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That Bad that YOU really want to leave my Life.. I want some answers.. at least tell me what YOU want to do because I needs to know.. don't let me be just hanging with thoughts.. it is going to end up hurting me.. killing me from the Inside.. but YOU know how much I love YOU.. YOU know that I try to make things right.. are YOU sick and tired of me.. Or is it something else.. Please tell me what is in Your Heart.. tell me so that I can do what it right.. if I needs to change.. I will try my best to make the progress to change.. but let me know WHAT YOU really want and truly need from me.. as I am looking at the two plates.. I don't see anything inside the Plate.. both plates are empty.. and The Chair across.. I am looking at.. it is empty.. I have my wallet next to the Plate.. I grab the Wallet and I open.. There is a Picture of YOU.. when YOU were so Happy.. It is YOU sitting on that Chair.. when I don't see the Picture.. and I am looking at that Chair.. I see No One.. YOU are not there.. and I want to cry.. I feel like WHY is this Hurting me more.. it should be YOU who has to tell me YOU are hurting as well.. but.. I am over here.. looking across.. the Chair.. Your Chair.. why is it empty Now.. WHY did YOU have to sit there and Now.. look what has happened to Me.. I am looking at that empty Chair.. I would think about.. what If YOU were not here with me.. I know I would not go through this Kind of pain.. this ache that it just breaking from the inside.. because I am looking at the memories Now.. of YOU sitting there.. laughing and when I see YOU laugh.. I would also laugh with YOU.. when YOU smile.. I would smile back at YOU.. I wanted to show YOU how much I love YOU.. Now.. I am over here Missing you.. I feel so bad.. because.. if I was the One who left this House.. I could of given YOU the Chair.. if I left packing my bag inside.. YOU would be looking at my side.. and be feeling and going through WHAT I am going through.. I could of given YOU this Memories inside.. but Now.. it seems like I am the One who has to take the Hit.. I will.. but tell me.. DID YOU even loved me.. did YOU ever saw me as the One to Love YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. because It makes No sense if I am the One who has to take all the Hurts.. pains and aches In.. and How this rain would fall.. pour down on me.. if YOU loved me.. I don't think you would pack YOUR bag and just leave without saying a word.. if YOU truly love Me.. then I know YOU would reply the message back and tell me what YOU.. if YOU love me.. I know you would answer the calls and tell me how YOU be feeling.. How you be dealing.. then why did YOU say to Me.. that YOU love me.. why did YOU say that I know that one day we can be married.. giving me Hopes and to dream.. and to know what it means to love YOU.. learning how to love YOU and trying to figure out ways how to share and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. why tell me YOU love me and Now you are running.. stop running from me and tell me YOU do love me.. stop running from me and tell me I am the One who has Your Heart.. and I will tell YOU Please don't leave me.. please come back Home back to me.. tell me that YOU are only taking a time to walk.. only trying to go for afresh of air.. and that YOU are Not leaving me.. but each Time I look and I think of YOU.. YOU break my heart.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. YOU are sitting on that Chair.. I see you with a Plate.. with a smile.. I do remember.. it was when you made the first food for me.. and I told YOU.. It tastes so good.. and I would have my camera out.. the plate on the table top.. YOU be smiling.. I am looking through the lens of the camera and I would tell YOU to smile Big.. and YOU did.. I click the button.. flashes goes off.. the first date.. the first meal.. the first time you sat on that Chair.. I wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. but I waited.. I know that I should of told YOU how much I love YOU.. I should of said to YOU.. My Heart is telling me to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. But I know that I have said it too late.. Now.. YOU are gone.. all I see is that Chair.. without YOU.. I just can't sleep.. I can't eat.. all I do is think of you.. just wondering.. when will YOU come home.. I am waiting for YOU.. that Chair.. it is waiting for YOU.. wants to welcome you back Home.. I am so sorry that I told YOU too late.. YOU asked me.. DO I ever Love YOU.. but.. I would not say those words.. Until Now.. but when I tell YOU now.. I know that YOU are gone.. it is just too late because I see that Chair.. it is empty.. without YOU.. I feel so Empty because Now I know.. I truly love YOU.. Now I can tell YOU.. how much I love YOU.. I am so sorry that I love YOU came too late.. but for Now On.. I know I can love YOU more.. I can love YOU and tell YOU from my Heart How much I love you.. because Now I know who I love.. it is YOU.. who sat on that Empty chair.. YOU are the love of my life.. So I had to wait.. patient came with time.. I had to wait.. I had to keep on waiting.. looking at the Moon.. my tears would roll down.. I wanted to tell You How much I loved YOU.. YOU puzzled.. means speechless.. unable to speak because.. that is HOW beautiful YOU are.. so Beautiful that it amazes YOU to share.. YOU are so Beautiful.. so Beautiful I needs to be with YOU and just can't let YOU go and I wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. over and over again.. I still love YOU.. Because My Heart is dying.. I need to love YOU more.. But How can I if you are Not here with me.. I want to tell YOU and ask YOU.. I love YOU.. will you please let me love YOU.. YOU know how much I want to love YOU.. if YOU were here.. I would hold you in my arms and will cry telling YOU that It has been a winter in my life.. without YOU I can see winter.. the Trees are dead.. leaves crumble.. it feels like it every day.. why can't YOU be here.. and I am standing here.. I am waiting for YOU.. YOU told me that YOU were coming Home.. why aren't you here yet.. as I turn around.. I hear a knocking on the door.. BUT.. for some reason.. I can't get to the door.. I hear knocking on the door.. on the front door I hear more knocking.. But I can't get to the door.. I hear it.. but.. for some reason.. I can't go to answer that door.. I am laying on the floor.. I don't know what just happened but I am laying.. I feel so dizzy.. I feel so confused.. all I hear is the Knocking on the front door.. I am wondering.. why can't I get UP to answer that door.. but I know that I needs too.. I close my eyes slowly.. wondering if this is it.. but I miss YOU.. and I love YOU.. WHY didn't you come any sooner.. when I wanted YOU the most.. but Now.. I can see my eyes closing.. I miss YOU and I love YOU.. Please help Me.. Help me to Love YOU.. if only I can love YOU.. I think I can open my eyes and tell YOU.. I love YOU because that is all I want to Do.. to Love YOU.. Your chair YOU sat.. I would watch YOU smile as you would eat.. we would talk about the day.. the day YOU would spend time at work.. about Your co workers.. But Now.. I only see the Empty Chair.. and it feels so different because of YOU are Not sitting in it.. I cannot go to that kitchen.. because ALL I see is You.. How you love to make food.. brings such a true joy and blessings in my stomach.. every food YOU make.. it tastes so good and really touches my soul.. and I just cannot forget when YOU tell me.. How do I like it or Not.. I would say.. I love it because.. I know that I am eating from Your hands.. your hands which would be busy making.. Your Heart which YOU put in so much.. of how tasty you wanted to make.. my hand would touch my chest knowing that YOU have touched my Heart.. and I would be smiling as I watch YOU sit on that Chair.. I would look at Your eyes and would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. delicate flower.. The Most beautiful delicate flower I ever saw.. So beautiful.. Not because of the food.. because It is only being YOU.. Now.. all I see is YOU.. but I don't see YOU anywhere Now.. I have been sitting on this Chair.. on this same spot for few hours.. but I here nothing from YOU.. I would send a Message.. There is No word Back.. I would also call YOU on the Phone.. YOU would not pick Up on the Other side.. just leaving me wondering.. is it that Bad what I have said to YOU.. is it because YOU never loved me from the first Place.. I know you left few times.. But.. YOU would tell me YOU are going out for a walk and needed some fresh of air.. YOU needed your Own time and space and wanted to spend alone.. of course I would agree with YOU and let you have Your Time and space.. to think about what I have done.. but this Time.. it feels so different.. YOU would send Word and would reply back.. and also you would answer the call and Let me speak and YOU would speak back.. I would say I am so Sorry.. I would lead out my apology.. Now.. I feel like this has to be something I really done something bad.. because NO words.. No replies.. I am looking at Your Picture.. Not sure why I keep on looking at It.. of course.. Now Matter how much I would take a Look at your Picture.. I just wish that I am able

To speak to YOU.. if the Picture can speak back and tell me what is in your Heart.. what is IN your thoughts.. for a long time.. I wanted to hear what YOU have to say.. as I would look at your Picture.. I see the Glass Jar.. it is an empty Glass jar.. and I would be looking at this Window but has a Glass wall.. I am wondering about the Door.. I have pass by the Open door.. which I came to this second Line and I see the Empty Glass Jar.. I know that it is YOU who must left it behind.. even with this Picture TOO.. Where is the Door because I only saw the first Door opened.. How can I enter.. there is this Big Window.. and inside is the Glass Wall.. I am looking around.. does the Glass wall opens and slides.. I am not sure.. How am I suppose to get Inside.. I told YOU.. I came here only for One thing.. It is Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I want to Hold Your Heart.. I am asking if YOU can tell me How am I suppose to go inside.. my finger touches the Glass wall.. I know that If I step closer.. I see the third Line which is very close to the second line.. I know I cross the first line which is behind me.. Please tell Me.. did YOU leave a key behind.. I am holding this Glass Jar.. and I know that If the Glass Jar is empty.. it is telling me that I am suppose to put something inside and I know that YOUR HEART can fit in.. I know that I can put Your Heart inside this Glass jar.. would you please tell me How am I suppose to get to Your Heart.. I can look through the Glass WALL.. and I do See Your Heart.. I want that Heart.. as I am holding.. my arms are wrapped around this glass jar.. it is an Empty Glass jar.. as I am looking through the Glass Wall.. with the Big Window around it.. I can hear something.. or is it someone.. I hear foot steps and I know that the foot steps is coming from Behind me.. so I turn around to look.. But.. I don't see anyone.. so I turn to look the Other way.. as I am looking through the Glass Wall.. with the Big Window around.. I see someone.. I see YOU.. YOU are inside the ROOM.. because I looked at this Picture.. YOU are wearing the same outfit and I just can't believe.. as I am looking.. I see YOU stop.. and YOU are standing by the Heart.. YOU are standing next to Your Heart.. I see YOU smile.. I see that Beautiful Smile.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and why do you have so smile like that.. how am I suppose to get close to YOU.. and I am looking down.. I am looking at Your Heart.. that is the answer.. the answer is right where my eyes are looking.. I want Your Heart.. that is the only way I can take a step closer to YOU.. But How do I get inside.. I want to get into that room.. but this Big Window.. this Glass wall.. it is stopping me to go further.. I want to walk.. I want to make few steps so that I can go closer to Your Heart.. I want your Heart.. Please tell me.. How do I get to Your Heart.. if YOU are not going to tell me.. what am I suppose to do.. if the only thing I see is this Line.. I see the third Line.. but if I take the step to the third line.. would you let me In.. would you let me get close to Your Heart.. because I want Your Heart.. YOU have given me this Glass jar.. even leaving this Picture.. WHY would you leave it out here where I am able to get the access to It.. that means YOU know that I am coming.. YOU knew that someone would stop by.. and yes.. I have come and saw the door open.. Now what I want is Your Heart.. will you please tell me that I can have Your Heart.. I am able to hold.. grab hold unto that Heart.. I want want it.. and Yes.. I need that Heart.. but.. if the second line is the only Line I can come.. and cannot pass.. I just do not want to stop right here.. so I would take the steps and goes to the third line.. do YOU see that I have come closer.. but.. I know that I am stuck.. I don't want to be stuck like this.. Please tell me what am I suppose to do next.. are YOU telling me that it is my part to figure it out.. as I would close both of my eyes.. I am holding.. my arms holding around this Glass jar.. the empty Glass jar.. I want my arms to hold like this to YOUR HEART.. I want to hold Your Heart so that YOU know that I am gentle and that YOU can feel the other side of me.. more of the softer side which I love.. I would open both eyes and I am out at Night.. as I am standing ALL alone.. I am thinking back.. before I came to this House.. before I saw the Door has opened.. Now I am standing and it is at Night.. as I am looking UP to the sky.. I am looking at the Moon.. I have the Empty Glass Jar.. my arms still holding around It.. as I am looking at the Moon.. I would ask.. WHY do I have to be the One who is standing here.. I am asking for Your Heart.. I have the empty Glass Jar.. what am I suppose to DO if I can't get any closer.. I saw Your Heart.. tell me what am I suppose to do.. I want Your Heart but it seems like YOU don't want to give it away.. my hands grab on the side of the Glass Jar.. the empty Glass Jar and my arms lifted UP high.. I want Your Heart.. if YOU are listening to Me.. I am asking.. I need Your Heart.. I need YOU.. that is why I am asking.. as I begin to look across the sky.. I start to see stars too.. it is shining and sparkles.. does it means YOU are answering through the Stars.. I am not sure because I want to know.. I need to Know.. from the back pocket.. I would pull out.. I do remember I wrote YOU a love Letter last night.. I did express my Heart as it was written.. the way my Heart feels about YOU.. and I would I received a Note and I would be wondering.. why would someone write me a Note.. but there is No Name telling me from who.. I have this note and tells me to go to the Park.. and there is a Big Tree.. I have this Jar.. it is an Empty Glass Jar.. I am sure I am going to be meeting.. and I see a Picture.. of course it is YOU.. I am sure that the Note has to come from YOU.. because why would anyone write me a Note.. So.. I have a Flower.. a SUN FLOWER.. putting into the Empty Glass Jar.. and with the Note and the Picture.. I would walk outside.. and I love the Sun.. it makes me really really happy when I see the SUN outside.. when the MOON comes UP.. I do get very sad.. because I start to miss YOU.. and I just don't want to keep on missing YOU when I see the Night with MOON up on the sky.. but on this Day.. yes.. I am so Happy that I did receive a Note.. I never receive notes from anyone.. but when it comes from YOU.. it does Not matter How many Notes you send.. just receiving from YOU means everything to me.. So I walk outside and I am thinking of YOU.. Not missing YOU.. but just thinking of YOU.. of Us.. the Hope that Dreams can come True.. So I am holding the Jar.. the Empty glass jar but the SUN FLOWER has entered inside.. So as I am walking.. I see the Park.. I am getting closer to the Big Tree.. and I keep on walking.. I am wondering.. Am I suppose to be meeting YOU here.. I am wondering.. what am I doing here.. I only received a Note card.. telling me to come to this park by this Big tree.. am I suppose to be receiving or am I suppose to be giving.. I am Not sure because I only read it to come here.. so I am standing around.. Placing the Jar.. the Glass Jar down.. I am looking around.. there is another Note.. the NOTE is taped on this tree.. I have the note card.. I have Your Picture.. so I know who I am suppose to look for.. but.. this Note.. I would pull the Note Out from the Tree.. it is taped.. and I would turn around.. it is a Drawing of a Heart.. I am thinking.. is this a JOKE.. a Heart.. and someone drew it with a pencil.. Now.. it is a Heart.. Yes.. I know I want a Heart.. I don't want a Heart with someone draw on it.. I am asking for a Real Heart.. Not a Heart that someone sketched and says it is a Heart.. Honestly.. I want Your Heart.. the One that is inside your Chest.. Not my chest but Yours.. I been asking for a long time now.. it has been so long.. and Now.. are YOU telling me that I am able to have a Heart.. or are you asking me.. if I can give YOU my Heart.. but.. I don't want to give YOU my Heart.. what if My Heart cries because of YOU.. what if YOU Hurt my heart.. what if my Heart does not work or feel the same once YOU take my Heart.. I am Not going to give YOU my heart unless you give me Your Heart first.. I need your Heart.. do YOU see that I am able to speak and share through this.. I am telling YOU.. right Now.. I have not forgotten.. I want... I really really want.. and I will say it over again.. I want it.. I truly want Your Heart because I been asking.. even praying and begging for Your Heart.. why I need it.. TO be honest.. what are YOU going to do with Your Heart.. if I am the One who loves YOU first.. and I am able to tell YOU how I truly feel inside and as been expressing and telling YOU.. how much I need YOU so Please give me Your Heart.. But let me ask you this.. what are you going to do with your heart.. are you just going to let Your Heart just sit there.. YOU know that at least.. I can have your Heart.. if YOU are able to give me Your Heart.. I can speak.. I can pour my Heart and soul and say something to Your Heart.. YOU know.. oink

It is kinda' funny nobody seem's to notice who she is! I'd lose my mind if I saw her strolling through my town!!