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Yeah uh My head is being pretty harsh at the moment tbh, he keeps getting mad at me for shit I can't even control and keeps comparing my art to other people- and just being a massive dick all around. And ya know what I get in return? Doing shit to myself I really shouldn't be doing, which is just great Istg, he is THIS close to making me do a sayori, it's not even funny- I know that what I'm thinking definitely isn't true...at least I think they're not, but like- I know that I shouldn't believe in that shit. Wait, really? Shit uh, really didn't know you cared that much about me. Well uh...I guess it is a bit more reassuring knowing someone cares about me that much...❤ I still...don't really think I should really vent anymore that much, I feel like I already vented to you and in general on here enough for a lifetime- so I don't really think you would see that anytime soon, especially with how I'm feeling about it at the moment. I'll try to take it easy Lamp, imma uh...try to answer some of your comments now- my computer is staring to glitch from them heh

⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠​⁠@@AlwaysBeTooDifferentOh my god, I’m so sorry about that- I had no idea it was that severe He has no right especially to compare yourself to others (all due respect), your art may be different from others art, but that’s how it is for everyone, it doesn’t make it better or worse. I love your style and even if you do need improvement, that doesn’t make your art less than others at all! No one’s perfect, most people you’ll see probably need to improve as well. God I don’t feel like I worded that right at all Please know that was all with positive intention, and if it’s worded wrong I’m just bad at this I’m so so sorry you’ve had urges like that, though just know I don’t judge you or think less of you for it whatsoever, if anything I’m just dreadfully concerned, but I understand your situation and how it might not even be that controllable… As I said before, I’m not too sure on how to work on that part and I’m so so sorry I can’t do more, but I’ll still stay by you and support you, and comfort you through it. Always. Please, try all you might to ease your mind and overall self to maybe calm those thoughts… I dont blame you for those as well, but just know that I don’t wish it upon you whatsoever. /lh Im so sorry I don’t know why I cant just help you better than this, I feel like I can, but I don’t know how Really. I was completely sincere about that. I do. You’re my best friend, not joking about that. And I can’t help but care heaps for you, so much my brain tells me it’s pathetic but even then it’s not stopping me I’m glad it’s even just a bit reassuring… it hurts me that you’re going through this (not in a bad way towards you, you are not to blame whatsoever❤️), and I’ll try what I can to support you through it. Diff Unless you’re really just uncomfortable with doing so, which is completely understandable Please listen to me when I tell you I really don’t mind you venting to me, no matter how much it needs to be If you need to speak out, speak out I’ve bottled stuff in more than I should for the longest time, and it didn’t go the way I wanted at all Please tell me whatever you need to anytime it’s needed, I can’t force you to do it and I don’t want it to feel like I am, but I’m just worried about you and I want you to know that even IF you’ve vented to me for about a lifetime, I don’t mind if you ever need to do it some more /lh I really feel like you should be getting some rest instead to maybe help, but if that’s really what you want to do, I can’t force you. But I’m staying up with you, and I’ll stay by you for as long as I can stay conscious / you stay up It’s not healthy sure, but I can sleep tomorrow. I want to be here in case you need me. Need support, comfort, just company in general. I’m here, Diff.

@@AlwaysBeTooDifferentDammit I wrote so fucking much that’s not helping at all I’m so sorry Tell me if you need a summarization

@@lamppost3520 No, youre good man dw No ones art is perfect, and my art DEFINITELY needs work- but that still doesnt mean that my art is bad! Lamp, trust me, it's okay if you dont know how to help, and i definitely dont mind if you DONT know how to. For me at least, I dont really do anything about these feelings- aside from doing those things to myself, I cant really do a lot after that...its just...thoughts about doing that shit. And I dont even know why I'm feeling like this, I man, I have a good life right? I shouldnt be depressed or sad right?? I shoudlnt have thoughts about fucking "deleting" myself right?? ...I dont even know my own damn self anymore man. Please, dont think too much about trying to help me man, theres not much I or you can even do about these feelings, and I know youre doing all you can, and im just as happy knowing that❤ Its not pathetic man, youre just worried about your friends and i dont blame you for being like that with whats been happening. Dude this is why I dont like doing this hit man, I hate making people feel bad, even if I know I'm not the one to blame or it... Lamp I really wanna vent, I reallt do, but theres just a side of me thats just not letting me. I already had my turn being comforted and shit in the past, and I really DONT wanna make people overwhelmed by damn feelings...especially you man, and I know, I know that you would never mind me venting to you, but when i do...I just hear a voice in my head saying "You're probably being such a burden to her right now, she's probably already dealing with shit irl and youre just PROBABLY adding more stress onto her..." ...and I believe that little voice, and I'm scared that if I vent again to you or someone else that would be the same to them or whoever the hell was unfortunate enough to catch me like that. Its around...1am where I am rn, and i kinda answered a bit of comments with the time I had so I think im just gonna head to bed after this... Please dont do that Lamp, I already know you have a stressful sleep schedule and I dont want it to make it worse Im super grateful for that...but like, still get sleep man-

@@AlwaysBeTooDifferent Of course, hell, think about mine what you want, by that rule definitely applies to my art as well It’s not bad, but it’s not the greatest thing ever existed, and that’s okay I’m glad it’s nothing really further from that… Just because you believe your life has done pretty well as of now, I don’t believe it should invalidate your struggles. No matter what’s happened, you feel how you feel. You just need support, comfort, and help through it❤️ I I dunno Something’s just telling me it’s just not fair for you to be suffering while I can’t do shit about it ig But even still, I’ll try to not go as hard on myself about that, figuring y’know, what you said and all about not much to be done, and you’re right. I’ll continue doing all I’m able still❤️ Mmmn… That makes sense- I’m sorry… I do understand what you mean- believe me… . I I understand that feeling a ton, believe me, I’m sure you’ve heard by now that you’re not alone with a worry like that… I want you to be able to vent, to me, to someone, but… I also would hate to sound forceful if I continue with saying so… especially since I understand how anxious you get from doing so I’ll give you time. I still don’t think you should completely throw away the possibility of reaching out, but I understand that building confidence into doing so will definitely take a while, that while being however long you need. After all, I want you to be COMFORTABLE venting to me. You cant be comfortable if I’m prying it outta you while your head’s being a bitch to ya This isn’t me continuing to pry, but I’ll go ahead with one last reminder for you, hopefully for future reference if you feel more comfortable sharing with me something… You were never a burden to me. And you never will be. Alright, I’ll head off too in just a sec after I answer a bit of other short comments on my end here- Feel free to lay this convo to rest after my response if you want. Just knowing you read it will be just fine for me❤️ I will i will heheh Dw,,, Goodnight dad I love you /p 💝

HE IS!! He is nailing the look hard man❤ I kinda like that i added the ears and tail, idk i just... Feel like he wouldve worn that back then- But i actually do like i how i drew him! He is (was) so preppy💜💜

⁠​⁠​⁠@@AlwaysBeTooDifferent No lie about that, that’s for sure💗💖❤️ OH I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE WHAT THOSE WERE WOOPS💔💔 Furry scene boy real?? /j Im glad you like it man, I do too,, “(Was)” is so wild man, what did he do💀

@@lamppost3520 What do you mean “/j”? Furry scene boy IS real💜💜 I mean, he definitely isn’t preppy now man- Just look at him, I mean- I love him to death but like, he is emo more then anything- Now that I think of it, Scene Ash would definitely be friends with Router and kinda with Applet now It would uh…definitely be an interesting trio but like, I kinda see it working??

@@AlwaysBeTooDifferent well- Sometimes I put /j if I’m not certain about smth but still joke about it👀💧 Y e a h Fair enough💀 I see what you mean Through age he has emo’d💔 OOOH Cringe but free trio real??? Scene Ash is just Applet and Router’s child tbh /j/j/j Furry + Scene makes scene furry bro, he’s their son(💀💀) But yeah, I see it too👁️👁️ Imagining them just vibin playing video games don’t mind me💕💕(Router’s absolutely the type to just start cussing out the game if he’s failing💀💀)

@@lamppost3520 Oh, I guess i get why you did that then But at this point I feel like it will be canon, it honestly kinda fits with Deltarunes goofiness- BRO STOP That kinda fits man Like, I bet he would kinda just have the style of Router and the personality of Applet- Aww💞 Theyre just playing Rocket League like Father and Son, dont mind them❤ (He would man💀 I just imagine Ash looking at him cursing at the screen and just shifting a bit to the other side of the couch-)

TY!! It took a long time to pick one that fit them man Especially for Ash and Amanda- Oh leave him alone lamp, its not his fault his voice is from Sans😤😤/lh Why are people so surprised about that? Tundra already told me they didnt expect that, and now you? I really dont see why its shocking I mean Angel Angel *Dust* It writes itself man- Ever since i designed him for me he always had Angels dust's voice They kinda be acting the same too man They both be fruity af So like...they kinda fit for me👁👁 Yeahh About that little pesky break hah Uh- god youre gonna be so angry at me man- I dont think imma take it Hear me out Since ive said that i have been feeling way better, so i dont feel AS tired since then. But, this kinda took a bit from me, so im just gonna some time to relax and ill be posting little stuff that wont take long. I do think ill have to take a break soon, but i dont feel as depressed as then were i wanna delete myself- So uh Kinda of a win/win to me I guess? I dont really have to post since i did this but im not so tired from this where i need to leave for a week So yeah Sorry I guess. (IKR?? I love it so much man💛💛 It was so fun to draw...even if i did have to draw a burger on Ash's forehead- He bought a doctor degree online❤)

@@AlwaysBeTooDifferent You’re very welcome eee!!💕💕💕💞💗 Augh- man- I had that struggle too dw💀💔 Fair, I like the voices that you eventually found though!! They’re both so fitting (and kinda hot nglWHO SAID THAT-) I MEAN IM NOT JUDGING BECAUSE IG VOICE CLAIMS COULD COME FROM WHEREVER OFC BUT ALL DO RESPECT I DID FIND IT FUNNY💀💀 Well I was mostly surprised because I didn’t expect the voice itself to be paired with him (not as in it’s bad ofc ofc, I love it❤️) But I don’t blame the character to character similarity for voice choice Why’d you think I chose Marcy for Proxy? Hahah Quite a few reasons👁️👁️💧 I think it does fit, dont get me wrong It just popped up at me from around the corner💀 Wh Well, I can’t say I wasn’t concerned when I first started reading that But I promise you I’m not angry atcha,,, Did Did I do something to make you think I’m be mad at you for that? You know you can talk it out with me if so man, I promise I’ll try my best make it right- /lh/gen But no, I promise, I’m not mad man… you don’t have to apologize for it❤️ If you end up feeling better and feel like a break won’t be needed now, that’s great- I’m so glad you’ve improved in mood since then anyways!! If you feel like you don’t need more than just a little relaxing and cooling off in posting or what you post, that’s completely understandable and I hope it works well for you💕 Just don’t forget that I’m completely fine with you taking that longer break whenever it’s needed in the future, even if it’s not needed now❤️ (HEHEHE You should💕💕 I get that- but the burger turned out pretty good💀 Sure seems like it💀💀 Bro does NOT know what he’s doing😭😭)

Thank you man! I’ve actually really been wanting to use his audio for him, in my opinion I think that most of the parts fit him pretty well!(in my headcanon at least-) I seriously don’t know why there isn’t almost any audios of this with him too man, but then again, almost half of the song doesn’t really fit him a lot…so I guess it would be kinda hard to make an animatic with it with him Thank you!🩷🩷

Thank you man!!

PFF WHAT?? That’s crazy dude💀 But nah, it’s just there until I get the chance to make the intro. But until then, crucified Spamton will prevail😈 TY!! I already kinda know how to animate bc of my years of experience tweening gacha character👁️👁️ But, I do have a lot to learn- but until then this is gonna be my animating style Heh He getting evicted at the moment, but he still is adorable❤️🤍🩷💛

@@AlwaysBeTooDifferent I’d be proud too tbh In a sense of honor🛐🛐 Yeahh- I figured that out by the time I saw the “placeholder” pff Still funny to think about though Our fantastic manlet lord💝 I mean- that makes a lotta sense there- I tried it back a long long time ago (it was awful💀💀), I might’ve forgotten but by now and that’s okay, because I gotta find some way to improve my process anyways so it’ll look more bouncy n fun than it was- Man, we both do dw💔/lh It’s still not bad for an animation style!! I really like it💕 It flows well aaa,,💖 M A N I thought he maybe was, poor lil man💔💔 “, screamin’ at the swatchlings, as they pushed him out the door!” (💀💔)

@@lamppost3520 I just put that text there bc my dumbass head sometimes gets too full and i think that i left in there to be put in the actual video, so i just put that there as a reminder When i have the resources to, i actually really wanna do actual animation! I mean...i have flipaclip...but i hate how it doesnt let you import sound "IF YOURE NOT PREMIUM" or some shit But some day, i do wanna do that. It seriously sounds so cool dude❤❤ ...the fact that that is the exact same thing i thought to put in that scene IS CRAZY- Bro where the same person againnn God damnit /j