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Hi. I know I came outta nowhere but... May I ask if you know the person behind This channel? I watched his videos and then he disappeared... Do you know something? 😥 I hope my ask is not rude or something, by the way, English ain't my native language just in case I made any mistake. ~🐰

He's dead now so I wouldn't worry about it

​​@@rybags5863how do you know if you don't mind me asking? I don't know why I found myself checking channel today. Do you know what happened?

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Have you considered schizoid rather than schizotypal, Patricia? Its closely related, in terms of the mismatch/misunderstanding of perceiving reality, but is often more characterised by aloofness and disengaging behaviour. Schizotypal though, can present with a very emotionally flattened affect OR high expressed emotion.... I can swing from one to the other very rapidly. Perhaps he is just more predominantly flattened? As I understand it though, in a very simple firm.....schizotyoals EXternalise it, and schizoids INternalise it. However I'm by no means an expert, and they are complex conditions. But what I will say, human to human, is if something doesnt feel right about his presentation, regarding his diagnosis, then surely you can ask for a 2nd opinion? Many people call all this stuff "a label" and in a way......🤔...ok, it's a proper noun, which can be seen as a label, but.... The actual point of a diagnosis is to identify issues and find ways of managing your life around them. If the diagnosis doesnt fit the behaviour, then how can he be correctly advised/supported to manage his issues? I've heard of many misdiagnoses, people thought of as bipolar for years when it was PTSD etc... Diagnosis is about getting the correct help. A mother always knows, as they say, and if your "mummy sense" is tingling, act! Thankyou so much for your comment, and for watching 😁

@@mikeymentality8138 I appreciate you for getting back to me. I have tried to reach out to many people who are schizotypal. Our mental health system here is terrible and I am currently looking for a psychotherapist.

@@patriciatoney240 you're welcome! As I say I'm no expert, but I do have my own lived experience, which I try to limit things to! Just as an "anyone" observation, as far as I know, schizotypal is a pretty clear picture. There shouldn't be any glaringly obvious mismatches, not really. The flattened emotional affect can be complete, yes. I think this is a form of "pain-free" existence that we sink into, I.e "if I cant feel ANYTHING, I cant feel bad" and pulls the emotions main access cable out its socket! *for want of a better analogy. But another form of schizotypal reality is the existential, the tangiential, the magical and mystical, the bizarre and the random, the acceptance of absurd thinking modalities and curious speech, delivering them as if nothing. Clothing, outward appearance I terms of personal expression is nearly always exclusive or unique, VERY necessary.....to the point t of obsession. If you're not seeing any of those, I would personally seek a different opinion/re-assessment. All the very best in finding what helps 😁

@@mikeymentality8138 if you do not mind me asking or sharing I am curiouse to know. I may have missed the answer in the videos but would you mind sharing your treatment journey. How long or if anything has worked for you. Did schizotypal disorder interrupt your life as far as school and work? My son started showing signs at 15 those symptoms totally caused him to wreck his high school career.He verbalize that he wants a diploma, job, and home. What I am not seeing is him taking his own initiative because he is very unsure of himself also.

@@patriciatoney240 ok so in terms of diagnosis/treatment, what my Psych said was "With schizotypal, if I diagnose you, I'd have to treat you, and theres no current frontline treatment for "schizotypal personality disorder". What he meant was......let's say I started hallucinating, and having deep disturbance of reality/panic attacks, etc, I would be prescribed an anti-psychotic, but it would be indicated for "psychotic episodes, disturbance of understanding" that kinda stuff, not for "schizotypal personality disorder". He referred to the "magical reality" and curious adherence to "quirks" etc as a kind of coping strategy, which I've commented on before in vids, my "schizotype" is like the emotional happy place my self can speak from.....if you get me? He said.... "You like it, dont you? If you like it, keep it!!" I got what he meant. I knew it was basically "me" more than anything. Which brings me nicely to the NEXT part of your question.......(😁)....... The "me" I was learning about.....was my me I remembered from years ago. The way I thought and talked....EVERYTHING!! And I knew it had just always been there. I grew up with undiagnosed adhd, despite testing......but it wasnt really heard of back then. Thus began a decades long mismatch with society, and reality. These personality disorders are all SO related, it's just different people respond in different ways. Some detach. Some attack. Some fantaisise. Some hide. Some alter, etc etc I believe all this stuff was there anyway, and was just forcibly stifled by society, expectations, the education system. I believe my schizotypal side came from constantly being misinterpreted, and constantly unfeeling I was being lied to....I cant really ever trust my interpretation of anything anymore.....that's where it hurts me the most. Constant re-evaluation of what people are getting at, and are they hunting, have I missed something, I dont get it, was that a joke? And it becomes INCESSANT!! But I did have one incident that explained many years of of others....and it flipped me completely in terms of knowing what was real. My whole life felt like a play....and not in the metaphorical sense...... A couple of years later I went for clinical psychotherapy. It went nowhere! It returned into psychiatric testing, and suddenly I'm given a test result ringing up 8 severe personality disorders.......so I started making videos! I'm not sure where you live, but this was a uk psychiatrist and that's what he told me. Theres no treatment "specifically" for STPD. I was prescribed DBT for the EUPD which he did diagnose, still havent had it! Covid 🙄 But he felt that treating the EUPD should yield a reduction in schizotypal symptoms. He basically sees it as "secondary to" my issues with adhd and EUPD.. 🤷‍♀️ I hope that helped! 😁

Hi Marco, I know I had started replying to this......not sure what happened there!! Firstly, thankyou. I'm glad you found the depression/anxiety stuff relatable......I hear SO many people say "oh....weve all go depression...even I have!" and there standing there, with a job they're managing, a relationship, hobbies....all the stuff I CANT do, yet they're saying they relate? They are very over prescribed terms. What most people describe are the normal/expected ranges of emotion....which is why they have such a simple "cure" for it!. I am still on adhd meds, yes. I take Elvanse 50mg daily. It's a releaser, so it works pretty much straightaway. Strattera is an antidepressant did you know that? It's an SNRI whereas many antidepressant meds are an SSRI. They work in the same way though, in the same area. Its just one is specialised to serotonin and the other noradrenalin. With adhd, you get predominantly serotonin deficient, or noradrenaline, or dopamine. I appear to be dopamine predominant, as dopamine targeted meds work better for me. That's the thing, they cant really tell. As those meds, although specialised to one neurotransmitter will still work on the other neurotransmitters too! So it really is trial and error with meds. Taking some time, gathering a picture. For instance, if you start taking a med, and you got a headache, was it definitely the med? Cos sometimes.....you just "get a headache" dont you? So try not to always blame the meds is what I mean. Allow for unrelated random phenomena. Know that some side effects may abate over time etc. Personally I'm neither pro or anti med......we are ALL on our own journey, and there are many different affecting factors. Good luck with yours, I hope you find something that helps. And remember....."helps" is kinda the operative word. So when you're looking for markers, you might think "NO! I still get so bored of reading I get moody!" But then go "hang on? I read for 20 minutes tho? Its normally 5!" try and really look for improvement. 20 mins still might not seem enough....but its 4 times as much, actually! You see? Be realistic about expectations, and remember that's a start point. You can keep improving from there. Thanks for watching, and commenting 😁 come back and let me know how you're getting on, if you'd like to! 😁

Love your passion, thankyou! And I LOVE your name!! 🤣🤣

A.......actual...MEN to those words! Seriously, I could have written that it was fabulous! I've mentioned in quite a few of my vids how the discoverance of schizotypicality within oneself Carrie's with it a curse of never trusting your intuition again, not fully, or reality, such as it appears. I decided I might just decide that literally nothing, NOTHING is real or happening and see if that helps me at all!! Humans......they're weird. I overheard some lads earlier, talking about which is the most unreliable car, and just observed a load of humans establishing (probably for the 100th time) some type of social packing order, by way of slating/applauding each other's statements. It just reminded me of when I thought I could interact with them, and was just SO typical of the kind of I... Dont... CAAAAARE!! conversation I would all to often be subject to. My adhd was constantly on the prowl for info, and has been being interpreted via EUPD and STPD, so I was always operating on those "sub-energetic interactional analysis" frequencies, rather than following the convo about the stupid car/football/worthless pastime that was up for debate! But then I'd decide I'm wrong. Then right. Then spend a hell of a lot of time trying to stop myself asking myself WHY I always do this when whatever is supposed to be happening, is supposed to be happening. It can all go from real to fake, to (as you say) controlled. By the controllers, as I now call them. But I've also had very real beliefs that I've been cursed by a scorned ex (not any particular one......just the "has an ex actually CURSED me?" feeling became a thought in my awareness.. I've thought ALL kinds of delusive (yay, new word) shit in my time, believe me! I think that's getting more common tho? Thanks again, for your interest, for watching, and your comment, which was a joy to read! 😁😁😁💝

"Healthy Narcissism" I like that! I've described myself as "the insightful narcissist" in a tongue in cheek kind of a way. I know I have never, since a child veen afraid of being called a show-off. I had full insight and acceptance....I could NOT deny that I consciously ADORED being the class clown!! I like at being called a show-off! I say things like "AND the winner of the "World's most SEARINGLY obvious statement, issssssss.......?" 🤣 I think what I describe are differently perverted normal human needs, that of social acceptance/validation, not just in terms of "popularoty" but in terms of the true ego. The "I am", the "is" of one's identity via which we ALL understand/interpret EVERYTHING we notice. But schizotypals, are much more sophisticated, darling! I said that in a video once, I think I called it "Narcissistic Prick", as a viewer had called me that. I pointed out he had named himself "Prestige 101" a title which I find hard to describe the things which AREN'T narcissistic about! 🤣 I think theres at least 2 types of narcissist. The "classic" or "glorified narcissist", whom often seem the most ruthless. I believe they ARE ruthless, in the same sense as you see in pure psychopathy. A COMPLETE Indifference to any others whatsoever. The "what's that got to do with me?" principle is WOVEN into them. Then, theres the "hurt narcissist" or "dark empath". I think these types build up a resistance. A coldness. The same as schizoids do, in a way. The coldness is a protection system. I believe these people CAN see things from others point of view. Particularly as they make the best manipulators. The charmers. The ones who make you feel INCREDIBLE.......RIGHT before they feed off the sorrow of your loss. They knew what they were doing. They could not have compiled their attack plan without knowing you. That involved them tuning into your emotions. They could only do that with empathy. Therefore not psychopathic. They, too, have insight. They just choose to use it for their own gains. Even when they know it's wrong. That's why self-pity is their strongest and most instant defence. Cos they mean it! I really dont know if narcissists are "curable" as such......this would require insight. The psychopathic type would not be able to do that. The "thoughts as feelings" thing was termed "schemas" when I was in clinical psychology.....however, those sessions turned into psychiatric screening and a referral BACK to psychiatry for me......but looking up schematherapy might give you some more knowledge, explained more academically!! I think they're called "body illusions" in schizotypy, however, I have LOADS of sensations in my body I could term "body illusions" and they're not all thoughts!! 🤣🤣🤣 Thanks so much for your interest, I've enjoyed reading your reflections, and answering your questions! 😁💝

Thankyou Ben! I'm so glad you're watching..... I have a few "target types" as it were, and someone with a genuine interest in gaining insight into a much-misunderstood domain, that of "mental health issues". If there's any specific phenomena/experiences relating to STPD that youd like to hear about, feel free to ask and I'll make a video about it, trying to use the lived experience wherever possible. If youd like? And hey USA! Love UK! 😁

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