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@@glitterginger Impulsivity & risk taking can go with elevated mood.

@@silblumi7453 I remember It's temporary. But it's hard. Been dealing with this for over 30 years. It's exhausting.

@@thothrep my functioning is less than most people on a good day. Lately been having an extra rough time with mental & physical health.

@@lXxNaTaNxXl thank you. I don't like uploading when extra vulnerable, yet is also captures what it is like.

@@svp3rn0v47 I don't destroy stuff that isn't mine to destroy.

@@MaraS-vm3fv glad it was helpful

@@user-sy4ck7gi6y clinicians said on the edge of psychosis. I get dissociation. From my perspective, mania is a form of dissociation.

@@BipolarCourage i’m sure that’s what i’m experiencing. there is some distortion in my reality but I pull myself out of it. it’s like a maladaptive day dreaming. I feel like i’m in a different place with different people. I talk out the thoughts, full blown conversations. I have these episodes on a daily basis.

@@user-sy4ck7gi6y it was like I was in a trance. Including smashing up the stuff. Like aware but on a different level. Psychiatrist asked me if I was in a trance. It was dissociation. More extreme dissociation & I can't hear, see, move. It's different to psychosis. The only hallucinations really were sleep ones when waking up. They were trauma related to me. Delusions were not full-blown but were definitely fed by others. So a lot of anxiety.

@@BipolarCourage can you suppress it around people? or when you need to do something like driving ? or do you find it surfaces a little? i find it hard to stay seated in that state. so if im around people (which i rarely am as j isolate) i fidget in my seat. i think i have got bipolar, its worsened because i am going through perimenopause

@@user-sy4ck7gi6y would be worth talking to a clinician about it.

@@elisamasousa3080 I recorded it when in denial of bipolar diagnosis & processing trauma stuff creatively. Unfortunately things spun out of control (not filmed).

@@UlyssesZopol It's a weird thing where people are drawn to me when I have moderately elevated mood. Feed off my energy. Then reject me when things are clearly too much to handle. I do have a few friends since childhood who accept me. Rarely see my friends though.

@@BipolarCourage Nobody, except my nuclear family, knows that I live with bipolar disorder, some friends know that I have "recurring depression" but all else stays hidden. That said, I haven't had a real manic episode in a long time, due to taking lithium. And yet, all the shame, all the hiding when I am in a mixed state (like these days), all the exhaustion when I am depressed, and all the stupid things I have done and wrong decisions I have taken all this heavy burden stays with me and me only.

@@UlyssesZopol it's definitely exhausting. Most people with bipolar disorder don't have mania.

@@julianjones4017 perhaps I am getting old, but I had to look up what "ate" as slang meant.

@@Sofia_no_secrets PTSD is actually my main diagnosis. Been having treatment with a clinical psychologist for 5 years. Bipolar disorder type 1 is actually my second most impairing diagnosis. Clinicians say in my case, can still come under trauma. My autism features are considered mild. More prominent in childhood.

@@c.brownell8618 There is still so much stigma, so thank you for your comment.

@@c.brownell8618 My daughter suffers from bipolar disorder. She is herself a clinical psychologist. But she becomes helpless when episodes occur. You know everything but can do nothing.

@@goblingimp195 Thanks. It's hard for me to speak up & it's exhausting. Glad it helps to make a difference.

@@loganmcauslin9430 appreciate the nuance. I do work part-time with accommodations but it's not easy. I have been targeted for bullying, it's hard to find something suitable in the first place. I do a low paid job which has nothing to do with the qualifications I earned in my 20s. I worked fulltime, with difficulty, I my 20s. Things worsened for me since then. I have come across people who could work but don't. Used to know someone who admitted to deliberately blowing interviews because she wanted to watch cricket all day rather than work. The discrimination carries over to finding somewhere to live. It's hard enough to find a room to rent in the first place. Then knocked back as as soon as find out I an on WINZ. I guess I don't look like the stereotype of a beneficiary.

@BipolarCourage It's probably the assumption that if you look clean and / or presentable, you're at least on the living wage. Compared to the stereotype of the older and rougher looking person who smokes and drinks and has (insert stereotype problem here) kind of lifestyle. Either way, we do what we can

@@loganmcauslin9430 I am not actually on a living wage. I am on way lower than a full time minimum wage equivalent, even with my part-time job.

@@BipolarCourage Hence why I said assumption based on your appearance

@@loganmcauslin9430 oh, sorry, I misread that. People are also usually shocked that I am my 50s too.

thank you. Very burnt out currently, so will try have a rest from here for a bit

thx for the reply. you do what you need to do sweetheart.

@@keymeter1917 sweetheart? Lol

My interpretation from the WINZ website is that "some" people will indeed be affected. Note that those on supported living payments are allowed to work part-time, below thresholds.

@@ErichRaeder MSD have made a clarifying comment on their Facebook page, saying some people on SLP have an obligation to *prepare* for work. Linked to the same web page I did.

@@BipolarCourage understood

Why doesn’t the Grov reword it. Pm said we will made you go. Instead come to a seminar, have cuppa tea and get support. What he should have said. National did this before.

@@mummylilbear6088 i have seen some disability advocacy groups saying there is no worry about the change to the supported living payment, lately i have seen people like Huhana and etc call out the changes made to the supported living payments as well, i have noticed some disability advocacy groups want zero discussion in the changes made

@@Mythoughtonpoliticaltopics I was very vulnerable in this video. Just calling people "toxic" helps no one. You may not be able to support your daughter but I hope someone can.

was wearing my baggy trackpants. Needed some extra layers as this house is freezing cold.

@@BipolarCourageI see haha! Great work

@@obsidian1109 I don't like how I look (bloating etc) but I am pretty strong. Resistance bands are inexpensive & don't take up much space.

@@yzzy1966 I was never interested in a tattoo. Definitely was a mania thing for me (got a few years before time of the video). My (now) ex (multiple tattoos) was shocked yet for it & also said to get a navel piercing (which I did). Definitely impulsive & out of character for me. My hair was like a security blanket & I am more likely to have it shorter when feel more confident. Feeling more confident goes with elevated mood. For other people, these things are ordinary & insignificant. To me, a big deal.

@@VegetaandGoku_Gaming winter in New Zealand

@@obsidian1109 what do you mean?

@BipolarCourage it's Star Wars. The person has great potential.

@@obsidian1109 yes figured was Star Wars but didn't know if it was intended as a compliment or an insult.

@BipolarCourage my wife is Bipolar 1 and we are struggling. That's why I was here. No disrespect.

@@obsidian1109 thanks for the clarification. Hope some of my content is helpful.

Never been able to do a pull-up or chin up in my life, even in my younger & thinner days. Taken weeks to get to this point. At beginning stages of negative push-ups .

Like the release of the stretch, so have been coming back regularly to try a dead hang.

@@loganmcauslin9430 The "usefulness" in my case is that some of these diagnostic labels help with my benefit which is my main income, my funded therapy & my mostly subsidised restricted prescription medications. Without any of these, I would be dead. No exaggeration. Some of the diagnoses are next to useless though.

​@@loganmcauslin9430 Advocacy can be powerful, such as the advocacy I was involved in which influenced governments in two countries to make a major reform. Called by world leaders the biggest reform in a generation, naming the group I founded (online) not knowing 2 of the grassroots volunteers were later diagnosed bipolar disorder. It can also be toxic with the politics (there was so much stress & drama with that with several people trying to take it over & derail it). Then all the online stuff with diagnoses etc. I wrote some of the drama stuff (aiming to make it mostly entertaining) into my memoir.

@@BipolarCourage have you seen what the New Zealand Government have done to people on the supported living payment, so basically the supported living payment is now just another version of the jobseeker support with work ability assessments, prepare for work and even taking part in activities with service providers assigned by the MSD. The mentality i encountered is something like autism groups wanted no discussion, these changes are serious and open people up to consequences which can be intended or unintended

@@ErichRaeder no I haven't seen that. Do you have more information? Only difference at this stage really is it's 2 year medical certificates rather than 3 months. A "permanent" disability to them is 2 years.

@@BipolarCourage it’s on the MSD website, i have also caught on that the disability or autism groups want no discussion on the changes made to the supported living payment and have already been accused of posting misinformation

@@ErichRaeder thanks for informing me of that. I will look into it. I loathe politics but sometimes need to have a voice on matters. Incidentally, it was me who founded an advocacy movement who brought about what official leaders of Australia & New Zealand said was the biggest reform in a generation. I founded Oz Kiwi. A collaboration of strangers across the ditch. I got banned from it when passed it on to others. Others still take the credit. Saw the other day a stranger spouting that a man founded it. He didn't. Just muscled his way in like several others. I never want to do anything like that again (politics is ugly) but I am no longer afraid to speak up. Even though it's hard.

@@keymeter1917 thanks. Meanwhile, I had just seen some videos about a young guy who had extraordinary courage after having half his body (waist down) amputated.

@@Darkinforcer1 I am only outwardly expressive when mood extremely elevated.

@@akferren1 thanks for being judgemental of severe mental illness - not. Stigma persists.

You can't just stop it. Bipolar is a real thing. And the things in this video are truth 💯. So maybe you need to get a hold of yourself, dont speak on nothing you dont know about. Go and actually do research .if you think its under are control its not. You never know what a person is going through so just be kind. If you dont like it keep scrolling. No judgemental comments needed

@@strictnonconformist7369 a psychiatrist said I am "definitely on the spectrum" yet subthreshold to ASD diagnosis. In my currently pinned video, about autism reassessment, I read out the sections of my memoir related to this. My features were actually more prominent in childhood.