this way like I used to because I have had some life journeys and success of my own but I used to feel this way all the time.

This is extremely beneficial. Thank you.

Literally just said this today to someone. That I feel like I’m living someone else’s life and somehow mine was mixed up with someone else’s. And certain places and people feel home and like I should be there but I can’t get there.

I wrote a poem once that mentioned this phenomenon. That the world and I didn't see things the same way. That for me the world appeared grayer and dingy.

I feel like so much of these are symptoms of low dhea... by 70 years old, it's usually dropped to 10-20%. It affects EVERYTHING. My mother had hers tested and it was at 4 percent. It makes sense of so much mood and physical issues.

Has anyone elses gone through mental health disability screening? You know when they ask you to count back from 100 by 7's? I ripped through that pretty fast and told the doctor, "I'm depressed, not stupid."

I don't want to exist.