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Mikey Mentality
Registrace 23. 11. 2012
Just me, and my personality disorders having a chat!
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Bluetoe Connection.
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My diagnosis is coming first this time, I shall have my G.P confirm it this to morrow which l👀ms
Sass Hat.
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Is what I have JUST named my magnificence...sorry...fascinate. I was literally gonna say magnificence t the end of the vid when I couldn't remember.
Absolutely, after go’ogling around I didn't realize that Simmy Krotiel's Bigger Blueprint was updated and you can make it bigger even faster, yep, what Simmy suggested before was pretty good, but now it can grow up to 4 ins, I managed 3 ins myself and I feel like a monster lol
This video brings me so much joy to listen to. I can really see myself alot in you and your interests and it is really such a interesting and wonderful thing it brings a big smile to my face. I got a lot of good laughs from your video as well.
I love your voice! And the way you dress (especially the cap). I think I'm in love. Just be you.
hope youre okay! u seem like a swell person. very lovely
Poor man, where have you gone ;-(
Hi I’m a woman with this and it sucks because I can’t work, I just can’t stand being around people too long, I isolate which I prefer. I wish I had infinity money so I could just disappear and live a quiet peaceful life. I don’t fit into this world.
With you man knowing how the shit is. It's fucked smoke a little weed drink a little be here now and don't worry bout them. They don't understand a person who understands the truth. Love you man your a good person Don't follow my advice though sometimes it's foolish to be like others. But you're in safe hands and love is all around. Love you man we're here with you be safe.
I get it. Thank you for being visible
What do you do for work?
This fit is fire
I'm a diagnosed Schizotypal and I super like this ✨ I was having a pretty lousy day, my therapy session irking me, but this made me smile ( ^ω^ ) Love seeing people being their eccentric, cool selves ✨
V true
Very true what you said about "powering through" sleepiness and then ending up with a load of adrenaline
I’ve never related to somebody as much as I do in this video holy shit I feel like I’ve found a home there needs to be some kinda chatroom for Schizotypals 😭
Gender identity and expression isn’t what they’re usually talking about I don’t think 😅 otherwise a huge chunk of the lgbtq+ community would be diagnosed
I don’t know what I have at all, they just say “anxiety” and “ADHD” which like, that doesn’t cover it, but either way I feel sort of a kinship there, and idk it’s just helpful to hear this stuff from people who are like me in some sort of way
that is one good semi-hollow body right there, man!
WOW! I am shook and in awe - you seem to be one hell of a person and also I really like your way of thinking! You seem so wise and intellectual, just wow! I’d like to have a beer or two with you and talk about everything that comes to our minds haha. Greetings from a EUPD girl from Germany! 🇩🇪
You seem so much like me I was just diagnosed with this recently
Miss you and your jiggle. Miss you and your mind. Just miss you sir xx
would love to hear you talk to russell brand.
At the Eksentrick box, The the-rapists have not checked it. But that is because if I dressed and acted as myself, People would laugh, point fingers etc. they did when I was younger. So I learned to blend in and fake it.
theres a lot of us that goes 'there i am'. Believe in urself, or else man. it's not a threat, it's just what it is. u don't need to define urself with a labeled disorder.
Thanks mate. I feel in the exact same boat. But I'm juggling senior management role, 2 kids under 3, home renovations and husband duties and rest of shit that comes. J feel like I would be able to do the routine you mentioned in the video but basics fall apart cause of responsibility which is always there
Currently off sick
I miss you. Feel like you have been gone a life time. Baffled this was just 2 months ago. Oh gorgeous x
Hi. I know I came outta nowhere but... May I ask if you know the person behind This channel? I watched his videos and then he disappeared... Do you know something? 😥 I hope my ask is not rude or something, by the way, English ain't my native language just in case I made any mistake. ~🐰
6:27 !!!!! Yes
5:00 thank you for making this point and all your insights, you are incredible ❤ I love that you're articulating my experience (shared) so damn well You're a Delight
That metaphor at the start was too good
I'm studying to be a therapist and your videos have helped me understand Schizotypal personality which is the personality I have the hardest understanding. I hope you feel better and I'm sorry society has made it hard for you to integrate your uniqueness. I definitely appreciate people like you.
I don't like growing a beard, because my ADHD makes me fidget with it the way you do and that annoys myself :)
8:20 onwards ... my life
Hey fams I like you 🥰 2:24 yes thank you !! Love the emotional honesty with feelings I resonate
Some things Are Best left unfilmed.
He's dead now so I wouldn't worry about it
@@rybags5863how do you know if you don't mind me asking? I don't know why I found myself checking channel today. Do you know what happened?
Thanks very much for making this video and sharing your experience. I started my medication today, this video has been insightful and informative 👍🏻. I hope you’re doing well?
I'm born female with this disorder and I know what you mean. Men's mental health issues get completely ignored and they don't get the emotional and social support that they need. They're expected to tough it out on their own. I didn't have to deal with that (for the most part, my life was messed up at certain points). I'd say this condition is hard on a female in a unique way though that gets overlooked. Women are expected to be social and people-oriented, and when you're just not neurologically wired for that it throws people off. I have often wished I didn't have this pressure and that people would just leave me alone. People find me creepy and (not to turn this into a point-scoring competition, I swear) men in particular have given me shit for not having a "sexy" personality which feels so embarrassing. But it might not match up at all to what you've experienced, because what I highlighted is simply social dynamics and not institutional or emotional gaslighting, and I do acknowledge that. I just wanted to share my objective perspective based on our shared subjective lense. At the end of the day we can't really see each other's point of view because we aren't in each other's bodies, and our life trajectory is our own. We can't let the elite-run media divide us and forget that at the end of the day, we are individual men and women trying to live our lives and navigate this psychological hellhole. I hope that someday, someone dear to you doesn't treat you in a particular manner just because of your biology, and reaches out into who you truly are on the inside to acknowledge that this illness fucking sucks, and that who you are as a soul matters regardless. I do truly sense that you will get that moment someday. I wish you well, I really do. Thanks for sharing this video. I literally related to every word you said in describing this illness and I appreciate you sharing your thoughts and feelings. And you're RIGHT, nobody knows what the schizotypal paranoia is like unless they directly experience it. I've lost so much from it, and I fucking hate it. Cheers from a fellow schizotypal and good luck out there
God bless his heart. ❤️ breaking.
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MIkey/Mikayla Jane, I know little about you and your life but I wish you the best in any form of health, you're a beautiful person, you are goals to me. I love the way you carry yourself. I feel as if I am man and woman and neither at once. Maybe one day I'll walk after my talk. But thank you for this talk about how you cannot walk.
Is there a slight possibility you might be interested in men
No I'm a straight guy......🤔 or a gay chick! 👱♀️♀️🤣😁❤
LMFAO @5:18
🤣🤣🤣🤣 well, to be fair, I do!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣
Watching you makes me think how can my son be schizotypal. He is emotionally flat does not talk unless spoken to. He is the totally opposite the people who say they are schizotypal. He only laughs and talks to himself.
Have you considered schizoid rather than schizotypal, Patricia? Its closely related, in terms of the mismatch/misunderstanding of perceiving reality, but is often more characterised by aloofness and disengaging behaviour. Schizotypal though, can present with a very emotionally flattened affect OR high expressed emotion.... I can swing from one to the other very rapidly. Perhaps he is just more predominantly flattened? As I understand it though, in a very simple firm.....schizotyoals EXternalise it, and schizoids INternalise it. However I'm by no means an expert, and they are complex conditions. But what I will say, human to human, is if something doesnt feel right about his presentation, regarding his diagnosis, then surely you can ask for a 2nd opinion? Many people call all this stuff "a label" and in a way......🤔...ok, it's a proper noun, which can be seen as a label, but.... The actual point of a diagnosis is to identify issues and find ways of managing your life around them. If the diagnosis doesnt fit the behaviour, then how can he be correctly advised/supported to manage his issues? I've heard of many misdiagnoses, people thought of as bipolar for years when it was PTSD etc... Diagnosis is about getting the correct help. A mother always knows, as they say, and if your "mummy sense" is tingling, act! Thankyou so much for your comment, and for watching 😁
@@mikeymentality8138 I appreciate you for getting back to me. I have tried to reach out to many people who are schizotypal. Our mental health system here is terrible and I am currently looking for a psychotherapist.
@@patriciatoney240 you're welcome! As I say I'm no expert, but I do have my own lived experience, which I try to limit things to! Just as an "anyone" observation, as far as I know, schizotypal is a pretty clear picture. There shouldn't be any glaringly obvious mismatches, not really. The flattened emotional affect can be complete, yes. I think this is a form of "pain-free" existence that we sink into, I.e "if I cant feel ANYTHING, I cant feel bad" and pulls the emotions main access cable out its socket! *for want of a better analogy. But another form of schizotypal reality is the existential, the tangiential, the magical and mystical, the bizarre and the random, the acceptance of absurd thinking modalities and curious speech, delivering them as if nothing. Clothing, outward appearance I terms of personal expression is nearly always exclusive or unique, VERY necessary.....to the point t of obsession. If you're not seeing any of those, I would personally seek a different opinion/re-assessment. All the very best in finding what helps 😁
@@mikeymentality8138 if you do not mind me asking or sharing I am curiouse to know. I may have missed the answer in the videos but would you mind sharing your treatment journey. How long or if anything has worked for you. Did schizotypal disorder interrupt your life as far as school and work? My son started showing signs at 15 those symptoms totally caused him to wreck his high school career.He verbalize that he wants a diploma, job, and home. What I am not seeing is him taking his own initiative because he is very unsure of himself also.
@@patriciatoney240 ok so in terms of diagnosis/treatment, what my Psych said was "With schizotypal, if I diagnose you, I'd have to treat you, and theres no current frontline treatment for "schizotypal personality disorder". What he meant was......let's say I started hallucinating, and having deep disturbance of reality/panic attacks, etc, I would be prescribed an anti-psychotic, but it would be indicated for "psychotic episodes, disturbance of understanding" that kinda stuff, not for "schizotypal personality disorder". He referred to the "magical reality" and curious adherence to "quirks" etc as a kind of coping strategy, which I've commented on before in vids, my "schizotype" is like the emotional happy place my self can speak from.....if you get me? He said.... "You like it, dont you? If you like it, keep it!!" I got what he meant. I knew it was basically "me" more than anything. Which brings me nicely to the NEXT part of your question.......(😁)....... The "me" I was learning about.....was my me I remembered from years ago. The way I thought and talked....EVERYTHING!! And I knew it had just always been there. I grew up with undiagnosed adhd, despite testing......but it wasnt really heard of back then. Thus began a decades long mismatch with society, and reality. These personality disorders are all SO related, it's just different people respond in different ways. Some detach. Some attack. Some fantaisise. Some hide. Some alter, etc etc I believe all this stuff was there anyway, and was just forcibly stifled by society, expectations, the education system. I believe my schizotypal side came from constantly being misinterpreted, and constantly unfeeling I was being lied to....I cant really ever trust my interpretation of anything anymore.....that's where it hurts me the most. Constant re-evaluation of what people are getting at, and are they hunting, have I missed something, I dont get it, was that a joke? And it becomes INCESSANT!! But I did have one incident that explained many years of of others....and it flipped me completely in terms of knowing what was real. My whole life felt like a play....and not in the metaphorical sense...... A couple of years later I went for clinical psychotherapy. It went nowhere! It returned into psychiatric testing, and suddenly I'm given a test result ringing up 8 severe personality disorders.......so I started making videos! I'm not sure where you live, but this was a uk psychiatrist and that's what he told me. Theres no treatment "specifically" for STPD. I was prescribed DBT for the EUPD which he did diagnose, still havent had it! Covid 🙄 But he felt that treating the EUPD should yield a reduction in schizotypal symptoms. He basically sees it as "secondary to" my issues with adhd and EUPD.. 🤷♀️ I hope that helped! 😁
I don’t comment too often but appreciate your take on anxiety... the nuances of it and distinguishing the broad view of “depression and anxiety” and it putting it in relatable context. I wondered if you were still on adhd medications? I have tried them all and they have just increased the overall feeling of hyperactivity. Last shot is with strattera or an antidepressant. Cheers and take it easy
Hi Marco, I know I had started replying to this......not sure what happened there!! Firstly, thankyou. I'm glad you found the depression/anxiety stuff relatable......I hear SO many people say "oh....weve all go depression...even I have!" and there standing there, with a job they're managing, a relationship, hobbies....all the stuff I CANT do, yet they're saying they relate? They are very over prescribed terms. What most people describe are the normal/expected ranges of emotion....which is why they have such a simple "cure" for it!. I am still on adhd meds, yes. I take Elvanse 50mg daily. It's a releaser, so it works pretty much straightaway. Strattera is an antidepressant did you know that? It's an SNRI whereas many antidepressant meds are an SSRI. They work in the same way though, in the same area. Its just one is specialised to serotonin and the other noradrenalin. With adhd, you get predominantly serotonin deficient, or noradrenaline, or dopamine. I appear to be dopamine predominant, as dopamine targeted meds work better for me. That's the thing, they cant really tell. As those meds, although specialised to one neurotransmitter will still work on the other neurotransmitters too! So it really is trial and error with meds. Taking some time, gathering a picture. For instance, if you start taking a med, and you got a headache, was it definitely the med? Cos sometimes.....you just "get a headache" dont you? So try not to always blame the meds is what I mean. Allow for unrelated random phenomena. Know that some side effects may abate over time etc. Personally I'm neither pro or anti med......we are ALL on our own journey, and there are many different affecting factors. Good luck with yours, I hope you find something that helps. And remember....."helps" is kinda the operative word. So when you're looking for markers, you might think "NO! I still get so bored of reading I get moody!" But then go "hang on? I read for 20 minutes tho? Its normally 5!" try and really look for improvement. 20 mins still might not seem enough....but its 4 times as much, actually! You see? Be realistic about expectations, and remember that's a start point. You can keep improving from there. Thanks for watching, and commenting 😁 come back and let me know how you're getting on, if you'd like to! 😁
So fucking relatable. I've taken to sharing very little of what actually matters to me. It's really alienating. I feel like the weirdo even in a group of weirdos. The weirdos' weirdo.
I LOVE THIS VIDEO U ARE AMAZING
Love your passion, thankyou! And I LOVE your name!! 🤣🤣
You're a funny dude, keep being you. Like the doctor said.
I have Schizotypal too (along with OCD & PTSD). I'm occasionally accused by people of being childlike, obnoxious, narcissistic, or all three, but I just have so much energy sometimes and I find everything and everyone to be so boring! No one has any clue what's going on and they have no passion for life or the universe. The part I don't like about Schizotypal so much is the delusions and paranoia and the hearing voices. I have a dual awareness. I know how outlandish a lot of the supposed delusions I have sound and I'm cognizant of the fact that they could be delusions, but I also can't disprove them either and this creates a lot of inner tension. I think for instance that a lot of the things that have happened in my life and that shaped my life were the result of behind the scenes work of the CIA or something fucking with me but I can't prove it one way or the other. Currently under a lot of stress and keeping myself distracted by working on an experimental high range iq test in my spare time in the hopes of obtaining a high enough score to qualify for the World Genius Directory (look it up!) I'll let all of my fans here know how I did when the test author dude finally scores it in a few weeks. Peace out and don't let anyone eat all your marshmallows! ✌
A.......actual...MEN to those words! Seriously, I could have written that it was fabulous! I've mentioned in quite a few of my vids how the discoverance of schizotypicality within oneself Carrie's with it a curse of never trusting your intuition again, not fully, or reality, such as it appears. I decided I might just decide that literally nothing, NOTHING is real or happening and see if that helps me at all!! Humans......they're weird. I overheard some lads earlier, talking about which is the most unreliable car, and just observed a load of humans establishing (probably for the 100th time) some type of social packing order, by way of slating/applauding each other's statements. It just reminded me of when I thought I could interact with them, and was just SO typical of the kind of I... Dont... CAAAAARE!! conversation I would all to often be subject to. My adhd was constantly on the prowl for info, and has been being interpreted via EUPD and STPD, so I was always operating on those "sub-energetic interactional analysis" frequencies, rather than following the convo about the stupid car/football/worthless pastime that was up for debate! But then I'd decide I'm wrong. Then right. Then spend a hell of a lot of time trying to stop myself asking myself WHY I always do this when whatever is supposed to be happening, is supposed to be happening. It can all go from real to fake, to (as you say) controlled. By the controllers, as I now call them. But I've also had very real beliefs that I've been cursed by a scorned ex (not any particular one......just the "has an ex actually CURSED me?" feeling became a thought in my awareness.. I've thought ALL kinds of delusive (yay, new word) shit in my time, believe me! I think that's getting more common tho? Thanks again, for your interest, for watching, and your comment, which was a joy to read! 😁😁😁💝
I think what you're describing is basically healthy narcissism, and it's kind of screwed up that society throws that in the same bucket as the toxic stuff. Toxic narcissism is toxic because it devalues. Thinking you're fun and interesting as hell doesn't devalue anyone. If anything, I think people with good healthy narcissism often are better at appreciating what's awesome in other people too. Life's not a zero-sum game, you know? The "feelings as thoughts" point was super interesting. That seems like it might be a unique part of the schizotypal experience, but if I extrapolate from experiences I've had when I got really deep into the well of abstraction and emotions*, I think I *might* have a sense of what you're describing. That would be pretty intense in social situations. Anyway, thanks again! Good stuff. (* - that probably sounds like a euphemism for 'super high')
"Healthy Narcissism" I like that! I've described myself as "the insightful narcissist" in a tongue in cheek kind of a way. I know I have never, since a child veen afraid of being called a show-off. I had full insight and acceptance....I could NOT deny that I consciously ADORED being the class clown!! I like at being called a show-off! I say things like "AND the winner of the "World's most SEARINGLY obvious statement, issssssss.......?" 🤣 I think what I describe are differently perverted normal human needs, that of social acceptance/validation, not just in terms of "popularoty" but in terms of the true ego. The "I am", the "is" of one's identity via which we ALL understand/interpret EVERYTHING we notice. But schizotypals, are much more sophisticated, darling! I said that in a video once, I think I called it "Narcissistic Prick", as a viewer had called me that. I pointed out he had named himself "Prestige 101" a title which I find hard to describe the things which AREN'T narcissistic about! 🤣 I think theres at least 2 types of narcissist. The "classic" or "glorified narcissist", whom often seem the most ruthless. I believe they ARE ruthless, in the same sense as you see in pure psychopathy. A COMPLETE Indifference to any others whatsoever. The "what's that got to do with me?" principle is WOVEN into them. Then, theres the "hurt narcissist" or "dark empath". I think these types build up a resistance. A coldness. The same as schizoids do, in a way. The coldness is a protection system. I believe these people CAN see things from others point of view. Particularly as they make the best manipulators. The charmers. The ones who make you feel INCREDIBLE.......RIGHT before they feed off the sorrow of your loss. They knew what they were doing. They could not have compiled their attack plan without knowing you. That involved them tuning into your emotions. They could only do that with empathy. Therefore not psychopathic. They, too, have insight. They just choose to use it for their own gains. Even when they know it's wrong. That's why self-pity is their strongest and most instant defence. Cos they mean it! I really dont know if narcissists are "curable" as such......this would require insight. The psychopathic type would not be able to do that. The "thoughts as feelings" thing was termed "schemas" when I was in clinical psychology.....however, those sessions turned into psychiatric screening and a referral BACK to psychiatry for me......but looking up schematherapy might give you some more knowledge, explained more academically!! I think they're called "body illusions" in schizotypy, however, I have LOADS of sensations in my body I could term "body illusions" and they're not all thoughts!! 🤣🤣🤣 Thanks so much for your interest, I've enjoyed reading your reflections, and answering your questions! 😁💝
Hey, thanks for this video series! I'm neurotypical but STPD is incredibly interesting to me, and videos like this help me "get" the experience way better than textbook descriptions. Also, you are a genuinely charismatic dude - your friends are lucky to have your world in their life. Cheers from America!
Thankyou Ben! I'm so glad you're watching..... I have a few "target types" as it were, and someone with a genuine interest in gaining insight into a much-misunderstood domain, that of "mental health issues". If there's any specific phenomena/experiences relating to STPD that youd like to hear about, feel free to ask and I'll make a video about it, trying to use the lived experience wherever possible. If youd like? And hey USA! Love UK! 😁
U gay now?
No. Womens clothing doesn't automatically mean "gay".
@@mikeymentality8138 so your a str8 transvestite