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I dont love many people and not many people love me but i still hope the people i care about feel fine after im gone

I listened to this before I attempted to take my own life. It’s been 3 years. I grew up in an abusive household and turned to drugs and self harm. I spent a long time in hospitalization. Back when I listened to this I would’ve told you there’s no hope of getting better, and it only happens in the fantasies mentally well people tell you to bribe you into continuing life. Today id tell you something different. It’s never going to be easy, but please believe me that it’s worth it. I didn’t want to live without a purpose and I believed that I would never find one, that id never be passionate and id never accomplish anything that my peers would do. Sitting in my room in the mental hospital, completely alone, only able to see the outside world from a frosted glass window, that changed everything. I didn’t realize until it was all gone that there’d be so much I missed. I missed the feeling of wind on my skin. I missed the chirping of birds, I missed the feeling of sun on my skin. I’ll never take it for granted again. I’m pursuing a career in environmental science now. It really is my purpose to protect nature, and to enjoy every moment I have outdoors. Please don’t give up. If you can find nothing good that’s prominent, try to look for the little things. I promise you, you’d miss them when they’re gone. There’s nothing more lonely than nothing. Give it time, give it years, please just don’t let it go. When you look back the way me and my fellow patients do, you’ll find your perspective has changed in a way you’d never thought possible. Give yourself another chance. I don’t know you stranger, but I love you and you are worth it.

Why did he take this off Spotify 😢😢😢😢😢😢

I'm 19 and I can't go further. I was supposed to graduate this year. Ran my first and now only marathon. I tried everything and it wasn't enough. I got left for loving too much. For him being the only thing I lived for. All I see is him in my future. I can't waste more of my life. I can't go through this again. I can't love another one because all I'll do is search for him. I won't want another man to be the father of my children. I don't wanna live this life anymore, there is no reason left for me

I'm tired everyone. I'm just feeling so tired. Thank you all for knowing and understanding

Tw: Hello, I left a comment here a few years ago. I was in a very dark place. I was depressed, anxious and suicidal. I had thoughts of self harm, I would hurt myself whenever I got angry or stressed, I would pop pills (not enough to hurt me but I've thought of it), I would make myself feel sick because I was angry and upset at myself. I always felt like I had to punish myself somehow. I started to go to church with my mom when I was around 13, she later stopped going but I kept going by myself. A few years later when I was in the 10th to 11th grade, I got depressed and well, I started to do the things that I mentioned above. I kept going to church, I would feel better going there but that feeling wouldn't last long. I believed that God was real but I never really tried to call out to him or ask him for help. The only thing that kept me alive was knowing that if I were to end my life, I'd end up in hell. This went on for 5 years, I parted from God around three times. The third time I did, I got worse. I started to have more bad thoughts and did detestable things. I was angry at everyone and everything, including myself. My younger brother had started going to church and wpuld speak to me about how God wants me to start coming back to church and how he wants me to go to him. I hated hearing what he had to say even though I knew it was true. I didn't hate God but the devil had me so gripped that I couldn't even stand hearing anything about God. One day my brother told me that God was coming soon, and that God wouldn't want me to be left behind. The had me thinking, and even though I didn't want to hear it, I watched some church videos and did a prayer for forgiveness through it. I was so miserable and tired, all of a sudden I just calmed down. I don't remember much about what happened after that, but all I knew is that I was tired of being so miserable. I started to go to church again, and one day God broke me down. All of that pain that I was feeling, my depression and anger, the thoughts of self harm, my bad habits of trying to hurt myself, all of that was gone. He did it so quick that I didn't even notice I was better until a while later. I still have my anxiety, I'm not perfect, but God took so much of the pain away, and he gave me joy and happiness. I started to go out more, my relationship with my mom got a whole lot better. God showed me the lies that I've been believing, and looking at them now just seems crazy. I'm sure that God will soon take away my anxiety as well. I want to tell you guys that it seems like this pain that you are in will never go away, it felt that way to me as well. I never looked up to my birthdays, and I definitely didn't think I was going to make it this far in life. Every day I would wake up hoping it'll pass quick so the next day can start, just to have that same way of thinking repeat all over again. I just want to say that it's fine if you want to look for help somewhere else, but if anyone even has a small thought, that God may be real, I ask that you please, surrender to him. Tell him how you feel, tell him to speak to you, to show you that he's real. He wants to help you, but he can't do so if you don't take that first step of surrender. And if you've asked for help and haven't received it, keep asking. Tell him that you want his help and just let him do the work.

I can't live like this. I must gone.

well, i survived. thanks keaton

27 years old Two kids Ex partner hates my guts Family is broken apart and split into "contact arrangements" Shes moves on many years ago & i still live with the ghost of that good women within my soul each day We argue.. we dont see eye to eye.. but regardless of the situation id maybe not admit it directly to her but theres definitely still a special place in my heart where she resides unfortunately sometimes we meet people.. we connect.. then we drift apart and it hurts but thats all apart of the learning process The thought that run through my head often temp to do stupid stuff but the sensible side kicks in like a backup generator i just hope it never runs out of gas to keep me going internally Ive accepted things are over and we may never even be friends again but i do appreciate the fact i was even there at all in the first place 🤷 sometimes youve just gotta accept thats the only silver lining and hope for the best

I always come back to this song

Hello, Zhy! You probably aren't going to read this either. But if I'm to die, know that I have loved you and wished you all the best in your life. :>

I remember being home alone getting ready for school. My father used to take alot of medication beacuse of his heart problems. While I was getting ready to go to school I looked at my fathers bottle of pills and stared at it for a good amount of time. I even held it in my arms thinking about taking them all in one go but was quickly interupted once I got a phonecall from my mother asking if Im ready to go yet. Beacuse of her, that day ended up being like any other and I cant help but think about it once in a while and almost feel quilty for not taking them when I had the chance.

this makes my heart ache 😢😢😢😢 I have a disease that very well may kill me before I hit 40, and a fiance that's living far away. I miss her and I hope I don't go before her, and this song always makes me think of her

I am very sick and this song found me somehow came up on my suggested and it is so beautiful but heartbreaking. 💔

Thank You Forrest 💕

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Sometimes all we need is just a big hug. That feeling of comfort even for a small bit makes a huge difference. Find someone right now and tell them exactly what you want. You got this☺☺☺

I'm just too tired to keep going. I can't do this anymore.

I’ve had this in my watch later playlist for some time now. I finally watched it after a separation of the most impactful, meaningful, consistent, hard love that I’ve ever experienced in my 33 rotations around this sun. Keep living and love all your scars, because they make you who you are. Thank you and I love you. We’re nothing and everything all at once. Forever.

I dont want to die without her...

Remember this ! "You don't wanna kill yourself. You just wanna kill something inside you"💙

I hope you stay alive....if you are min älskling..☀️🙂😊🤗😘

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I don't want to die, but I also don't want to live like this.

I love you

For my future self! Please don't forget there are people that love you.

💚 hope we meet again

I have been so very hidden from the world, from life. I barely even listen to music anymore, but I do come to this song every now and then. I feel like my candle is diminished, I am lost.

Maybe next time 💙🙏

Knowing that 12 year old me would sing this to my twin as she slept just in case i didn't wake up with her beside me breaks me.

To my lovely boyfriend who wants to marry me at 2025. I'm so sorry if someday before that day i am giving up on my life. Like ... Finally, maybe that day came to me. For me comitting suicide. I know our relationship still 7 months until i write this. But i love you the most. That bad. But i always feeling i don't deserve everything that you give to me. I'm so sorry maybe before we can meet each others in real life because we are in Long distance relationship i already died. No, it doesn't mean i don't love you. I don't love our relationship. It just ... I've been suffering for my whole fucking life and this is the end of all the pain, babe. I don't want you to be with someone else but if i died, you better to moving on and forgeting about me. Live your life. And be happy. Cause i love you. I love you. And i hope you to know about it.

Living is my penance. I wish for death but I do not deserve it.

For future reference: Hi to you who's listening too to this song. Everything's gonna be fine. You can surpassed that. You did yesterday so as now. I can tell because I've been there for so many times. Being tired is okay, but let's not make that tiredness when over us. Let's fight and continue to be strong every day. ❣️😇 Know that God will always be there, when no one else can. Cry and pray to Him everything and you'll feel fine. Not totally but atleast you know that there Someone who's always there for you even you don't see Him personally, His presence is EVERYTHING.❣️❣️ LET'S BE STRONG AND KEEP FIGHT! AJAAAAA💪👊

Three years ago I commented on this video, I still come back. To remind myself that it’s all shit, but I’m still here.

Whoever reading this, God knows what you are facing through, He heard your cry, He is going to deliver you Just trust in him. Amen.

Im on my last day on earth and my death is 1 day before birthday I don't really know what to feel I am scared but I have atleast found a good song after dying it's fine if noone notice this I'm no one afterall I've regret everything now led up in this miserable position I wished I could have changed something but now that death is only the answer for me.

I'll miss you all bye❤

I think that God love you and understand you...

I imagine some of those scrolling through these comments feel the same as I do about all of the nice and supportive things here. That it is all in vain. If some kind words from strangers thrown into the impersonal void of the internet were enough, I would not need help. To you beyond impersonal support I urge you continue on in spite of the pain. There are a lot of good people in places you’d never think to find them. They will see you, they will support you. I am an incredibly flawed person who has somehow stumbled on the occasional person who saw me, and has given me their support. They helped me realize how rough I had it, helped me grow past it all. I know I’m still offering words to people I have never met, and I’m sure you doubt it will happen to you, you will doubt that you and I are the same, you doubt you’ll be as lucky as me. But I want you to take this as a sign, I’m out there. Maybe one day we’ll meet, and we won’t know it, but we’ll see each other and I will see you, I will know you, and I will support you. I am a person willing and able to know you out in the real world and give you the support that I have stumbled upon. We exist, and we need you. You will leave a hole, even in the lives of those you haven’t met yet.

23 years ago, Kevin Hines attempted su!c!de by jumping off of the Golden Gate Bridge. The moment his fingers left the railing, he felt regret. "I thought it was too late, I said to myself, 'What have I done, I don't want to die', I realized I made the greatest mistake of my life." Hines was lucky and managed to only crush some spinal vertebrae and break an ankle after falling 240 feet in only four seconds at 75 miles per hour. Out of the estimated 1,800 people who have jumped off the bridge since 1937, Hines was among the 35 that survived their attempt. In Hines' documentary about his depression, attempt on his own life, and recovery, titled "The Ripple Effect", he sites research that states that a single su!c!de will impact approximately 115 people. 115 people will feel your absence. 115 people will wonder what they could've done differently to make you stay. 115 people will grieve you annually on your birthday. 115 people will excuse themselves from holiday celebrations to hide their tears as they are overwhelmed and devastated by the fact that you aren't there. 115 people will have their lives forever altered by your death. The image and sound of my Godfather scraping his best friend of 50 years' brain matter off of the wall of his bedroom because his friend's wife was unable to go into that room without breaking down will forever be seared into my mind. Overhearing my father's best friend struggle through tears to explain how he found his own brother's body after he'd blown his head off to my father is a sound that still haunts my mind. I'll never be able to stop the echo of the horrible scream of anguish that came from my 5th grade teacher when she got the news that her 20 year old daughter had intentionally OD'ed on sleeping pills. The suffering that the people you leave behind will feel will be on the same level as whatever you are feeling right now. Whatever you're feeling right now isnt forever. The human mind isn’t supposed to want to destroy itself. You are suffering from a chemical imbalance, or a mental illness, or a horrible situation, or maybe all three. But these can be remedied. There are medications that can treat chemical imbalances. There are therapists thay can help you find ways to cope and problem solve whatever is plaguing your mind. There are charities and organizations that can help you get out of whatever bad situation you are stuck in. You can fight this. There is always a way to leave the darkness without extinguishing your own light. Your death will leave behind an unfillable vacuum, a blackhole that will suck the joy and light out of everyone and everything around it. Please, for the love of God or whatever you believe in, don't do this.

I find this Song to be some what disturbing...?? Some what depressing... Sorry just My opinion.

This types of songs are amazing. Why? Because for a brief moment, I can think of dying while no one is giving me useless advice.But can't die.Its painful to live.Have no hopes for anything in future, this gives a little comfort.

I listen to this still this day after my Ex wife to be died over five years ago from cancer. She told me on her last moments was that she wanted me to listen to this before her funeral. I grew up with her and she was going to be my forever. I had already asked her to marry me once she had beaten cancer even though we were both 17, but we were turning 18 in just a matter of days. We both made plans, but sadly she passed. I will always love her and cherish her memory.

❤JHB❤

I couldn't, i tried.

I'm just waiting for my time.

Spite keeps me strong here for those that need it please like or comment

Hey su!c!d@l sad fvcks ❤️❤️ I love you and I wish none of you knew the hurt you do. We all gotta keep each other going in this shitty society

I dont want to die, but i... 😢