"Grown Up" is about a relationship I had when I was younger that I was only able to recently process and fully understand now that I’m an adult. A situation sadly so many girls (and boys) can relate to. I just hope that by sharing my story and its nuances, others that have experienced something similar will feel seen and not alone.
This video is comprised of home videos from my childhood, and footage from when I moved to New York City in my late teens - when the situation happened. Looking back on that time, I might have thought I was so grown up and independent, but I was more like the little kid in the videos.
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LYRICS
Twenty candles on the cake
Yellow cabs and vintage gowns
I could've used a friend
When you came around
Watched me lose my world
So you gave me yours
Said nothing's gonna hurt you now
Kissed me and you said I was so mature
Thought I had it figured out
Made me feel so grown up, grown up
Where were all the grown ups, growing up
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young
New city all alone
My parents broke our home
Thought I was so independent
Rewrite the story every time I tell it
I was just a kid
Couldn't even drink
Younger than your son is now
Does it make you sick
Did you really think I'd never say the words out loud
Thought I wouldn't find you out
Made me feel so grown up, grown up
Where were all the grown ups, growing up
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young
How could you be having fun
I was way too young
How could you be having fun
I was way too young
You were not a white knight
You were just a man
Now I'm finally old enough
To fucking understand
I wasn't an old soul
I was just a kid
How do you sleep at night
Knowing what you did
Made me feel so grown up, grown up
Where were all the grown ups, growing up
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young
Watched me lose my world
So you gave me yours
Said nothing's gonna hurt you now
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young