It's me again! I felt like it was appropriate to do another solo pod to bring you all up to speed on my life lately. I was gone for a few weeks because I was in the process of moving, which is a big task that I'm sure we're all aware of. I could have worked extra hard and backlogged some episodes to keep it consistent, but then we wouldn't have THIS podcast to share all about my time and reflections over the past month. The move went well, and we are MOSTLY all settled in. But it was a rough summer to say the least...And I get into all of it with this talk. From losing my apartment, because we were getting priced out, to watching my professional life dissolve in front of me, and finally ending my relationship with Rachel because I couldn't handle it anymore, it all felt like my life was on fire. I wanted to give it all up. I was feeling really lost. And experiencing a lot of personal stress and fear about where I was headed, or NOT headed. I think sometimes when it rains, it pours, and man, was it dumping! But as you'll hear, I took a long hard look into myself and really figured out what I actually wanted for myself. And what my heart truly needed. Which that was to protect my relationship and reframe my sense of self. End this pity party and get my shit back together!
These moments are always incredibly taxing while you're in them, but ultimately some of the most important ones you for us to experience and move through. I finally feel like I'm on the other side of it, and truly feel immense gratitude for having gone through it. Not that I'd like to do it again, but the value from having endured through that pain and discomfort was absolutely necessary for me. And I'm really look forward to how this new chapter informs my life and my art. Sometimes we have to go through hell to recognize how beautiful life really is. And I think I just needed to get my ass kicked really quick to get a stern reminder that my life kicks ass and that I can have more fun with it, if I just give myself permission to. l hope this episode resonates with you on some capacity. Because ultimately, we all deserve to be as happy as we can be.
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