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Very nice ❤❤❤

OCD/anxiety is the worst. It robs you of happiness. I can be happy for a few mins and then the bad thoughts play over in my head and I can’t enjoy time.

Like dude I had plans to go out and get ready and enjoy the sunshine… But my mind suddenly goes into a frenzy about everything needing to be clean and organised. Multiple rituals like hand cleaning, cleaning taps and handles excessively. (I still won’t touch then and use my sleeves or smth!) Sometimes if not mostly, showering only until I feel clean. Takes me hours on the worst days. Then worrying about everything else that needs doing. If it’s not done then i’m doomed like wtf!! The other day I even had dangerous intrusive thoughts that I don’t know if I can even share, and it was so scary ya’ll! I don’t know what’s worse, the intrusive thoughts or the repetitive ones about cleaning everything, the anxiety and confusion is absolutely terrible!😫😭

Got diagnosed with ocd last year and I’m learning a lot. It’s definitely not like how people make it out to be. It’s not just cleaning and organizing. It’s hell. I have to do things a certain way and it drives my family insane when I double check or go back over. The intrusive thoughts are horrible.

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It’s like our brains turn against us to try and ruin our lives. I just don’t understand why. I need peace of mind

Yup 😢 that's what it's like

This video really shows how intrusive thoughts are with OCD. It is exhausting, yet it does not feel so empty inside to know we are not alone. In my case I wish I could help others but sometimes I ponder why I don’t do the therapy homework on a daily basis so I can feel better. I think self abuse is another thing we deal with along with fears and irrational thoughts we need to work through therapy. Thank you Rebecca Chiafullo for making this video! 9:15

Wow, this is very accurate

The intrusive thoughts of stabbing her sister made me cry. I hate OCD so much 😭

Wow very powerful. I can relate to this so much. I have Pure O and counting and “doesnt feel right”

The frustrating thing is when ppl tell you it’s just stress or “OCD is over cleaning “ it irks my soul

Ay the end the best way to get rid of it is knowledge is there and at the same time just don’t care it is there, like a bully

Truly the GOAT

Thank you for this film. This is exactly what OCD feels like. I have no words, i hope this short fim finds whoever needs a reminder that they aren't alone, and that there are other people who feel the same symptoms. For the people who are diagnosed with OCD like me, you got this! <3

I feel like I’m part of somthing I don’t know what this movie did but it’s like every feeling no body understood is everywhere so many people feel it and I feel not alone

OCD is like a living hell, I describe to people its like having a ball and chain around your ankle pulling you back, slowing you down with everything you do you can't get much done in a day and the amount of energy it burns in a day is incredible,. Like for eg:- just a doing a couple of the jobs people take for granted like just going to the shops to get milk. It burns your brain. The letterbox bit got me, because I could feel the anxiety when you were walking to get to the letter box, to feel the envelope, opening and letting go of that then closing it again, and reopening, closing to get that sense of satisfaction. I know that feeling all to well its a pain in the bum. Thanks for sharing this video and shedding light on OCD its a pain.

I’m sitting here bawling. I felt completely seen and understood. My own brain exhausts me and I feel like I have no escape from it. This happens so many times a day and it creates the worst anxiety. The most painful thing about this form of OCD is how lonely it is. I’ve never talked to anyone about it, despite being in the hands of many therapists and psychiatrists throughout the years, for fear that they would label me as a threat to society, when in actuality, I’m more of a threat to myself. The violent thoughts don’t happen often but when they do, I’m always terrified of myself. I would never in a million years hurt someone but the visions are so vivid that I fear that it’ll happen in the moment or a future premonition. And it’s not always physically violent thoughts but sometimes it’s emotionally violent where I tell someone off in the most degrading way even though I’m not the confrontational type at all and all of the words that my brain has scripted are completely baseless. I also have explicit sexual thoughts that are so wildly inappropriate that it makes my head spin. I’ve been happily married for 11 years and I’m terrified that I’ll follow through with the visions. It’s very irrational because I have zero interest in the people that I unintentionally “fantasize” about and ultimately, I love, respect, and cherish my husband. It greatly hurts my ability to socialize, and because of it, I have crippling social anxiety. There are many other obsessions that take over my mind but the one that takes up most of my attention span and time has to be my obsession with my health. I’m hyper aware of the sensations of my internal organs. It always starts with an “abnormal” feeling in my body which leads me on a wild goose chase on google for hours and hours about what it could be. It always ends up with me feeling that I have an underlying cancer or an incurable disease and that I’m going to die from if I don’t catch it in time by being able to self diagnose. My daily routine suffers significantly from it and I can’t stop searching. I’m often stuck sitting in place for hours until I find the answer. There’s often no one definitive answer and I’m left with the fear of the unknown after searching for 8 hours straight, while depriving myself of basic human needs- eating, drinking, using the bathroom. I search and search to figure out “what’s wrong with me” regarding my mental health as well but has often led to more answers than not. A couple weeks ago, I actually got lucky. After doomscrolling though Reddit one day, I stumbled upon a Reddit describing exactly what I mentally go through every day. I went down a rabbit hole to discover that there is a name for this phenomena: OCD. There’s something so empowering about being able to name what it is that’s causing me this existential pain. Because I finally had a name to call it, I faced my fear, and ended up being formally diagnosed with OCD. Tomorrow will make 1 week since my diagnosis and I’ve been taking time to mentally unpack the reasoning behind this mental torture and educating myself on different forms of therapy. I finally have a map to understand my road to recovery and healing. I’m 30 years old and I’ve literally lived my whole life believing that I am a psychopathic pervert because of these intrusive thoughts that haunt me, day in and day out. I never knew OCD also presented in this form. My mom has OCD and has the type that nags her to constantly clean and needs absolute perfection. I’ve always seen OCD portrayed in Hollywood which shed light on the germaphobia, rituals and routines but it missed a large part of the ostracizing form of OCD that no one talks about. Thank you SO MUCH for creating this short film. I’ll now be able to use this video as a visual representation of what it’s like to live in my mind and how debilitatingly horrific it can get. This short film needs more attention to raise awareness of the Obsessive part that is so often missed. I can’t thank you enough for representing the often unseen parts of this disorder. I’m very sorry about the novel.. but at the same time, if my words are able to help someone understand that they’re not alone, then I’ll be eternally grateful. You are loved. You are not “crazy”. You are enough. And most importantly, you are not alone. ♥️

I can relate so badly

Only two minutes in and already triggered 😭

When I experience the ocd attack, I just remember that God knews which one is my real thought and intention and which one is not (this one is for religious ocd whenever you feel like you think bad about others etc) and then for bad cycle thoughts I just remain myself that all of that are not true and God will protect me and all people from those “harm” in my head. I know it’s not easy but listening to gospel songs and read God’s promises in the Bible and interact with others help so much, first take a deep breath and then do not bow down to those intrusive thoughts, Jesus got us and will never leave us amen ❤

I have OCD and severe Emetophobia and the outfit thing gets me all the time. "At some point you'll probably get sick, what if that day is today, and you're wearing that outfit? That's your favorite shirt, right? What if it gets ruined? What if it gets associated with being sick? What if you have to throw it away? You'd better change." And so some of my favorite clothes have been hanging in my closet for months, and I really want to wear them, but I can't.

Wow this video is so acuarate this one and the ADHD combine both and thats me every day every night , this intrusive thougths tic, rituals plus the dam tv changing in mi mind with music and images 24/7 😔

We: i want to build a career help improve our financial condition but i hv some limitations.... OCD it's a kind of barrier, mental barrier Others: Ok, so you are saying that you are crazy.... Then how come you graduated, can mad ppl go to school or pass examinations?

i am so so so sorry that you suffer from this same illness. but i’m so thankful that you’ve put to film the CLOSEST representation i have ever seen to what it’s like to have OCD, whether it’s pure OCD or “regular.” i can share this with my loved ones and feel like an accurate picture has been painted, and that’s something i never thought i could do. i’m wishing you well and i’m so grateful for your work

All I can say to describe this film is amazing. Truly one of the best short films I have ever watched, I am just amazed how accurate these depictions of OCD are. As someone who has experienced symptoms of OCD I can not tell you enough how much I relate to this film, I was actually scared how similar I am to the girl in the film, with some of the rituals and other intrusive thoughts the girl had .

OCD isnt a privilege. its a disease

This is untreated asf you guys deserve more attention ❤❤

As someone with OCD I cannot tell you how accurate this film was. OCD is always there whether you choose to acknowledge it or not . always nagging. It’s such a struggle that not many people keep attention to

And stop hacking my utube and pranking her and me and everyone she knows,crazy

Start practicing self control or check yourself into the western state hospital where u can learn to stop with medication

Its an excuse for bad behavior think of the alternative 8 years in jail for hazing someone and her mother also its bullshit

If it doesnt stop the supreme court is going to take steps to end the hazing,prank phone calls,gang stalking and spying so someone better get a grip and stop 🛑 calling her transgender thats defimation

Its like this my gf is great person being bullied by someone online abusive who cant stop belittling her if that person has no willpower than they deserve whatever sentence cyber abuse is a crime ocd or not

I mean my gf says the world wont end if its not perfect or it takes a while,type a personality thats alot of people in the world were just going at our own pace,type b or c is like more chilled,i mean cut it out people are doing it to themselves

the religious part is so true

Its so tiring to live like this

this gave me chills especially the cutting the apples scene because that is something i used to be ashamed to talk about. thank you for spreading awareness and making people feel seen because ive heard people say things like they wish they had ocd so they could be a more tidy person which really shows more people need to be educated about ocd because it is a struggle to cope each day without facing hurtful comments and stereotypes. really well made by the way the filming. acting and background voices are amazing :)

I loved how when Harlow wakes up in the morning and she looks around thinking all is well, but then immediately "he" comes into frame, throwing off all peace and zen. That literally gave me a stomach punch of anxiety, because artistically that depiction was so accurate. You wake up after feeling peaceful for a night, then immediately anxiety hits you and honestly in my case it has made me want to just disappear. Going to bed without completing rituals trying to be a champion over anxiety, then waking up the next morning and immediately dreading the day. Terrible stuff

Brilliant little short about OCD. Could not have made it better! This is exactly what OCD looks like!

That cursing in your head when praying was definitely on point

I get more bad thoughts than this i dont know how to stop this OCD is destroying my life i dont feel like living when i get bad thoughts about me or others 😭😭😭😭

Well representation, I am related to this deeply

I am someone on the internet whi has this monster inside his head, my monster tell me to dont do exactly what i love, so I can't even enjoy my moment, i have been hostage for 10 years, may i know what is the drug name that you used in your video, i wanna eat it as much as i can, doesn't matter if i would be alive or dead, even if i get only 1 day free from being hostage, i will be the happiest one alive in this world

I have been dealing with OCD since I was a teenage. Now I am 34 and it's getting better and better, but all these because of God. I was saved by Jesus when it first started, and at first, I didn't know what was happening. I thought it was my fault, because I departed from God. Then, I started searching on the Internet and realized it was Ocd, but I couldn't resist it. It was a huge battle, with many relapses, but the victory started to really appear when God baptized me with the Holy Spirit. Speaking and singing in tongues started to heal my broken mind and God helped me to do the things I was afraid to do. God also spoke to me through people, using prophecy and visions and told me He would heal me step by step. I was so depressed for 10 years or more and I thought I would never recover, because my obsessions were impossible to live with, they were affecting vital aspects of my life. My Ocd was telling me I was allowed to eat only certain foods, from a certain store, I could wear only some colors in clothes, I should pray in a certain manner, and many more, or else I was sinning and going to hell. But now I am here to testify that Jesus is Alive and is able to heal, praise Him! He can give you your life back and make it even better, because Ocd is used for us to depend on Him and to be witnesses of His amazing power.

As a severe OCD sufferer, this brought me to tears. So many times I tried to explain to my family how bad ocd makes me feel but they can never really understand. I want to show them this video. Thank you for making it.

I agree this was a very good movie. It held my attention from start to finish with is rare. I wanted to say that it would be nice to see another one, maybe, that kind of explains, or demonstrates, what are the driving thoughts behind the ritualistic behavior (the knocking in her case, the repetition, etc.)? Is it the same type of intrusive throughts that she was otherwise having, or a different kind of thought? That would also really help in understanding OCD I think.

"wave back and that dog gets hit by a car" i hate having to decide between a perceived negative outcome and the thing i know is realistic.

This is the best depiction of OCD that I've ever seen. That nagging voice inside, though it's not someone else's voice.. it's your own internal dialogue and it never shuts up. It is exhausting.

As someone who struggles with OCD, I really feel to thank you for making this video. Seeing such an accurate representation of the disorder is rare, since everyone seems to be focused on the usual harmful stereotypes. I think my favourite scene ever is 7:35 and I'm really saying I FELT IT. Such a simple but hitting way to describe the difficult to separate intrusive thoughts from you. Oh, and mentioning religious-themed OCD is something I personally appreciated a lot. Thank you so much. I wish there were more content like this when we talk about OCD.