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; The struggle is real. We gotta go through it to get through it. ;

My current depressive episode is coming to an end. I'm alleviating the amount of tabs I take daily. That's a feeling inside of me that I'm coming back fron the dead now. Y'all guys, keep going! I believe in you. You are important and needed.

God! Why is this so beautiful?!

спасибо, ты помог мне, хоть я и не знаю, был ли в этом смысл

25:05 afraid of monsters mentioned

The D was Depressive, knew it was something. Also if you wanna get out of this, dont listen to this, having the idea of sadness pumped into your brain at all times is not good, now go buy some thrash vinyls.

Au II

nothing better to study to

Turn to Jesus

Hyvä että mukaan mahtuu myös onnellisia loppuja niitä ei löydy minun elämästäni,joko yliannostuksia,vakivaltaisia kuolemia,toiaten käden kautta,kaikki on viety ketkä olivat minulle Tärkeimpiä ihmisiä...🖤🫀

i've developed drug addiction recently and it makes my life miserable. I've been suffering from depression since I was 16 years old (I'm 22 now) and always stayed away from any type of drugs. However, I went through a tough breakup and something inside broke. First, i stayed 2 months at home and vegetated. Wake up, smoke cigarettes, eat, and go to sleep. After that, I met a guy and we smoked a lot of weed together but I was happy somehow. Even tho I thought I was introvert, it turns out that actually, i am a more extroverted person than i thought. I was suffering because of a breakup and met a girl who I liked (she didn't like me) and started doing speed. from September to November 2023 I've been taking many drugs: ketamine, speed, weed, and so on. I was trying to destroy myself as much as possible. i took heroic doses which made my trip more like suffering than fun. Luckily my mom noticed that i was behaving weird. She called for cops because i was missing for 3-4 days without any information regarding where the fuck I actually am. the Police was searching for me but we were chasing after my friend's girlfriend cause she had a mental breakdown and run away from his apartment. After we found her I drove to the my friends parents' house cause they wanted somthing from him. as it turned out it was a trap to catch me and send me to the psychiatric ward. I spend there 2 weeks and 2 days. Now i am trying to get out of this addiction that I developed. Kids stay away from drugs. If you think that you are indestructible then i must tell you that you are not and as we call it in Poland "dragi zmiatają z planszy". Stay away from drugs. don't drink too often and do what you love in life. Don't waste your life like I did Kid. luv u all

11days got my heart throbbing

I had somany failures. Like being a successful pianist. I just wish the things I succeed in were actually meaningful. I hate working in finance.

A few years ago, I'm listening to every DSBM bands and after events that i survived in my life, I've still alive but happy and grateful for my existence. What i am trying to say is, it's will be okay!!! things will be better, and life is really good despite every problem! And you can survive all this! peace <3

i guess this is the end

had the worst life compared to people at my age. 24 years and i never had a gf. cant do it because my little brother will be left alone. I hope god helps me.

Maybe it is the best choice

G R E A T !

This is my last comment goodbye everyone.

i plan on offing myself to this

I'm not here because I'm sad I just find it to be relaxing good luck to eneyone who needs it

I feel so much pain inside, life is a poison

Might try to kms again like last month lol (my scars are getting out of control and they're everywhere*

I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve cried to 11 days.Such a beautiful song

Im just relistening to this simply just to reassure myself that im fine and i will be. its a long process of healing but last march, i attempted suicide by overdosing and until now its still stuck with me. The doctors upgraded my meds from fluvoxamine to escitalopram, it still feels the same. what really pushed me to kms was the overwhelming events that happened when i was off meds so suddenly and people around me suddenly became the devil, my life suddenly became much more shit, really shit infact. I try to tell myself that its temporary but it just got worst and worst. I dont wanna describe the rest as its not worth anyones time but I dosed a high amount of dxm and went to sleep hoping i wouldnt wake up. but i did and i was in extreme pain, it felt like a familiar type of pain yet also unknown and immense, I called in at 3am and they came for me. I only spent a day in the icu with just iv put into me and my blood drawn. nothing else. the doctors were pissed at me for having kms because it was late and theyre working overtime and i overheard that i was causing them a ton of trouble. i cried for hours until the evening till my parents arrived and i was discharged from the hospital after that. i still think about it after that and how im causing so much trouble even after that. im so sick and tired of being sick and tired of everything that happened. as of now im still healing from that, im still getting side effects from the overdose, my anxiety attack worsen and my stomach keeps waking me up to dump out what was left of the poison that almost killed me, my paranoia skyrocketed, everything felt worst inside. my parents keep telling me to believe harder in god, keep praying to no avail. there may be no cure at all but im just trying to find a way to cope and suppress that suicidal feeling. i look at the scars on my body every single day and that just makes me feel as if theres no hope in recovering. but another side of me is comforting myself and telling me that it may not be possible for me to get back to normal fully but if i were to think realistically of life instead of positively, i would be able to try and find a solution to making things easier. i have another side of me that emotionally supports me throughout this crazy life and i hope i can at least try to accept who i am now and just live with it, in a more realistic way. my multiple attempts at suicide may just haunt me but that wil serve as a lesson to me that i survived for something thats good to come in the future for me. i dont think my future will be as bright as other people i know but at least i can live to be a useful person or a useful leech. honestly i can just shrug off the fact that i kms but if anything, it will still try and lurk in the back of my find at any given moment. so ill have to only choose one. good day

Acts 16:31 and john 3:3 guys. If you dont want your life, then the Lord wants it

Thanks for this awesome playlist!

This slaps

burzum is dsbm???

When I was a kid (7-8) I wondered if people would miss me if I would die, now I know that nobody gives a shit about me, and it I realized that I never should have been born in the first place, I want to die, but I’m too much of a pussy to do something about it, I guess I’ll have to wait it out until I’m fucking 80, I’m not scared to die, or scared of what comes after, I just know that I won’t feel this pain anymore, I just know that it will all be over. To the younger ones that read this right now, Be happy now, before it’s too late.

Time heals no wounds

I guess life is not good anymore so why should i even live😊

Where do I find the band "melancholie" this song sounds so good but idk where to find them

😂🎉Today i'm gonna be dead

Perfeito

got this recommended to me today. that's a great playlist! thank you!

Sometimes I feel as if I have been forgotten, left behind. There was a time when everyone knew me and we laughed together but now I am tossed aside and no one even knows my name. I don’t want to die because that would mean that they are right and I am nothing and no one and am tossed aside but I don’t want to live because if I do that means I can be tossed away again. I wish I could stay in a limbo not alive and not dead simply existing. I’m a good person a good friend if anyone gave me a chance to be one. I would love my friends even when they stopped loving me.

Is Pacou still making Music or Playing Live and DJ Sets? Don't really see him around these days.

minhas anotações pessoais da playlist (ignore) 00:00:00 - 01 - favorito - Fjaer - 11 Days 00:11:30 - 02 - favorito - Apati - Morgondagen 00:19:54 - 03 - like - ... - The Tears of an Anguished Soul 00:26:29 - 04 - like - Melancolie - Lost Life 00:31:09 - 05 - favorito - Burzum - Erblicket Die Tochter Des Firmaments 00:39:01 - 06 - dislike - Abyssic Hate - Depression Part1 00:51:39 - 07 - dislike - Lyrinx - No Failure In Suicide 01:02:07 - 08 - dislike - Hopeless - Even Death Rejects Me 01:10:29 - 09 - like - Культура Курения - Конфискатор 01:20:02 - 10 - like - Hanging Garden - I Was Cold Beside You 01:29:09 - 11 - like - Psychalgia - Cold Alienation (Instrumental Demo) 01:34:30 - 12 - favorito - Apati - Eufori 01:39:38 - 13 - like - Worthless Life - Autumnal Suicide (Instrumental) 01:44:51 - 14 - like - Sorrow - Sorrow (Instrumental) 01:48:07 - 15 - favorito - Stunde Null - Enshrouded (Instrumental) ...

minhas anotações pessois da playlist (ignore) 00:00:01 - 01 - like - Sadness - Useless 00:12:05 - 02 - dislike - Trist - Sneni 00:22:29 - 03 - like - Hypothermia - Isolation 00:40:43 - 04 - dislike - Anti - Landscape In Minor 00:46:30 - 05 - like - Ellende - Berge 00:53:45 - 06 - like - Sterbend - Dwelling Lifeless 01:00:05 - 07 - like - Araxas - Suicide Of My Mind 01:11:58 - 08 - like - Silencer - Death - Pierce Me 01:22:29 - 09 - dislike - Ghost Bath - Death And The Maiden 01:28:52 - 10 - dislike - Austere - Only The Wind Remembers 01:42:16 - 11 - dislike - Trist - Trnový Labyrint 01:56:46 - 12 - favorito - Amfarek - Sleep In Darkness... 01:59:09 - 13 - favorito - Silencer - Sterile Nails And Thunderbowels (Intrumental) 02:05:25 - 14 - like - Fjaer - Lost Honour 02:13:25 - 15 - like - Horns Emerging - Spleen

i really need to find some kind of hope dude

Man im tired... and not even 30... f this

Perfect for nights where all you have is even more depressing thoughts, worse than before. There is something magical about atmosphere that dsbm albums create, it’s suffocating and painful, yet it helps.

did anyone do it?

Говно 😅😅😅полное 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅

y'all are so corny

guys calm down just get jacked to this shit as you listen

I just want to be in a coma and hope life passes to grant me something better.

Second one is nice

as hard as things get I’m just glad I have music like this to help me through. can’t promise things will get better for anyone but existence is a rarity. And even in your awful, miserable state there are still simple things like music that are here for you. Sometimes that might be worth sticking around for, I’m an insomniac with bipolar disorder and my life has been awful for years. I’ve spent lots of time in the psych ward and I’ve made suicide attempts and I self harm. I’m lucky to have found someone who loves me though and I get to listen to my records every day after terrible days at work. It can be incredibly hard but if you can find just one thing during your day that makes you smile, even for a moment then I think that might just be enough to stick around for. But I know that it’s not simple like that for everyone and I wish I knew how to help. I know it’s a black metal comment section and I’m probably not supposed to say things like this but I love all of you and I hope that somehow you’re able to make it through and get better, even just slightly.