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I’m so happy for you. I’m glad you were able to get free. Thank you for sharing your heart and experience. ❤

Harken then thine ear unto the voice of Tradition, for I have not entered into thy life to replace the Scriptures, nor do I wish to. But I beseech thee that thou wouldst seek the word of the Lord, to see if I be based upon biblical principles or if I be sheer Tradition. Forthwith thou must know where I be from, for thou dost need to know the difference between the two. If I be but sheer Tradition, then ye must see Scripture and Tradition dwell together in unity. And if ye find that we may not, then remove me from thee. For I do not wan to withhold thee from the wisdom of God! But I would rather assist thee in abiding in it. -A. Random Lattin

I have worn my hair up for so many years that it feels...and looks odd to me when it's down. I have known people for years that have never seen it down but those who get a rare glimpse are usually shocked by the length and how full it is...I have been wearing it down at night in the privacy of my home...people try to convince me to wear it down when I go to town...and I just can't

Wow ur so adorable wtf. Ddid you feel like you got any new idendity crisis when you left? Or do you just feel a freedom and relief?

I've been out of the church for more than 20 years, now, but this brings back some lovely memories. Thank you for doing this video. By the way, many people don't realize that all those bobby pins set off the metal detectors at airports. Taking your hair down, going through the detectors, and putting your hair back up is no small feat. They don't always make you do it, but sometimes you get a stubborn TSA agent. Oh, well. That's life.

My great grandfather was a big deal mennonite. Meaning, he was ex communicated. It's probably a good thing because I could never fit my hair in one of those! I think it is cute though!

Monica: I have studied the Holderman Mennonite church (also called Church of God in Christ, Mennonite). You really need to go into MORE detail about the abusive practices of this group. It includes shunning, coercion, intense monitoring of the members as to practice and belief, and so forth. There have been many court cases against this group where rape was committed upon its women and children. This group is on the same level for its horrible abuse as Jehovah's Witness and the Scientology church. This group will kill not only your soul but also your body. Their fiendish practices need to be understood by everyone. This particular group is NOT to be confused with other mainline Mennonite groups. Yes, these groups have their own problems, but NOTHING on the scale of the Holderman group.

thank you.

I definitely understand why you left I left for similar reasons

Thanks for the insight.

Thank you for sharing your story! I appreciate it :) You are very well spoken!

When you use the bonnet anyway, why putting a hair web underneath? Those hair clips are very sturdy already. I still see your point that for longer and thicker hair, a hair net will add more stability just in case the pins aren't that strong.

Im so happy for you. The road to recovered is long after leaving a cult, but you are a very strong brave woman . I'm an ex Jehovah witness It was very painful at the beginning but the best is yet to come .

HI Monica - came across your video on YT today - it is three years since the video was posted, wonder how you are now? I was raised in the Roman Catholic religion from infancy and can relate to the oppressive nature of religion and some of the issues it causes - by the grace of God I found the Good News of salvation by grace alone through faith alone in Jesus Christ alone via the word of God and not via religion - eternal life in Jesus - and left the RCC around 2016 - went on a long journey trying to find a group to gather with - did not find one - many different teachings here and there that do not fit the Bible also my own vulnerabilities and shortcomings and issues - now living back in Northern Ireland where I was raised from around five years old. The religious atmosphere is still here but different, more so perhaps - some saved Christians but a lot of religious type beliefs as opposed to free grace - so it is challenging - left friends behind in Scotland - also challenging - just dropping by to share that religion to get saved or the stay saved can be so oppressive ( and can damage mental health, I agree and damage the self that God gave us to be) I also am in self imposed isolation due to the challenges from people's superstitious behaviours and some sort of pattern of speech which seems to be the norm here, but which i cannot quite figure out or match - but there are blessings here in the creation around and other things - missing friends, but cannot go back under the yoke of religion ( re-lig-ion , means to re-bind, I believe) Jesus sets us free, by believing in and trusting Him alone - a relationship, not a religion - hope you are well and flourishing - explored psychology also and some philosophy - probably got some insights, but now feel God's way gives more peace and hope - God Bless you and guide you. Moira, Northern Ireland

You are very cute, I am glad you are free now. If you want to tell it, I would like to hear your story, how you felt discovering a whole new world.

I found this style hard to do. It takes a long time to get used to, but once you reach proficiency then it's easy. I've had many interesting conversations about transitioning to a white cap. There are a number of candidates who decided to not join the Church of God in Christ (Holdeman's) and join say the Amish Mennonites (Beachy) or Fellowship Churches as the white cap and round bun is just easier. I suspect the use of photography and willingness to listen to accapella hymns or bible or preaching recorded was also a factor.

Even The Beatles sang, "All You Need Is Love". ;)

I am proud of you for speaking up and speaking out.. you are very brave. ❤️ Allow yourself to breathe.. just breathe…,

Looks like edwardian era

If you are not happy or comfortable with a certain church group, it's not wrong to leave. What is wrong is when people stop serving God and being a Christian. Just because we have nobody to be accountable to, doesn't mean that we are not accountable.

I’m sorry for what you went through. There are more liberal(open to modernity, not necessarily politically liberal) mennonite communities and churches that are pretty normal and supportive of their people. I’m sorry that it can wear you down though, and I hope you feel better.

The Mennonites are some of the most loving, caring, sincere people on the planet. From what I have seen, most people that leave the Mennonites usually adapt to the world very quickly, and by that of course lose their relationship with Jesus Christ.

I am a Mennonite and I am open-minded as well. I do not feel that the Mennonite church that I'm a part of is a cult in any way, we are free to do whatever we want so long as it doesn't violate Bible principle. I would not want to do anything anyway that would hurt my brothers and sisters in Jesus and hurt my relationship with Jesus Christ. Feeling that I don't have freedom I have found is when I have a problem in my heart, and have lost my relationship with Jesus.

I was raised holdeman Mennonite in DeRidder, la and have been out 16 yrs. praise God for showing you the truth. It’s unfair for us or anyone that is raised in a religious cult like this to go through some of the experiences and spiritual abuse.

Do the women shave,trim,or go full bush ?

You are very fetching.

Did it ever occur to you that those feelings or vibes may have only been from your specific church or denomination..... There probably are thirty or more stripes of Mennonite so please don't paint us All with one brush

You were a horrific bully to me and I nearly killed myself because of you and your cousins but you seem to have grown

I have long hair. When i wear it up for the better part of a day and take it down for bed I find my scalp is sore from all the clips and things. I imagine that is the case with you, too. Thanks for sharing.

Wow! Thank you! I had no idea so much was involved. That's alot of work.

Thanks for your thoughtful contribution

Congratulations young lady, I live in a area with Mennonites and Amish and interact with them frequently..their always seems to be a hidden sadness or a change in facial demeanor when leaving to return home.

Oh let's not forget that expression of feelings is absolutely unacceptable. Crying is not accepted. Ugh!!! It seems beautiful in the beginning, but then you realize it's completely broken and abusive!

I can absolutely tell that you were raised holdeman by the way you speak. Thank you for sharing! May I ask, are you from Manitoba? You have the classic Manitoba accent within the "church".

They are abusive!

Monica there is always a way back into the Mennonite community. We going to a church in south Missouri.

Even now I'm struggling with depression and questioning God sometimes *HOWEVER I know he loves me despite what I'm going through* the rejection the failures because I count my blessings and the other good things I got going on in my life like my own business and I'm able to make money and then whenever sickness tries to attack me I bind it and cast it out in the name of Jesus and it usually goes away so I count my blessings *and he loves you too please do not leave God you may leave religion two different things but don't leave God* for what does it profit a man Jesus says to gain the whole world and possibly lose your soul? *Now I did see hell in a vision and it does exist* but you and the viewers may not believe me it's fine but I'm speaking to you directly to your heart and your mind are you really going to take that chance to live the life you want to live I'm not saying that you can't dance and stuff like that because you were deprived of that stuff for years apparently but I'm saying to leave God altogether and just believe in scientists or New age religion or consciousness you going to take that chance with your soul and then when you die possibly go to hell you know you only have one life and there's eternity after that life has ended and it's either eternity in heaven or eternity in hell so are you really willing to take that chance with your life and your soul just for some temporary pleasure until you're around 80 years old? REALLY? I pray God speaks to your heart and gives you understanding and for you to make the right choice but please do not let the devil deceive you but like I said keep pressing and do not believe the false doctrine of consciousness or the false doctrine of New age religion or the false doctrine of doing what you feel because that's how the devil works he works on our feelings for us to do what we want to do Jesus said that the spirit is willing but our flesh is weak so the devil did the same thing to Eve he worked on her feelings she felt good about it and so she did what she wanted to do even though God told her not to eat from that tree And now not only Eve paid for that sin but Adam and all of us women paid for her sins so I'm praying for you that you will make the right choice and do not let the devil deceive you into false doctrine of consciousness and New age religion I haven't been to a church in a long time but I do have an online fellowship that I worship with and I encourage you to join it's on Wednesdays Fridays and Sundays feel free to join in via chat and or by phone and if asked how were you invited just tell them sister precious told you about the ministry and she's also a prophetess and if the spirit leads her would tell you everything you need to know I'm praying for you Apostle Sharon Hamilton m.czcams.com/users/ApostleSharonHamiltoncommunity Services is on Wednesdays Fridays and Sundays via live chat or over the phone from 6:00 a.m. till about 3:00 p.m. EST sometimes finishes early sometimes finishes later you can join in at any time

Bible something is very bad. Jesus and God do not approve of it. It destroys brains. Jesus did not like churches and said go to the mountain to pray in private.

Those people are interbreeding way to much and that is biologically wrong and just flat out wrong in every context religious and secular

girl you look so familiar to me!!! 🤗 i use to be holdeman as well

my scalp would itch/but I admire their commitment

Hey monica how do I join the holdeman mennonites?

and the rest is not hair? why only cover the collet? the whole head is hair.

Awesome video , do you know which state has more Menonites and are they the same as Mormons or Amish ??? Awesome hair and video .

Even though you left the church, would you ever go back to one for service once in a while? My Holdeman friend is getting married soon, looking forward to it, always good singing and food. I wish I could learn sight-reading better, it's fun to sing those songs. For a female trio song, check out "Love Amazing."

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Lovely! I appreciate a nice harmony.

Are you “shunned”?