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this is my safe space 😭

I come back to this video often. Thank you.

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Rachel - I’ve loved and supported you since your OG blog, through your blonde era, previous apartments, and the Warde community. You’ve always felt like a big sister to me. However, after watching this video, I want to gently say that the narrative around “everyone coming online,” feeling “not unique anymore,” and “grieving who you used to be” for the past four years is a bit off-putting… It’s okay to be openly sad online, but given your long-standing online presence, there’s a level of responsibility for how you’re perceived. It’s clear you’ve been through a lot, including experimenting with substances. I feel it’s important for you to evolve and not hold too tightly to past uniqueness, as it has been slowly diminishing your aura. I truly wish you all the best and I hope you will come back soon🤍 We will wait for you🤍

so timely and so true. thank you for always showing up as yourself and sharing it with us ❤

Another rewatch teehehehhe

Rewatching

anyone else here in 2024?

hi im back for another rewatch

Here a bit late but the feels are real, I’m all for these types of videos. The pandemic really affected us all and I’m amazed how people have just seemed to have moved on… but I’m trying to day by day. I needed this, your willingness to share and let us into your life and to SEE you… grateful for it all. Grief is never ending, comes in waves, we all will be able to move forward and love again. Love life, others, ourselves. We all need time, grace. LOVE YOU, RAYCH!!! 🤍thank you.

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Going through so much grief at once right now and I came back to your channel for some comfort ❤Really felt this one to the core

thank you for letting us witness, I keep returning to “it’s beautiful on the other side” 🫶🌳

This video feels like a comforting yet vulnerable experience

I really really really really miss your vlogsssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭.... i watch these over and over again Pleaseeee Rachel make more vlogs for us😘

Look up your "saturn return" if you don't know what it is already!

When i say i want to make films this is what i mean

these videos are my medicine. every few months or years i return to your videos and they make me feel light again. you dont know the impact youve had rachel. thank you.

Your blog is not available any more ! Oh no , I want to check your travel guide since I am going to Oaxaca in October !

1:41 rachel rests eyeshadow on her dog

It’s very cool atmosphere video🔥

That’s interesting to see it as grief for your 20s, but maybe because I was caregiving for my mom for nearly all my 20s until she died at the end of 2022. Life is new and we’re both free. I feel like a child, and my therapist gave me permission to live out my 30s as if they’re my 20s and let things take the time it needs to take. I’m blessed to be living with my dad, but life is changing rapidly this year and I feel like I’ve lost my footing even more as someone who’s starting at ground zero but it’s okay. Baby steps. Through grief and life and changes and growth… if we can, we can take it one day at a time.

My yearly rewatch of these vlogs commences todayyyyy

This was so beautiful, real and relatable

This hit too hard. I couldn't finish it. Will go back to it when I'm ready.

taking in most content on the internet is exhausting and leaves me in a shitty mood, holding so much tension. But watching your videos just feels like reading a close friends diary or looking at art. it brings me so much catharsis and peace

I recall being on my way to work when I noticed you had uploaded this video. I forgot to watch it until today. It really encapsulates my feelings perfectly. Much of my twenties were spent away from home, as I dedicated myself to working for the community and ministry. Consequently, I missed out on spending time with my loved ones - my parents and sister. In my thirties, I relocated to Australia to pursue studies and establish a life of my own. After thriving there for three years, my father passed away in March 2022, just as the borders reopened. I hastily traveled back to my hometown in the Philippines. The grief overwhelmed me as I realized how much time I had lost with my dad and now with my aging mother. Since then, the grieving process has been ongoing. There are moments when tears flow unexpectedly, and I yearn to turn back the clock. Grieving feels like revisiting memories with my dad. Now, with my mother and sister by my side, I am making a conscious effort to spend as much time with them as possible. NOBODY WARNED ME that my 30's will be this heavy. But I am strong, we are strong and we can carry on. I have been following you for a long time, Rachel and your light shines amidst your pain and brokenness. You are beautiful.

im still grieving over something that happened almost 2 years ago and ive gone through all the phases and combinations of emotions and its still not over. but im also the happiest ive ever been. for me a hard truth to accept was that 2 things can be true at the same time. and that is that im very happy and grateful and i know myself so well i can count on not abandoning me again. but also i am missing something that doesnt exist and im the only one carrying its memory which is why i find it hard to let go. and i dont mind struggling now if it means that i will finish this process completely instead of dragging it into future unconsciously. my grief has become my friend. it showed me how deeply i can feel and it reassures me that one day i will act from a place of love instinctively, i just need to allow myself time and space to become present again

I love you. Really needed this 🤍

your videos have brought so much comfort. thank you for being one of my biggest inspiration

Yeah losing your parents sucks. My parents were in good health but all of a sudden they went downhill. Then they both passed away. Can one be an orphan as a young adult?

i appreciate your honesty. i too felt like the past few years have been super weird. i think we can at least lean on each other for that. lean into our collective power

just wrote to myself about the grief I feel about growing older before I watched this. thank you for being here

There's no one out there who makes videos that resonate with me the way yours do. I always walk away from them feeling deeply moved, inspired, and like I've found a new way to approach life and how to look out for myself. Thank you.

love u rachel, it's weird you post videos just when I need them, as you must feel a need to post, the synchronicity with you audience is rare, I can see from the comment section how much your videos mean to people - love learning from/with you <3

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🤍 grief has always been with me. I’ve mistaken it for nostalgia, but I am not a nostalgic person, only perpetually grieving since childhood. Having older parents, I recognized their mortality very early on. I’m in my mid-thirties and Bô is turning 85. My daughter tried her first ride a few weeks ago, a carrousel by the lake. She is two and a half. Our eyes locked during the ride - I felt like I was on the ride myself, looking out for my own mother, at that very moment. I am now the parent, and I feel so much love for my daughter, the joy she felt on the carrousel was contagious. And I feel so much love for my own mother. It’s as though I felt complete, eternal somehow, at that very moment. Alive and unafraid of death. Like birth, it’s simply a transition into something else. This video was beautiful.

Been watching your videos since my early 20s, coming up on my 30s now and have been terrified. Watching this video makes me feel lighter and better. Thank you for always being real. Wishing you the best on your journey xx

If there was no grief, there would be no growth

I love you. Thank you! 🤍

this is beautiful. you're beautiful

Thank you for sharing with us, Rachel 💌 Your love of life is a bright guiding light. Much love and appreciation <3 x

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Rachel, you teach me to be still. You teach me patience and growth. You are like a breath of fresh air. Normally I would watch a video like this, and think to myself, “oh I want to do that, or how can I make a video like this”…but when I watch your videos- like this one- , I find myself purely in the moment, like in a meditative state, slowed down to enjoy the art and passion behind your words and images. I don’t want to try to recreate your videos or figure out how I can do the same thing, they are so uniquely and perfectly you, I don’t feel the need to spoil the beauty. So thank you for that….You transport us to your moments where I really feel like I AM you but with my own perspective and experiences viewing things through a lens that you’ve created but I get to alter through my own memories, and it really lets me fully let go and just appreciate your art for what it truly is…….magic. So much love for your work. And big shout out to your partner for his apparent collaboration. He definitely seems like a big part of your journey so tell him thank you from us too. ❤

I agree with you 2024 has been off to a nice start. To me it feels like 2014 again but I’m 18 now.