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Doctors still do not understand ED. The whole BMI is ridiculous. If you don’t look like the walking dead people just say you look amazing how do you keep yourself in such good shape these comments make your ED kick in even harder

Fear of weight (visceral fat) gain and still being attached to the number on the scale is why I brought my scale to my psychologist's office to leave there and it's been there for the past near-month. It was the best decision I ever made. This way, I can't weigh myself and relapse (I've been in outpatient for 3 months, since April), and my eating disorder isn't constantly getting validated by if the number on the scale drops or rises. Even during bodychecking moments, measuring myself to check my current bodyfat % (when my ED wants to know if I've lost fat) is inaccurate and inefficient, because outside of height/weight/age, the U.S. Navy Method of bodyfat % calculation only goes by waist, hips, and neck circumference (for females), and my waist and hip measurements depend on if I'm bloated from eating food that my IBS doesn't like, or I'm constipated and haven't had a BM yet. Circumferential bodyfat % measurement can't accurately measure my body ongoingly, as my limbs / lats / obliques / stomach / pelvic floor continue atrophying*, yet the size of my abdomen (belly, waist, fat surrounding top curves of pelvis) keeps fluctuating. Plus, without a scale, I have to guess how much I weigh to be able to calculate my bodyfat%. If I were to measure bodyfat% using the Jackson & Pollock 7-Site Inputs method (or even Durnin-Womersley 4-Site), I would need the tools to do skinfold measurements...and I don't have access to those. Thus, there is no way for me to know my current body size/composition during this first bit of recovery - where I'm still trying to not engage in ED behaviours every day - and so there is no way my ED can be validated by knowing I've lost weight (fat on top of muscle). *from taking weight-restoration slowly to prevent Refeeding Syndrome and from sedentariness i.e. not being allowed to intensely exercise

can jeremie drapeau or any other binge eaters shares their health issues when they binged frequently till they reach a point whereby they lost their hunger and full cues? (he mentioned he was at diff drive throughs and shoved and eat for 1 hr, the day after the body's withdrawl trying to process through. the possible symptoms acid reflux?) how did he manage that for subsequent eating? what are the subsequent meals like? what did he do and how long does it takes for his cues to come back after stabilising with the health complications? if anyone have similar binge eating phases experiences or have watched anyone shared this part onlone please do share! no seeking medical advise just want to hear others stories for this part as this is rarely talked abt or cant be found somehow. tyvm!

Ive recovered before im currently 33kg which is not compatible with life long term. When i gained it last time i was fine. Just looked less gaunt. Im a female.

I sincerely hope you're still doing well today. I only just discovered your channel and it resonates with me so much. Nobody talks about the pressure guys are under to be LEAN as well as muscular. It is because of this reason I developed my own eating disorder.

I'm a dietitian, started developing an ED around middle school too (it's one of the main reasons I became a dietitian). ED in men is severily neglected and understudied, and that's smth I dedicated myself to do. Plus, recovery is possible, but it takes a multiprofissional team (psychiatrist, psychologist and dietitian, at least). Even now, with all the nutritional and ED knowledge I have, as a full on adult, ED voice still lies abt food, and I have to remind myself that I know better. Thank you for sharing your story.

The picture of you in 2007 at your worst you're still cuter than I was. 😢

At what point does the switch flip? Would you say reaching a certain BMI flips the switch ? Also, you have been a great inspiration and go-to for me, as a male anorexic that's been battling for 15+ years. Thanks mate

So good to see videos like this. Helps me a lot man! I have a fear of sugar I guess but If I eat it I have physical reactions to it. Is that Common? Like itching head, watery eyes, tooth pain, severe fatigue… does your Body feel normal eating your fear foods besides the mental aspect of anxiety?

how was your testosterone when anoroxic?

I know these videos are old but these have been really helpful for me who’s been struggling with food for the last few years. A lot resonated with me and I appreciate being able to see another 20 something male’s perspective and experience. I’ve been working to better myself and this gives me more motivation. Thank you

Can you please tell me what all foods did you eat during recovery and the duration it took to feel strong again?

Thank you so much

Oh muh guh, it takes you forever to get to the point

yeah people definitely need to put more emphasis on the psychological symptoms and on the physical because it stops people from getting help and actually makes the stigma around it worse by reinforcing false stereotypes regardless of exactly how bad your habits have become and especially regardless of your your body's weight size or shape if you're obsessing so much about diet an exercise in appearance that it causes you to give up things you once loved and withdraw from life then it's serious and you deserve help and it's sad that people suffer in silence until the physical stuff becomes unignorable and then it's much harder to treat but like society just tells overweight people to "stop eating" as if they choose to be fat with no regard for how much that can destroy someone who's already struggling

i have a similar frustration the awareness is improving but it's still lacking every time people bring up these issues with men it's always muscle dysmorphia everybody's always like "well eating disorders present differently in men because they're not as concerned about weight it's more about bulking" and it's like some of us are starving exactly the same as women do it happens! so like it's a third shame on top of being an anorexic male and having a mental illness cuz like if i had to get an ED why couldn't i have gotten the manly kind i should wanna be a buff tough guy to fight back why did my brain pick starving to death as my coping mechanism

Oh my goodness. I have described "the switch getting flipped" for years in reference to my struggles and relapses. It was incredibly validating to hear you describe the exact same thing. Thank you for sharing.

Hi! I know that’s it’s been years since you last updated, but I just wanna say thank you so much for posting all the videos. I’m struggling with Ed real bad rn, and happened to run into your channel. Your videos really helped me a lot! Hope you are doing fine🎉

Last point about your nutrition has be on point is not helpful, reason I have eating disorder and body dysmorphia because I was too obeseed with having eat healthy foods strict etc. Am starting go gym now build strength and get feel good chemicals and I eat what I want when I want healthy or not, either no strict timing when to eat aswell

Thank you for sharing your story. I am about to go into a residential treatment facility for EDs as a care provider and this really helped me understand it better from a client perspective. I actually found a lot of connections to my two experiences with psychosis, so I really can feel a lot of empathy towards your experiences. Thanks again for sharing you are doing important work by posting this.

Hey it’s been 2 years since you post this but right now I just treated and I’m in recovery it’s been very hard and just seeing this video it’s helping me a lot and it’s just good to see this video thanks 💪🏽💛

Thank you so much for your personal story, this whole time I thought that I was completely alone in our pretty complicated world. I want you to know, that you definitely helped me and will help a lot of people in the future. Thanks you, sincerely

Thank you, this helps a lot. /g

You mention eating the same things over and over at the beginning of recovery. How long did it take during recovery before you were willing to incorporate different foods?

Cameron, This video has helped me so much. I have never had an eating disorder, but I do have a recent history of restrictive eating habits and beinging, and have been battling a fear of the scale and anything associated with weight. I have struggled with negativity and a lack of self-confidence due to a buildup of negative incidents over the years. This video has helped me to realize my fear for what actually is; something to be overcome and not feel dominated by. Similar to the fear of weight gain that you have, I hope to one day overcome my fears of anything related to how much I weigh, and be able to encounter the subject without getting swallowed up in negativity and self-hatred. I look forward to exploring more of this channel and seeing what else has to offer.

i relate to your story a lot.

Hi Cameron! I just watched your video "Eating disorders have no gender" on CZcams and it was great and you ARE amazing! 👍 My name is Fredrika and I live in Finland, actually on a small island between Finland and Sweden called Åland. I have had anorexi since 2009, now I am 26 years old and starting to get enough of this shit. Watched another one of your videos on CZcams yesterday about your way to recovery, and today I had a lot of anxiety but I managed to ride it through and accept that I was tired today after a week at work, and I allowed myself to rest and eat properly without hardly doing any physical activity. I think your video helped me subconsciously because it just felt impossible for me today to ignore the needs for my body, and I surrendered to the threathening thoughts of being unworthy for not doing anything all the time. So thank you, I would love to keep in touch with a guy like you in my social life, but it feels like I know you anyway because of the same diagnosis. Greetings from Åland my friend, keep up your good work! /Fredrika

Your channel is such a huge help for me, as I struggle with anorexia as well and am a college student. Keep up the videos and sending much love and support. Thank you so much for your story and content.

I just discovered your channel today and I love it more than life. Thank you for existing and making content. ❤️

Loved this. I’m already recovered, but my relationship to exercise still sucks. I love how working out makes me feel, but I always end up over thinking it and then I slip up in my recovery. But I really want to get stronger.

Intuitively eating I gain weight and my blood work gets worse. When I'm strict and restrict, my bloodwork is better. It's so backwards.

damn guess i have an ed

I looked up male eating disorders and there's no videos. That or the videos that are made aren't shown or removed. So glad I found this video. I'm struggling now. I have had the thoughts about it for years and would "dip my foot in" by not eating for a week at a time. But never developed anything until recently. It's been like 5 months. I have gone a month without eating at times. Now it's just a lot of restriction. I hate it so much, but I'm not below weight and am technically a "healthy weight" Thank you so much for sharing. We need more people to come out and share their story

What happened to this channel? Is he ok??? T_T

Im 14 in anorexia recovery really wanting to start going to the gym to build muscles but im sceared of what my doctor will say and etc

Thanks for sharing your story!! I was recommended this video after watching more women youtubers talk about their pasts, and it's always really nice remembering this goes beyond gender. Hope you're doing well!💪💪

This deserves more views!!! I feel like eating disorders are shown in the same exact way a lot unfortunately ):

I hear the commenters' words on the weight matter. While you're generally supposed to avoid talking about numbers and pounds, i was an obese boy just before i turned 13 when it began, lost 142 pounds, and around the time i had lost a hundred, my family doctor laughed at my parents' suggestion i was dealing with an ED. Even then, with having been ill for a little over a year, BC i was thin, but not emaciated, it was framed as ''depression". A sign or symptom of depression was maybe still is, a ' loss of appetite",, and my sick act of denial was to sort of agree that my weight loss was just because of the depression, a camouflaging and deflective spin, and the weight loss resulting from what was a typical sign of depression. .......I was physically very sick and exhausted, truly thought i would die, and prob the worst part, i was fine with that possibility. I didn't get well. I didn't want to. I went to college a thrid time with the sick and intentional resignation that i was doing it so i could live and live within Bulimia, less so in Anorexia mode, but with some of that too, as what i moved more towards, the way some addicts orchestrate their lives around getting high and having access to their drug, and in an environment that facilitated it. enabled it and supported it. , I'm over 50 now, and in complete recovery for about five years, but i still have medical issues from decades of dancing with my devil. ,Eating disorders destroy lives, steal your goals and hopes, peace-of-mind, relationships and joy. Be stronger than it is, please, just please try.

Thank you for representing, and for stating the concern of how some discussion of EDs can be '' triggering '' to those who have or had one. Be strong, well and continue moving towards the life you want and deserve

Thank you

We love being triggered. Thanks for the thinspo

How did you deal with the excess weight gain and did it eventually come off? I went from being like 150 pounds to like 200 plus pounds...It’s hard for me to deal with...I’m currently eating like 3,000-4,000 calories a day

Thanks so much!

Just discovered your channel, you’ve got yourself a new subscriber! Could you please do a video on hope and recovery? When things just keep getting worse or harder despite engaging in treatment, we can lose hope very quickly. Would love to know how you kept going in recovery, despite all the ups and downs.

I am not able to sleep like really not and can't even think of taking a week off from gym ,so anxious .

I was 170, playing water polo and lifting every day like great shape and eating healthy, then covid hit and stopped our practices and closed gyms. Things went south and cut to last new years eve i was 132 lbs. now im up to 140 and the fact that this puts me across to the healthy bmi range, I have bad days where I convince myself that I don’t have an ED and shouldn’t try to keep eating.

What point in recovery do you recommend to get back to some at-home bodyweight and moderate dumbbell work? Are there certain markers/measurement targets before you can do this?

You look incredible and are so inspiring truly ❤❤

Thank you for this, Cameron.

Do you have any tips on eating more when your stomach is so shrunken/small?