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Thanks. I haven’t watched this in at least a couple years, but I’m pretty sure there are at least a couple things I could’ve done better. First of all, more time fermenting. From what I remember, I had to rush that part because my helper only had a certain amount of time before he had to leave. Having just read all the comments, I’m happy that people seem to have liked it. I wanted to make follow up videos for years, but my physical condition just doesn’t accommodate that anymore. I still think about making pizza all the time, though.

Your comment motivated me to watch this video. I’m surprised i said a lot of that stuff, but I know where I was coming from. It’s kind of interesting to hear some of the things I had to say a few years ago. I would like to clarify some of it because I think it came out a little wrong. And I was probably wrong about some things.

I want to reply, but I just have such a hard time putting sentences together. Hopefully I will remember and succeed later.

@@AimlessRyan No worries matey, I'm just pleased your channel is intact with all f your videos.👍

@@NeilBradleyMS hey, Neil, if there is a swimming pool available to you, I urge you to get in it as much as possible. Just walk around and try to move as much as possible. I’ve been doing this lately, and I feel like it’s making a difference. However, I needed to do it a few years ago, which was the worst time in the history of the world to need such a thing. I can’t even stand up in the swimming pool now, which makes it really hard to do the things I’d like to do. If you haven’t reached such a state of disability, I promise you really don’t want to.

​@@AimlessRyan Hi Rya, the swimming pool sounds good and I'm happy to hear that it seems to be doing you the power of good. It's great when you suddenly find something that works really well. I'll be completely honest with you though, I'm not really sure it's my thing swimming, never really liked water. I've got a question for you, do you suffer from muscle spasms, I think that I saw that you did on a few of your videos. I've had this muscle spasm in my left leg (thigh muscle) and just recently since having Covid (I was megga ill) it's got much worse. It's like slow torture because it only starts spasming at night when I'm trying to sleep, it's so strong my leg kicks out just about launching my whole body. Usually I feel like an electric charge just before it does it, but often now there is no warning. It's driving me to destruction because I'm getting very little sleep because of it. It spasms about every 15 seconds and it goes on for hours and hours. I'm literally loosing the will... Does this happen to you and if so how do you cope with it, is there any medication that can resolve it? I've tried Gabapentin but somehow it seemed to make it worse along with the nerve pain in my legs, so I stopped taking it.

@@NeilBradleyMSyes, I experience that most of the time. It’s horrible. The only reason it doesn’t show up in most of my videos is because I generally only film when I have it under control. When I was in the hospital seven years ago with a broken leg, it suddenly stopped. I figured out really fast that oxycodone/Percocet stopped it. That alone was enough of a reason for me to take oxycodone as needed for the rest of my life. Without any access to oxycodone over the next few years, it got worse, and now the same dosage of oxycodone does not stop it. However, other opioids seem to help, as well. I just don’t have enough experience with other opioids to provide a definite answer. One other drug seems to have worked even better. That drug is Xanax/alprazolam. Unfortunately, it’s about impossible to get a doctor to prescribe that for me, and it’s not something I would want to take regularly, anyway. Since I can’t get the help I need from a doctor, I have found that kratom helps. It’s disgusting, but spasticity is hell. Also, the swimming pool seems to help. Unlike what the medical community says, I have come to believe these spasms are caused by muscle weakness; largely because my therapists have told me paraplegics and quadriplegics experience this. It can’t be caused by their brain or spine.

I’ll have to watch this video later. I’m doing much better right now than I’ve done the rest of this year. The first six months of 2022 were very bad because I kept getting sick. Which made me very weak and nearly killed me at least once. Which is the last thing I needed. I’ve made a lot of progress the last couple months, though. I’ve rebuilt a lot of the muscle that disappeared earlier this year. However, my illnesses set me way back. This winter is going to be very hard for me. I have reasonable fear that I won’t make it through the winter, but I’m gonna keep trying. The progress I’ve made the last couple months has given me the feeling I might be a little tougher now than I was prior to a couple months ago.

I just watched this. I’m not really sure what the point was. I think maybe I was just showing a shitty moment of a shitty day. I don’t know if you saw the text during the video, but the sound went out on the original copy of the footage.

@@AimlessRyan I am praying for you and just keep up with whatever you are doing that to feel better than you did. I don't know how you feel about the whole covid-19 thing but you did hot get Ill with covid-19 at anytime? I don't want you to be sick at all but things tend to happen I have all my covid-19 shots and or boosters as well. I had to because of my Immune System issues. My Scleoderma has gotten worse it took over my whole Nervous Sysyem Function, Basicly what I am saying is from head and I head toe to toe scleroderma, That is not good I have no one person in the medical field that believes myself I have known that I have had some form of scleroderma in the year 2018,2019,2020,2021 and yet the year 2022 and have NOT been diagnosed with having as of yet. I have a form called Linear Scleroderma an dlet me tell you since this form has progressed in myself, Know one in the medical world for myself thinks that I have Scleroderma it attacked the back of my head which in the year 2003 I had a TBI /Concussion when I was hit by an SUV awhile I was walking across the street to my car which I think I told you about that but all the years ago in the year 2018 I be sitting here wrighting this to you thinking that I have Linear Scleroderma from head to toe it controls the back of my head my head feels hard and is in agony, and no one thinks that I have it but I do and they still don't Fucking believe me I though of you as I am wrighting this, but Scleroderma is affecting the main nerve in my back the middle the main nerve. I know that you are affected by that nerve I am in Agony I just resently had an MRI with and with out Contrast I know it's showing Linear Scleroderma I have it on my legs it makes lines all over the body and makes a person shrink and get hard all over but I do it does shinkage to the muscle in my body and bones are affected it makes the bones in the body turn hard. my body is turning hard the back of my head is fried and lost it's volume meaing it's shrnking the back and now all over my head. I know the results of the MRI. I also had what's call an EEG where the nurse or who ever is doing it puts electrodeson points to the head. it said it was abnormal that's because it Linear Scleroderma in creates double lines on the inside of my legs my legs will shink the it can affect me the middle of my back is now affected just days ago, since that has been happing in my back I am scared so I can fell like I am going to dye. If I can I will try to tell you the points with my MRI'S with and without contrast I have the results I will watch a video of your's andto tell you part of one of the MRI's. tomrrow till then take care I am pretty high right now till then take care ❤- Amanda

@@AimlessRyan Yea well I did not know what happened either 🧐🤔 but I thought the sound would be back but either way it a video that just had no known sound. Maybe it just shut down some how strange 😉 I sent you along ass massage about things that have happened to me and still are health wise. I feel shut out of medical professionals thinking that I am lying on how my body feels. I was always a fighter to be my leukemia which I have achieved going on 8 years but I have gave up on my health knowing I have Scleroderma that is turning my body hard.

I’ll try to remember to watch this video so I can try to figure out if I get your comment. Haven’t watched it in several years.

Having just watched this video, I think I get your comment. There was like no cloud evident. Now I blow big, cloudy clouds. Mostly haven’t used anything but my OmniVap for a couple years.

I just saw this because I saw that someone else commented on this video. I had a short conversation with Neil around the time you wrote your comment, so I assume you already know this stuff. I was just sick again for a few days. Or you might say a couple weeks. This is getting old, and it’s killing me. I didn’t feel bad today, though, so maybe things will start going better.

@@AimlessRyan Hey good to hear from you 🙂 Yes I typed the message up when I was trying to reach out to know what was going on with you. You were not feeling good again, I hope it's over for you not feeling well it does get old not feeling well but I hope it's a fresh new start on feeling better for you. Are you able to get outside on your power chair? Was not sure if you could, if you do get out take in the air and relax it would be good for you. Hope you are feeling better that's what counts 🤯 Take Care - Amanda ❤️

@@amandaherman It’s harder to do than it was a year ago, but I can get out on my chair. I ended up watching this video yesterday for the first time in several years. When it got to the part where I talk about going to New Jersey, it kind of startled me because it made me realize this happened just before my world changed forever. I haven’t even looked at the date I published this video, but I know it’s from early 2016-perhaps April-because my broken leg made sure the New Jersey trip never happened. Some guy from New Jersey was going to pay me a lot of money to teach him about pizza for about a month. He’s actually been here, and he gifted me a couple unique pizza pans. Which I used in my Detroit style video. I thought my life was finally starting to come together, and then everything went to shit, for good.

I just looked at the date I published this video. It was 13 days before I broke my leg.

@@AimlessRyan Well that's a bummer about your trip to New Jersey, That's cool that you got pizza pans from him, Do you still know of him? or not? Yes my life right now is like shit. Ryan remeber when I told I think I mention that I diagnosed myself with the possibility of have Scleroderma ( What I know of it , It's when the body produces too much Collagen in the body.( It is not hereditary meaning passed down the family) I can be triggered from certain chemotherapy drugs (Which going though acute Lympbolasitc Leukema back in Dec. 2014 is when I got diagnosed and on May 13th 2015 I had my bonemarrow transplant (From a Femail Donor that I never as of yet met her I am gratful to her for helping me achieve my bonemarrow transplant. But my whole head to the back of my neack and the sides of my neck over the top of my head all the way to my ears I have no wax in them my ears on the inside itch and burn it has reached up to my forehead and stops at by eyes and sides of my face. My fucking eyes feel dry extremely dry which that is one of the many signs of it. I am seeing my famliy doctor 6/10/22 about this. I have known that I had the start of Scleroderma since 2019 I pleaded with all sorts of differnt doctors and snice ther is a blood test for it called SCL-70 my resluts kept comming back negative I was tested at least in 2020,2021 and 2022 but it shows up that I never or don't have it no doctor when on my symptoms st all from having the start of it in the back of my head I blamed it on my TBI with Concussion from being hit while walking in Fountan Hill,Pa (It is outside of Allentown,Pa. I thought my TBI had come back because this Scleroderma is affecting my Nervous System big time it's like in away my TBI came back in the form of Scleroderma. I makes people shrink and very painfull it shrinks people's feet and legs the can get skinny looking look it up it is not pretty at all. What fucking sucks is there in no cure it can affect internal organs as well which in my casr it has been affecting my oragns of years. I have to see a Rheumatologist who sepcializeds in Scleroderma which is an Auto Immune system disease. When I vape my medical marijuania which I vape more that on stain at a time I like to mix it up alittle bit when I am High I still have pain but I feel like the medical marijuania has given my Scleroderma. The back of my head is in torture righ now and I am high.