Tanya Zajdel
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UNBLOCK YOUR CROWN CHAKRA IN 10 MINUTES!
Today, experience the magic of Sahasrara, your crown chakra.
Unblock this energy center for a connection beyond the physical self. As you engage in practices for Sahasrara, connect with cosmic energy and experience the beauty within.
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Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on creating programs that facilitate trauma healing through creating new neural connections in the brain called 'neuroplasticity exercises'.
Rewire Therapy techniques combine various well-known therapies to repair and reset the nervous system after trauma, including Somatic Experiencing, yoga, mindfulness, CBT, Qigong, authentic movement and a combination of expressive, creative art therapies.
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UNBLOCK YOUR THIRD-EYE CHAKRA IN 10 MINUTES!
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Today, explore the realms of Ajna, your third-eye chakra. Unblock this energy center for enhanced insight and trust in your inner wisdom. As you engage in practices for Ajna, awaken your intuition and embrace the clarity it brings. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on creating programs that facilitate trauma healing...
UNBLOCK YOUR THROAT CHAKRA IN 10 MINUTES
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Today, dive into Vishuddha, your throat chakra, and unlock the power of expression. Unblock this energy center for improved communication and active listening. As you explore practices for Vishuddha, express yourself confidently and authentically. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on creating programs that facilitat...
UNBLOCK YOUR HEART CHAKRA IN 10 MINUTES
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Today, experience the magic of Anahata, your heart chakra. Unblock this energy centre for love, compassion, and healing. As you engage in heart-opening practices, open your heart to the transformative power of love. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on creating programs that facilitate trauma healing through creatin...
UNBLOCK YOUR SOLAR PLEXUS CHAKRA IN 10 MINUTES
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Today, discover the transformative power of Manipura, your solar plexus chakra. Unblock this energy center for increased self-esteem, courage, and productivity. As you delve into practices aligned with Manipura, ignite your inner power and embrace positive transformation. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on creatin...
UNBLOCK YOUR SACRAL CHAKRA IN 10 MINUTES!
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Today, we dive into Svadhisthana, unlocking creativity and embracing fluidity in life. As we explore practices tailored to balance this sacral chakra, discover the transformative power of a harmonious Svadhisthana in fostering emotional well-being. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on creating programs that facilita...
Unblock your ROOT CHAKRA in 10 minutes!
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Today, our journey through the chakras begins with Muladhara, your root chakra. Unblock this energy center to enhance your strength, confidence, and self-sufficiency. As we delve into practices designed to open Muladhara, discover the power of a balanced root chakra in fostering resilience and stability. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. T...
Nurture Self-Love, Self-Care, and Self-Esteem
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Have you been grappling with low self-esteem, wrestling with self-love, or finding self-care challenging? Take a moment for yourself and join in on this 10-second guided somatic exercise. Somatic techniques, which can include breathwork, meditation, and movement, work to nurture the mind-body connection, allowing us to explore our emotions, sensations, and memories safely and gently. This heigh...
DR. JORINA ON THE NERVOUS SYSTEM'S STRESS RESPONSE SYSTEM
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Understanding the role of the vagus nerve can help on your journey to healing. As the primary nerve of the parasympathetic nervous system, it functions as the body's regulator, influencing how we respond to stress. In trauma survivors, the nervous system often becomes dysregulated, keeping us locked in the stress response. Vagal toning exercises are designed to soothe and stimulate the vagus ne...
HOW CHILD LOSS AFFECTED ME!
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“Grief is love with no place to go” - Karen Gibbs Should you seek additional support, our Healing from Sexual and Reproductive Trauma Program can help you to safely and gently validate feelings of loss and process the psychological and physiological symptoms of birth trauma. Tanya is a trauma healing coach, a women’s health nurse, and a published feminist author. Tanya focuses primarily on crea...
RELEASE TRIGGERS & ANXIETY WITH THIS SOMATIC TECHNIQUE
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Follow along with this gentle somatic technique when you are feeling anxious or triggered. In moments of overwhelm, take a breath and ground yourself in the present. Focus on your breath and the rhythm of your heartbeat to calm your mind and body. Try this exercise and let it be a soothing pause in your day. If you found it helpful, follow the link below to explore our Somatic Therapy Program. ...
IS TRAUMA AFFECTING YOUR LIFE?
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IS TRAUMA AFFECTING YOUR LIFE?
IT IS ALL CONNECTED! Trauma is stored in your body.
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IT IS ALL CONNECTED! Trauma is stored in your body.
ARE YOU STRUGGLING WITH ANXIETY? TRY THIS EXERCISE.
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ARE YOU STRUGGLING WITH ANXIETY? TRY THIS EXERCISE.
Healing from Generational Trauma and Shame
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Healing from Generational Trauma and Shame
HERE'S HOW TO RELEASE YOUR TRAUMATIC MEMORIES
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HERE'S HOW TO RELEASE YOUR TRAUMATIC MEMORIES
DO ALL TRAUMA SURVIVORS HAVE ANXIETY?
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DO ALL TRAUMA SURVIVORS HAVE ANXIETY?
HOW TO KNOW IF YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS STRUGGLING
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HOW TO KNOW IF YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS STRUGGLING
CAN NARCISSISTS REALLY APOLOGIZE?
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CAN NARCISSISTS REALLY APOLOGIZE?
RECLAIMING YOUR LIFE | HOW TO THRIVE AFTER NARCISSISTIC ABUSE
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RECLAIMING YOUR LIFE | HOW TO THRIVE AFTER NARCISSISTIC ABUSE
Safely Release Stored Trauma with Somatic Therapy
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Safely Release Stored Trauma with Somatic Therapy
Healing from Within: Somatic Therapy vs Talk Therapy
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Healing from Within: Somatic Therapy vs Talk Therapy
THREE SIGNS YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM IS HEALING
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THREE SIGNS YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM IS HEALING
IS YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM OVERWHELMED? YOU COULD HAVE A WEAK VAGUS NERVE!
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IS YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM OVERWHELMED? YOU COULD HAVE A WEAK VAGUS NERVE!
RESTORE YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM WITH THIS 10-MINUTE SOMATIC EXERCISE
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RESTORE YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM WITH THIS 10-MINUTE SOMATIC EXERCISE
REWIRE YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM WITH SOMATICS
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REWIRE YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM WITH SOMATICS
REWIRE YOUR NERVOUS SYSYEM WITH OUR 10-MINUTE TRIGGER RELEASE EXERCISES
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REWIRE YOUR NERVOUS SYSYEM WITH OUR 10-MINUTE TRIGGER RELEASE EXERCISES
BODY-BASED TRAUMA THERAPY: A HOLISTIC APPROACH
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BODY-BASED TRAUMA THERAPY: A HOLISTIC APPROACH
THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF THERAPY
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THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF THERAPY
HEAL YOUR TRAUMA AND ANXIETY BY EXPLORING THE HEALING POWER OF SLEEP
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HEAL YOUR TRAUMA AND ANXIETY BY EXPLORING THE HEALING POWER OF SLEEP

Komentáře

  • @misterfroz
    @misterfroz Před 7 dny

    3 years of unemployment, from Argentina. I know my country is going through a deep economical recession, and a lot of people with Autism Spectrum Disorder are in a similar place. I just wish it would be different for me at least.

  • @tobisalami2607
    @tobisalami2607 Před 8 dny

    Got laid off in march and been here looking 1500 plus applications and no response, very depressing and i am happy my wife still works coz i dunno what we would do ! it is tough to stay positive and hope for something! keep your head up ,everything worse always gets better

  • @Ad-nu4tk
    @Ad-nu4tk Před 11 dny

    are you able to be a somatic therapist without being a licensed therapist? Is that the best avenue to do this type of work or is becoming a somatic coach better?

  • @Coinhunter65
    @Coinhunter65 Před 16 dny

    Mine is i can't think straight i need help please

  • @loka382
    @loka382 Před 17 dny

    4 months unemployed , It's really sucks that you don't know when are you going to have a chance to work and provide money and take care of your family . The voices in my mind are so loud and its all negative , but I am trying the best I could to keep going and try harder and harder to find a job and start building my future , One thing I know that there is always a light and hope at the end of the dark road , I just hope that I don't lose myself when the light comes to my path .

  • @fifiearthwanderer
    @fifiearthwanderer Před 22 dny

    How do we release this bracing and armoring?

  • @ResidentEddy
    @ResidentEddy Před 23 dny

    About to hit a year of unemployment this month. I wanted to be a pilot. I wanted to be an engineer. I wanted to be a mechanic. I wanted to be successful. Right now, I just want a job. Any job. I don't just want any job. I NEED any job. But everyone knows I'm just a washed-up deadbeat veteran with a disability. I only have my wife. And I am failing her. I need money. Food. Anything. Anything but this..

  • @mykealwarren6933
    @mykealwarren6933 Před 29 dny

    Thank you

  • @kelly-aradialips9130
    @kelly-aradialips9130 Před měsícem

    Did you talk about the guys you falsely accuse of raping on court. You are a freak that deserved jail not the 200k the court sentence you. You know how that affect his life ? Shame on you

  • @vaughnherrera6757
    @vaughnherrera6757 Před měsícem

    4 months unemployed. I feel worthless.

  • @firstofall2676
    @firstofall2676 Před měsícem

    Did you take to time to apologize to KLH?

  • @firstofall2676
    @firstofall2676 Před měsícem

    200 000$

  • @amyjwebb7937
    @amyjwebb7937 Před měsícem

    One year unemployed...how demoralizing. I feel like less of a person and useless.

  • @Astral_Dusk
    @Astral_Dusk Před měsícem

    1.5 years unemployed and depression absolutely harsh seeing rejection after rejection, 500+ rejections and the other half just ghosting. It's very depressing how miserable the applicable process has gotten along with the rude harassment lack of morals and values at some jobs too...

  • @dylant6367
    @dylant6367 Před měsícem

    You should actually dig a hole jump in and ask someone nicely to cover you with the dirt so the world will be a better place :)

  • @bynturong
    @bynturong Před měsícem

    False accusations of rape. Now pay, chakra nuts

  • @Djieff
    @Djieff Před měsícem

    200 000$!

  • @elmoustachioqc3261
    @elmoustachioqc3261 Před měsícem

    LOL LYING TOO !

  • @elmoustachioqc3261
    @elmoustachioqc3261 Před měsícem

    Fucking lies

  • @DouglasReed-hh7jh
    @DouglasReed-hh7jh Před měsícem

    Are you the woman who lied and manipulated the justice system paid for by our taxes so she could destroy an innocent man's life and make a profit with your suspicious and pseudo-scientific therapies????

  • @ericcote1744
    @ericcote1744 Před měsícem

    The real bull shit 😂😂😂 Montréal Canada the lady is CRIMINAL

  • @ericcote1744
    @ericcote1744 Před měsícem

    2024 la cour suprême viens de trancher...Après avoir fait vivre l'enfer à un homme pour absolument elle vient de se faire déclarer coupable sur toute la ligne et doit maintenant payer en dommages un montant de 200000 dollars, bref ATTENTION SES UNE CRISS DE FOLLE

  • @flack3
    @flack3 Před měsícem

    J'en connais une qui a mal enligné ses chakras 😂

  • @Mrdjougou80
    @Mrdjougou80 Před měsícem

    What can i do if a woman ruined my life with false allegations ? You should know …

    • @johnny310xx
      @johnny310xx Před měsícem

      hahahahaha

    • @tracylmcenaney
      @tracylmcenaney Před měsícem

      Reading this story now, she should have received serious jail time for what she did, on top of the 200k she owes the man in damages.

    • @rogierleferink615
      @rogierleferink615 Před měsícem

      You should go to jail , you destroyed someones life. Incredible victim acting...bravo.

  • @Mrdjougou80
    @Mrdjougou80 Před měsícem

    Popular for the wrong reasons today…

    • @firstofall2676
      @firstofall2676 Před měsícem

      sadly

    • @Mrdjougou80
      @Mrdjougou80 Před měsícem

      Remember one thing : 98% of allegations are usually true and 87% of woman and little girls are the victims of abuse by men. So this lady here is putting a huge dark cloud over real victims.

  • @jeremiel3821
    @jeremiel3821 Před měsícem

    200 000$ 😅

  • @user-mm7xw8jt5q
    @user-mm7xw8jt5q Před měsícem

    This lady is nuts

  • @biancam.3828
    @biancam.3828 Před měsícem

    I got an inheritance of 154’000, I immediately quit my job at lowes because at the time I thought it was killing me. I now have paid for school, a decent car and a house (with my partners help, who has a career) And with all of these achievements, I have never felt so meaningless, I apply for a couple jobs a day, I get stuff done around the house, I take care of our four dogs, but I still constantly feel like I am nothing. I have this intense pressure and heaviness on my chest and in the front of my head all day, and sometimes I feel like ending my life, because it just feels so incredibly hard to find fulfillment.

    • @buzzcutbiene2211
      @buzzcutbiene2211 Před měsícem

      @biancam.3828 I feel you because I just got fired and I know unemployment from my past. I also have kids and animals to care for but the feelings you describe are the same. On the other hand it really makes me sad that we all feel this way, that we got our entire self worth out of this and I ask myself why is this so? I think home work does not count for societys standards but to be true I also feel lonely now without my co-workers.

  • @user-je1hi6jy1i
    @user-je1hi6jy1i Před 2 měsíci

    Talk therapy is just bs Somatic experiencing and body mind connection type of therapy is 100x effective

  • @klanderkal
    @klanderkal Před 2 měsíci

    Im 62.. loved my great job for 20yrs.. i made a very bad decision,.. and my job was over. It has destroyed me.. My job & workplace, friends, etc.. was my life. I was devastated,. I have depression now. Life is horrible now.

    • @Clannah
      @Clannah Před 2 měsíci

      I hope you find peace and happiness again❤

    • @klanderkal
      @klanderkal Před 2 měsíci

      @Clannah 🙏Thank you for caring about me.. Appreciate your hope of happiness again. I haven't yet recovered, depression is so unbearable. I've reached out.. talked to everyone possible.... still, I'm unable to accept 😌 It's so terrible when you love something or someone so much. When it's, or they're gone.... can take the life out of you, and nothing any longer means anything. I've called 988 many times. I'm not doing well.... T Y... for caring ⚘️ KaL

    • @Clannah
      @Clannah Před 2 měsíci

      @@klanderkal I understand you but sometimes its necessary to let go things. Maybe its a chance for you to explore more and have different world. Again i hope u find the right thing for you

    • @klanderkal
      @klanderkal Před 2 měsíci

      @Clannah Thank you for the hope for me.. My job was as a city bus driver, was the best job I ever had. It became my everything. All my friends, coworkers, passengers. ... I was so attached. And made my workplace a second home, and my family. It's affected me terribly. Caused me to have anxiety and depression. ( and insomnia ). I'm now, unable to enjoy life. It all was a mistake. This all shouldn't have happened. I planned on living out this job for my whole life. It wasn't work for me. ..... im so upset, all that had happened. I just can't believe it. It's ruined my life, my mental and physical health. Im never happy anymore. Depression really is a horrible illness. It's been 8 months.. I can't stand it.

  • @Azrablh
    @Azrablh Před 2 měsíci

    I need help 😢

  • @ksalphalcsihp1252
    @ksalphalcsihp1252 Před 2 měsíci

    The worst thing is because your parent demanding you get a job.. 😅😅😂😂

  • @amy-lynne6172
    @amy-lynne6172 Před 2 měsíci

    Terrific! You are ahead of your time...

  • @amy-lynne6172
    @amy-lynne6172 Před 2 měsíci

    Thank you

  • @blissfull7648
    @blissfull7648 Před 2 měsíci

    3 years now. If it wasnt for side gigs, aww man.

  • @Cloc8
    @Cloc8 Před 3 měsíci

    The morning can be so bad that I sometimes have to call off the entire day. I hate that but U am having hell in my mind being unemployed. So much time to think. Worried I’ll appear nervous our out of date. Just hell. No you are not alone congrtyoh can get out of bed. Go into town talk to ppl maybe. But it sounds like you have the inner strength to conquer this situation. Wish you help and heart!

  • @johnCjr4671
    @johnCjr4671 Před 3 měsíci

    Working for companies is hopeless these days , just being working and poor isn’t going to give you hope or motivation to work !

  • @user-fp8xc8lf3f
    @user-fp8xc8lf3f Před 3 měsíci

    when to use my nuts vs my peepnis

  • @danielakolundzija50
    @danielakolundzija50 Před 3 měsíci

    Wonderful thank you. ❤

  • @dave8229
    @dave8229 Před 3 měsíci

    YOGA???? Seriously???? Then what???

  • @iamtedsanity
    @iamtedsanity Před 3 měsíci

    5 years unemployed and depressed. I honestly feel like I have no more worth in this world

    • @3.14px7
      @3.14px7 Před 2 měsíci

      I hope u doing okay. I will be better at the end of the day!

    • @smokachu7290
      @smokachu7290 Před 2 měsíci

      im on a four years unemployment im twenty seven years old lmaoooo you should try stand up comedy if u live in nyc and just talk about your problem on stage, your not the only one lol we are all fucked together

    • @stevenstancell
      @stevenstancell Před 2 měsíci

      Do you have a husband or wife that takes care of you or are you living with parents? How can you be unemployed 5 years and still pay rent? I’ve been unemployed for 10 months and I’m 4 months late on rent

    • @smokachu7290
      @smokachu7290 Před 2 měsíci

      @@stevenstancell I have parents that take care of me financially, in hindsight it looks like I’m a spoiled asshole for being taken care of, but my anxiety and depression stems from my childhood neglect so when I go into job interviews I get super nervous and I start to get panic attacks and it’s just hard for me to get a job, a lot of people think I’m lazy for being unemployed for so long, but what they don’t know is I been going to interviews back to back and failing all of them because I can’t get the nervousness out of my system and the longer I’m unemployed the more depressed I get, job interviews suck too because you have to play a professional role and that’s just not me, in this world you can only get so far when you play up your character and fake your resume so employers want you, I try to get menial jobs too like McDonald’s employee and they don’t even want me, i just don't like the fact that job interviews feel like auditions, and it makes it feel like the only way i can live is if i make the employer like me....its so fake....makes me feel like a stripper "dance for me so i can give you this minimum wage job"….

    • @Gankoittetsu
      @Gankoittetsu Před 2 měsíci

      And family pressure.

  • @brqbui
    @brqbui Před 3 měsíci

    No one believes that rushing others is a trauma response from not wanting to be perceived as a failure. Steady living is always out of reach until the highest of standards can be maintained, and the high standard continues to remain at the soles of God's feet.....

  • @primefashion06
    @primefashion06 Před 3 měsíci

    Going through this now. The worst moments are when I wake up I get a wave of emptiness and a feeling that my heart is soaked and heavy. The feeling is awful and almost suicidal. It lasts a few seconds/minutes before I distract myself eg by getting out of bed/couch, logging into the internet to read something, etc. I have also enrolled at the gym in the evening and this makes me feel better afterwards. Generally, I feel worse in the morning and much better as the day ends. However, my worry is, how long will this take? Will I feel like this forever? How did I find myself here where I know no peace? ( I am writing this as a 30-year-old medical doctor in Kenya)

    • @Junyahb46
      @Junyahb46 Před měsícem

      Try doing some yoga in morning and meditate. Have that time to love yourself and remember you are not alone. I also am in this position ATM !

    • @Laura-ji8be
      @Laura-ji8be Před měsícem

      oh boy seems like we three are definitely in the same boat 😞

  • @joedarboleda6099
    @joedarboleda6099 Před 3 měsíci

    5 months unemployment, more rejection more disappointed. im thinking a lot right now, negative thoughts.

  • @dianafriend6236
    @dianafriend6236 Před 3 měsíci

    In the intro picture are you giving the collective feminine the example of what we as feminine have generational shame for?

  • @wavy2k
    @wavy2k Před 3 měsíci

    Month 6 i don’t even care anymore. This world is better for others

  • @ankascreations
    @ankascreations Před 3 měsíci

    Please please tell me the music, it's soooo calming❤

  • @MishMacky
    @MishMacky Před 4 měsíci

    Really helpful. Thank you. 🙏

  • @juliaagnes7
    @juliaagnes7 Před 4 měsíci

    The link does not work.

  • @user-fp8yq5wh6p
    @user-fp8yq5wh6p Před 4 měsíci

    Nice explanation ! Well, I have sadly a very different experience. Very unsafe experience. I had been told that online courses of Annie Brook are the right thing for me because it is somatic, movement physical approach that I was searching for due to a physical impairment that was very well known to Annie Brook. I came there because of somatic physical issues in my body and made it very clear what I am searching for, in form of e-mails that Annie Brook read and many time in the private sessions with her and in the online course of her. I had been asking Annie Brook and her stuff what kind of therapy modality it is, it did not seem to me as somatic or movement physical approach. I received no answer. In reality, I experienced that there was no somatic therapy, but the approach was aimed at people with behavioral and mental troubles like suicide, depressions, substance abuse, personality disorders etc. The stuff of Annie Brook tried slowly but surely instead of this claimed somatic approach implant ideas into my mind: they just said in the online public course out of the blue that I apparently " I am self-attacking myself" and that " I shall not do this" etc. I have never heard such a phantasmagory before. I told them repeatedly that they don´t need to worry and that I do not have such problems. However, they di did not stop. Slowly the experience developed into being attacked for wanting to ask a question/ or share my experience as other participants were allowed. I was literally not allowed to participate in the online courses and I was ostracized from the group. It was publicly shared about me that " I have no money, so I can do some other online courses" and much more. Once I managed to bring up my experience of a sick heart that I had in the past (the participants were encouraged to watch a picture of heart, so I brought up what my body needed to), I was immediately shut down in an aggressive way that in that sense, it does not matter what I say or what my body had gone through, that now I am in this group and I shall be safe with them and mainly, I have to shut up. I wrote an e-mail about this incident to the woman who did it (she was apparently a therapist accordingly Annie Brook, but in reality, she was a hairdresser, no therapy license). This lady responded that she attacked me because she does not listen to me at all and thus she did not care what I was saying. It was obviously a general approach towards me. She also told me that she does not listen to me because " I am speaking fast". It is quite a lie, however, somebody who is incompetent while playing a therapist can do lots of iatrogen damage and does not want to admit it. So, this person will invent any kind of justification to tell the victim why the victim had been badly treated and that the victim deserves the bad treatment. Annie Brook was so kind and offered me a scholarship for her online course. I had found out that were many people with scholarships (including the people Annie Brook wanted me to work with them as with "therapists"). I have felt very grateful toward Annie Brook. Annie Brook had written me an e-mail that I can get the scholarship, but only if I will work with a therapist who she is training. I felt obligated to do so because Annie Brook was so kind to give me a scholarship price for her online courses. The experience with the first therapist was was not that good: It took her 6 weeks to schedule a session with me. She was constantly losing my e-mails or she had to prepare for Easter etc. Finally the session might have been helpful as this lady seem to be nice, however she needed to direct the question of my physical sorrow that I came with into implanting into me these words: " I am in double bind" . Double bind is seen as a way of miscommunication, usually with intention to manipulate the other. Usually people with personality disorders use this deliberate way of miscommunication. It was as well forcefully pushed on to me that apparently " I am as well in power struggle" etc. Not sure what it should have ment. I wanted my somatic approach, I wanted an attention to my body. I wrote to this lady that I have the feeling that she does not want to work with me because she had these troubles to schedule a session with me. She responded (this time immediately, no need to wait for weeks) that I am mistaken and that IT MUST BE SO HARD FOR ME TO FEEL THE FEELINGS OF OTHERS and being persuaded that I know that they feel these feelings even thought this is not really what she feels. Another phantasmagory. Or attempt of iatrogen damage by trying to mind control me or move into some mental disease ? I had never given Annie Brook nor anybody from her stuff a permission to play a therapist for me, not at all to try to invent some diagnosis or mental diseases about me. I had told and written to Annie Brook that I search for a somatic therapy. Annie Brook had also never revealed to me what she is going to do behind my back. Later, I found out that Annie Brook offers a program for therapist who she trains. That was in the time I paid her money. Later Annie Brook changed it that anybody can be this "trainee". A coach, a therapist that is not registered, not licensed (basically anybody). I had only the information by Annie Brook that she trains therapists and that once she will train them, she will let me know. To my surprise the first therapist was a lady who did the same online course just couple of months before me ! However, I was not told by Annie Brook that these so called therapists in training often have no education in psychology, possibly as well no experience with psychotherapy whatsoever and if, then very little experience. The more, these" therapists" were not somatic therapist. The have just done the same online course I did....and in that course there was no somatic therapy. Additionally, these "therapists" had to negotiate the price with the client. I did not know it that I would be subjected to this as I had made clear to Annie Brook that I actually do not search for any therapist, I am only searching for some somatic approach for my body and if there would be any PERSON EXPERIENCED in somatic approach, I could only pay the lowest price at this moment. Much later, I found out that Annie Brook had a contract with these so called therapist that she will find clients for them. They paid her money for this. It started to make sense for me why I received the scholarship and why Annie so badly wanted me to do the sessions with these so called therapist. She needed to hook me in order to have somebody for her so called therapist. Annie just forgot to inform me about this fact and about what it all is about. Meanwhile Annie Brook wanted me to get in contact with a second therapist. I wanted to do what Annie Brook said because she was so kind and offered me the scholarship. This lady sent all my e-mails as copy to Annie Brook. I asked her after this and she could have not explain it. The therapist told me that she is not licensed, not registered therapist, she can only work as a coach. I asked her whether it is not unethical when she is with me in the same online course (she has just started as me) and when I am listening to her personal stories, seeing her family on video and she told me that it is not a problem for her. I asked her what kind of therapy modality it is Annie Brook uses as I have not noticed any somatic therapy approach so far. She could have not responded to me and she became visibly angry. She told me suddenly in a way that was more like a threatening me that if I I will want to commit a suicide or kill an elder (not sure where she had found an elder for me), she will be obligated to contact police ((despite she was a coach). Police in the US ? I live in far far eastern countries and I have never been to the US nor do I sadly understand the "online courses industry" there. Here was again the attempt to try to talk me into suicide. Repeating again and again that I want apparently commit a suicide, especially when I am physically sick, can lead to implanting these thoughts into brain and cause a brain traumatic injury. It could as well lead to the thought that the person will start to believe this implanted thought and actually do commit a suicide. Peter Levine speaks about it how harmful it is.