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My First Ayahuasca Experience - Birth, Death & Transformation #ayahuasca #mindfulness #psychedelic
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Are you considering an Ayahuasca ceremony? Join me as I embark on my first journey into the unknown and share my personal experience with this ancient Amazonian medicine. Discover the role of the Ayahuasca plant and the significance of the Ayahuasca shaman in this powerful experience. What are the effects of Ayahuasca? What did I learn about the healing properties of Ayahuasca and how did it impact my mental state, including lingering feelings of depression? The revelation, recommendation and my personal suggestion on taking Ayahuasca. Join me as I share my first ever encounter with this deep psychedelic teacher.
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00:31 - The bad-press
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02:49 - Do I have to throw up?
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22:04 - What do this visions mean?
22:29 - Was this a “bad” experience?
23:10 - The revelation
25:35 - Do I recommend Ayahuasca?
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Komentáře

  • @user-me4wv7kb4j
    @user-me4wv7kb4j Před 7 dny

    great walk thru of your experience. What has changed in your life since this experience? Is you life difference, more peace…etc. I am very interested and excited to here the in the after part.

  • @stumrektun
    @stumrektun Před 8 dny

    Be careful, you have no idea on what you are baffling with.

  • @ketan019
    @ketan019 Před 11 dny

    Which retreat did you go to?

  • @mikhailnikolaev7813
    @mikhailnikolaev7813 Před 11 dny

    Just curious. Why didn't you link the retreat or the trip you went to for the trip?

  • @misstownes
    @misstownes Před 14 dny

    Thank you for being brave and sharing your story ❤

  • @itsLaHarmony
    @itsLaHarmony Před 15 dny

    Over explaining “energy” (3:09) as being woo woo, “mystical” or “sh-mystical” was irrelevant and very disrespectful, especially given the fact that this is a “woo woo” “mystical” or “sh-mystical” spiritual experience you’ve inadvertently judged without actually judging. But overall very mindful video. Thank you.

  • @20m694
    @20m694 Před 15 dny

    Very good description. Thank you. I think it's time for me to do this for the first time. I would like to do this in the U.S. if possible, but I want to make sure the people are top quality. Are there any top notch retreats in the U.S. or do I need to go elsewhere? I know you can't tell me where to go and what to do, but I would appreciate any advice. I live in a rural area and don't know anyone I could talk to.

  • @journeytoself8067
    @journeytoself8067 Před 16 dny

    This opens one to negative entities attachment

  • @virginiacreager4331
    @virginiacreager4331 Před 28 dny

    Wow your experience describes why I could never do the cry it out method with my infant son even though many people pressured me to do it. I intuitively felt the absolute terror and devastation he would feel crying into the dark and no one coming. I learned in my doula training program how His body after being a part of my body was designed to be regulated and comforted by the touch of my skin the sound of my heart beat, the sound of my voice, my smell, the chemicals being released in my body and simultaneously in his. I was the matrix he had lived inside of and been fully supported by for 9 months. I think this translates to when we are adults knowing how to hold ourselves in moments of sadness and fear. Pick up and hold our inner baby. 🙏🧡 thank you for having the courage to do this.

  • @mountainair
    @mountainair Před měsícem

    Love Shinzen and his books!

  • @gabefinalperigee
    @gabefinalperigee Před měsícem

    holy shit... 53:56

  • @311baca
    @311baca Před měsícem

    Witchcraft people! Wake up!

  • @limeng7999
    @limeng7999 Před měsícem

    Excellent content, thank yiu guys!

  • @christopherhamilton3621
    @christopherhamilton3621 Před měsícem

    It feels like or it felt like that to you? I might sound pedantic but one really has to be semantically accurate if you want to be honest.

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před měsícem

      100%. There was a whole part very stating this is my subjective experience and in one of the 20 rounds of edits, my editor cut it and I didn’t realize for six months. Sadly you can’t add footage on CZcams, only subtract. But that’s going to be the first sentence of my next video. Good point.

  • @fawzjamal2238
    @fawzjamal2238 Před měsícem

    Thank you for sharing 🙏 I had a very similar experience about crying into the pillow - sue helped me free my pain and not feel ashamed for meeting vulnerable ❤️🙏

  • @user-rq4cu5gx3r
    @user-rq4cu5gx3r Před měsícem

    We are ready for this life Luna call we are Calderon Ochoa Mata Texas lacasa hotsprings owaco sopaso osio crazycrow teenachee

  • @RY-fe3rt
    @RY-fe3rt Před měsícem

    Why do mind-games nullify the best intentions? I remember being stoned with my best friend back in my varsity dorm. We were comfortably lost in one of those deep, meaningful conversations students love to have, unpacking how we saw ourselves in the future. I went on a whole ramble, picturing where I would live, work, what I'd be listening to, reading on my balcony etc etc. It took a while. When I was finally done, my friend looked at me for a while and then simply asked.... "But who are you with?" I was totally blank. I hadn't even considered it. I'm still occasionally given pause by this memory when I'm comfortably alone. I try not to confuse it with being lonely or cobbling it to a phantom, self-soothing inner child. Just my two cents. Not to invalidate your deeply profound experience, of course. Great vid! 😁✌️

  • @Italliving
    @Italliving Před 2 měsíci

    Well all of this depends on your mental state of mind and what kind of brew they gave you, Jaguar or Anaconda or Mixed .... So i don't know if you had several journey"s and if you have an understanding of witch medicine you actually drunk ? and all Experiences are PERSONAL

  • @birthing4blokes46
    @birthing4blokes46 Před 2 měsíci

    Thank you. do you think your experience can be generalised?

    • @MiltHerman
      @MiltHerman Před měsícem

      (Psychedelics are way easily accessible for me from a mycologist who introduced me to dmt and other psychedelics products)❤

    • @MiltHerman
      @MiltHerman Před měsícem

      Chaposhroom... ..

    • @MiltHerman
      @MiltHerman Před měsícem

      On Instagram and telegram…!! ....

  • @Marbega8
    @Marbega8 Před 2 měsíci

    Wow! You connected with your true self (your 26:57 divinity) which is pure love and light and healed yourself of the trauma of the past 💕🌹

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před 2 měsíci

      Thanks for that. I appreciate when people can see that because it’s such a beautiful healing engine.

  • @MrStrocube
    @MrStrocube Před 2 měsíci

    I swear, I did not come here to troll anyone. But, I gotta say, my experiences with ayahuasca were nothing like the way it is presented to the masses. I’ve done over 50 ceremonies in various countries over the years. Most of them were in Peru, Canada, and Colombia. Maybe I’m especially dense, or somehow flawed, but I have never experienced these “profound transformations” that so many people talk about. Nor have I ever experienced any kind of clear message from “Madre Ayahuasca”. What I did experience was much blood an guts horror, where I was convinced I was gonna die and be trapped in some demon infested, crystalline hell-world for all eternity. I never reached any kind of “enlightenment”. It’s been about 10 years now since my last forays into “the medicine”. With hindsight, I can say, that what I got out of it was that it made me a bit less of an asshole, and I maybe hate myself a bit less than I did when I went into it. I was trying to heal myself from brutal childhood trauma, CPTSD, panic attacks, night terrors, anxiety, depression, and a crippling self-loathing. I was not fucking around. I puked so hard and for so long, I gave myself an epigastric hernia that required surgery. After the surgery and recovery, this idiot went back and did a final month-long dieta in Pucallpa. I gotta say, I HATE the fucking jungle. That was in 2014, so yeah, ten years ago now. I’m done with any kind of “heroic dose” of any psychedelic. Though, I do microdose shrooms to manage a host of mental health issues that ayahuasca did not fix.

  • @FollowMagicBrad
    @FollowMagicBrad Před 3 měsíci

    Greetings from Minneapolis, MN I have an Intro call tomorrow with a guy from Rhythmia in Costa Rica. It is about a $5000 experience. Which feels like a lot to me. But I think that is part of the reason I am going, is because of my blocks to money and worthiness.

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před 3 měsíci

      That definitely is a LOT. Try contacting the Ayahuasca foundation in Peru. That’s the origins of this tradition.

  • @user-dm1bu8fu3c
    @user-dm1bu8fu3c Před 3 měsíci

    Omg. Just finished listening to your explanation and experience with the medicine and cannot believe how much my experience lined up with yours 🙏 l got back home with mixed emotions and feelings about my own experience at Rythmia in CostaRica and now l have more clarity and understanding of what l experienced while in ceremony and why l felt the way l did especially the first night which was really intense for me. Love and light to you brother, l also am dealing with depression at the moment. Paul from 🇨🇦

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před 3 měsíci

      Thank you so much for sharing that! I’m glad you’re settling in and wish you all the best in your healing journey! Hope we cross paths some day soon.

  • @tylerdavis520
    @tylerdavis520 Před 3 měsíci

    A demon came in? That’s a good thing?

    • @christopherhamilton3621
      @christopherhamilton3621 Před měsícem

      LOL! Why so literal, bro? 😂

    • @tylerdavis520
      @tylerdavis520 Před měsícem

      @@christopherhamilton3621 let me guess, you’re too scientifically knowledgeable to believe in demons? This shit isn’t a game, brother

  • @qwortor
    @qwortor Před 3 měsíci

    Nama/rupa to me is concept/sensation. Concept being the organisation or clustering of sensations. Sensations being the phenomena of the 6 sense doors, ... (...including concept, but mostly the other 5 doors, yet also the reproductions of the 5 in the 6th ie, vision and mental image are both sensation, but mental image has much more of a concepts leaning, as it's more about structure/organisation/clustering of the sensations.)

  • @luigidopobici8459
    @luigidopobici8459 Před 3 měsíci

    Which psychedelic can i partake which does not give me a religious /god experience? I dont want a religious experience or analysis with or through a religious or god thing.

  • @lucidsymmetry
    @lucidsymmetry Před 3 měsíci

    geeat video dude

  • @reneebrient1409
    @reneebrient1409 Před 4 měsíci

    J ai suivi

  • @reneebrient1409
    @reneebrient1409 Před 4 měsíci

    Merci pour les infos

  • @junkettarp8942
    @junkettarp8942 Před 4 měsíci

    Ild stick to beer ...Thanks.

  • @Nyuffykah
    @Nyuffykah Před 4 měsíci

    What a beautiful person! Thank you <3 I am traveling to Peru next week.

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před 4 měsíci

      Me too actually. I’ll be headed to diet with Noya Rao for most of Feb. 🙏🏼

    • @Nyuffykah
      @Nyuffykah Před 4 měsíci

      @@DeepMindfulness see you there, then 😊

  • @hansenmarc
    @hansenmarc Před 4 měsíci

    55:47 I’ve been wondering if piti is similar to the brain tingle associated with ASMR or frisson. Thanks for confirming that it is similar at least to the experience of frisson.

  • @mahmoodrahmoon496
    @mahmoodrahmoon496 Před 4 měsíci

    Thank you so much for your help and your video Actually, I can’t go to the bureau, I’m going to take it by myself, I’m in the night from two weeks ago and next week I’m going to take the first Session any help can you tell me what can I do thank you so much

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před 4 měsíci

      I don’t have any suggestions because I don’t recommend taking it alone. I recommend waiting till you can take his medicine in a traditional setting. This is a very powerful intervention and I don’t recommend cutting corners. 🙏🏼

    • @MichaelWayne-ih6du
      @MichaelWayne-ih6du Před 4 měsíci

      I'll refer you to where you can get your psychedelics

    • @MichaelWayne-ih6du
      @MichaelWayne-ih6du Před 4 měsíci

      On INSTAGRAM

    • @MichaelWayne-ih6du
      @MichaelWayne-ih6du Před 4 měsíci

      Ayahuascahenry

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před 4 měsíci

      This guy is a narc. ^ Please stop posting under my videos.

  • @joanygarcia6899
    @joanygarcia6899 Před 4 měsíci

    28:08 Hello and thank you for sharing your experience! May I ask at which retreat in Peru you had your Ayahuasca experience? There are so many to choose from and it becomes overwhelming trying to select one that is both authentic and heart centered as well as safe.

  • @EdwardBose
    @EdwardBose Před 4 měsíci

    Do people who do psychedelics not fear death anymore. Do you experience a consciousness beyond our physical realm?

  • @user-ng7hv5hr9v
    @user-ng7hv5hr9v Před 4 měsíci

    Is ayahuasca available in US?

  • @claudiacolarusso229
    @claudiacolarusso229 Před 4 měsíci

    Ayahausca changed my life! I did it with authentic shamans at Rythmia Life Advancement Center in Costa Rica. Game Changer! #Rythmia

  • @Seanb33ee
    @Seanb33ee Před 4 měsíci

    Was nice to see a person with your level of mindfulness explaining the trip. It was very clear. One of the nicest I’ve heard.

  • @kingmaestro1766
    @kingmaestro1766 Před 4 měsíci

    😂😂😂😂 the people in the western world are foolish. This is a demonic practice. We Africans know about all this. You take a drug to numb the body and free your spirit. Once your spirit is more active then your body you begin to interact with the spirit realm. The body was created by God to block out the spirit realm naturally but once you get the body to be numb your spirit is free. It’s the same as Astro projection you put the body into a sleep mode why keeping the spirit active. Witches do this all the time it’s demonic. You are interacting with a demonic spirit that is deceiving you into some false sense of spiritual freedom. If you want to test out these call spirit guide and see if they truly like you. Mention the name of Jesus and see how that spirit will turn aggressive fast. This new age nonsense is nothing new you guys are being deceived.

  • @jurekbarabanov5840
    @jurekbarabanov5840 Před 4 měsíci

    Useless, misleading chatter

  • @Sabrina-vu9mv
    @Sabrina-vu9mv Před 4 měsíci

    Thank you so much for sharing your experience.🙏

  • @Klein101
    @Klein101 Před 4 měsíci

    What an amazing description of your experience. Thank you❤

  • @Mr.Zen_73
    @Mr.Zen_73 Před 5 měsíci

    great video thanks for posting it

  • @EsphirPopilevsky
    @EsphirPopilevsky Před 5 měsíci

    Please share the name and location where you had your Ayahuasca experience

    • @duslanjeremy4770
      @duslanjeremy4770 Před 4 měsíci

      You can actually book with a group I went with when I was going for mine , it was the best experience

    • @duslanjeremy4770
      @duslanjeremy4770 Před 4 měsíci

      The telegram and instagram handle below is the contact information

    • @duslanjeremy4770
      @duslanjeremy4770 Před 4 měsíci

      *Formulah01*

  • @Ordermiracle
    @Ordermiracle Před 5 měsíci

    Did you say a demon entered your body and gave you strength?

    • @eccentricraven
      @eccentricraven Před měsícem

      Right, he did. I almost feel these are purposefully on here to discredit Ahyas power and beauty. I don't trust the internet much nowadays, but I know everyone has their own unique experience with these things. I guess for him there was a bit of some power trip weird energy. I would never use the word demon with something so sacred.

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před měsícem

      That’s what it felt like. I’m not suggesting this was real, but that is how my body/mind metabolized this profound experience.

    • @DeepMindfulness
      @DeepMindfulness Před měsícem

      You may want to look into the traditions that ayahuasca comes from. Things like demons or evil entities are mainstays of these traditions. That said, that was just the experience my system showed me. There are lots of possible explanations, including pure projection… but this is what I saw in the moment. 🙏🏼

  • @pankajjsharrma1546
    @pankajjsharrma1546 Před 5 měsíci

    Thank you very much. What retreat did you go for the 3 days Aya ceremony. I have had done in 2018 in Pucallpa 12 days (5 Mother Aya ceremony) and feel to do it again as I did not integrate the lesson into daily life after comming back. Many Thanks

    • @duslanjeremy4770
      @duslanjeremy4770 Před 4 měsíci

      You can go book with the group I went for my , mine was a very intense experience I’m glad I went for it

    • @duslanjeremy4770
      @duslanjeremy4770 Před 4 měsíci

      The telegram and instagram handle below is the contact information

    • @duslanjeremy4770
      @duslanjeremy4770 Před 4 měsíci

      *Formulah01*

  • @tatyanac4085
    @tatyanac4085 Před 5 měsíci

    Love the way you describe your experience. Mine was little more tense .

  • @seahawks1185
    @seahawks1185 Před 5 měsíci

    Its a powerful experience. Like that one dream you had, youll never forget.

  • @nicoeffem3483
    @nicoeffem3483 Před 5 měsíci

    excellent...thank you!

  • @916nene
    @916nene Před 5 měsíci

    I tried this didn’t work on me I ended up falling asleep. Maybe I’m super blocked