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Ngl it’s the best playlist I have ever listen for

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Hi, warning this is long and kinda a venting rant... uhh, I'm not normally one to talk about my own problems, I normally try to help others with theirs... which in heinsight probably isn't the healthiest... anyway, I'm currently in highschool, I started early, two years early actually... and it was the first actual school I'd ever gone to, because I had been home schooled up til that point... Obviously because I was younger than litteraly anyone else in the school and had never been to a school in the first place, I had to be tested to see if my work ethic was up to standard and interviewed to see if my social skills and maturity were fitting to the environment... I supposedly passed both with "flying colours" and was allowed into highschool. Unfortunately, that school did some shady shit... sweeping a serious court case in which a teacher accidently broke/fractured multiple students limbs and concussed a few others in a car incident under the rug... I had my arm broken, and, though I'm an empath by nature and normally not too keen on "vengence" I wanted justice, something to happen... but the entire school seemed to fold in on me and my family... lying and cheating out the justice system to get the teacher out of trouble, completely consequence-free. I felt like absolute shit... I was a lanky, witty, well known, nerdy eleven year old, in highschool with a massive group gunnng for me and I had no clue what to do... We left town two years later, I now board with my grandparents for the week, then return to my home town over the weekend, and that much constant change doesn't help with my case. This new school I'm at is fucking bullshit, the teachers are terrible at their jobs, they don't actually teach us and instead overload us with work, and to put it lightly, the students... I have found friends, but of every 30 people, at least one of them is depressed because of school, including one of my closest friends... and, I'm starting to see myself follow that road a bit too... which scares me... Because I'm younger I started off having forced check ins with counsellors or therapists every now and again through both schools, but, I don't look depressed, I wear dark clothes and hoodies sure, but I'm tan and get top grades, I do sports and parkour and shit, and I've always had a way with talking to adults or people older than me... and so every time counsellors talk to me, I convince them that nothings wrong, "you seem like a lively, happy chap" they say... I'm turning 14 in two days... Idk what to do... I'm just trying to vent somewhere because I'm told it's healthy but I don't know what the hell I'm doing in life... This isn't really motivational like everyone else, it's more, the perspective a "gifted" kid who's currently going through shit... not someones who done it and made it out the otherside... just me, a stranger, in a weird new place that neither you or him know... I've got to write some english essay right now because it's due tommorow and it's 10:50... good night... take care, any advice is appreciated.

I can’t do this anymore….

My dad punished me for watching p***, now I only have 2 hours of phone a day. I want to be skinny (the doctor prescribed me that) But I can't stop eating bc I get stressed. I get stressed bc of school and nobody gives a f. They say it's my fault, I just can't stop, it's too much.

my parents tell me i have a easy life, i do, "you don't need therapy you don't have problems" yeah right, i might not have depression, trauma, or an abusive family, but I DO have problems, I'm almost always stressed, I'm tired of existing, i wish to runaway but i know it's dangerous, i want to die but at the same time i don't want to, i rather be zoned out all day or just sleep the days away, my family is great, except my Abuela who is racist, s3xist, homophobic, transphobic and makes every little thing a problem and stresses everyone out (On my mom's side of the family), i never got to meet my grandpa cause he died a year before i was born, my other grandma (On my dad's side of the family) I've never met her but my dad told me that she's just as bad as my Abuela, my Abuela has called me mentally ill, she body shames my siblings, I've been emotionally manipulated by my past ex-best friends although I'm a little bit over that, thinking about it still hurts, i just want to stop existing, i want to escape reality, I'll take a rocket to mars and live there at this point, one time I've had a meltdown over something and my parents started calling me "Micah meltdown" (Micah is my deadname, Oliver is my preferred name) i felt judged and nervous when they called me that, it didn't feel good, i never told them how I felt about that "nickname" but i had told them to stop, they don't say it as much anymore but one of my younger siblings still call me it when I'm stressed or on the verge of having a breakdown or meltdown, i want to escape reality so badly, i'm ruined mentally from my stress and from being exposed to the bad stuff on the internet at like 7 years old.

i know this is a vent playlist but i havent heard that second song since my 2018 gacha phase-

Well, answering the description. I'm a suicidal gay ace who's having a hard time again, and fighting not to die. Let's see how long - hoping to get out of this again (but let's be honest, she won't darling :3)

Its 3 am and listening to this really helps me vent out my emotions and sort them out... Thank you so much, you don't know how helpful it is cus this helps me keep away from cutting myself.

I listened to this (after knowing what Wilbur Soot did) not realising one of his songs were in it and I nearly cried bc he was my idol and I loved his (and LoveJoys) songs...

Don't think too hard, the answers usually find you

I still love you, I don't think you've gotten worse, I think you're perfect

actually venting to random people on discord about an old friend that i never understood the actual feelings he had for me

i came out to my gf as trans (ftm) yesterday night (she was the first person i've told so far) and today at school she tried to out me to a group of our friends that we both know r 100% supportive. i never said she could do that. i already had super high anxiety js abt telling her, aka the person im closest to ever. so it should've been obvious that i was definitely not ready to tell anyone else. even if it was so no one would misgender me, she should've asked me first. ive asked her today for the second time not to try and do it again in hopes of her not doing it tmr. we dont rlly have the healthiest relationship but i still love her so very much. i'm js rlly conflicted rn

if i died you would cry but the scars are never enough

I cant cry, someone having a worse life than me

Another vent. The term sexual assault refers to sexual contact or behavior that occurs without explicit consent of the victim. Some forms of sexual assault include: Attempted rape. Fondling or unwanted sexual touching. Forcing a victim to perform sexual acts, such as oral sex or penetrating the perpetrator's body. This is the definition of sexual assault. My brother made me a victim of this several times. It started when he was 7 or 8. I was only 8 or 9. It went on for years and years. The most recent time was when I was on vacation in Hawaii. This was December 31st to January 13th. He sexually assaulted me on the 10th of January. I never spoke up about it because I never physically said no because of how scared I was. So I thought that would make people think I wanted it or something. But now that I’m 13, I’m finally able to realise what he did to me.

This is a vent. It’s really bad again. I am trying really hard to hang on to any reasons to live. I’m trying not to selfharm but it’s the only thing I can think of. I want to kms. I really do. No one would even notice anyway. No one would miss me. I’m just a burden. A big one. A big, fat, ugly burden. I wish I could tell my crush how much I like them. I wish I could tell them how much they mean to me. I am really fucked up. I wasn’t at school, because I wanted to kms. That’s why I wasn’t at school. Not because I was sick. But because I wanted to kms. I keep on asking myself, “Why me? Why must it be me that deals with other people’s issues?” I don’t know what I did to deserve the amount of hate I get but whatever it is must be something really big. I mean, obviously, if my friends needs to vent, I’m gonna let them but if they just vent without asking I just feel terrible. And I feel like my problems aren’t bad enough to vent about. Especially with my parents. I mean sure, they’re great and all but they’re really shitty in some categories. Like with self harm, school, friends, pretty much anything to deal with me.

This made me think about how no one irl understands me but someone in the comment section of a video do. Crazy shit.

im just so tired of life lately its just a never ending cycle of arguments problems and people...i just wanna be in a place with no people...or just people i like...

This made me think back to all the good times we had together as I watched them slowly begin to hate me as they left for someone else

Hey, if you are just sad or listening for fun then don’t worry about this. This goes to anyone who seriously is struggling. My name doesn’t need to be shared and neither does yours but please just talk about your feelings to someone just anyone and don’t suffer in silence. Don’t make the same mistake I made two years ago today don’t try commit the unthinkable. It doesn’t help anyone or do shit. It makes everything worse. So please speak out.

I’m listening to this because today one of my online friends died may he rest in peace 🕊️

I’m listening to this because today one of my online friends died may he rest in peace 🕊️

all the songs i have heard over 1000000 times but i still wish i could listen to them all the time🙃

I fake the smile I fake the laugh I fake the niceness I mask myself Why can’t they understand? Why can’t they understand what I try to say? The therian problems. They just don’t understand even with clear explanation. I’m below 5th year too, It’s crazy how little kids below second school have this feeling. Kill me.😊

why can’t my parents just understand?! that I hate myself and hate school. Everything is wrong with me and school is the only reason why I wanna die anxiety is the only reason why I wanna die. I just want to understand that I can’t do school anymore because this is the only reason why I hate my life.

I love you 10%❤ I love you 20%❤ I love you 30%❤ I love you 40%❤ I love you 50%❤ I love you 60%❤ I love you 70%❤ I love you 80%❤ I love you 90%❤ I LOVE YOU 100%❤ (You are pretty/handsome)

Боже.. Англичане просто такие комфортные.. 💗

Боже, я так плачу от комментариев.. Мне просто настолько приятно что остались такие люди.. Я просто плачу..)

“I gave you more of me then I ever gave to myself.” *hits hard…..*

Its kinda funny for some people to consider someone to be okay or not everyone needs diferent things in life moto here is dont put everyone in the same basket ;)

the pain of being in and out and in and out of depression made this playlist all the more refreshing

When you're feeling down and trying to cry to this but you're an og gacha kid and Miss Wanna Die is playing 😔

спустя несколько лет я снова нашёл тебя ... обожаю этот плейлист...

"Are you ok?" -"No. I'm really struggling and I really need some sort of support right now."- "Yeah, I'm fine.."

I tried my hand at poetry since it just seemed to come to mind while thinking. I don’t really know how to write it though. VENT (sort of??) When time is racing My thoughts are pacing When friends are leaving I’m left here weeping When my grades are dropping I’m stuck in turmoil But when life is fading I stay strong and loyal ___________________________

They see your pain They see how much you fight your depression They see that your in need of comfort They see that you need a hug They notice that you aren't doing to well They notice that your tired They notice that your stressed They notice your depressed They notice that you need people to understand you Hi, I'm They

honestly, I'm really just done with everything to the point I'm starting to just yell back at people. I don't care anymore.

*crying to Since I Saw Vienna* *Takes bong rip to numb the pain* *Violent coughing as Alien Blues begins*

OMG MISS WANNA DIEEE

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Hopefully my burnout will get better ❤️‍🩹 for now all I can do is cry 👍

this playlist really make me cry, i was doing homework when this playlist it was reproduced ( i didn't realize) then i beging to cry and let it all go... i'm very broke, i know :(

I want you to know that life is hard. You can't take away or replace the pain. I know it hurts, but do know in every sad life there's a spark of love and happiness, but it's you'r choice if you light it up..

shut up,count your calories!