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my life isnt even that bad. why am i crying? why am i like this

Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Please give your Heart and trust unto the lord Jesus for he gave his life so you could walk without blame and without sin I hope whatever problems that are paining you or afflicting you begin to ease their way out of your life there is peace and sanctity with Christ.

Ok but like home isn’t home anymore and for a while school became my home and now it’s not nowhere is, I hate being everywhere I wanna kill myself everywhere and everyone says it will get better but like, is that REALLY true because I got diagnosed depression when I was 9 and it hasn’t gotten better sooooo I don’t think so life just sucks I don’t wanna be here anynore

Reminds me of the old times

POV : -You got ghosted and the guy and his girl keep on stalking you and talking shit but they complain when you talk shit back. - you’re the oldest kid so you’re parents are constantly putting stress on u + school + family situations. -you’re tired and can’t ever catch a break - feel like you can’t vent or tell ppl you’re feelings bc you think they’re not going to help or it’s not good enough - constantly overthinking about past mistakes and how you used to be depressed and SH. Constantly thinking of how I failed myself. - when you ask for things you feel like you’re gonna be told no or that’s it’s a “privilege”.

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Why im even alive beacuse im a fuckin fool that's what im a

Lost my grandma at 6 many years ago later still affecting me seeing her feeling her presence having regrets and so much grief found out my nona who had chemo has it again I built such bonds with both yk

feels like I just please everyone and fake my emotions...im not happy

“why do you cry” cause of the dog ears 😭

Holding the scissors like a pen I feel like drawing on paper ...

What am I doing here??

it hurts when 13-14 year olds are more accepting than your parents are.

This had me crying

i can’t even tell my siblings bc they proved they can’t be trusted with secrets nd i used to always be able to talk w them now i have no one

You are... Stunning Strongel Unbreakable Able A person that belongs to exist on this deadly world Not ugly or extremely perfect You The beautiful imperfections An angel Not to fall to words of those who dont matter Only to help those who are near No failure Just as important as the rest of us You will... Not suffer without speaking Not cut or injure the perfect and delicate skin on purpose Find your perfect path Beathe through the areas of helplessness Come out on top Not fall towards those who force you down Help those who act terribly, find a better way to speak Those who cannot be helped by my or your hands doesn't mean they are helpless in all. ❤we❤love❤you❤

It's kinda sad...I have to listen to these comps to go to sleep...

Pov: it’s Not a Pov anymore Home: not home School: Not home Parents:not trusted Friends: not trusted Family: Not trusted People: NOT TRUSTED Forests: are home Lakes: Are home Music: Is trusted Books: Are trusted Painting: Is trusted Animals: ARE TRUSTED

I been playing this over and over again because how am sick of life

Not depressed these are just good.😍

bro yall realize these comfort comments r fake im sorry but they’re all copy pasted and they don’t even know u it makes me upset that i see these in vent comments cuz they’re just saying this to make u feel better, ITS FAKE.

My best friend left me… AFTER MY BIRTHDAY I don’t even think she fcking cared about me

he tells me we would be a cute couple and that he likes me and then he gets a girlfriend the next day. Our sisters are best friends so I am forced to be with him 24/7. He acts like he hates me but flirts in private. Sending mixed signals. I CANT ANYMORE. I started self harm cause of him and it hurts so bad.

I was literally disgusted about depression And now I find myself crying all the time and being tired nonstop, literally wanting to take a break from my life and then realizing what it means Help ;-;

Me to

🥲🥲🥲🥹🥹🥹😭😭😭

I feel tired and worthless

My siblings are taking crap about me rn, having fun ect 😢💔

The line "hanging out where I don't belong" is me when I am hanging out with my 'friend' group

Jesus loves you

You dont need to read :3 TW SELF HARM⚠️ Kinda- One time me and my "friends" we all playing volleyball, it was kinda fun.. but i dont personally like it, i couldn't hit the ball and all of them started shouting at me. I just felt useless as shit for even being there. I felt as if i didnt deserve them since they were ALWAYS better then me. They started talking behind my back saying like "she's so useless haha!" "Why is she even here?.." "i just hate her." "She can't even play with us properly!" "Why is she like that?..." And they would just laugh. One by one they didn't talk or look at me, so i would just walk with them being quiet. I think i was like 11 and i started to scratch myself which ended up to scissors and a lighter. I was walking with them (since they don't talk to me) and couldn't even put myself together. So i scratched at that time. One of my friends seen me and told everyone. They just looked at me in disgust. Then they all spreaded it all over my grade. Everyone knows now. They all left me. Whats even worse, my dad already hits me and yells. I feel useless. :) If you read this. Thank you :3 im sorry if there is any grammar mistakes! :(

Being yelled at: ☹️ The message “Are you ok?”: 😭

never use an acting gift for masking when it snaps you have to take deep breaths before masking you cant scream you randomly cry you suddenly just stop being sble to do something you could do you need to vent more you feel less numb and more upset a game wont help you feel numb to not cut or something anymore...

I'm sick of life. Why did I trust them? Now I have no one. I'm alone. *alone* Listen to this awesome story I have! just got out of school a week ago. Start of summer break, fun, right? No. no My friends, or so I thought told me that they've been trying everything to get rid of me. You know what that means? I suffered for a fucking year because they couldn't tell me they didn't like me. They said I embarrassed them because I cry and get mad. Wanna know why? Because they don't tell me shit. They keep me in the dark about everything. Then they call me annoying, or tell me shut up. when I barely talk. Then I'll just follow them around. They ignore me half the time. I cried for them, lied for them, gave them my favourite things. I gave them my heart, and they fucking broke it. They even told me that I wasn't myself, and that I was copying other people. You know what I say to that? Bullshit. How would they know anything about me after how they treated me? Then they had the audacity to say I hurt them. No. Just no. They hurt ME. Not them. Me. Fucking me. I knew I was nothing. God, what a good way to start summer break. By getting kicked out of your friend group. I Love life. Somebody fucking kill me. *please*

docs.google.com/document/d/1Gzx52_uW3pkgtbwXtTP8cHAtNQB9HkGJRZCKvun2riE/edit?usp=sharing

My dad came up to me and said “how would you feel if me and your mom said we’re gonna call you *dead name* instead of Elliot” … what the fuck dad, that’s not something you say to a fucking trans kid, dad. he keeps talking to me about how everyone feels like the opposite gender atleast once in their teens and this could just be a phase you took too far because of social media, dad… this is me and I need you to stop trying to change me because I KNOW who I am, I. Am. A. Boy.

It’s sad that school is more of a home then ever since it’s summer break so I’ve just tried staying in my room bc heaven knows the chore list I get when I go out I’m honestly sick of it I just wanna feel loved by my own freaking parents and it doesn’t help that I’m very emotional so when they raise there voice I just start bawling so the only thing keeping me away rn is yt and walks with my bestie..

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I’m Axton, someone from a D.I.D system. I’m scared.. my host is 14, I’m 15. I’m not sure why I’m really here in this body. We don’t get along much because I possibly have a dangerous/unsafe mental disorder for our mental health. I don’t know why I do things to hurt. I don’t mean to hurt people. What if I hurt my host’s body again… what if I lose control.. what if I ruin things again.. what… what if I scare them again? I don’t want to be here anymore. I cause too many problems for them and anyone else. I hurt people. Sometimes I feel like I don’t regret it. Is that wrong? I feel bad after a while but I still feel cold. There’s something wrong with me. I’m lost and I don’t know what to do anymore. I need help..

100 reasons to stay alive: 
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favourite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favourite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Love
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you love 75. Heartbreak 76. the feeling of being alone 77. staying up with your friends 78. Rain 79. Pets 80. Coming home after a long rodtrip 81. The days when you accomplish your dream from childhood 82. Memories of your past 83. Meeting your newborn cousin/sibling 84. warm bed
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it.
Ps : Never forget you are a beutiful person 💕 Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼

There's nothing wrong with your eyes. 
There's nothing wrong with your nose
There's nothing wrong with your height
There's nothing wrong with your skin
There's nothing wrong with your mouth
There's nothing wrong with your hair
There's nothing wrong with your face
There's nothing wrong with your body
There's nothing wrong with your hands
There's nothing wrong with your fingers
There's nothing wrong with your teeth
There's nothing wrong with YOU

I love you the way you dance.
I love the the way you laugh.
I love the way you write.
I love the way you sing.
I love the way that your strong.
I love you on the days your happy.
I love you on the days your sad.
I love you on the days you feel lonely.
I love you on the days you feel like no one cares.
I love you on the days you feel amazing.
I love you on the days you feel weird.
I love you on the days where you feel stress.
I love you on the days where you feel alright.
I love you on the days you wanna cry.
I love you on the days you feel miserable.
I love you on the days you feel depressed.
I love you on the days you feel crazy.
I love you on the days you feel loved.
I love you for trying
I love you for staying strong
I love you for waking up
I love you for blinking
I love you when life is kinda meh
I love you when you feel worth it
I love you when you’re in your hard times
I love you when you need someone
I love you when you’re tired
I love you when you’re energetic
I love that you’re mean
I love that you’re nice
I love that your’re sensitive
I love that you’re smart
I love your imperfections
I love your perfections
I love your style
I love your art 
I love you in the day
I love you in the morning
I love you in the night
I love you in the afternoon
I love you in the midnight
I love you even if its 3 am
I love you at your worst 
I love you at your best
I love everything you do
I love you all the time
I love you just the way you are. 

you are perfect. 
I am so proud of you:) 
You made it this far. 
You are amazing:) 
Don't give up. 
NEVER GIVE UP
you're pretty
You're precious 
Don't need to be insecure abt your face. 
You are so beautiful<3
Everyone out there loves you:) 
A lot of people are scared to lose you.
I love you.
Everyone loves you. 
Your friends love you. 
Your family also loves you!
Don't listen to those hateful comments. 
They are just jealous of you bc you are very pretty/handsome<3
They are just jealous bc you have a special thing inside you and they don't:) 
You DESERVE everything. You deserve to be loved, to be listened to, to be taken care of. 
You are enough and NOT a mistake<3

And We dont wanna die, we just want all the pain to go away. Am I right or am I not? :)
Just hang in there Kiddo, Everything is gonna be alright! 
You know, Someday we'll be happy! lets just wait for that day to come, alright? <3

I'm slowly starting to accept who I am....and I think you should too:) 

P.S - Im always here for you, tell me everything you wanna tell me because im always here :) I wont die anytime soon so im here mostly online.

You don’t get it, at least you have a phone to escape. I’m not even allowed devices so I have to steal my mums work phone to watch yt because I have nothing else to do (I’m not allowed to leave the house either)

Do you ever just want someone to hug you but they always tell you to suck it up?

Weird how home dosent feel like home its just sad haveing to go to school and pretend everything is perfect also insane how online people care more about you then anyone else...

tw: swearing, sh, self hatred haha.. 😅 i needed to vent im sorry I'm so fucking tired LMAO. I realize how I'm in a spectrum between Bocchi and Ryo from bocchi the rock. Ryo, blunt, likes being alone, dry humour and also; sarcastic asf. Bocchi has a severe form of anxiety called social anxiety like me. But she has it extremely painful fully more. Scared to ask or do simple things and overthinks. I do so much of this. Making friends is like trying to climb 50000 fucking steps 😊🔪. Why am I like this why. I hate myself so goddamn much why can't i be dead. I hate having to be alive. I guess I get this weird feeling when [my crush] hugs me or when I look into their warm hot chocolate eyes, I feel less empty like there's hope. They makes everything better. They're hope. I know they'll never like me that way though haha. Just making sure I don't use she/her or he/him so no one RLLY suspects anything. But yeah. Anyways I won't be able to sleep until 3 hours because I'm still thinking about how pathetic I am. I'll try anyway i guess. Also why the fuck am I so fucking weird and lonely. I can see the messages but can never even answer and I hate it. People probably think there's a lot wrong with me and they're right. I want to talk to George though. I mean George in my cooking class. He seems so nice and I tried asking him to be my friend but I can't even do that. The Bocchi side of me, haha.. why am I rambling Idk I question everything. I want to know how to die peacefully but I'm scared about what happens after. Heaven? A dark, endless spinning void? I don't know I don't know. I just need someone, them, to tell me its going to be okay. I want someone to hold my hand, physically and love me. Why cant i get that. I dont know everything always ends up empty and cold and theres so much wrong with me.

I hate my life, I keep relapsing, I just can’t handle this anymore, no one cares about me, I keep getting my phone taken away, and it’s mental torture trying to get it back. The only people who care about me are my friends, I don’t know if I can continue my life,

Made me cry 😢

i have so many friends but i always feel distant from them, ive been pretty lonely lately. Nobody hits hard

Real